2017

Into a New Year already.  Time sure does fly by.  We have been very busy in our life.  Jonathon is now in 3rd grade and holding his own.  It is still a fight and struggle everyday to try to teach the teachers to teach the way Jonathon will learn the best.  He has another new resource room teacher this year and she is very hard to communicate with.  He pretty much has had Social Studies and Science taken away from him in the general education class this year.  Not to say that I give up, but I am trying to focus on some more important courses right now and I try my best to get Science and Social Studies in his daily life on my own.  I have been working on Math with Jonathon at home and he is actually doing very well.  He is not at 3rd grade level, I believe he is around 1st grade level, but I'll take it for now.  His reading is coming along much better this year, he has come a long way since last summer.  I wish that I had help with daycare, I would pull him out of Memphis Schools so fast there heads would spin, they are not good for my child.  His daycare is in located right in the school building therefore works out so that I am able to work and take care of us.  Sometimes I sit and wonder if it would be better for me to just stop working all together and be home when he gets out of school so that I can help him more with his studies.  I don't want to be a failure, I did not ask to get a divorce after 24 years of marriage, I did not ask to have to work full time and miss out on alot of things with my children especially Jonathon, I did not ask to have an ex husband that just will not help out in any way but wont sign off so I can have full custody.  I have been seperated for 3 years and divorced for 2 now.  I am very proud of myself that I have my divorce bills almost paid in full.  My ex is on his 3rd bankruptcy.  I was able to purchase a newer vehicle last April.  I sold my 1996 Ranger and purchased a 2009 Escape.  I was able to park my 1998 Jeep and purchase my middle child a 2004 Dakota.  I am still renting and have not found our forever home just yet, we are moving again in a few months to a new rental - maybe this one will be our forever home, maybe not.  I would love to have a mortgage one day and purchase a home.  My bills are paid every month, food on the table, mini vacations last summer AND I don't even make 20,000 BUT my ex makes 65,000, lives alone, AND is on his 3rd bankruptcy, I JUST DON'T GET IT.  I don't understand how someone would just throw their life away in the bottle and then not try to get them back.  I mean I would not have ever went back, but I tried to show him how to have a life with his 3 boys and he just don't care.

So I am looking forward to Spring coming, us moving to a new home, getting ready for more camping and kayaking with Jonathon and his dog Tiny, beach days, and hanging out with my boys and family AND maybe meeting some new friends.  I will be moving close to my brother and I think this will be good for my family.  My brother is the best and even though he is my baby brother, he has become a great man and I am very proud of him.

We lost our internet few months back, therefore I have not blogged or anything, maybe this year will be better and I can get internet at my new home.