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Magnolia Parks Universe #1
Magnolia Parks
She is a beautiful, affluent, self-involved and mildly neurotic London socialite. He is Britain's most photographed bad-boy lothario who broke her heart. But Magnolia Parks and BJ Ballentine are meant to be, and everyone knows it. They're in the stars... just suspended in a strange kind of love that looks like hurting each other a lot of the time: She dates other people to keep him at bay; he sleeps with other girls to get back at her for it. But at the end of their every sad endeavour to get over one another, it's still each other they crawl back to. But their dysfunction is catching up with them, pulling at their seams and fraying the world they've built; a world where neither has to ever let the other go completely. As the cracks start to show and secrets begin to surface, Magnolia and BJ are finally forced to face the formidable question they've been avoiding all their lives: how many loves do you really get in a lifetime?
423 pages, Kindle Edition
First published July 13, 2021
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May 22, 2024
one star
everyone who says that this book is a british version of gossip girl must be hating the show, because why then u insult it that much? one star purely for me for finishing this and vibing to drake’s songs while reading.
the writing style in this book was hideous. when i say that none of the characters that were presented had personality i mean it. if magnolia(h) and bj(H) at least had 3 personality traits for each, then all of the side characters’ literally were the same person. all of their friends and other love interests were added only for minding magnoliabj’s business and push them back together. every time one of the friends was mentioned i was confused, cause i didn’t know if it was the new character or the old one. even the traits the leads had were mentioned once ot twice in the whole book, that i even forgot about some of them. for example, magnolia is “obsessed’ with fashion therefore there must be the plot line that would develop it somehow. the thing is tho that this book has no plot beside the constant back and forth between h and H. and instead of develop magnolia’s personality, the author decided to just constantly mentioning(in magnolia’s perspective ofc) who wears what. that’s all. her “obsession” is just being aware about what everyone wears and knowing famous clothes brands. bj doesn't even have that tho. beside that there was 37 mentions of adjectives “fucked up” and 10 of “fuck up” to describe hoe unheathly the relationship is. the metaphors tho were god tier as always.
i’m seriously scared to even think of the amount of rappers’ references this book had.
WHAT IS THIS ANBFKSLDOFKXLL WHY THEM LMFAO. and magnolia’s god father was elton john. GUYS there were moments where her father said something to her and she thought “elton hadn’t told me about it” GIRL😭😭.
the romance aspect aka the plot go the book was so messed up and dragged out it’s laughable. at the end of the book there was presented three mf boys who were in love with magnolia BAHAHA i was dying. I’m gonna focus now on her and bJ’s relationship because if the book even had a theme it was them.
first of all, the story even started off with bj being a cheater. we didn’t know him or why it happened, but we know he did. meet cute i’d say. there was the scene where he told magnolia about it and they cried together. He, quoting, cried so much he worked himself into a sort of panic attack. omg, are these… the consequences of your own actions??😢😨. she didn’t forgive him back then and they broke up. they’re were childhood besties, so in the timeline of the book they’re not together, but constantly have sleepovers(without sex or anything). also he’s a manwhore and fucks everything that moves. he’s that obsessed with magnolia that had sex with all of the girls she hated and even her friends😍‼️😍‼️. and this is the explanation of his actions from his friend’s perspective:
im speechless. why then he hadn’t fucked her mom?? it would be bonding to death and im sure he would feel the closest he ever had to magnolia🥺🥺. can even have threesome with the both parents for further effect. he must be crying over every orgasm he has, because he feels guilty for not being with magnolia. poor boy😞. btw my favorite scene from the book was this one:
and they say romance is dead. also, don't get me wrong, i love toxic relationship in books, but it should be mutual toxicity. magnolia and bj's relationship is not fucking toxic, it's abusive from bj's side. he's fucking up with magnolia's mind and not only hoeing around, but shove it right in her face. he doesn't respect her as a person. he's seeing her as a toy which he can't let go. but due to bad written characters(and everything for this matter) i coudn't even sympathise magnolia about being abused, cause she's completely hollow and uninteresting character as everybody else in this book.
omg yes, she’s not like the others. she a fucking cardboard who cares about clothes and can say no to bj. she’s so special and precious we need to gatekeep❤️❤️
these bitches not only boring but also very dramatic for no reason im losing my mind. why the fuck she or he was “dying” like this every chapter? magnolia acted shocked every time she caught bj with some other girl like it's something exotic. and in every goddamn chapter they were just going on about how they love each other and how their love is ruining them, while bj, even counting his "obsession" over magnolia and abusive behaviour, had more chemistry with a cocaine line than with her.
now, the best part of the bj was his ✨sexist part✨
aww the poor boy is jealous that his girl is spending time with someone while he’s fucking the whole city. we all sorry for u, bj babe it must be so hard to be you😢.
no, i want u to die but not all dreams come true. it’s very sexy, that bj thinks that he has any rights to be jealous or aggressive toward magnolia, while he’s a fucking piece of cunt who cant keep his dick in the pants for more than ten minutes.
one of their female friends told him that she cheated on her boyfriend and he gave her his precious opinion:
уеба💋💋
but if u think that he’s the only hypocrite and mysogynist there, then u so fucking wrong.
so she thought that her boyfriend cheated on her with their friend, so she forgives him while not forgiving her😃. this couple fucking deserves all the shit they’re going through and more. i hope they’re going to fucking die together. i wish these cunts would drown in their own shit. the mysogyny is the real theme of this book tho. y’all saying that this book is realistic?? go fuck yourself. no character development would repair the damage i have after reading this. all of the side characters pushing bj and magnolia together and saying that parks should be with him, because they’re soulmates. there was literally no one(beside magnolia’s nanny who eventually turned out to be her dad’s mistress LOL) who said that bj is toxic. everyone, absolutely everyone said that they’re belong together and he’s the love of her life. their parents were fucking cheering when they started dating again. i’m so grossed out it’s insane. romanticising relationships where the girl takes back the man who’s fucking up their lives must be fucking shameful.
is it her fucking problem that he’s stupid?? does it seem like igaf? he’s 25 year old. when i first found out i couldn’t believe it, because even to call him teenage boy would be an insult to other teenage boys. the romanticisation of toxic relationship here is fucking insane. is my reaction on all of this supposed to be like this??
just tell me, how from all the spermatozoids their fathers spilled these cunts were the ones who made it? HOW?
mm and now we’re getting closer to the most interesting parts. namely,✨the love square✨
so, magnolia in this book had 3 love interests. tom england(her childhood crush), christian what-the-fuck-is-his-name-even(he’s their friend i guess. i don’t remember who he is really) and ofc blowjob. i didn’t expect to laugh more than i already had, but here we are.
at first there were only bj and tom. at the beginning magnolia and tom started to fake dating(for who-the-fuck-knows-what reason) and then they fell in love. fyi he’s in love with his dead brother’s wife, but then suddenly turned out that he’s in love with magnolia too. for my sake let’s pretend that they have some relationship development and chemistry🙏🏼
can someone tell that it’s the dialogue between 25 year old and 31 year old?? can someone at least tell that that’s how people talking in real life?? and then christian’s “girlfriend” revealed that he’s in love with magnolia too BAHAHHAH LMAO I LOST IT
IM ROLLING OM THE FLOOR. JESSA HASTINGS REALLY DECIDED TO FUCK UP THE WHOLE BOOK. THE COMEDY QUEEN FR. WHERE IS MY ORGY ? WHAT A WASTED OPPORTUNITY IS THIS UH??
save me. pls save me. i can get over never written threesomes and i can bear dumb dialogues and dumb ass scenes. but what i can’t get over is when a manwhore and LOVE INTEREST calling the “girl of his dreams” a slut for having sex with another man.
ебанная свинья right here❤️🔥. im speechless. no comment literally idk what to say. im fucking sick. i can throw up. this piece of shit was forcing her to date other guys, cause she tried to get over his cheating and now he’s slut shaming her for that?? very swoon- worthy im fucking done. this book and all the characters in it are abhorrent. im disgusted by every single character beside maybe tom (but the thing is with him, is that he knew magnolia since she was a teenager and said he had a crush on her for A LONG TIME😃😃. no comments im tired). and the fact that i know that magnolia and bj are gonna be together eventually fucking disgusts me the most. the author tried to explain magnolia’s behaviour by her having daddy issues, but the leads are gonna end up together so why does it matter? this book is a cumwipe with a big portion of the romantization of serious illnesses, toxic relationships and drugs addiction. in short, everything i’ve ever wanted in one book.
lastly, everyone cried at the end, but i didn’t. i just laughed my ass off. the hilarious part was that the reveal of the girl bj cheated with should’ve been shocking, but i was lost because i didn’t even remember who the girl was in the first place. and his thoughts about the cheating were my last straw.
hopefully everyone has a good day after that and all bj's stans satisfied with this plot twist. and i'm not judging u for loving certain books, that's fine all of us have different tastes, but i AM judging u if u want magnolia to stay with bj even after what he'd done. this is unacceptable and i think i already explained why.
While you were home sick with a flu, the love of your life had penetrative intercourse, at a party, at his old house, in a waterless bathtub, with someone else who smelt like musk and orange blossom and… tuberose (I think?)
everyone who says that this book is a british version of gossip girl must be hating the show, because why then u insult it that much? one star purely for me for finishing this and vibing to drake’s songs while reading.
the writing style in this book was hideous. when i say that none of the characters that were presented had personality i mean it. if magnolia(h) and bj(H) at least had 3 personality traits for each, then all of the side characters’ literally were the same person. all of their friends and other love interests were added only for minding magnoliabj’s business and push them back together. every time one of the friends was mentioned i was confused, cause i didn’t know if it was the new character or the old one. even the traits the leads had were mentioned once ot twice in the whole book, that i even forgot about some of them. for example, magnolia is “obsessed’ with fashion therefore there must be the plot line that would develop it somehow. the thing is tho that this book has no plot beside the constant back and forth between h and H. and instead of develop magnolia’s personality, the author decided to just constantly mentioning(in magnolia’s perspective ofc) who wears what. that’s all. her “obsession” is just being aware about what everyone wears and knowing famous clothes brands. bj doesn't even have that tho. beside that there was 37 mentions of adjectives “fucked up” and 10 of “fuck up” to describe hoe unheathly the relationship is. the metaphors tho were god tier as always.
She’s the deer and I’m the wolf and there’s a massive truck headed right for us in the middle of a dark night.😐
i’m seriously scared to even think of the amount of rappers’ references this book had.
I spent her seventeenth birthday party sweating fucking bullets because I’m pretty sure her dad told Kendrick Lamar and Travis Scott to stare me down and keep me in line.
WHAT IS THIS ANBFKSLDOFKXLL WHY THEM LMFAO. and magnolia’s god father was elton john. GUYS there were moments where her father said something to her and she thought “elton hadn’t told me about it” GIRL😭😭.
the romance aspect aka the plot go the book was so messed up and dragged out it’s laughable. at the end of the book there was presented three mf boys who were in love with magnolia BAHAHA i was dying. I’m gonna focus now on her and bJ’s relationship because if the book even had a theme it was them.
first of all, the story even started off with bj being a cheater. we didn’t know him or why it happened, but we know he did. meet cute i’d say. there was the scene where he told magnolia about it and they cried together. He, quoting, cried so much he worked himself into a sort of panic attack. omg, are these… the consequences of your own actions??😢😨. she didn’t forgive him back then and they broke up. they’re were childhood besties, so in the timeline of the book they’re not together, but constantly have sleepovers(without sex or anything). also he’s a manwhore and fucks everything that moves. he’s that obsessed with magnolia that had sex with all of the girls she hated and even her friends😍‼️😍‼️. and this is the explanation of his actions from his friend’s perspective:
“You have sex with other people and tell her because when you do, it makes her sad and her being sad about that validates your feelings for her. She still cares. She wouldn’t be sad otherwise. She’s sad that I’m sleeping with other people, it must be because she still has feelings for me. You do it to feel close to her.”
im speechless. why then he hadn’t fucked her mom?? it would be bonding to death and im sure he would feel the closest he ever had to magnolia🥺🥺. can even have threesome with the both parents for further effect. he must be crying over every orgasm he has, because he feels guilty for not being with magnolia. poor boy😞. btw my favorite scene from the book was this one:
1. bj gets a blowjob from the bartender in the bar next to the restroom
2. magnolia goes to the restroom cause she forgot her hair clip there
3. seeing the scene she runs away
4. next morning she knocks on his door
5. he lets her in and they start hugging
6. And then, quoting, my(BJ) hotel door opens, and Bartender fills the frame wearing my T-shirt and nothing else.
and they say romance is dead. also, don't get me wrong, i love toxic relationship in books, but it should be mutual toxicity. magnolia and bj's relationship is not fucking toxic, it's abusive from bj's side. he's fucking up with magnolia's mind and not only hoeing around, but shove it right in her face. he doesn't respect her as a person. he's seeing her as a toy which he can't let go. but due to bad written characters(and everything for this matter) i coudn't even sympathise magnolia about being abused, cause she's completely hollow and uninteresting character as everybody else in this book.
They all say yes because I don’t think anyone’s ever said no to me besides Parks.
omg yes, she’s not like the others. she a fucking cardboard who cares about clothes and can say no to bj. she’s so special and precious we need to gatekeep❤️❤️
It’s going off. I’m not okay. I feel like I’ve fallen into a hole. No edge to grab, no end in sight, arse in your stomach, stomach in your throat, heart in the hand of a girl who’s holding someone else’s—just a kind of forever falling, this fucking suspending always falling, which is sort of what it feels like to be in love with her at this point anyway.
these bitches not only boring but also very dramatic for no reason im losing my mind. why the fuck she or he was “dying” like this every chapter? magnolia acted shocked every time she caught bj with some other girl like it's something exotic. and in every goddamn chapter they were just going on about how they love each other and how their love is ruining them, while bj, even counting his "obsession" over magnolia and abusive behaviour, had more chemistry with a cocaine line than with her.
now, the best part of the bj was his ✨sexist part✨
“It killed me when you were with him,” he tells the window.
I wriggle closer to him, rest my head on his shoulder. “I’m sorry.”
aww the poor boy is jealous that his girl is spending time with someone while he’s fucking the whole city. we all sorry for u, bj babe it must be so hard to be you😢.
“Get the fuck out of my face.”
He grabs my wrists and holds them tight and I don’t want him to let them go because I’m scared of what happens when he does. “Oh, is that what you want now?” he yells, and we’re devolving.
no, i want u to die but not all dreams come true. it’s very sexy, that bj thinks that he has any rights to be jealous or aggressive toward magnolia, while he’s a fucking piece of cunt who cant keep his dick in the pants for more than ten minutes.
one of their female friends told him that she cheated on her boyfriend and he gave her his precious opinion:
“You’re sleeping with Jo.”
She gives me a look. “I know.”
“Fuck, I hate girls.” I shake my head at her.
уеба💋💋
but if u think that he’s the only hypocrite and mysogynist there, then u so fucking wrong.
Magnolia rolls her eyes and goes around hugging all of our friends, and especially not hugging Taura, whom I toss a consolatory smile to.
so she thought that her boyfriend cheated on her with their friend, so she forgives him while not forgiving her😃. this couple fucking deserves all the shit they’re going through and more. i hope they’re going to fucking die together. i wish these cunts would drown in their own shit. the mysogyny is the real theme of this book tho. y’all saying that this book is realistic?? go fuck yourself. no character development would repair the damage i have after reading this. all of the side characters pushing bj and magnolia together and saying that parks should be with him, because they’re soulmates. there was literally no one(beside magnolia’s nanny who eventually turned out to be her dad’s mistress LOL) who said that bj is toxic. everyone, absolutely everyone said that they’re belong together and he’s the love of her life. their parents were fucking cheering when they started dating again. i’m so grossed out it’s insane. romanticising relationships where the girl takes back the man who’s fucking up their lives must be fucking shameful.
“But he’s just…. sort of… stupid. Especially with you.” He sounds annoyed about that part.
“With me?” I smile, feeling awfully high and mighty.
“Yep.”
is it her fucking problem that he’s stupid?? does it seem like igaf? he’s 25 year old. when i first found out i couldn’t believe it, because even to call him teenage boy would be an insult to other teenage boys. the romanticisation of toxic relationship here is fucking insane. is my reaction on all of this supposed to be like this??
omg he’s so obsessed with her, that he’s thinking about her while having sex with other girls? omg this is so romantic💗.
omg he’s snorting cocaine because of how in love he is with her and can’t get over their relationship? i want what they have💗.
omg he has 22 tattoos about her and she’s thinking about them while having sex with another man? they’re soulmates💗.
just tell me, how from all the spermatozoids their fathers spilled these cunts were the ones who made it? HOW?
mm and now we’re getting closer to the most interesting parts. namely,✨the love square✨
so, magnolia in this book had 3 love interests. tom england(her childhood crush), christian what-the-fuck-is-his-name-even(he’s their friend i guess. i don’t remember who he is really) and ofc blowjob. i didn’t expect to laugh more than i already had, but here we are.
at first there were only bj and tom. at the beginning magnolia and tom started to fake dating(for who-the-fuck-knows-what reason) and then they fell in love. fyi he’s in love with his dead brother’s wife, but then suddenly turned out that he’s in love with magnolia too. for my sake let’s pretend that they have some relationship development and chemistry🙏🏼
“I(Tom) watched you hurt her in that club, thought I could help her level the playing field. But now I think I’m a bit in love with her—”
I(BJ) nod, getting it. “She has that effect on people”
“I know,” he says, solemn. “I’m sorry.”
I clock him. “For what?”
“Because I like you, man.” He smacks me on the back. “But if I have a shot here, I’m taking it.”
I give him a look. “Same, bro.”
can someone tell that it’s the dialogue between 25 year old and 31 year old?? can someone at least tell that that’s how people talking in real life?? and then christian’s “girlfriend” revealed that he’s in love with magnolia too BAHAHHAH LMAO I LOST IT
BJ looks from me to Christian and then cries to the sky. “Are you fucking kidding?” He looks down at me with wild eyes, wide and sore. “Is two of us not enough?”
IM ROLLING OM THE FLOOR. JESSA HASTINGS REALLY DECIDED TO FUCK UP THE WHOLE BOOK. THE COMEDY QUEEN FR. WHERE IS MY ORGY ? WHAT A WASTED OPPORTUNITY IS THIS UH??
“Why the fuck are we talking about this? Again. We’re not talking about how I fucked up, we’re talking about your colossal fuck up. With my best friend. Who’s in love with you now.”
save me. pls save me. i can get over never written threesomes and i can bear dumb dialogues and dumb ass scenes. but what i can’t get over is when a manwhore and LOVE INTEREST calling the “girl of his dreams” a slut for having sex with another man.
“You love me. Everyone knows you love me.” I gesture around us. “I know you love me. Your boyfriend(Tom) knows you love me. Even you know you love me. Except you’re fucking him,” I yell, and I sound savage. “So who’s the real slut?”
ебанная свинья right here❤️🔥. im speechless. no comment literally idk what to say. im fucking sick. i can throw up. this piece of shit was forcing her to date other guys, cause she tried to get over his cheating and now he’s slut shaming her for that?? very swoon- worthy im fucking done. this book and all the characters in it are abhorrent. im disgusted by every single character beside maybe tom (but the thing is with him, is that he knew magnolia since she was a teenager and said he had a crush on her for A LONG TIME😃😃. no comments im tired). and the fact that i know that magnolia and bj are gonna be together eventually fucking disgusts me the most. the author tried to explain magnolia’s behaviour by her having daddy issues, but the leads are gonna end up together so why does it matter? this book is a cumwipe with a big portion of the romantization of serious illnesses, toxic relationships and drugs addiction. in short, everything i’ve ever wanted in one book.
lastly, everyone cried at the end, but i didn’t. i just laughed my ass off. the hilarious part was that the reveal of the girl bj cheated with should’ve been shocking, but i was lost because i didn’t even remember who the girl was in the first place. and his thoughts about the cheating were my last straw.
And you want to know the god honest truth? I wasn’t thinking of Parks. All I was thinking about was that was what I wanted. It was what I wanted. I was choosing it. That was what I wanted to be doing and I was doing it, and I had a girl in my hands that I wanted there, and we were touching and kissing and that was what I wanted.
hopefully everyone has a good day after that and all bj's stans satisfied with this plot twist. and i'm not judging u for loving certain books, that's fine all of us have different tastes, but i AM judging u if u want magnolia to stay with bj even after what he'd done. this is unacceptable and i think i already explained why.
July 30, 2024
4.25/5 ★’s
⁀➷ can you die from a broken heart, do you know? and if i did and they cut me wide open, would i bleed loving him?
⁀➷ he's killing me. loving him is killing me too, and i'm afraid because how many loves really, do you get in a lifetime? how many chances do you give it before you let it go?
°❀⋆.ೃ࿔*:･･:*.ೃ࿔⋆❀°
❥ 𝒶𝓁𝑒𝓍𝒶 𝓅𝓁𝒶𝓎:
❝i hate everything about you❞ by three days grace
pain and misery…on every. single. page. let me paint you the perfect picture. imagine jessa hastings casually walked up to me and punched me in the face, then takes her hand, rips my heart out, pushes me on the ground, and then just starts kicking the shit out of me. girl, i am already dead…why are you still hurting me? what is this ABUSE? literally kicking me while i’m down. now i have a black eye, bruises all over my body, my heart is across the room and i’m left wanting more. not even the good kind of pain and i want more. jessa…how😭
❥ 𝓂𝓎 𝓉𝒽𝑜𝓊𝑔𝒽𝓉𝓈:
i’ve never equally hated and loved a book so much in my entire life. i literally despise all of the tropes, but i wanted all the toxicity and drama and that’s exactly what i got. i’m honestly so exhausted. it took me a few days to read this simply because there was so much shit going on that i had to take multiple breaks to breathe. every page was miserable, but i could not stop turning the pages. i ate this up and now i’m ruined. if you want a book that will make you want to rip your hair out, but can’t stop reading because it’s so good…this is the one for you.
❥ 𝓅𝓁𝑜𝓉:
messier than my lifeand that’s saying a lot😭✋🏼i’m going to describe the plot and i hope i make sense. imagine you’re watching a tennis match. one person gets a point, the other person gets a point, but no one actually wins. there is no such thing as a tie in tennis so the tennis match keeps going on and on and you’re just sitting there, miserable, wondering when it’ll end, but at the same time you’re enjoying it because it’s so entertaining. you’re on edge because you want both of them to win, but that’s not possible unless they join the same team and that’s even more impossible so you’re stuck watching a shitty tennis match that you just can’t look away from. did my explanation make sense? is it too messy? if it didn’t and it is…that’s okay bae, consider yourself fully prepared to jump into this series after reading that🤸🏻♀️because trust me, not a lot makes sense in this book😀
❥ 𝓌𝓇𝒾𝓉𝒾𝓃𝑔:
⁀➷❝painful things can still be beautiful things, in case you didn’t know.❞
absolutely beautiful. how jessa wrote such a beautifully painful and toxic book is beyond me. this is one of the main reasons why i loved this book so much. jessa knows how to pull every single emotion out of you and if you know me, there’s nothing i love more than an author who knows how to make me feel so alive with their words. i have a such a strong connection with the toxic characters she created and wrote about. honestly, i hate it😩i hate how much i love them. ughhh why couldn’t this book have been terribly written so i could’ve dnfed and been done? why😀just why.
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❥ 𝒷𝒿 𝒷𝒶𝓁𝓁𝒶𝓃𝓉𝒾𝓃𝑒
⁀➷ ❝parks, there’s not much about me that isn’t about you.❞
bj. the man i’d love to kiss and then immediately punch in the face. magnolia’s heart is not the only heart he broke. i wanted to hate him so bad. i tried to. i hate that i don’t hate him. my feelings for bj are giving that poem that kat stratford wrote and presented in front of her english class in the movie 10 things i hate about you.
my feelings about bj are so frustrating. when you read his pov, you’re constantly questioning so many things. bj…babe please just get your shit together.shei will yell at me after reading this😗
❥ 𝓂𝒶𝑔𝓃𝑜𝓁𝒾𝒶 𝓅𝒶𝓇𝓀𝓈
⁀➷ i remember resentment pounding through my body and then i remember it, like a physical punch in the gut, how much i loved him. really loved him. to the bone, loved him. cut me and i'll bleed him. how much i needed him, still needed him, would forever, always, never couldn't even if i tried, needed him. and i remember being deeply afraid of what my life would be like without him in it.
cut her and she will bleed him?! i can’t😭i absolutely adore magnolia, i do. i hate some things that she did, but this girl is literally RUINED. i’m a very empathetic person. i was able to put myself in her shoes especially since i personally experienced some of what she went through. which makes me not hating bj even more frustrating, but when someone you love deeply, hurts you all the time…you hold onto hope that it’ll somehow work out in the end. it sucks, but it’s true. obviously my situation didn’t work out and i’m thankful every day because i’m better off, but here’s the thing…i’m not magnolia and he definitely wasn’t bj. so please don’t take this the wrong way and think that i’m comparing my past situation as if it were the same exact thing because it definitely wasn’t, but i just wanted to explain why i understand how difficult magnolia’s situation is😭
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❝how’s the weather, parks?❞
❝fucked.❞
mood. even after everything, i can’t help but root for them. she’s toxic. he’s toxic. he hurts her. she hurts him. but when you guys read this book and read their thoughts about each other? you’ll understand why i so badly want them to have a happy ending.
⤷ that's just what he says to me after every fight i have over her. they're all over her though. that's the point—not just because i love her and she's her, but because she's my family.
⤷ loving someone like i love her fucks you up a bit. fucking up how i fucked up also fucks you up a bit.
⤷ eyes still closed, she shoves me out of the bathroom, her hands slipping down my body. we both know it's on purpose, but she'd swear to her death it's an accident. and in another lifetime, i’d drop the towel, grab her by the waist, kiss her stupid and carry her backwards to her bed, but in this lifetime, she slams the door in my face.
⤷ the lights go off and she stares at me through the darkness a few seconds longer, and i love her in the dark. i mean, fuck it—i down and out love her in all spectrums of light, even the absence of it.
⤷ he had these bedroom eyes that look at you like he's undressing you on the spot and i know that sounds so inappropriate, but that's just because he's never done it to you, because if he had, you'd know and you'd live your life waiting for him to look at you like that again.
some of the many thoughts of theirsmainly bj’s that will have you rooting for them😩✋🏼
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i don’t want to say much more about this book because i love keeping my reviews spoiler free, but let me just say that tom england deserves a book and the fmc needs to be me. just a suggestion, jessa. i think it’s the least you could do after everything you put me through. i’m very excited to continue the series! i absolutely adore daisy already🤭
also!!! bridget, magnolia’s sister!? i absolutely adore her. i just had to say that🥹my comfort character through this mess of a book.
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❥ 𝒻𝒶𝓋𝑜𝓇𝒾𝓉𝑒 𝓆𝓊𝑜𝓉𝑒𝓈:
➛ fuck. that face. i’d do anything for that face.
➛ i think about kissing magnolia parks more than i think about anything else, literally in the world. it’s my go-to thought when my mind has a minute to spare.
➛ the most beautiful boy in every room, the great love of my life—how many loves do you get in a lifetime? i remember wondering that. how many people will look at me the way he does, not just like i’m the sun but like i'm the whole goddamn universe.
➛ ❝i’ll put him in the ground if you want me to.❞
➛ ❝i’m whatever the fuck she needs me to be.❞
❥01/05/24
𝓅𝓇𝑒 𝓇𝑒𝓋𝒾𝑒𝓌:
if i were magnolia, i’d simply be in prison for murder. the way i fucking gasped. how did i not see that coming.
rtc soon i hope, i feel rage. let me clam down😂
❥ 01/01/24
first read of the new year! give me all the drama😋
⁀➷ can you die from a broken heart, do you know? and if i did and they cut me wide open, would i bleed loving him?
⁀➷ he's killing me. loving him is killing me too, and i'm afraid because how many loves really, do you get in a lifetime? how many chances do you give it before you let it go?
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𝓼𝓹𝓸𝓲𝓵𝓮𝓻 𝓯𝓻𝓮𝓮 𝓻𝓮𝓿𝓲𝓮𝔀
❥ 𝒶𝓁𝑒𝓍𝒶 𝓅𝓁𝒶𝓎:
❝i hate everything about you❞ by three days grace
pain and misery…on every. single. page. let me paint you the perfect picture. imagine jessa hastings casually walked up to me and punched me in the face, then takes her hand, rips my heart out, pushes me on the ground, and then just starts kicking the shit out of me. girl, i am already dead…why are you still hurting me? what is this ABUSE? literally kicking me while i’m down. now i have a black eye, bruises all over my body, my heart is across the room and i’m left wanting more. not even the good kind of pain and i want more. jessa…how😭
❥ 𝓂𝓎 𝓉𝒽𝑜𝓊𝑔𝒽𝓉𝓈:
i’ve never equally hated and loved a book so much in my entire life. i literally despise all of the tropes, but i wanted all the toxicity and drama and that’s exactly what i got. i’m honestly so exhausted. it took me a few days to read this simply because there was so much shit going on that i had to take multiple breaks to breathe. every page was miserable, but i could not stop turning the pages. i ate this up and now i’m ruined. if you want a book that will make you want to rip your hair out, but can’t stop reading because it’s so good…this is the one for you.
❥ 𝓅𝓁𝑜𝓉:
messier than my life
❥ 𝓌𝓇𝒾𝓉𝒾𝓃𝑔:
⁀➷❝painful things can still be beautiful things, in case you didn’t know.❞
absolutely beautiful. how jessa wrote such a beautifully painful and toxic book is beyond me. this is one of the main reasons why i loved this book so much. jessa knows how to pull every single emotion out of you and if you know me, there’s nothing i love more than an author who knows how to make me feel so alive with their words. i have a such a strong connection with the toxic characters she created and wrote about. honestly, i hate it😩i hate how much i love them. ughhh why couldn’t this book have been terribly written so i could’ve dnfed and been done? why😀just why.
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❥ 𝒷𝒿 𝒷𝒶𝓁𝓁𝒶𝓃𝓉𝒾𝓃𝑒
⁀➷ ❝parks, there’s not much about me that isn’t about you.❞
bj. the man i’d love to kiss and then immediately punch in the face. magnolia’s heart is not the only heart he broke. i wanted to hate him so bad. i tried to. i hate that i don’t hate him. my feelings for bj are giving that poem that kat stratford wrote and presented in front of her english class in the movie 10 things i hate about you.
⤷ ❝but mostly, i hate the way i don’t hate you, not even close, not even a little bit, not even at all.❞
my feelings about bj are so frustrating. when you read his pov, you’re constantly questioning so many things. bj…babe please just get your shit together.
❥ 𝓂𝒶𝑔𝓃𝑜𝓁𝒾𝒶 𝓅𝒶𝓇𝓀𝓈
⁀➷ i remember resentment pounding through my body and then i remember it, like a physical punch in the gut, how much i loved him. really loved him. to the bone, loved him. cut me and i'll bleed him. how much i needed him, still needed him, would forever, always, never couldn't even if i tried, needed him. and i remember being deeply afraid of what my life would be like without him in it.
cut her and she will bleed him?! i can’t😭i absolutely adore magnolia, i do. i hate some things that she did, but this girl is literally RUINED. i’m a very empathetic person. i was able to put myself in her shoes especially since i personally experienced some of what she went through. which makes me not hating bj even more frustrating, but when someone you love deeply, hurts you all the time…you hold onto hope that it’ll somehow work out in the end. it sucks, but it’s true. obviously my situation didn’t work out and i’m thankful every day because i’m better off, but here’s the thing…i’m not magnolia and he definitely wasn’t bj. so please don’t take this the wrong way and think that i’m comparing my past situation as if it were the same exact thing because it definitely wasn’t, but i just wanted to explain why i understand how difficult magnolia’s situation is😭
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❝how’s the weather, parks?❞
❝fucked.❞
mood. even after everything, i can’t help but root for them. she’s toxic. he’s toxic. he hurts her. she hurts him. but when you guys read this book and read their thoughts about each other? you’ll understand why i so badly want them to have a happy ending.
⤷ that's just what he says to me after every fight i have over her. they're all over her though. that's the point—not just because i love her and she's her, but because she's my family.
⤷ loving someone like i love her fucks you up a bit. fucking up how i fucked up also fucks you up a bit.
⤷ eyes still closed, she shoves me out of the bathroom, her hands slipping down my body. we both know it's on purpose, but she'd swear to her death it's an accident. and in another lifetime, i’d drop the towel, grab her by the waist, kiss her stupid and carry her backwards to her bed, but in this lifetime, she slams the door in my face.
⤷ the lights go off and she stares at me through the darkness a few seconds longer, and i love her in the dark. i mean, fuck it—i down and out love her in all spectrums of light, even the absence of it.
⤷ he had these bedroom eyes that look at you like he's undressing you on the spot and i know that sounds so inappropriate, but that's just because he's never done it to you, because if he had, you'd know and you'd live your life waiting for him to look at you like that again.
some of the many thoughts of theirs
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i don’t want to say much more about this book because i love keeping my reviews spoiler free, but let me just say that tom england deserves a book and the fmc needs to be me. just a suggestion, jessa. i think it’s the least you could do after everything you put me through. i’m very excited to continue the series! i absolutely adore daisy already🤭
also!!! bridget, magnolia’s sister!? i absolutely adore her. i just had to say that🥹my comfort character through this mess of a book.
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❥ 𝒻𝒶𝓋𝑜𝓇𝒾𝓉𝑒 𝓆𝓊𝑜𝓉𝑒𝓈:
➛ fuck. that face. i’d do anything for that face.
➛ i think about kissing magnolia parks more than i think about anything else, literally in the world. it’s my go-to thought when my mind has a minute to spare.
➛ the most beautiful boy in every room, the great love of my life—how many loves do you get in a lifetime? i remember wondering that. how many people will look at me the way he does, not just like i’m the sun but like i'm the whole goddamn universe.
➛ ❝i’ll put him in the ground if you want me to.❞
➛ ❝i’m whatever the fuck she needs me to be.❞
❥01/05/24
𝓅𝓇𝑒 𝓇𝑒𝓋𝒾𝑒𝓌:
if i were magnolia, i’d simply be in prison for murder. the way i fucking gasped. how did i not see that coming.
rtc soon i hope, i feel rage. let me clam down😂
❥ 01/01/24
first read of the new year! give me all the drama😋
January 11, 2024
➸ 4 stars
summary: gossip girl (but set in london’s high society) meets the addicted series but make it more toxic and messy.
— this is the must infuriating, addictive, heart wrenching and frustrating book i’ve EVER read - it literally sucks you in right from the first few pages. holy fucking shit everyone in this book is downright insane and they all need therapy, but i absolutely loved this book and these crazy characters, they served the found family trope so perfectly — this friend group is just so messy but there’s also so much love there. a found family through and through, they raised each other and are definitely each other’s real family. I WANTED TOXICITY, DRAMA AND ENTERTAINMENT AND THATS EXACTLY WHAT I GOT. i’m still sick to my stomach over the last two chapters, im reeling.. it’s going to take me 5 business days to recover from that.fuck u paili and ur sad smiles.
➷ this is not one of those unrealistic, cutesy, romantic stories. this story is so real and raw and shows how love can be so painful and damaging but in a sense also beautiful. this book is about that exhausting, never ending toxic, first love and the pain you go through just bc you just can’t let each other go and move on. this is two people who are so intertwined that they cant understand a life where they don’t have one another in some way. they can’t let go of their past with each other and will do anything to keep them in their lives. they are both so codependent in an unhealthy way and are each others anchors, no matter how much they hurt one another and everyone around them, there will always be that magnetic pull between these two. bj and magnolia are those characters that are not rly meant to be loved. they are real, messy, toxic and flawed. i was so connected to their story and was rooting for them — the love they have for each other just pulled at my heart strings; it is deeply felt on every single page but at the same time i was hoping they wouldn’t end up back together bc i wanted to seem them grow as individuals. but through all the ups n downs, i will still forever be a magnoliabj apologist they are just soul tied <33
— let’s talk about tom for a sec bc that man had me feeling all soft n shi. he was mags safety net and treated her like the queen she is. he was so caring, attentive, respectful and just so mature. on that note, JUSTICE FOR TOM!! he deserved so much better. he’s a walking green flag, give this man his own book NOW.
➳ magnolia: i was waiting for her to know her worth the entire book. she had every single guy she would meet wrapped around her finger but she still would always choose and run back to the most toxic guy in existence.she is me, i am her. i understand why she always kept going back to bj bc that’s her first love but it was just a never ending cycle of back and fourth. i’m rly hoping she grows as a person in the next book and learns not to be so codependent on bj. but she is my fav it-girl, it is so easy to sympathise w her character even tho she made some pretty shitty choices. the way i just wanted to knock some sense into her, she would constantly take shit from bj and then forgive him 5 seconds later. like girl you need to WAKE UP. but i love her and i will always be her #1 fan, she deserves the world and nothing less.
— i absolutely love the bond w her sister bridget. she’s the only sane person in this book, calls everyone out on their bullshit and just slayed.
➳ bj: (terrible name btw) i have the biggest love/hate relationship w his character, but i have faith in him that he will start making the right choices. i will always have the biggest soft spot for flawed characters, but fkn hell was he a shitty person. like yes he is so stupid, yes i want to put his head through a wall but he was so deeply flawed and broken it was just so hard for me to dislike his character. i just wanted him to leave magnolia alone until he got his act together and started respecting her. the way he had the audacity to blame her for his shitty actions, like WHAT, HOLD UP this is YOUR undoing 😃 he knows how much his actions affect her and he still does it bc he’s obviously a sadist. he hates seeing her sad, but he is the one who CONSTANTLY MAKES HER SAD.. MAKE IT MAKE SENSE. but onto the cheating - i never understood why he cheated bc he was literally pining for her, is deeply obsessed w her and acted like a lovesick puppy the entire book but then when she asks and he says “because i wanted to” no, nope, absolutely not. wtf do you mean you didn’t regret it or didnt think abt magnolia whatsoever.. i just 🕳️🚶♀️sir you’re going straight to hell. i hope he gets hit by a car and i hope i’m the one driving it. his only redeeming quality is that he has 22 tattoos dedicated to her <33
— these characters infuriated me, yet i couldn’t get enough of them, im obsessed 😭 they brought me drama, they gave me trauma bonds, they fed me angst, and then they left me w immense heatbreak. the author fr made me feel every emotion possible. i felt like all the betrayals were happening to me, her writing is just so beautiful, whimsical and poetic. these characters are not at all black and white—they are all extremely gray. this book was so over the top, dramatic, angsty, toxic and i need MORE. this story isn’t going to be for everyone you will either love or hate it or both. this book is honestly no plot just ✨vibes✨ if you don’t enjoy the cheating trope, love triangles, manipulation, toxicity then i wouldn’t recommend this book. you have to go into this book knowing it is about a never ending toxic, dysfunctional relationship, and that’s never been my forte. so why did this book have such a strong grip on me?? i guess i thrive off other peoples drama.
fav quotes:
”the problem with me and parks is, i think we love each other more than ourselves.”
”he’s the moon, and i’m the tides.”
“can you die from a broken heart, do you know? and if i did and they cut me wide open, would i bleed loving him?”
”i know that some love is beautiful, and some is freeing, some unravels you, some love poisons you, some blinds you, some betters you, and some loves break you into in invisible ways that no one else knows about until you have to stand up and the weight of your love crushes your bones.”
— this one made me cry!!
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omg this book gave me so much fkn emotional whiplash, im literally going through all 5 stages of grief rn. i feel sick and i need a damn drink. rtc 😭
in the mood for some rich people drama and toxicity 😍
”how many loves do you get in a lifetime?”
summary: gossip girl (but set in london’s high society) meets the addicted series but make it more toxic and messy.
— this is the must infuriating, addictive, heart wrenching and frustrating book i’ve EVER read - it literally sucks you in right from the first few pages. holy fucking shit everyone in this book is downright insane and they all need therapy, but i absolutely loved this book and these crazy characters, they served the found family trope so perfectly — this friend group is just so messy but there’s also so much love there. a found family through and through, they raised each other and are definitely each other’s real family. I WANTED TOXICITY, DRAMA AND ENTERTAINMENT AND THATS EXACTLY WHAT I GOT. i’m still sick to my stomach over the last two chapters, im reeling.. it’s going to take me 5 business days to recover from that.
➷ this is not one of those unrealistic, cutesy, romantic stories. this story is so real and raw and shows how love can be so painful and damaging but in a sense also beautiful. this book is about that exhausting, never ending toxic, first love and the pain you go through just bc you just can’t let each other go and move on. this is two people who are so intertwined that they cant understand a life where they don’t have one another in some way. they can’t let go of their past with each other and will do anything to keep them in their lives. they are both so codependent in an unhealthy way and are each others anchors, no matter how much they hurt one another and everyone around them, there will always be that magnetic pull between these two. bj and magnolia are those characters that are not rly meant to be loved. they are real, messy, toxic and flawed. i was so connected to their story and was rooting for them — the love they have for each other just pulled at my heart strings; it is deeply felt on every single page but at the same time i was hoping they wouldn’t end up back together bc i wanted to seem them grow as individuals. but through all the ups n downs, i will still forever be a magnoliabj apologist they are just soul tied <33
— let’s talk about tom for a sec bc that man had me feeling all soft n shi. he was mags safety net and treated her like the queen she is. he was so caring, attentive, respectful and just so mature. on that note, JUSTICE FOR TOM!! he deserved so much better. he’s a walking green flag, give this man his own book NOW.
”how’s the weather over there, parks?
“warm enough.”
”how’s the weather other there, beej?”
“clear skies”
➳ magnolia: i was waiting for her to know her worth the entire book. she had every single guy she would meet wrapped around her finger but she still would always choose and run back to the most toxic guy in existence.
— i absolutely love the bond w her sister bridget. she’s the only sane person in this book, calls everyone out on their bullshit and just slayed.
➳ bj: (terrible name btw) i have the biggest love/hate relationship w his character, but i have faith in him that he will start making the right choices. i will always have the biggest soft spot for flawed characters, but fkn hell was he a shitty person. like yes he is so stupid, yes i want to put his head through a wall but he was so deeply flawed and broken it was just so hard for me to dislike his character. i just wanted him to leave magnolia alone until he got his act together and started respecting her. the way he had the audacity to blame her for his shitty actions, like WHAT, HOLD UP this is YOUR undoing 😃 he knows how much his actions affect her and he still does it bc he’s obviously a sadist. he hates seeing her sad, but he is the one who CONSTANTLY MAKES HER SAD.. MAKE IT MAKE SENSE. but onto the cheating - i never understood why he cheated bc he was literally pining for her, is deeply obsessed w her and acted like a lovesick puppy the entire book but then when she asks and he says “because i wanted to” no, nope, absolutely not. wtf do you mean you didn’t regret it or didnt think abt magnolia whatsoever.. i just 🕳️🚶♀️sir you’re going straight to hell. i hope he gets hit by a car and i hope i’m the one driving it. his only redeeming quality is that he has 22 tattoos dedicated to her <33
“everything wonderful, everything magical, everything painful, beautiful and spectacular and wretched and defining that had happened to me happened with him. and i hate him for that.”
— these characters infuriated me, yet i couldn’t get enough of them, im obsessed 😭 they brought me drama, they gave me trauma bonds, they fed me angst, and then they left me w immense heatbreak. the author fr made me feel every emotion possible. i felt like all the betrayals were happening to me, her writing is just so beautiful, whimsical and poetic. these characters are not at all black and white—they are all extremely gray. this book was so over the top, dramatic, angsty, toxic and i need MORE. this story isn’t going to be for everyone you will either love or hate it or both. this book is honestly no plot just ✨vibes✨ if you don’t enjoy the cheating trope, love triangles, manipulation, toxicity then i wouldn’t recommend this book. you have to go into this book knowing it is about a never ending toxic, dysfunctional relationship, and that’s never been my forte. so why did this book have such a strong grip on me?? i guess i thrive off other peoples drama.
fav quotes:
”the problem with me and parks is, i think we love each other more than ourselves.”
”he’s the moon, and i’m the tides.”
“can you die from a broken heart, do you know? and if i did and they cut me wide open, would i bleed loving him?”
”i know that some love is beautiful, and some is freeing, some unravels you, some love poisons you, some blinds you, some betters you, and some loves break you into in invisible ways that no one else knows about until you have to stand up and the weight of your love crushes your bones.”
— this one made me cry!!
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omg this book gave me so much fkn emotional whiplash, im literally going through all 5 stages of grief rn. i feel sick and i need a damn drink. rtc 😭
in the mood for some rich people drama and toxicity 😍
August 20, 2022
Pls pls pls enjoy this book but don’t think that any of BJ or Magnolia’s actions are romantic 😭 this is not just a toxic relationship it is so unbelievably unhealthy to their lives and this should never be tolerated in real life. BUT, this is fiction so as long as nobody believes this is sweet and normal then it’s very fun to enjoy the drama! I rest my case, reading vlog coming soon 🙂
August 26, 2022
cecily von ziegesar and anna todd got really drunk and said
"what if we wrote a sally rooney book"
"let's create a relationship so toxic and predictable"
"oo oo what if the main character name dropped clothing brands every other line!!!!"
and thus, a book was born.
"what if we wrote a sally rooney book"
"let's create a relationship so toxic and predictable"
"oo oo what if the main character name dropped clothing brands every other line!!!!"
and thus, a book was born.
November 21, 2022
this was so toxic… do it again
December 22, 2022
so stupid five stars... tom england i'm free on thursday x
January 25, 2023
I’ll never recover
August 21, 2022
i don't get this book. i don't get the MC's reactions to things. every time BJ would hook up w another girl (which is literally every other chapter) they would both act so surprised like it was the craziest thing to ever happen, like his dick entering someones vagina was this unexpected and undeterrable event that just fell out the fucking sky
chapter 1: bj fucks a random girl
chapter 2: magnolia cries, yells at him, storms off, forgives him
chapter 3: bj fucks a random girl again
chapter 4: magnolia cries, yells at him, storms off, forgives him
chapter 5: bj fucks a random girl-
DO YOU SEE THE ISSUE 🤬🤬 DO YOU SEE HOW THIS MIGHT GET A LITTLE BIT..... REPETITIVE????
let me show you einstein's definition of insanity:
so what are y'all doing, STOOPIDS 🖕🏽🙃 where are the brain cells @, DUMB DUMBS 🤪🌈
at this point it'd be more surprising if mans stopped fucking everyone in his 1 cm radius. that'd throw me for such a loop. BJ keeping his dick in his pants longer than a week?? oh i'd be shook to my core. off my rocker, sprawled out on my floor, shock so great i'd be launched into the ether
you know the drake lyric/audio thats like 'and i gotta get a nigga back for that, it's non-negotiable it's not even debatable...' yeah 😐 parks needs to get a nigga THE FUCK BACK FOR THAT its non negotiable it's not even debatable!!! city girls are in the TRENCHES y'all dont even know
i like toxicity, om/ow drama etc as much as the next girl but the repetitiveness threw me. why is it even a betrayal at this point? this is the status quo now, it is crazy to expect otherwise. there are no promises, no decisions to be exclusive, nothing said from him during her breakdowns/ his apologies to indicate he would not continue this behavior in the future (and he's further demonstrated this by ehem, FUCKING HUNDREDS OF WOMEN) so just accept that the man is for the streets, i swear it's not news. pls pick a new fight. PLS PICK A NEW FIGHT this one is so stale
ps. no smut???? you put me through all that and then no smut??? be forreal
chapter 1: bj fucks a random girl
chapter 2: magnolia cries, yells at him, storms off, forgives him
chapter 3: bj fucks a random girl again
chapter 4: magnolia cries, yells at him, storms off, forgives him
chapter 5: bj fucks a random girl-
DO YOU SEE THE ISSUE 🤬🤬 DO YOU SEE HOW THIS MIGHT GET A LITTLE BIT..... REPETITIVE????
let me show you einstein's definition of insanity:
so what are y'all doing, STOOPIDS 🖕🏽🙃 where are the brain cells @, DUMB DUMBS 🤪🌈
at this point it'd be more surprising if mans stopped fucking everyone in his 1 cm radius. that'd throw me for such a loop. BJ keeping his dick in his pants longer than a week?? oh i'd be shook to my core. off my rocker, sprawled out on my floor, shock so great i'd be launched into the ether
you know the drake lyric/audio thats like 'and i gotta get a nigga back for that, it's non-negotiable it's not even debatable...' yeah 😐 parks needs to get a nigga THE FUCK BACK FOR THAT its non negotiable it's not even debatable!!! city girls are in the TRENCHES y'all dont even know
i like toxicity, om/ow drama etc as much as the next girl but the repetitiveness threw me. why is it even a betrayal at this point? this is the status quo now, it is crazy to expect otherwise. there are no promises, no decisions to be exclusive, nothing said from him during her breakdowns/ his apologies to indicate he would not continue this behavior in the future (and he's further demonstrated this by ehem, FUCKING HUNDREDS OF WOMEN) so just accept that the man is for the streets, i swear it's not news. pls pick a new fight. PLS PICK A NEW FIGHT this one is so stale
ps. no smut???? you put me through all that and then no smut??? be forreal
August 16, 2022
Jesus H. This is got to be the worst book I’ve ever read. I can’t even tell you the plot because I genuinely don’t know what I just read. It’s just two adult children fucking other people and whining about how they love the other person So MuCh. If I had to read one more head to toe description of an outfit including the designer, pattern, and season, I was going to scream.
This is two people that never grew up after high school and need to either go to therapy or leave each other the hell alone. It’s not romantic??? It’s annoying and toxic. Good god.
If you like to read about 25 year olds that sleep with everybody but each other, an MMC that cheats cause he feels like it, painfully detailed descriptions of outfits that only the Kardashians could afford, a FMC that has three guys dangling and in love with her cause she’s “quirky and mysterious”, and a group of friends that have ZERO personality, this is for you.
Also WHY is this 500 pages long?? There is no reason on earth that this book should be so damn long. They don’t DO anything?? They just party and brunch and emote all over the place for 500 pages.
The ending didn’t make me cry and I’m a big baby. I was relieved that it was over because this was a mess from top to bottom.
Blair and Chuck from Gossip Girl were LESS toxic and that’s saying a whole lot here.
I’m through taking Booktok recs for a long time cause this was terrible.
Fin.
This is two people that never grew up after high school and need to either go to therapy or leave each other the hell alone. It’s not romantic??? It’s annoying and toxic. Good god.
If you like to read about 25 year olds that sleep with everybody but each other, an MMC that cheats cause he feels like it, painfully detailed descriptions of outfits that only the Kardashians could afford, a FMC that has three guys dangling and in love with her cause she’s “quirky and mysterious”, and a group of friends that have ZERO personality, this is for you.
Also WHY is this 500 pages long?? There is no reason on earth that this book should be so damn long. They don’t DO anything?? They just party and brunch and emote all over the place for 500 pages.
The ending didn’t make me cry and I’m a big baby. I was relieved that it was over because this was a mess from top to bottom.
Blair and Chuck from Gossip Girl were LESS toxic and that’s saying a whole lot here.
I’m through taking Booktok recs for a long time cause this was terrible.
Fin.
July 26, 2024
I enjoyed this but completely understand why this book isn’t for everyone. The back and forth of BJ and Magnolia’s relationship was insufferable, but I think it was a realistic depiction of how the heart wants what the heart wants. It was kind of fun to be thrown into such a toxic relationship! Excited for the next book
January 15, 2024
I’m broken 😃😃😃😃
I wanna write an updated review for this book but I don’t have the mental capacity to make one rn 😭🤚
So in depth rtc later… 🤞
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Okay, so I’m in shock...
This book is the ANTITHESIS of what I look for in my romance books and… I LOVED IT. What that says about my mental state, idk.
𝐄𝐯𝐞𝐫𝐲𝐨𝐧𝐞 𝐰𝐡𝐨 𝐤𝐧𝐨𝐰𝐬 𝐦𝐞 𝐤𝐧𝐨𝐰𝐬 𝐭𝐡𝐚𝐭 𝐈 𝐰𝐨𝐮𝐥𝐝𝐧’𝐭 𝐭𝐨𝐮𝐜𝐡 𝐚 𝐛𝐨𝐨𝐤 𝐭𝐡𝐚𝐭 𝐡𝐚𝐬 𝐁𝐫𝐢𝐭𝐢𝐬𝐡 𝐜𝐡𝐚𝐫𝐚𝐜𝐭𝐞𝐫𝐬 𝐰𝐢𝐭𝐡 𝐚 𝐭𝐞𝐧-𝐟𝐨𝐨𝐭 𝐩𝐨𝐥𝐞. It’s too close to home for me lmao like it just gives me the ick when they go overboard with the British accents. 𝐁𝐔𝐓 𝐈𝐓 𝐖𝐀𝐒 𝐎𝐓𝐓 𝐀𝐍𝐃 𝐒𝐎 𝐀𝐂𝐂𝐔𝐑𝐀𝐓𝐄 𝐀𝐓 𝐓𝐇𝐄 𝐒𝐀𝐌𝐄 𝐓𝐈𝐌𝐄?? The way they thought and behaved was not overcompensated by their accents. No bc each character had separate personalities and I love each of them.
LMFAO the word “arse”? just no. Can’t do that. But for the sake of my sanity, I ignored it here 🤡
𝐓𝐡𝐞𝐧 𝐭𝐡𝐞𝐫𝐞’𝐬 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐬𝐞𝐜𝐨𝐧𝐝 𝐜𝐡𝐚𝐧𝐜𝐞 𝐭𝐫𝐨𝐩𝐞 𝐰𝐡𝐢𝐜𝐡 𝐈 𝐝𝐨𝐧’𝐭 𝐮𝐬𝐮𝐚𝐥𝐥𝐲 𝐩𝐫𝐞𝐟𝐞𝐫. 𝐁𝐮𝐭 𝐈 𝐀𝐓𝐄 𝐢𝐭 𝐭𝐟 𝐮𝐩 𝐡𝐞𝐫𝐞 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐥𝐞𝐟𝐭 𝐧𝐨 𝐜𝐫𝐮𝐦𝐛𝐬. Like it was just so extra and it kept my attention all the damn time to the point where I hated the fact that I had to part with the book to sleep. 𝗧𝗵𝗲 𝘀𝗰𝗲𝗻𝗲𝘀 𝗷𝘂𝘀𝘁 𝗸𝗲𝗽𝘁 𝗽𝗹𝗮𝘆𝗶𝗻𝗴 𝗼𝗻 𝗮 𝗹𝗼𝗼𝗽 𝗶𝗻 𝗺𝘆 𝗵𝗲𝗮𝗱.
𝐈 𝐰𝐚𝐬 𝐡𝐚𝐥𝐟𝐰𝐚𝐲 𝐭𝐡𝐫𝐨𝐮𝐠𝐡 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐛𝐨𝐨𝐤 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐈 𝐰𝐚𝐧𝐭𝐞𝐝 𝐭𝐨 𝐫𝐞𝐫𝐞𝐚𝐝 𝐰𝐡𝐢𝐜𝐡 𝐢𝐬 𝐬𝐞𝐫𝐢𝐨𝐮𝐬𝐥𝐲 𝐦𝐞𝐬𝐬𝐞𝐝 𝐮𝐩 𝐜𝐨𝐧𝐬𝐢𝐝𝐞𝐫𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐜𝐨𝐧𝐭𝐞𝐧𝐭𝐬 𝐛𝐮𝐭 𝐢𝐝𝐜 𝐈’𝐦 𝐃𝐄𝐅𝐈𝐍𝐈𝐓𝐄𝐋𝐘 𝐫𝐞𝐫𝐞𝐚𝐝𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐭𝐡𝐢𝐬.
Lmfao I know I’m undecided about most things but I usually know my preferences… well knew them?? Frankly, It had a compilation of all the tropes I avoid. But when I say that these kinds of tropes have to be done well for me to like them a SMIDGE?? Yeah, the authors outdone herself with the writing.
𝐓𝐡𝐞𝐫𝐞 𝐰𝐚𝐬𝐧’𝐭 𝐚 𝐒𝐈𝐍𝐆𝐋𝐄 𝐝𝐫𝐲 𝐩𝐚𝐠𝐞 𝐢𝐧 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐞𝐧𝐭𝐢𝐫𝐞 𝐛𝐨𝐨𝐤. Every single interaction held my interest. 𝐲𝐤 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐩𝐚𝐫𝐭𝐬 𝐭𝐡𝐚𝐭 𝐝𝐨𝐧’𝐭 𝐡𝐚𝐯𝐞 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐌𝐌𝐂𝐬 𝐭𝐨𝐠𝐞𝐭𝐡𝐞𝐫 𝐢𝐧 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐬𝐚𝐦𝐞 𝐜𝐡𝐚𝐩𝐭𝐞𝐫?? 𝐘𝐞𝐚𝐡, 𝐞𝐯𝐞𝐧 𝐭𝐡𝐚𝐭 𝐰𝐚𝐬𝐧’𝐭 𝐛𝐨𝐫𝐢𝐧𝐠. I’m telling you It didn’t even feel like I was reading at that point. I was simply there living with them.
It’s made me FEEL emotions I never knew I had until now. Their pain was my pain. Their love was my love. Their happiness was my happiest moment. They broke, I cried. Yeah, it’s intense but it hurts so good.
𝐈𝐭’𝐬 𝐚 𝐬𝐢𝐜𝐤, 𝐭𝐰𝐢𝐬𝐭𝐞𝐝 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐩𝐚𝐢𝐧𝐟𝐮𝐥 𝐛𝐨𝐨𝐤 𝐛𝐮𝐭 𝐢𝐭’𝐬 𝐥𝐚𝐜𝐞𝐝 𝐰𝐢𝐭𝐡 𝐚 𝐜𝐨𝐧𝐬𝐢𝐝𝐞𝐫𝐚𝐛𝐥𝐞 𝐚𝐦𝐨𝐮𝐧𝐭 (𝐀 𝐅𝐔𝐂𝐊 𝐓𝐎𝐍) 𝐨𝐟 𝐥𝐨𝐯𝐞 𝐢𝐧 𝐭𝐡𝐞𝐫𝐞. They’re both fully aware of everything they’re doing but still do it which is the most annoying part. Each character is hypocritical and stupid. But…
I was 𝐋𝐈𝐕𝐈𝐍𝐆 for the small moments.
The fucking 𝐃𝐑𝐀𝐌𝐀.
𝐓𝐡𝐞 𝐭𝐨𝐱𝐢𝐜𝐢𝐭𝐲.
The found family.
The dysfunctional relationships.
The 𝐅𝐔𝐂𝐊𝐈𝐍𝐆 drama???
The will they won’t they.
The burning desire to know 𝑾𝑯𝑶 𝑻𝑭 𝑾𝑰𝑳𝑳 𝑺𝑴𝑨𝑪𝑲 𝑻𝑯𝑬𝑰𝑹 𝑮𝑶𝑹𝑮𝑬𝑶𝑼𝑺 𝑭𝑨𝑪𝑬𝑺 𝑨𝑵𝑫 𝑴𝑨𝑲𝑬 𝑻𝑯𝑬𝑴 𝑺𝑬𝑬 𝑺𝑻𝑹𝑨𝑰𝑮𝑯𝑻?!
Also! I love the outfits and Magnolia’s fashion sense so much. She reminded me of Rose Calloway in a way. 𝐓𝐡𝐞𝐢𝐫 𝐞𝐧𝐞𝐫𝐠𝐲 💅✨✨
𝐎𝐌𝐅𝐆 𝐌𝐀𝐆𝐍𝐎𝐋𝐈𝐀 𝐘𝐎𝐔 𝐀𝐑𝐄 𝐓𝐇𝐄 𝐌𝐎𝐒𝐓 𝐄𝐌𝐎𝐓𝐈𝐎𝐍𝐀𝐋𝐋𝐘 𝐂𝐎𝐍𝐅𝐋𝐈𝐂𝐓𝐄𝐃 𝐂𝐇𝐀𝐑𝐀𝐂𝐓𝐄𝐑 𝐈’𝐕𝐄 𝐄𝐕𝐄𝐑 𝐌𝐄𝐓. It’s so fucking aggravating what she does. But then I feel for her as well. Fuck. She’s so flawed and her relationships with the other characters are so intricately woven that I feel like I, myself, can’t ever untangle from them never mind her lmao.
𝐁𝐉 𝐁𝐀𝐋𝐋𝐀𝐍𝐓𝐈𝐍𝐄 𝐖𝐇𝐀𝐓 𝐇𝐀𝐕𝐄 𝐘𝐎𝐔 𝐃𝐎𝐍𝐄?! I’m trusting in Nikki to put my trust in BJ and I believe that he’s gonna redeem himself somehow in the next books. But fuck knows how upset I am. 𝐋𝐢𝐤𝐞 𝐈’𝐦 𝐡𝐞𝐚𝐫𝐭𝐛𝐫𝐨𝐤𝐞𝐧 𝐰𝐢𝐭𝐡 𝐡𝐢𝐦. 𝐅𝐨𝐫 𝐡𝐢𝐦. 𝑩𝒆𝒄𝒂𝒖𝒔𝒆 𝐨𝐟 𝐡𝐢𝐦. 𝐈𝐭’𝐬 𝐚𝐥𝐥 𝐚𝐫𝐨𝐮𝐧𝐝 𝐦𝐞𝐬𝐬𝐞𝐝 𝐮𝐩. Every time he’d fuck up I just wanted to combust bc I knew how much it was gonna break magnolia when she found out and- UGH.
But I care for him too bc he loved parks and no one else. 𝗔𝗳𝘁𝗲𝗿 𝗲𝘃𝗲𝗿𝘆𝘁𝗵𝗶𝗻𝗴, 𝗶𝘁 𝘄𝗮𝘀 𝗮𝗹𝘄𝗮𝘆𝘀 𝗵𝗲𝗿 𝗶𝗻 𝗵𝗶𝘀 𝗵𝗲𝗮𝗿𝘁 𝗻𝗼 𝗺𝗮𝘁𝘁𝗲𝗿 𝗳𝘂𝗰𝗸𝗶𝗻𝗴 𝘄𝗵𝗮𝘁. I mean he made his body a canvas of tattoos where each one relates to the love of his life. That’s pretty telling. 𝐇𝐞’𝐬 𝐟𝐮𝐜𝐤𝐞𝐝 𝐮𝐩 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐡𝐚𝐬 𝐧𝐞𝐱𝐭-𝐥𝐞𝐯𝐞𝐥 𝐢𝐬𝐬𝐮𝐞𝐬 𝐛𝐮𝐭 𝐈’𝐦 𝐚𝐭𝐭𝐚𝐜𝐡𝐞𝐝 𝐭𝐨 𝐡𝐢𝐦 (ง'̀-'́)ง
𝗔𝗹𝘀𝗼 𝗧𝗼𝗺?? 𝗛𝗔𝗛𝗔𝗛𝗔 𝘁𝗵𝗲𝗿𝗲'𝘀 𝗮 𝗿𝗲𝗮𝘀𝗼𝗻 𝗻𝗶𝗰𝗲 𝗴𝘂𝘆𝘀 𝗳𝗶𝗻𝗶𝘀𝗵 𝗹𝗮𝘀𝘁, 𝗵𝗼𝗻𝗲𝘆.
𝗦𝗼 𝗳𝗶𝗻𝗮𝗹 𝘃𝗲𝗿𝗱𝗶𝗰𝘁?? 𝙄 𝙡𝙤𝙫𝙚𝙙 𝙞𝙩. Idgaf, these two better be endgame or else 🔪
𝐁𝐚𝐬𝐢𝐜𝐚𝐥𝐥𝐲, 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐜𝐚𝐧 𝐞𝐢𝐭𝐡𝐞𝐫 𝐥𝐨𝐯𝐞 𝐢𝐭 𝐨𝐫 𝐡𝐚𝐭𝐞 𝐢𝐭. Let’s be honest if you know toxic relationships and the cheating trope is not your thing just don’t read it. If you’re looking for a solid plot, you won’t find one here. I’m a character development girly and the plot isn’t important to me. I’ve warned you.
𝐄𝐯𝐞𝐫𝐲𝐨𝐧𝐞 𝐞𝐥𝐬𝐞, 𝐫𝐞𝐚𝐝 𝐢𝐭 𝐛𝐮𝐭 𝐠𝐨 𝐢𝐧 𝐰𝐢𝐭𝐡 𝐚𝐧 𝐨𝐩𝐞𝐧 𝐦𝐢𝐧𝐝, 𝐡𝐞𝐚𝐫𝐭 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐟𝐮𝐜𝐤𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐬𝐨𝐮𝐥 <3
𝐈𝐌𝐏𝐎𝐑𝐓𝐀𝐍𝐓!! Don’t blame me if you don’t like it. I’m fragile.
𝐀𝐧𝐝 𝐩𝐥𝐬 𝐫𝐞𝐚𝐝 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐓𝐖𝐬 𝐛𝐞𝐟𝐨𝐫𝐞.
𝗦𝗶𝗱𝗲 𝗻𝗼𝘁𝗲:
If I see 𝕋ℍ𝔸𝕋 𝔹𝕀𝕋ℂℍ in the streets just know it’s on 𝑺𝑰𝑮𝑯𝑻 🔪
𝐀𝐥𝐬𝐨, 𝐈 𝐣𝐮𝐬𝐭 𝐫𝐞𝐚𝐥𝐢𝐬𝐞𝐝 𝐭𝐡𝐢𝐬 𝐢𝐬 𝐦𝐲 𝟓𝟎𝟎𝐭𝐡 𝐛𝐨𝐨𝐤 𝐨���� 𝐆𝐑!!
𝗦����𝗻𝗴𝘀: 🎧
*takes glasses off and pinches the bridge of my nose*
“Fucking character limit!“
(It’s gonna be in the comments section if any of you care about this section <3 )
𝗙𝗮𝘃 𝗤𝘂𝗼𝘁𝗲𝘀:
(This is ALSO gonna be in the comments if any of you care about this section <3 )
𝗕𝗼𝗼𝗸𝘀 𝘄𝗶𝘁𝗵 𝘀𝗶𝗺𝗶𝗹𝗮𝗿 𝘃𝗶𝗯𝗲𝘀:
Normal people by Sally Rooney
I wanna write an updated review for this book but I don’t have the mental capacity to make one rn 😭🤚
So in depth rtc later… 🤞
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Okay, so I’m in shock...
This book is the ANTITHESIS of what I look for in my romance books and… I LOVED IT. What that says about my mental state, idk.
𝐄𝐯𝐞𝐫𝐲𝐨𝐧𝐞 𝐰𝐡𝐨 𝐤𝐧𝐨𝐰𝐬 𝐦𝐞 𝐤𝐧𝐨𝐰𝐬 𝐭𝐡𝐚𝐭 𝐈 𝐰𝐨𝐮𝐥𝐝𝐧’𝐭 𝐭𝐨𝐮𝐜𝐡 𝐚 𝐛𝐨𝐨𝐤 𝐭𝐡𝐚𝐭 𝐡𝐚𝐬 𝐁𝐫𝐢𝐭𝐢𝐬𝐡 𝐜𝐡𝐚𝐫𝐚𝐜𝐭𝐞𝐫𝐬 𝐰𝐢𝐭𝐡 𝐚 𝐭𝐞𝐧-𝐟𝐨𝐨𝐭 𝐩𝐨𝐥𝐞. It’s too close to home for me lmao like it just gives me the ick when they go overboard with the British accents. 𝐁𝐔𝐓 𝐈𝐓 𝐖𝐀𝐒 𝐎𝐓𝐓 𝐀𝐍𝐃 𝐒𝐎 𝐀𝐂𝐂𝐔𝐑𝐀𝐓𝐄 𝐀𝐓 𝐓𝐇𝐄 𝐒𝐀𝐌𝐄 𝐓𝐈𝐌𝐄?? The way they thought and behaved was not overcompensated by their accents. No bc each character had separate personalities and I love each of them.
LMFAO the word “arse”? just no. Can’t do that. But for the sake of my sanity, I ignored it here 🤡
𝐓𝐡𝐞𝐧 𝐭𝐡𝐞𝐫𝐞’𝐬 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐬𝐞𝐜𝐨𝐧𝐝 𝐜𝐡𝐚𝐧𝐜𝐞 𝐭𝐫𝐨𝐩𝐞 𝐰𝐡𝐢𝐜𝐡 𝐈 𝐝𝐨𝐧’𝐭 𝐮𝐬𝐮𝐚𝐥𝐥𝐲 𝐩𝐫𝐞𝐟𝐞𝐫. 𝐁𝐮𝐭 𝐈 𝐀𝐓𝐄 𝐢𝐭 𝐭𝐟 𝐮𝐩 𝐡𝐞𝐫𝐞 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐥𝐞𝐟𝐭 𝐧𝐨 𝐜𝐫𝐮𝐦𝐛𝐬. Like it was just so extra and it kept my attention all the damn time to the point where I hated the fact that I had to part with the book to sleep. 𝗧𝗵𝗲 𝘀𝗰𝗲𝗻𝗲𝘀 𝗷𝘂𝘀𝘁 𝗸𝗲𝗽𝘁 𝗽𝗹𝗮𝘆𝗶𝗻𝗴 𝗼𝗻 𝗮 𝗹𝗼𝗼𝗽 𝗶𝗻 𝗺𝘆 𝗵𝗲𝗮𝗱.
𝐈 𝐰𝐚𝐬 𝐡𝐚𝐥𝐟𝐰𝐚𝐲 𝐭𝐡𝐫𝐨𝐮𝐠𝐡 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐛𝐨𝐨𝐤 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐈 𝐰𝐚𝐧𝐭𝐞𝐝 𝐭𝐨 𝐫𝐞𝐫𝐞𝐚𝐝 𝐰𝐡𝐢𝐜𝐡 𝐢𝐬 𝐬𝐞𝐫𝐢𝐨𝐮𝐬𝐥𝐲 𝐦𝐞𝐬𝐬𝐞𝐝 𝐮𝐩 𝐜𝐨𝐧𝐬𝐢𝐝𝐞𝐫𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐜𝐨𝐧𝐭𝐞𝐧𝐭𝐬 𝐛𝐮𝐭 𝐢𝐝𝐜 𝐈’𝐦 𝐃𝐄𝐅𝐈𝐍𝐈𝐓𝐄𝐋𝐘 𝐫𝐞𝐫𝐞𝐚𝐝𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐭𝐡𝐢𝐬.
Lmfao I know I’m undecided about most things but I usually know my preferences… well knew them?? Frankly, It had a compilation of all the tropes I avoid. But when I say that these kinds of tropes have to be done well for me to like them a SMIDGE?? Yeah, the authors outdone herself with the writing.
𝐓𝐡𝐞𝐫𝐞 𝐰𝐚𝐬𝐧’𝐭 𝐚 𝐒𝐈𝐍𝐆𝐋𝐄 𝐝𝐫𝐲 𝐩𝐚𝐠𝐞 𝐢𝐧 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐞𝐧𝐭𝐢𝐫𝐞 𝐛𝐨𝐨𝐤. Every single interaction held my interest. 𝐲𝐤 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐩𝐚𝐫𝐭𝐬 𝐭𝐡𝐚𝐭 𝐝𝐨𝐧’𝐭 𝐡𝐚𝐯𝐞 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐌𝐌𝐂𝐬 𝐭𝐨𝐠𝐞𝐭𝐡𝐞𝐫 𝐢𝐧 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐬𝐚𝐦𝐞 𝐜𝐡𝐚𝐩𝐭𝐞𝐫?? 𝐘𝐞𝐚𝐡, 𝐞𝐯𝐞𝐧 𝐭𝐡𝐚𝐭 𝐰𝐚𝐬𝐧’𝐭 𝐛𝐨𝐫𝐢𝐧𝐠. I’m telling you It didn’t even feel like I was reading at that point. I was simply there living with them.
It’s made me FEEL emotions I never knew I had until now. Their pain was my pain. Their love was my love. Their happiness was my happiest moment. They broke, I cried. Yeah, it’s intense but it hurts so good.
𝐈𝐭’𝐬 𝐚 𝐬𝐢𝐜𝐤, 𝐭𝐰𝐢𝐬𝐭𝐞𝐝 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐩𝐚𝐢𝐧𝐟𝐮𝐥 𝐛𝐨𝐨𝐤 𝐛𝐮𝐭 𝐢𝐭’𝐬 𝐥𝐚𝐜𝐞𝐝 𝐰𝐢𝐭𝐡 𝐚 𝐜𝐨𝐧𝐬𝐢𝐝𝐞𝐫𝐚𝐛𝐥𝐞 𝐚𝐦𝐨𝐮𝐧𝐭 (𝐀 𝐅𝐔𝐂𝐊 𝐓𝐎𝐍) 𝐨𝐟 𝐥𝐨𝐯𝐞 𝐢𝐧 𝐭𝐡𝐞𝐫𝐞. They’re both fully aware of everything they’re doing but still do it which is the most annoying part. Each character is hypocritical and stupid. But…
I was 𝐋𝐈𝐕𝐈𝐍𝐆 for the small moments.
The fucking 𝐃𝐑𝐀𝐌𝐀.
𝐓𝐡𝐞 𝐭𝐨𝐱𝐢𝐜𝐢𝐭𝐲.
The found family.
The dysfunctional relationships.
The 𝐅𝐔𝐂𝐊𝐈𝐍𝐆 drama???
The will they won’t they.
The burning desire to know 𝑾𝑯𝑶 𝑻𝑭 𝑾𝑰𝑳𝑳 𝑺𝑴𝑨𝑪𝑲 𝑻𝑯𝑬𝑰𝑹 𝑮𝑶𝑹𝑮𝑬𝑶𝑼𝑺 𝑭𝑨𝑪𝑬𝑺 𝑨𝑵𝑫 𝑴𝑨𝑲𝑬 𝑻𝑯𝑬𝑴 𝑺𝑬𝑬 𝑺𝑻𝑹𝑨𝑰𝑮𝑯𝑻?!
Also! I love the outfits and Magnolia’s fashion sense so much. She reminded me of Rose Calloway in a way. 𝐓𝐡𝐞𝐢𝐫 𝐞𝐧𝐞𝐫𝐠𝐲 💅✨✨
𝐎𝐌𝐅𝐆 𝐌𝐀𝐆𝐍𝐎𝐋𝐈𝐀 𝐘𝐎𝐔 𝐀𝐑𝐄 𝐓𝐇𝐄 𝐌𝐎𝐒𝐓 𝐄𝐌𝐎𝐓𝐈𝐎𝐍𝐀𝐋𝐋𝐘 𝐂𝐎𝐍𝐅𝐋𝐈𝐂𝐓𝐄𝐃 𝐂𝐇𝐀𝐑𝐀𝐂𝐓𝐄𝐑 𝐈’𝐕𝐄 𝐄𝐕𝐄𝐑 𝐌𝐄𝐓. It’s so fucking aggravating what she does. But then I feel for her as well. Fuck. She’s so flawed and her relationships with the other characters are so intricately woven that I feel like I, myself, can’t ever untangle from them never mind her lmao.
𝐁𝐉 𝐁𝐀𝐋𝐋𝐀𝐍𝐓𝐈𝐍𝐄 𝐖𝐇𝐀𝐓 𝐇𝐀𝐕𝐄 𝐘𝐎𝐔 𝐃𝐎𝐍𝐄?! I’m trusting in Nikki to put my trust in BJ and I believe that he’s gonna redeem himself somehow in the next books. But fuck knows how upset I am. 𝐋𝐢𝐤𝐞 𝐈’𝐦 𝐡𝐞𝐚𝐫𝐭𝐛𝐫𝐨𝐤𝐞𝐧 𝐰𝐢𝐭𝐡 𝐡𝐢𝐦. 𝐅𝐨𝐫 𝐡𝐢𝐦. 𝑩𝒆𝒄𝒂𝒖𝒔𝒆 𝐨𝐟 𝐡𝐢𝐦. 𝐈𝐭’𝐬 𝐚𝐥𝐥 𝐚𝐫𝐨𝐮𝐧𝐝 𝐦𝐞𝐬𝐬𝐞𝐝 𝐮𝐩. Every time he’d fuck up I just wanted to combust bc I knew how much it was gonna break magnolia when she found out and- UGH.
But I care for him too bc he loved parks and no one else. 𝗔𝗳𝘁𝗲𝗿 𝗲𝘃𝗲𝗿𝘆𝘁𝗵𝗶𝗻𝗴, 𝗶𝘁 𝘄𝗮𝘀 𝗮𝗹𝘄𝗮𝘆𝘀 𝗵𝗲𝗿 𝗶𝗻 𝗵𝗶𝘀 𝗵𝗲𝗮𝗿𝘁 𝗻𝗼 𝗺𝗮𝘁𝘁𝗲𝗿 𝗳𝘂𝗰𝗸𝗶𝗻𝗴 𝘄𝗵𝗮𝘁. I mean he made his body a canvas of tattoos where each one relates to the love of his life. That’s pretty telling. 𝐇𝐞’𝐬 𝐟𝐮𝐜𝐤𝐞𝐝 𝐮𝐩 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐡𝐚𝐬 𝐧𝐞𝐱𝐭-𝐥𝐞𝐯𝐞𝐥 𝐢𝐬𝐬𝐮𝐞𝐬 𝐛𝐮𝐭 𝐈’𝐦 𝐚𝐭𝐭𝐚𝐜𝐡𝐞𝐝 𝐭𝐨 𝐡𝐢𝐦 (ง'̀-'́)ง
𝗔𝗹𝘀𝗼 𝗧𝗼𝗺?? 𝗛𝗔𝗛𝗔𝗛𝗔 𝘁𝗵𝗲𝗿𝗲'𝘀 𝗮 𝗿𝗲𝗮𝘀𝗼𝗻 𝗻𝗶𝗰𝗲 𝗴𝘂𝘆𝘀 𝗳𝗶𝗻𝗶𝘀𝗵 𝗹𝗮𝘀𝘁, 𝗵𝗼𝗻𝗲𝘆.
𝗦𝗼 𝗳𝗶𝗻𝗮𝗹 𝘃𝗲𝗿𝗱𝗶𝗰𝘁?? 𝙄 𝙡𝙤𝙫𝙚𝙙 𝙞𝙩. Idgaf, these two better be endgame or else 🔪
𝐁𝐚𝐬𝐢𝐜𝐚𝐥𝐥𝐲, 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐜𝐚𝐧 𝐞𝐢𝐭𝐡𝐞𝐫 𝐥𝐨𝐯𝐞 𝐢𝐭 𝐨𝐫 𝐡𝐚𝐭𝐞 𝐢𝐭. Let’s be honest if you know toxic relationships and the cheating trope is not your thing just don’t read it. If you’re looking for a solid plot, you won’t find one here. I’m a character development girly and the plot isn’t important to me. I’ve warned you.
𝐄𝐯𝐞𝐫𝐲𝐨𝐧𝐞 𝐞𝐥𝐬𝐞, 𝐫𝐞𝐚𝐝 𝐢𝐭 𝐛𝐮𝐭 𝐠𝐨 𝐢𝐧 𝐰𝐢𝐭𝐡 𝐚𝐧 𝐨𝐩𝐞𝐧 𝐦𝐢𝐧𝐝, 𝐡𝐞𝐚𝐫𝐭 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐟𝐮𝐜𝐤𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐬𝐨𝐮𝐥 <3
𝐈𝐌𝐏𝐎𝐑𝐓𝐀𝐍𝐓!! Don’t blame me if you don’t like it. I’m fragile.
𝐀𝐧𝐝 𝐩𝐥𝐬 𝐫𝐞𝐚𝐝 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐓𝐖𝐬 𝐛𝐞𝐟𝐨𝐫𝐞.
𝗦𝗶𝗱𝗲 𝗻𝗼𝘁𝗲:
If I see 𝕋ℍ𝔸𝕋 𝔹𝕀𝕋ℂℍ in the streets just know it’s on 𝑺𝑰𝑮𝑯𝑻 🔪
𝐀𝐥𝐬𝐨, 𝐈 𝐣𝐮𝐬𝐭 𝐫𝐞𝐚𝐥𝐢𝐬𝐞𝐝 𝐭𝐡𝐢𝐬 𝐢𝐬 𝐦𝐲 𝟓𝟎𝟎𝐭𝐡 𝐛𝐨𝐨𝐤 𝐨���� 𝐆𝐑!!
𝗦����𝗻𝗴𝘀: 🎧
*takes glasses off and pinches the bridge of my nose*
“Fucking character limit!“
(It’s gonna be in the comments section if any of you care about this section <3 )
𝗙𝗮𝘃 𝗤𝘂𝗼𝘁𝗲𝘀:
(This is ALSO gonna be in the comments if any of you care about this section <3 )
𝗕𝗼𝗼𝗸𝘀 𝘄𝗶𝘁𝗵 𝘀𝗶𝗺𝗶𝗹𝗮𝗿 𝘃𝗶𝗯𝗲𝘀:
Normal people by Sally Rooney
August 14, 2022
♾/10 UMM????? infinity doesn’t even cut it.
how’s the weather, parks?
quite gloomy after finishing this book!
i’m obsessed. i’m in love. this universe is my new personality and i’ve only read BOOK 1?? SOS. parks & beej have ruined me but in the best way. they remind me of a mini chuck & blair, so i’m immediately in. gossip girl.. but make it ✨london✨
DAISYCHRISTIAN ARE ALREADY MY FAVS THO SO THE NEXT BOOK IS GONNA OWN ME.
“I’ve had the best life being fucked up by you.” 🐝
how’s the weather, parks?
quite gloomy after finishing this book!
i’m obsessed. i’m in love. this universe is my new personality and i’ve only read BOOK 1?? SOS. parks & beej have ruined me but in the best way. they remind me of a mini chuck & blair, so i’m immediately in. gossip girl.. but make it ✨london✨
DAISYCHRISTIAN ARE ALREADY MY FAVS THO SO THE NEXT BOOK IS GONNA OWN ME.
“I’ve had the best life being fucked up by you.” 🐝
December 18, 2023
”How’s the weather, Parks?”
☀️🌦️⛈️🌩️
THIS HAD NO BUSINESS BEING AS GOOD AS IT WAS
I am a WH0RE for drama. And this book delivered. I am speechless.
Literally every single character in this book is messed up. Except Bridget I love her she calls them out on their shit.
They were all such awful people but you can’t help but feel so sorry for them and root for them it makes no sense but it makes sense okay?!
”He’s a time bomb for me, do you see now? That he’ll hurt me. He’ll always hurt me. I’ll never be safe with him, even if I’m always safe next to him.”
I’m so mad at BJ right now I feel like he personally hurt me lmao but I also just want him to be okay because he is so clearly not okay and it’s so heartbreaking to read.
”I’ll love him ’til I die, love him ’til it consumes me whole and kills me dead—so maybe love doesn’t conquer all but just some.”
Magnolia is so flawed but she’s also so fragile and I get her so much. She frustrated me at times but it doesn’t last long because she’s really just hurting and you can feel how much it’s all affecting her. She definitely makes questionable decisions but so does everyone else around her (I’m especially looking at you BJ). She’s also practically Blair Waldorf so I immediately have to stan.
But also I hated that whole friend group at times!! At first I was like why are they not helping them figure out their shit then I realized it’s because each one of them is more messed up than the rest. Did i love it though? Absolutely.
”I loved him. Really loved him. To the bone, I loved him. Cut me and I'd bleed him.”
This book is so beautifully written and the love portrayed is so powerful and earth shattering, yet so broken and ugly. It just feels so real to me.
BJ and Parks reminded me so much of Lily and Lo at times so I automatically had a soft spot for them sorry but so not sorry.
”I love you, he blinks. Prove it, I sigh.”
This isn’t some black and white story. It’s painful and you definitely feel like you’re being pulled in one direction then the other like why is his entire body filled with tattoos for her and why does he have her entire week schedule memorized in his head and why is she all he thinks about and yearns for but yet he continues to hurt her every chance he gets?? WHY
”There are all sorts of love in this world and mine is killing me, I think.”
I honestly did not expect this book to make me feel ALL THESE EMOTIONS but I am a broken mess. I still feel like I have so much to process. I may have pulled out some of my hair and had my heart skip a couple beats and drop outta my ass but this was incredible.
☀️🌦️⛈️🌩️
THIS HAD NO BUSINESS BEING AS GOOD AS IT WAS
I am a WH0RE for drama. And this book delivered. I am speechless.
Literally every single character in this book is messed up. Except Bridget I love her she calls them out on their shit.
They were all such awful people but you can’t help but feel so sorry for them and root for them it makes no sense but it makes sense okay?!
”He’s a time bomb for me, do you see now? That he’ll hurt me. He’ll always hurt me. I’ll never be safe with him, even if I’m always safe next to him.”
I’m so mad at BJ right now I feel like he personally hurt me lmao but I also just want him to be okay because he is so clearly not okay and it’s so heartbreaking to read.
”I’ll love him ’til I die, love him ’til it consumes me whole and kills me dead—so maybe love doesn’t conquer all but just some.”
Magnolia is so flawed but she’s also so fragile and I get her so much. She frustrated me at times but it doesn’t last long because she’s really just hurting and you can feel how much it’s all affecting her. She definitely makes questionable decisions but so does everyone else around her (I’m especially looking at you BJ). She’s also practically Blair Waldorf so I immediately have to stan.
But also I hated that whole friend group at times!! At first I was like why are they not helping them figure out their shit then I realized it’s because each one of them is more messed up than the rest. Did i love it though? Absolutely.
”I loved him. Really loved him. To the bone, I loved him. Cut me and I'd bleed him.”
This book is so beautifully written and the love portrayed is so powerful and earth shattering, yet so broken and ugly. It just feels so real to me.
BJ and Parks reminded me so much of Lily and Lo at times so I automatically had a soft spot for them sorry but so not sorry.
”I love you, he blinks. Prove it, I sigh.”
This isn’t some black and white story. It’s painful and you definitely feel like you’re being pulled in one direction then the other like why is his entire body filled with tattoos for her and why does he have her entire week schedule memorized in his head and why is she all he thinks about and yearns for but yet he continues to hurt her every chance he gets?? WHY
”There are all sorts of love in this world and mine is killing me, I think.”
I honestly did not expect this book to make me feel ALL THESE EMOTIONS but I am a broken mess. I still feel like I have so much to process. I may have pulled out some of my hair and had my heart skip a couple beats and drop outta my ass but this was incredible.
”Can you die from a broken heart, do you know? And if I did and they cut me wide open, would I bleed loving him?”
🐝🌳❤️🩹
September 3, 2022
I can enjoy toxic romance but this is badly written, boring, repetitive and ship with no chemistry ...yeah waste of my time. BJ has to be one of most annoying character I ever read about, I won't continue reading this.
June 13, 2024
2.5⭐️ oh I get it!! we are supposed to read this book so we know what a toxic relationship looks like to avoid it all costs 🥰🥰
~ “Who will be your maid of honour—me or Paili?”
I give her a look. “We just started dating.”
“Yeah,” she says, “but he’s the one.”
Is “the one” in the room with us? Is that sarcasm 🙃? Is “the one” the same BJ in this book?? Tom is clearly “the one” to everyone who possesses proper thinking abilities
~ “Hello,” I grin at the shop girl—give her what Parks calls “the magic smile.” Girls do weird shit when I flash them the magic smile. One time a girl fainted.”
why does every character sound like this but none of them acts it or are actually like this- just Tom had a bit of an impressive lifestyle but even his personality was boring.
So much back and forth, I thought there would be no closure as Bridge pointed out, no fixing of toxic patterns. Cycles are bound to be repeated. Jessa clearly knows the relationship is everything that is toxic and wrong with codependency and infidelity and wishes it to remain how it is, everyone accept it or go find something better. I strongly recommend you go find something better.
***
when you see this on your homepage, tell me whether I should or shouldn't read this series 👀
~ “Who will be your maid of honour—me or Paili?”
I give her a look. “We just started dating.”
“Yeah,” she says, “but he’s the one.”
Is “the one” in the room with us? Is that sarcasm 🙃? Is “the one” the same BJ in this book?? Tom is clearly “the one” to everyone who possesses proper thinking abilities
~ “Hello,” I grin at the shop girl—give her what Parks calls “the magic smile.” Girls do weird shit when I flash them the magic smile. One time a girl fainted.”
why does every character sound like this but none of them acts it or are actually like this- just Tom had a bit of an impressive lifestyle but even his personality was boring.
So much back and forth, I thought there would be no closure as Bridge pointed out, no fixing of toxic patterns. Cycles are bound to be repeated. Jessa clearly knows the relationship is everything that is toxic and wrong with codependency and infidelity and wishes it to remain how it is, everyone accept it or go find something better. I strongly recommend you go find something better.
***
when you see this on your homepage, tell me whether I should or shouldn't read this series 👀
December 17, 2023
i have a lot of regrets .. jail to the person who recommended me this book you will answer for your crimes
February 4, 2024
“Can you die from a broken heart, do you know? And if I did and they cut me wide open, would I bleed loving him?”
The rumours are true, this is the British version of Gossip Girl in a book. It's messy, the characters are imperfect, it's full of drama and toxic behaviour 24/7 and I LOVED it. I was honestly expecting to hate this book, but I was really living for the drama. Gossip Girl will always be superior in my eyes but this does come close to replicating the feeling of that show.
I was so conflicted about how I felt for the majority of this book, it's unlike anything else I've read. It was a turmoil of emotions from laughing fits, blushing, anxiety, yelling/screaming and wanting to peg the book across the room (more time spent feeling the latter). It was so toxic but I ate it up 😩 While I did predict the ending early on, nothing could stop my stomach drop watching it unfold.
“How many loves do you get in a lifetime? I remember wondering that. How many people will look at me like he does, not just like I’m the sun but like I’m the whole god damn universe.”
Keep in mind this is fiction. Jessa's writing is stunning and it really does romanticise the toxic behaviour. Her ability to capture emotions is jarring and really puts you in the place of the characters. It is easy to get swept up in this book and in my case, make you question yourself for sympathising with these characters 🤭 I lived for the drama but if Magnolia was my best friend I would be telling her to run so fast 🏃♀️💨🚩 For once I can say I'm so glad I'm not the one living in this book.
“He's killing me. Loving him is killing me too, and I'm afraid because how many loves really, do you get in a lifetime? How many chances do you give it before you let it go?”
I'm fairly impartial to the couples at the moment, I mainly enjoyed the drama but I am hoping for some redemption and character development. The toxic nature of this can get a little repetitive which stopped me from giving it 5 stars. At the moment a lot of the characters are surface level and could do with some depth over the course of the series.
I knew what I was getting myself into when I started this series and it delivered mostly everything I was expecting from it. This is not a series I would recommend to everyone as you will either love/enjoy it or HATE it. If you loved Chuck and Blair at their most toxic state, you will probably enjoy this. This has some heavy themes and it will likely trigger you (it did me at points) but I still loved it.
I'll summarise my thoughts on the characters so far below but I suspect this will change as they develop over the series:
Beej needs to be checked into a facility. I really want to love this man but his nasty 🍑 is making it hard for me to do that. One minute I find him sweet and the next I want to reach into the book and slap him 🤡 You know what you did.
“The lights go off and she stares at me through the darkness a few seconds longer, and I love her in the dark. I mean, fuck it— I down and out love her in all spectrums of light, even the absence of it.”
Mags is literally Blair Waldorf and I kind of love her despite her being messy and self-destructive. She is the moment, she's iconic, she's the it girl. She makes terrible decisions the majority of the time and probably should be in counselling but she delivers queen behaviour 💅 She honestly deserves better. I won't make excuses for her but I want to give her a hug because that inner monologue in the last two chapters? It was written from my own head I swear. Reading her story with Beej was like a train wreck, you knew the impact was coming but you couldn't look away. I couldn't help but secretly root for them through most of this book despite it defying all logic and common sense.
“I remember it, like a physical punch in the gut, how much I loved him. Really loved him. To the bone, loved him. Cut me and I’d bleed him. How much I needed him, still needed him, would forever, always, never couldn’t even if I tried, needed him.”
Christian was a toddler chucking a tantrum for 90% of this book. He needs to stop his whining and get his own gf. Without knowing the backstory, it just seemed like he had a real sense of entitlement and knew what he was getting himself into but then tried to point the figure when the inevitable happened.
Jonah you're a piece of 💩.
Henry and Bridget are the only voices of reason in this book. Henry should probably find better friends, while he does stick up for people during this book he also enables some bad behaviour as well. Bridget is my fave, consider taking up a career as a psychologist babes because you've been putting in work with this lot.
Tom England you can be my bf baby, I want you 😍 I see what you were doing but I can't blame the man. Also, the thing with his brother's wife? bit weird..
Daisy was only in this book very briefly. I thought she was kind of rude at the beginning but the second appearance had me on her side, she really put that man on blast in front of everyone (he deserved it) 🗣️
I can't wait to continue this series, I've got the popcorn out and I'm ready for all the drama 🤗🍿
⎯⎯ ୨ Pre-review: ୧ ⎯⎯
girlies it’s finally happening 🫣
bc I love the drama tell me who your fave couple is if you’ve read this series 👀👀
August 19, 2022
Is no one gonna comment on how the love interest is named after a BLOWJOB (BJ)?!
May 31, 2024
*＊✿❀🐝 5 stars 🐝❀✿＊*
i ate this up like it was my last meal and i was severely malnourished.
these characters are insufferable, selfish, and beyond toxic. i love them with my entire heart.
°•. ✿ .•° “everything wonderful, everything magical, everything painful, everything beautiful and spectacular and wretched and defining that has happened to me happened with him.
and i hate him for that.”
this series is going to destroy me, i fear.
°•. ✿ .•° “cut me and i’ll bleed him.” ❤️🩹
don’t get me wrong – no one should ever, EVER treat each other the way bj and magnolia do. this drama is only good because it’s fiction. there are so many red flags, you would have to be blind to miss them. 🚩
°•. ✿ .•° “the problem with me and Parks is, i think we love each other more than ourselves. again, that sounds romantic but it’s not –”
(at least they’re self-aware of their destructive behavior.)
genuinely one of the most addicting books i’ve ever read. 🐝
i ate this up like it was my last meal and i was severely malnourished.
these characters are insufferable, selfish, and beyond toxic. i love them with my entire heart.
°•. ✿ .•° “everything wonderful, everything magical, everything painful, everything beautiful and spectacular and wretched and defining that has happened to me happened with him.
and i hate him for that.”
this series is going to destroy me, i fear.
°•. ✿ .•° “cut me and i’ll bleed him.” ❤️🩹
don’t get me wrong – no one should ever, EVER treat each other the way bj and magnolia do. this drama is only good because it’s fiction. there are so many red flags, you would have to be blind to miss them. 🚩
°•. ✿ .•° “the problem with me and Parks is, i think we love each other more than ourselves. again, that sounds romantic but it’s not –”
(at least they’re self-aware of their destructive behavior.)
genuinely one of the most addicting books i’ve ever read. 🐝
October 3, 2024
BJ you were pathetic and Magnolia please for the love of god stand up 😐🙏🏼
December 11, 2022
this is just super rich kids by frank ocean but novelized. i enjoyed the friendship and the drama of it all. a lot of people don’t like Magnolia but i like her! i just felt like the back and forth for 400 pages was like unnecessary, the author could’ve cut the book down especially for the fact that it had no plot. like a good portion of the middle should’ve been cut out. anyways very entertaining to say the least! maybe i’m heartless cus everyone was saying how they cried but i was gasping and giggling the whole book. that ending had me GAGGED. this book is gossip girl meets euphoria but new adult and on crack
May 7, 2023
dnf at 51%
i want to throat punch every character in this book
i want to throat punch every character in this book
September 16, 2024
4.25 stars
How do you even review this?! This book was such a dramatic toxic mess. it consumed me completely. It almost feels contradictory how I review this as it also had me question my own judgement and left me frustrated—but I ate this entirely up
“i know that some love is beautiful, and some is freeing, some unravels you, some love poisons you, some blinds you, some betters you, and some loves break you in invisible ways that no one else knows about until you have to stand up and the weight of your love crushes your bones.”
This honestly felt like a reality tv version of gossip girl but make it London with affluence, wit and humor. I’ve never read a book filled with such drama that feels realistic given all the context within it and trust that I’m still reeling given how it all unfolded
Bj and magnolia? Don’t go into this book thinking they’re the epitome of a healthy relationship because it wasn't. They were an absolute train wreck you couldn't look away from, with the kind of love that shouldn’t be romanticized—yet some small part of you will maybe root for them to see where it’ll go or end. They both made such questionable choices that I found myself so dazed, driven insane by and left so conflicted because they’re both so complex and their love even more as you’re reminded of just how much their love hurts but also how deep it runs. They also couldn’t communicate properly for the life of them so I was just left loving and hating it all as the drama felt like such a force between them which was evident by their actions. Their codependency goes such a long way that I hope they grow from it. And I can’t place all the blame on bj as they both hurt each other and it was so heartbreaking as it was insufferable to see. I’d love to lock them up for infinite sessions of therapy
magnolias character somehow felt personal to me and I can only say that she needed plenty of sense knocked into her with how permissive she was and how she’d bolt from her problems. I can’t say she was a doormat as I’ve seen some mention that here because she’d do the same thing bj did despite that not looking the same. Especially since she was so consumed by the love she’s always known but nonetheless so aware of what it was doing to her. there were moments where I was equally annoyed with her as I was with bj yet my heart broke for her and understood her all the same. Her witt and neurotic self definitely gives her character so much life and her interest for fashion was also quite notable lol
I can’t begin to tell you how wound up bj had me as he continuously kept hurting magnolia as he did. this man had me annoyed with him yet feeling bad for him all at once?? It’s clear he loves her but his decisions could make that seem questionable. he’s also aware of his actions and the pain they inflict —yet defies them. He had the audacity to get mad at her when he was the one constantly messing up. It’s difficult to explain how I’d like to see him redeem himself given what I thought about him here and after that ending.. I mean talk about pain and fucked up choices 😵💫 but I was told things aren't as they seem consider me intrigued 😅
I’m probably in the minority who liked tom even though I was questioning my feelings about him as well with the situation going on with him as it was quite toxic
Bridget and Henry are the voices of reason in this as they don’t hold back in telling bj and magnolia how toxic their relationship is and I was living for it. Especially as Bridget’s a psychology major which btw I have a minor in so I was making my own psycho analysis 😂 I’d love for both of them to have their own book (lowkey being together as well) I just know it’ll be the most fun. The whole friend group mostly (save for a few) were also a mess but I liked the dynamics. Small mention of gus but the little we got of him in this was hilarious as hell to me.
My emotions were all tangled up with this book. The writing mostly pulled me into this story and it was exceptionally beautiful as it was entertaining. The banter fueled me and the angst? Entirely there. I was seriously emotionally invested here and I can't imagine how it'll be with the rest of the series. I can see how this book isn’t for everyone as I still wonder why was I entirely consumed by it. Either way, I’m glad I gave it a chance despite the polarizing reviews I’ve seen. For some of those interested in reading this—know that you’re in for a rollercoaster of emotions that you’ll find yourself at odds with how you feel about these characters.
Thanks to Jess for influencing me and letting me blow up your messages. I hope you’re happy 🫶🏼
some fav quotes
“I remember it, like a physical punch in the gut, how much I loved him. Really loved him. To the bone, I loved him. Cut me and I'd bleed him. How much I needed him, still need him, would forever, always, never couldn't, even if I tried, needed him.”
“The lights go off and she stares at me through the darkness a few seconds longer, and I love her in the dark. I mean, fuck it—I down and out love her in all spectrums of light, even the absence of it.”
“There are all sorts of loves in this world, I know that now. I don’t know it completely—it’s not a full moon of knowing just yet, maybe at best I’m at the waxing crescent of understanding what I can about love. They say it conquers all, but does it? Can it even? All is so vast.”
“How's the weather over there Parks?” “Warm enough,” “How’s the weather over there, Beej? “Clear skies.” Love bc of how unique this was
“And I wonder what love is like for other people… Is love for everyone wordless exchanges and a million memories that fuck you up to the bone?”
“You know how there are a key few moments in your life that stand out, like, your first kiss, and the first time you realise your parents are just people too and hearing Coldplay’s “The Scientist” for the first time and falling over and really fucking up your knee, like your first hospital visit, all that shit—meeting Parks is one of them for me.” I loved this
“The most beautiful boy in every room, the great love of my life—how many loves do you get in a lifetime? I remember wondering that. How many people will look at me like he does, not just like I’m the sun but like I’m the whole god damn universe.”
“Our bodies grew up together.”
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Am I surprised by my rating? Yes, I thought it would’ve been 2-3 stars. rtc whenever I can put into words my scattered thoughts 😭 the ending left me baffled but at least I got the drama I wanted, right?
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Here because of the messy drama I know this brings, but mostly here for Jess who influenced me
How do you even review this?! This book was such a dramatic toxic mess. it consumed me completely. It almost feels contradictory how I review this as it also had me question my own judgement and left me frustrated—but I ate this entirely up
“i know that some love is beautiful, and some is freeing, some unravels you, some love poisons you, some blinds you, some betters you, and some loves break you in invisible ways that no one else knows about until you have to stand up and the weight of your love crushes your bones.”
This honestly felt like a reality tv version of gossip girl but make it London with affluence, wit and humor. I’ve never read a book filled with such drama that feels realistic given all the context within it and trust that I’m still reeling given how it all unfolded
Bj and magnolia? Don’t go into this book thinking they’re the epitome of a healthy relationship because it wasn't. They were an absolute train wreck you couldn't look away from, with the kind of love that shouldn’t be romanticized—yet some small part of you will maybe root for them to see where it’ll go or end. They both made such questionable choices that I found myself so dazed, driven insane by and left so conflicted because they’re both so complex and their love even more as you’re reminded of just how much their love hurts but also how deep it runs. They also couldn’t communicate properly for the life of them so I was just left loving and hating it all as the drama felt like such a force between them which was evident by their actions. Their codependency goes such a long way that I hope they grow from it. And I can’t place all the blame on bj as they both hurt each other and it was so heartbreaking as it was insufferable to see. I’d love to lock them up for infinite sessions of therapy
magnolias character somehow felt personal to me and I can only say that she needed plenty of sense knocked into her with how permissive she was and how she’d bolt from her problems. I can’t say she was a doormat as I’ve seen some mention that here because she’d do the same thing bj did despite that not looking the same. Especially since she was so consumed by the love she’s always known but nonetheless so aware of what it was doing to her. there were moments where I was equally annoyed with her as I was with bj yet my heart broke for her and understood her all the same. Her witt and neurotic self definitely gives her character so much life and her interest for fashion was also quite notable lol
I can’t begin to tell you how wound up bj had me as he continuously kept hurting magnolia as he did. this man had me annoyed with him yet feeling bad for him all at once?? It’s clear he loves her but his decisions could make that seem questionable. he’s also aware of his actions and the pain they inflict —yet defies them. He had the audacity to get mad at her when he was the one constantly messing up. It’s difficult to explain how I’d like to see him redeem himself given what I thought about him here and after that ending.. I mean talk about pain and fucked up choices 😵💫 but I was told things aren't as they seem consider me intrigued 😅
I’m probably in the minority who liked tom even though I was questioning my feelings about him as well with the situation going on with him as it was quite toxic
Bridget and Henry are the voices of reason in this as they don’t hold back in telling bj and magnolia how toxic their relationship is and I was living for it. Especially as Bridget’s a psychology major which btw I have a minor in so I was making my own psycho analysis 😂 I’d love for both of them to have their own book (lowkey being together as well) I just know it’ll be the most fun. The whole friend group mostly (save for a few) were also a mess but I liked the dynamics. Small mention of gus but the little we got of him in this was hilarious as hell to me.
My emotions were all tangled up with this book. The writing mostly pulled me into this story and it was exceptionally beautiful as it was entertaining. The banter fueled me and the angst? Entirely there. I was seriously emotionally invested here and I can't imagine how it'll be with the rest of the series. I can see how this book isn’t for everyone as I still wonder why was I entirely consumed by it. Either way, I’m glad I gave it a chance despite the polarizing reviews I’ve seen. For some of those interested in reading this—know that you’re in for a rollercoaster of emotions that you’ll find yourself at odds with how you feel about these characters.
Thanks to Jess for influencing me and letting me blow up your messages. I hope you’re happy 🫶🏼
some fav quotes
“I remember it, like a physical punch in the gut, how much I loved him. Really loved him. To the bone, I loved him. Cut me and I'd bleed him. How much I needed him, still need him, would forever, always, never couldn't, even if I tried, needed him.”
“The lights go off and she stares at me through the darkness a few seconds longer, and I love her in the dark. I mean, fuck it—I down and out love her in all spectrums of light, even the absence of it.”
“There are all sorts of loves in this world, I know that now. I don’t know it completely—it’s not a full moon of knowing just yet, maybe at best I’m at the waxing crescent of understanding what I can about love. They say it conquers all, but does it? Can it even? All is so vast.”
“How's the weather over there Parks?” “Warm enough,” “How’s the weather over there, Beej? “Clear skies.” Love bc of how unique this was
“And I wonder what love is like for other people… Is love for everyone wordless exchanges and a million memories that fuck you up to the bone?”
“You know how there are a key few moments in your life that stand out, like, your first kiss, and the first time you realise your parents are just people too and hearing Coldplay’s “The Scientist” for the first time and falling over and really fucking up your knee, like your first hospital visit, all that shit—meeting Parks is one of them for me.” I loved this
“The most beautiful boy in every room, the great love of my life—how many loves do you get in a lifetime? I remember wondering that. How many people will look at me like he does, not just like I’m the sun but like I’m the whole god damn universe.”
“Our bodies grew up together.”
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Am I surprised by my rating? Yes, I thought it would’ve been 2-3 stars. rtc whenever I can put into words my scattered thoughts 😭 the ending left me baffled but at least I got the drama I wanted, right?
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Here because of the messy drama I know this brings, but mostly here for Jess who influenced me
April 16, 2023
THE ENDING, HELLO??????
this was toxic as all hell and magnolia/bj need therapy urgently, because they’re dynamic is alarming LMAO
still ate it up though👀
this was toxic as all hell and magnolia/bj need therapy urgently, because they’re dynamic is alarming LMAO
still ate it up though👀
February 19, 2024
“How many loves do you get in a lifetime? I remember wondering that. How many people will look at me like he does, not just like I’m the sun but like I’m the whole god damn universe.”
🎧 'You get me so high' by The Neighbourhood
THIS. DAMN. BOOK.
I have never read such an infuriating, heartbreaking, frustrating book in my life with the most toxic and insane characters ever. It’s so addictive and like an addict I'm obsessed with Magnolia Parks Universe. You all just wait and see me devour this series and inject these words in my brain, soul, heart and blood. The drama in this book was Chef's kiss 🤌🏻 It's a wild roller coaster of emotions and it had me questioning my sanity because I love Beej and Parks so much. I have never read a book filled with this much drama and angst and I absolutely loved every second of it even though it was heart wrenching. If you are looking for a cutesy romantic book with unrealistic standards and stories then please go away and never come back to this series ever again. The story is real, raw and realistic and infuriating at most times and sometimes it will make you go cry like a baby and other times it will make you go mad and kill these characters with your own hands just to stop this pain and trauma. It's funny how this series is about traumatised rich people yet they still refuse to get therapy.
Jessa's haunting and the mesmerising writing had me hooked from the very first page. It took me quite some time to get used to the british slangs and her writing style but it was all worth it. Her ability to write the most dysfunctional couple and the most toxic characters was really tempting. It was physically hard for me put this book down and take a break even though Bj and Magnolia made me suffered throught a lot of emotions and most of them were just pain and sufferings and a little bit of admiration for the way they loved each other which is NOT ROMANTIC but I'm still a goner for them. I also liked the found family trope even tho they are just a bunch of toxic co-dependent people.
I was so ready to hate this book and I was hating it while reading it but somewhere along Bj and Magnolia's toxic and destructive story I found a different meaning and connotation of love. I would never say their love is the best kind because it's toxic, maladjusted and dysfunctional but it's also real and heart-aching and soulmatism kind of love. I could go on about how they should not be together and how they should just move on from each other but it's just my perspective of their story. They are born to be together. Their actions cannot be justified as something romantic because this book is definitely not a perfect romance story about a perfect couple.
This is not a book for hopeless romantics and definitely not about hopeless romanctic people. It's about people who loved someone more than they loved themselves and it's both a tragedy and a blessing isn't it. It's about people who think that loving someone is not a waste even if loving them shattered their heart and soul in pieces. It's about giving and giving and giving until they are left all empty and they can't even take back the love they've given to that person. It's about people who can't move on because they've never not known the meaning of life without the other person. It's about two people who are fated to be together even if they destroy each other in that process and it's so annoying and irritating but it's the only truth about Beej and Parks. They can't separate themselves from their tangled mess of love, hatred, trauma, lies, truths, and infidelity. It's just how they function and it is so fucked up but It is what it is. They will either destroy each other or they will die getting what they should've had in the first place — their perfect happy life.
➸ 𝙈𝙖𝙜𝙣𝙤𝙡𝙞𝙖 𝙋𝙖𝙧𝙠𝙨
Daddy issues? Mommy issues? Boyfriend issues? Relationship issues? Magnolia has it all. There's something about her that makes every boy fall in love with her and it's messed up but understandable why she crave all the attention and love from men in her life. Sometimes all I just wanted was to hug her because she's been through a lot in her life and it's not fair to her. Magnolia didn't knew how to be alone. She never knew what being loved by a family meant and the closest thing to love she ever experienced was with Beej and her friends she now calls her family so it was reasonable for her to be dependent on Beej and again which is not very ideal behaviour but it's such a human thing to do. If it were me I would've done the same damn thing damn the consequences which is why I do not hate her for her choices. What I didn't liked about her was breaking Christian's heart. She's confused about who she loves and does not loves because all she ever wanted was attention and love from a boy but mostly from Bj who broke her, her heart and her trust only because HE WANTED TO?! (Will never forgive Jessa for this part 😭)
➸ 𝘽𝙅 𝘽���𝙡𝙡𝙚𝙣𝙩𝙞𝙣𝙚
His full name is BAXTER JAMES BALLENTINE??? Beej is a very complex character. I don't hate him but he's not very lovable type of person. His whole personality is just being rich and loving Magnolia parks to death while also dying loving her. It's so insane the way he loves her. He would break her trust again and again but he would never leave her alone. The only thing I liked about him was the past Beej before he destroyed their realtionship. He was everything to Parks and I loved reading those flashback scenes but present Beej is just so toxic and obsessed over Magnolia that it wouldn't matter to him if he's hurting her or not because that would only mean that she still has feelings for him. I know he can be better and but I don't know how he's gonna try to redeem himself in next book but I can't wait for his redemption arc. And he has 22 damn tattoos over his body only for Magnolia. Yeah, it's unhealthy obsession but I can't help but call this a romantic gesture.
╰┈➤ 𝙈𝙖𝙜𝙣𝙤𝙡𝙞𝙖 𝙖𝙣𝙙 𝘽𝙚𝙚𝙟 🐝🌧🎀🌩⚓️🌥⭐️
“London's most dysfunctional couple.”
How many loves do you get in a lifetime? Parks and Beej's love is once in a life time love. They push each other, they pull each other, they hurt each other, they love each other. It's the only way they know how to love one another. They have never not loved each other which is the biggest tragedy. I get it why they are like this and I also kind of hated their dynamics. I know what Beej can never be forgiven. Cheating is a choice and he knew what he was doing. But it's also true he can't change the past no matter how much he wants to. I get that this made Magnolia develop trust issues and it's not easy to forgive him and trust him again but they have to do something. They are stuck on a loop because of Beej's self sabotaging behaviour. Either move on from this fucked up definition of whatever they have in present or either get back together but they really need to stop this. Magnolia only feels safe by his side but he's also the only one destroying her life because he can't stop being a fucked up.
They are so messed up and it's insane. They are just playing this dangerous game of who's gonna give up first and its making me loose my goddamn mind because its not funny. Its heartbreaking, its maddening and its fucked up. He fucks up, she gets a new boyfriend to rile him up, he'll hate her new boyfriend and she would leave her boyfriend then and then its all normal between them. The push and pull and their heated agreements, their silent conversations, their need to make sure the other one was okay, their need to make everything fucked up in their life perfect — everything was a broken beautiful heartbreaking mess. I love the way they love each other and its fucked up but there's something about them that tugs at my heart strings. I am not a fan of toxic couple like them but I love them regardless.
➸ 𝘾𝙝𝙧𝙞𝙨𝙩𝙞𝙖𝙣 𝙃𝙚𝙢𝙢𝙚𝙨
I already adore this man so much and he needs to be protected at all costs.
➸ 𝘽𝙧𝙞𝙙𝙜𝙚𝙩 𝙋𝙖𝙧𝙠𝙨
The only normal, sensible and responsible character in this book who calls everyone out on their shit.
➸ 𝙃𝙚𝙣𝙧𝙮 𝘽𝙖𝙡𝙡𝙚𝙣𝙩𝙞𝙣𝙚
Greenest flag in their group. I kinda ship him with Bridget 🤭
➸ 𝙅𝙤𝙣𝙖𝙝 𝙃𝙚𝙢𝙢𝙚𝙨
Fixer of their group. Like him but he can be a little annoying sometimes.
➸ 𝙏𝙤𝙢 𝙀𝙣𝙜𝙡𝙖𝙣𝙙
Felt bad for him because he deserved better than Magnolia. He was so good to Magnolia and yes they had chemistry but I still wasn't invested in their fake relationship.
The ending broke my heart. I'm a broken mess and I don't think I'll ever recover from this book or the ending. Jessa why the hell did you do this to my fragile little heart 😭 Everything was going fine but then someone had to drop the bomb on my fucking heart. Honestly, I already saw it coming from miles away. Paili is a bitch and she can rot in hell and die for all I care. It wasn't shocking to me but definitely heartbreaking because I hated how everyone was lying to Magnolia.
Hoping for less pain and less toxicity in next book which is impossible but a girl can dream.
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Jessa take 🔪 this and pls use it to stab my heart because that would be less painful than this fucking book.
Rtc when i finally recover from the betrayals and heartbreaks 😔
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I want drama and all the pain in this world so here we go 🤸🏽♀️
🎧 'You get me so high' by The Neighbourhood
THIS. DAMN. BOOK.
I have never read such an infuriating, heartbreaking, frustrating book in my life with the most toxic and insane characters ever. It’s so addictive and like an addict I'm obsessed with Magnolia Parks Universe. You all just wait and see me devour this series and inject these words in my brain, soul, heart and blood. The drama in this book was Chef's kiss 🤌🏻 It's a wild roller coaster of emotions and it had me questioning my sanity because I love Beej and Parks so much. I have never read a book filled with this much drama and angst and I absolutely loved every second of it even though it was heart wrenching. If you are looking for a cutesy romantic book with unrealistic standards and stories then please go away and never come back to this series ever again. The story is real, raw and realistic and infuriating at most times and sometimes it will make you go cry like a baby and other times it will make you go mad and kill these characters with your own hands just to stop this pain and trauma. It's funny how this series is about traumatised rich people yet they still refuse to get therapy.
“You know how there are a key few moments in your life that stand out, like, your first kiss, and the first time you realise your parents are just people too and hearing Coldplay’s “The Scientist” for the first time and falling over and really fucking up your knee, like your first hospital visit, all that shit— meeting Parks is one of them for me.”
“Usually when I wake early I tell him I do it to meditate on the beautiful parts of life but really, I just watch him. He is a beautiful part of life, I suppose. Painful things can still be beautiful things, in case you didn’t know.”
Jessa's haunting and the mesmerising writing had me hooked from the very first page. It took me quite some time to get used to the british slangs and her writing style but it was all worth it. Her ability to write the most dysfunctional couple and the most toxic characters was really tempting. It was physically hard for me put this book down and take a break even though Bj and Magnolia made me suffered throught a lot of emotions and most of them were just pain and sufferings and a little bit of admiration for the way they loved each other which is NOT ROMANTIC but I'm still a goner for them. I also liked the found family trope even tho they are just a bunch of toxic co-dependent people.
“I know that some love is beautiful, and some is freeing, some unravels you, some love poisons you, some blinds you, some betters you, and some loves break you in invisible ways that no one else knows about until you have to stand up and the weight of your love crushes your bones.”
“We’re nowhere near where we thought we’d be, we’re completely off grid, and I feel lost and alone for a minute, but I’m lost and alone with him.”
I was so ready to hate this book and I was hating it while reading it but somewhere along Bj and Magnolia's toxic and destructive story I found a different meaning and connotation of love. I would never say their love is the best kind because it's toxic, maladjusted and dysfunctional but it's also real and heart-aching and soulmatism kind of love. I could go on about how they should not be together and how they should just move on from each other but it's just my perspective of their story. They are born to be together. Their actions cannot be justified as something romantic because this book is definitely not a perfect romance story about a perfect couple.
“I watch her, the girl of my dreams, love of my life, alpha, omega, beginning and end, ’til death do us part and even then I’m still hanging on.”
“I’ll love him ’til I die, love him ’til it consumes me whole and kills me dead—so maybe love doesn’t conquer all but just some.”
This is not a book for hopeless romantics and definitely not about hopeless romanctic people. It's about people who loved someone more than they loved themselves and it's both a tragedy and a blessing isn't it. It's about people who think that loving someone is not a waste even if loving them shattered their heart and soul in pieces. It's about giving and giving and giving until they are left all empty and they can't even take back the love they've given to that person. It's about people who can't move on because they've never not known the meaning of life without the other person. It's about two people who are fated to be together even if they destroy each other in that process and it's so annoying and irritating but it's the only truth about Beej and Parks. They can't separate themselves from their tangled mess of love, hatred, trauma, lies, truths, and infidelity. It's just how they function and it is so fucked up but It is what it is. They will either destroy each other or they will die getting what they should've had in the first place — their perfect happy life.
Our eyes hold like our hands won’t.
I love you, he blinks.
Prove it, I sigh.
➸ 𝙈𝙖𝙜𝙣𝙤𝙡𝙞𝙖 𝙋𝙖𝙧𝙠𝙨
Daddy issues? Mommy issues? Boyfriend issues? Relationship issues? Magnolia has it all. There's something about her that makes every boy fall in love with her and it's messed up but understandable why she crave all the attention and love from men in her life. Sometimes all I just wanted was to hug her because she's been through a lot in her life and it's not fair to her. Magnolia didn't knew how to be alone. She never knew what being loved by a family meant and the closest thing to love she ever experienced was with Beej and her friends she now calls her family so it was reasonable for her to be dependent on Beej and again which is not very ideal behaviour but it's such a human thing to do. If it were me I would've done the same damn thing damn the consequences which is why I do not hate her for her choices. What I didn't liked about her was breaking Christian's heart. She's confused about who she loves and does not loves because all she ever wanted was attention and love from a boy but mostly from Bj who broke her, her heart and her trust only because HE WANTED TO?! (Will never forgive Jessa for this part 😭)
“I remember it, like a physical punch in the gut, how much I loved him. Really loved him. To the bone, loved him. Cut me and I’d bleed him. How much I needed him, still needed him, would forever, always, never couldn’t even if I tried, needed him.”
➸ 𝘽𝙅 𝘽���𝙡𝙡𝙚𝙣𝙩𝙞𝙣𝙚
His full name is BAXTER JAMES BALLENTINE??? Beej is a very complex character. I don't hate him but he's not very lovable type of person. His whole personality is just being rich and loving Magnolia parks to death while also dying loving her. It's so insane the way he loves her. He would break her trust again and again but he would never leave her alone. The only thing I liked about him was the past Beej before he destroyed their realtionship. He was everything to Parks and I loved reading those flashback scenes but present Beej is just so toxic and obsessed over Magnolia that it wouldn't matter to him if he's hurting her or not because that would only mean that she still has feelings for him. I know he can be better and but I don't know how he's gonna try to redeem himself in next book but I can't wait for his redemption arc. And he has 22 damn tattoos over his body only for Magnolia. Yeah, it's unhealthy obsession but I can't help but call this a romantic gesture.
“The lights go off and she stares at me through the darkness a few seconds longer, and I love her in the dark. I mean, fuck it— I down and out love her in all spectrums of light, even the absence of it.”
╰┈➤ 𝙈𝙖𝙜𝙣𝙤𝙡𝙞𝙖 𝙖𝙣𝙙 𝘽𝙚𝙚𝙟 🐝🌧🎀🌩⚓️🌥⭐️
“London's most dysfunctional couple.”
How many loves do you get in a lifetime? Parks and Beej's love is once in a life time love. They push each other, they pull each other, they hurt each other, they love each other. It's the only way they know how to love one another. They have never not loved each other which is the biggest tragedy. I get it why they are like this and I also kind of hated their dynamics. I know what Beej can never be forgiven. Cheating is a choice and he knew what he was doing. But it's also true he can't change the past no matter how much he wants to. I get that this made Magnolia develop trust issues and it's not easy to forgive him and trust him again but they have to do something. They are stuck on a loop because of Beej's self sabotaging behaviour. Either move on from this fucked up definition of whatever they have in present or either get back together but they really need to stop this. Magnolia only feels safe by his side but he's also the only one destroying her life because he can't stop being a fucked up.
“Too much of my life, maybe even too much of who I am entirely can be traced back to him or us. Everything wonderful, everything magical, everything painful, everything beautiful and spectacular and wretched and defining that has happened to me happened with him. And I hate him for that.”
They are so messed up and it's insane. They are just playing this dangerous game of who's gonna give up first and its making me loose my goddamn mind because its not funny. Its heartbreaking, its maddening and its fucked up. He fucks up, she gets a new boyfriend to rile him up, he'll hate her new boyfriend and she would leave her boyfriend then and then its all normal between them. The push and pull and their heated agreements, their silent conversations, their need to make sure the other one was okay, their need to make everything fucked up in their life perfect — everything was a broken beautiful heartbreaking mess. I love the way they love each other and its fucked up but there's something about them that tugs at my heart strings. I am not a fan of toxic couple like them but I love them regardless.
“I think if we all could have peeked behind heaven’s curtains at that moment we’d have seen those old Fates knotting our threads together, me and Beej, in this pure, sunny, inexorable, undoable way. I said knotted, not tied. Because I don’t know whether we’ll ever come undone. Not easily, anyway.”
➸ 𝘾𝙝𝙧𝙞𝙨𝙩𝙞𝙖𝙣 𝙃𝙚𝙢𝙢𝙚𝙨
I already adore this man so much and he needs to be protected at all costs.
➸ 𝘽𝙧𝙞𝙙𝙜𝙚𝙩 𝙋𝙖𝙧𝙠𝙨
The only normal, sensible and responsible character in this book who calls everyone out on their shit.
➸ 𝙃𝙚𝙣𝙧𝙮 𝘽𝙖𝙡𝙡𝙚𝙣𝙩𝙞𝙣𝙚
Greenest flag in their group. I kinda ship him with Bridget 🤭
➸ 𝙅𝙤𝙣𝙖𝙝 𝙃𝙚𝙢𝙢𝙚𝙨
Fixer of their group. Like him but he can be a little annoying sometimes.
➸ 𝙏𝙤𝙢 𝙀𝙣𝙜𝙡𝙖𝙣𝙙
Felt bad for him because he deserved better than Magnolia. He was so good to Magnolia and yes they had chemistry but I still wasn't invested in their fake relationship.
The ending broke my heart. I'm a broken mess and I don't think I'll ever recover from this book or the ending. Jessa why the hell did you do this to my fragile little heart 😭 Everything was going fine but then someone had to drop the bomb on my fucking heart. Honestly, I already saw it coming from miles away. Paili is a bitch and she can rot in hell and die for all I care. It wasn't shocking to me but definitely heartbreaking because I hated how everyone was lying to Magnolia.
Hoping for less pain and less toxicity in next book which is impossible but a girl can dream.
“Forget the metaphors about the jumper cables and the sparks, we’re all of them and none of them— Parks and me. It’s in the fucking stars.”
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Jessa take 🔪 this and pls use it to stab my heart because that would be less painful than this fucking book.
Rtc when i finally recover from the betrayals and heartbreaks 😔
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I want drama and all the pain in this world so here we go 🤸🏽♀️
September 14, 2024
4.5⭐️ because I’m stubborn and magnolia and BJ don’t deserve my 5 stars yet.
Nobody talk to me. Im so unwell. WHAT THE FUCK DID I JUST READ???!! What JUST HAPPENED?!! And I why am I so completely and utterly OBSESSED?????
This was like watching a house catch on fire with your feet glued to the ground and eyes taped open. I COULDN’T LOOK AWAY!
Was it toxic as all hell? Yes. Did it have some of the most infuriating characters who are in immense need of therapy? Yes. Was there miscommunication EVERYWHERE? Also yes. And you know what…. Turns out I go feral for all three of those things when done right. Listen I couldn’t tell you what that says about me but that’s something to unpack for another day.
I cannot remember the last time I was so INSTANTLY sucked in to a book like this. Jessa Hastings has a way of writing her characters that makes you feel like you know them upon meeting them. I really did not expect to get this emotionally invested this early on but uhm I cried three times so apparently I also trauma bonded with these characters.
This is the type of romance I had no idea I LIVE FOR! And trust me I know this is not for everyone but I feel like I just made this revolutionary discovery about myself as a reader and there’s no turning back. Typically I avoid second chance like the plague but Magnolia and Bj made me understand the sheer pain that is unique to a second chance romance and apparently I’m a masochist because I ate it up and left no crumbs. Personally I’ve always not so secretly loved toxicity and miscommunication in books WHEN DONE RIGHT, emphasis on it being done right. But I also understand why this book makes people want to rip their hair out at the same time. It. Is. Not. For. Everyone.
I’ve never felt this many deep emotions while reading. Every single ounce of pain, love, betrayal, happiness, suffering Bj and Magnolia felt, I FELT. When they crumbled, I crumbled right along with them.
There was not a single word I skipped in this book. Every single last page had me gnawing at the bits for more. Not one dull moment. I read this in less than 24 hours. No I INHALED THIS.
It was twisted and toxic and DOWN RIGHT FUCKED UP, but the amount of love we get from these two at the same time…. I have emotional whiplash.
Magnolia and BJ are so flawed and their actions are so disgusting yet they are fully aware of what they are doing and it’s like watching two people hold a match to one another’s bodies while covered in gasoline (sorry for that graphic analogy, again there’s something wrong with me).
I am LIVING for the drama of it all like an addict that needs their next kick.
Don’t even get me started on the DYSFUNCTIONAL found family that slithered its way into my damaged heart. I’ve never wanted to be a millionaire living in high society London as bad as I do now.
All that being said would you believe me if I told you I CANNOT STAND our FMC Magnolia???? Don’t worry Bj I’m coming for you in a moment. This girl grinded my gears like nothing else. I’m still trying to figure out how she has all these men on their knees for her because like couldn’t be me. She’s insufferable in this book, I said what I said. But then at the same time my heart hurts so badly for her even though right now I want to smack her upside the head. Also could have done without her describing outfits in such detail. I just skimmed over those parts because it was like reading in a different language with how little I know about fashion.
Bj…. Bj Bj Bj, sir. STRAIGHT TO JAIL FOR MAKING ME CRY FOR YOU! My friend Bailee has my mental stability in her hands at this point because she’s telling me to trust the process and I’m trusting her but MY GOD. His actions are so disgusting and made me sick to my stomach with the pain he’s putting himself and magnolia through. Number 1 on my shit list. But the fucked up thing is, my heart still breaks for him and it’s all JUST A MESS!!
But then he has to go and love Parks so immensely and unconditionally and tragically making me care so deeply for him as a character while hating him so much at the same time! Make it make sense!!! Every single one of this man’s tattoos are for her.
Emotionally. Attached. And it hurts.
I can already tell from what little crumbs we got…. I will be a Julian girlie and I’m equal parts terrified and excited for that.
Also the plot twist….. I saw it coming and I’m still ready to cut a bitch. A fictional bitch, but that’s semantics at this point.
All in all, I’m feral for this. Im ready to hand my heart over to Jessa Hastings on a silver platter because I know it’s only going to get worse from here. I. Can’t. Wait.
Final note, Jessa Hastings writing is so beautiful and poetic I think I highlighted this entire book.
A book you’ll either love or absolutely despise no in between. This is entirely character driven with a cast of fucked up people that have YEARS of work to do. Strong slow and heart wrenching character development is what I live for. If you can’t stand toxicity and miscommunication and the cheating trope (though nothing is as it seems I’m told), don’t expect this book to be for you…. You’ve been warned.
Quotes that tore me apart
“Because loving him is the same thing as tossing the keys to my heart to a valet without a driver’s licence. He’ll drive me off a cliff.”
“Everything wonderful, everything magical, everything painful, everything beautiful and spectacular and wretched and defining that has happened to me happened with him. And I hate him for that.”
“Maybe the ship’s not still sinking, maybe it’s sunk. Maybe we’re on the seabed now. Maybe the ship’s wood is starting to rot and all the anchors in the world can’t save us anymore.”
“because she can only hate me how she hates me because she loves me how she loves me.”
“when it comes to her, I have zero instinct for self-preservation. I’ll die in her arms or at her doorstep trying to get back into them”
“I watch her, the girl of my dreams, love of my life, alpha, omega, beginning and end, till death do us part and even then I’m still hanging on”
“He’s killing me. Loving him is killing me too, and I’m afraid because how many loves really, do you get in a lifetime? How many chances do you give it before you let it go?”
Nobody talk to me. Im so unwell. WHAT THE FUCK DID I JUST READ???!! What JUST HAPPENED?!! And I why am I so completely and utterly OBSESSED?????
This was like watching a house catch on fire with your feet glued to the ground and eyes taped open. I COULDN’T LOOK AWAY!
Was it toxic as all hell? Yes. Did it have some of the most infuriating characters who are in immense need of therapy? Yes. Was there miscommunication EVERYWHERE? Also yes. And you know what…. Turns out I go feral for all three of those things when done right. Listen I couldn’t tell you what that says about me but that’s something to unpack for another day.
I cannot remember the last time I was so INSTANTLY sucked in to a book like this. Jessa Hastings has a way of writing her characters that makes you feel like you know them upon meeting them. I really did not expect to get this emotionally invested this early on but uhm I cried three times so apparently I also trauma bonded with these characters.
This is the type of romance I had no idea I LIVE FOR! And trust me I know this is not for everyone but I feel like I just made this revolutionary discovery about myself as a reader and there’s no turning back. Typically I avoid second chance like the plague but Magnolia and Bj made me understand the sheer pain that is unique to a second chance romance and apparently I’m a masochist because I ate it up and left no crumbs. Personally I’ve always not so secretly loved toxicity and miscommunication in books WHEN DONE RIGHT, emphasis on it being done right. But I also understand why this book makes people want to rip their hair out at the same time. It. Is. Not. For. Everyone.
I’ve never felt this many deep emotions while reading. Every single ounce of pain, love, betrayal, happiness, suffering Bj and Magnolia felt, I FELT. When they crumbled, I crumbled right along with them.
There was not a single word I skipped in this book. Every single last page had me gnawing at the bits for more. Not one dull moment. I read this in less than 24 hours. No I INHALED THIS.
It was twisted and toxic and DOWN RIGHT FUCKED UP, but the amount of love we get from these two at the same time…. I have emotional whiplash.
Magnolia and BJ are so flawed and their actions are so disgusting yet they are fully aware of what they are doing and it’s like watching two people hold a match to one another’s bodies while covered in gasoline (sorry for that graphic analogy, again there’s something wrong with me).
I am LIVING for the drama of it all like an addict that needs their next kick.
Don’t even get me started on the DYSFUNCTIONAL found family that slithered its way into my damaged heart. I’ve never wanted to be a millionaire living in high society London as bad as I do now.
All that being said would you believe me if I told you I CANNOT STAND our FMC Magnolia???? Don’t worry Bj I’m coming for you in a moment. This girl grinded my gears like nothing else. I’m still trying to figure out how she has all these men on their knees for her because like couldn’t be me. She’s insufferable in this book, I said what I said. But then at the same time my heart hurts so badly for her even though right now I want to smack her upside the head. Also could have done without her describing outfits in such detail. I just skimmed over those parts because it was like reading in a different language with how little I know about fashion.
Bj…. Bj Bj Bj, sir. STRAIGHT TO JAIL FOR MAKING ME CRY FOR YOU! My friend Bailee has my mental stability in her hands at this point because she’s telling me to trust the process and I’m trusting her but MY GOD. His actions are so disgusting and made me sick to my stomach with the pain he’s putting himself and magnolia through. Number 1 on my shit list. But the fucked up thing is, my heart still breaks for him and it’s all JUST A MESS!!
But then he has to go and love Parks so immensely and unconditionally and tragically making me care so deeply for him as a character while hating him so much at the same time! Make it make sense!!! Every single one of this man’s tattoos are for her.
Emotionally. Attached. And it hurts.
I can already tell from what little crumbs we got…. I will be a Julian girlie and I’m equal parts terrified and excited for that.
Also the plot twist….. I saw it coming and I’m still ready to cut a bitch. A fictional bitch, but that’s semantics at this point.
All in all, I’m feral for this. Im ready to hand my heart over to Jessa Hastings on a silver platter because I know it’s only going to get worse from here. I. Can’t. Wait.
Final note, Jessa Hastings writing is so beautiful and poetic I think I highlighted this entire book.
A book you’ll either love or absolutely despise no in between. This is entirely character driven with a cast of fucked up people that have YEARS of work to do. Strong slow and heart wrenching character development is what I live for. If you can’t stand toxicity and miscommunication and the cheating trope (though nothing is as it seems I’m told), don’t expect this book to be for you…. You’ve been warned.
Quotes that tore me apart
“Because loving him is the same thing as tossing the keys to my heart to a valet without a driver’s licence. He’ll drive me off a cliff.”
“Everything wonderful, everything magical, everything painful, everything beautiful and spectacular and wretched and defining that has happened to me happened with him. And I hate him for that.”
“Maybe the ship’s not still sinking, maybe it’s sunk. Maybe we’re on the seabed now. Maybe the ship’s wood is starting to rot and all the anchors in the world can’t save us anymore.”
“because she can only hate me how she hates me because she loves me how she loves me.”
“when it comes to her, I have zero instinct for self-preservation. I’ll die in her arms or at her doorstep trying to get back into them”
“I watch her, the girl of my dreams, love of my life, alpha, omega, beginning and end, till death do us part and even then I’m still hanging on”
“He’s killing me. Loving him is killing me too, and I’m afraid because how many loves really, do you get in a lifetime? How many chances do you give it before you let it go?”
September 17, 2024
update on the re-read: this unequivocally hit so much harder the second time around … ❤️🩹
Understand how some people can’t get into the toxicity… but the easiest way to explain it, is that feeling when you’re in high school and waiting for a boy to text you back. find myself somehow not always siding with there decisions but understanding how they got there ♡ gossip girl meets high society london
third read *audiobook*: is it possible to love this more than i already do…. because the audiobook was a different experience with this story & i cried walking my dog around downtown toronto in public far more than i care to admit
Understand how some people can’t get into the toxicity… but the easiest way to explain it, is that feeling when you’re in high school and waiting for a boy to text you back. find myself somehow not always siding with there decisions but understanding how they got there ♡ gossip girl meets high society london
third read *audiobook*: is it possible to love this more than i already do…. because the audiobook was a different experience with this story & i cried walking my dog around downtown toronto in public far more than i care to admit
May 21, 2023
finished this in a day and at what cost? 🚮
I don’t understand the hype surrounding this Blow-Job dude…girlie should do better
I don’t understand the hype surrounding this Blow-Job dude…girlie should do better
April 16, 2023
WELL THIS WAS A SHITSHOW (i loved it)
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