Our moms won't find out how we die Or if things ever turn out right A truth of overlapping lives We're all left behind In a chain of memories Tied up somewhere back overseas To the trunks of the family trees We won't recognize With our same green eyes I've watched you disappear For years and years but you're still here It's not too late to find yourself again And I've felt the weight of days I've carried not to throw away But all there is is this one in the end I spent my twenties terrified Running out of places to hide But came out on the other side Awake and wide-eyed With some storytelling scars The bad tattoos of boring bars The backseat of your brother's car Which you could not find In perfect daylight I've watched you disappear For years and years but you're still here I want to sing some songs with you again And I've felt the weight of days I've carried not to throw away But all there is is this one in the end A broken history will never mend And all there is is this one in the end Our moms won't find out how we die Or if things ever turn out right A truth of overlapping lives We're all left behind All left behind All left behind I've watched you disappear For years and years but you're still here It's not too late to find yourself again And I've felt the weight of days I've carried not to throw away But all there is is this one in the end I've watched you disappear But come on out, the coast is clear It's not too late, it's not too late, my friend And I've felt the weight of days They wash away, they wash away But all there is is this one in the end

Guess I was born afraid ‘cause I’ve always been this way At least that’s what they say And I believe them Teaching myself to hide I locked myself inside Til pieces of me died And I had to leave them Never thought I’d be sad so long Never thought it’d be bad so long But I guess I was But I guess I was wrong Walking back after school I’d feel like such a fool Because nobody knew A thing about me A child mild and meek I wouldn’t feel so weak If I could only speak And say what I see I never thought I’d be sad so long I never thought it’d be bad so long But I guess I was But I guess I was wrong And they say Change comes slowly and life lasts such a short time Before I leave I think I’d like to live mine Change comes slowly and I’m still working toward a time When I might feel fine But now it’s still the same Is history to blame Or chemicals in my brain? Well, I’ve tried to fix them But nothing does the trick Or it does until I’m sick With new habits to kick And then I miss them Never thought I’d be sad so long Never thought it’d be bad so long But I guess I was But I guess I was wrong And they say Change comes slowly and life lasts such a short time Before I leave I think I’d like to live mine Change comes slowly and I’m still working toward a time When I might feel fine Never thought I’d be sad so long Never thought it’d be bad so long But I guess I was But I guess I was wrong

You wonder why I never visit It’s cause I’m not done getting away Though part of me will always miss it Like it’s that part of me That’s always been missing So now I’m carrying with me The sounds of late night trains And joyriding wrecks I can’t forget You know I left like the leaves Slowly after withering Or maybe burned on the lawn At least I’m finally gone I will return like the cold I’m cradling in my bones I see we’re both getting old Country roads leave me alone You wonder why I never visit It’s cause I’m still back there all the time Though part of me will always miss it Like missing mountaintops And Wal-Mart parking lots So now I’m carrying with me The rapid river And the people it claimed Who I can’t forget You know I left like the leaves Slowly after withering Or maybe burned on the lawn At least I’m finally gone I will return like the cold I’m cradling in my bones I see we’re both getting old Country roads leave me alone Now I’m carrying with me BBs under the skin You know I left like the leaves Slowly after withering Or maybe burned on the lawn At least I’m finally gone I will return like the cold I’m cradling in my bones I see we’re both getting old Country roads leave me alone

I know you’re gone And if they catch on Then we can say goodbye But can we wait until then? I never want this to end I know you’re gone More and more every day And if they catch on They will take you away Then we can say goodbye (For the last time) But can we wait until then? (You left me to die) I never want this to end I saved the paper for you Though nothing’s happening now There’s nothing left here to do But we’re perfect in matching shoes Always forever

You told a joke when we were young About The 27 Club And now that you’ve gained your membership I can’t help but remember it But I know Nothing is planned the way it reads backwards There’s not a hand forcing us, no I wasn’t born yesterday, that was Such a long time ago Wasted, we spoke of suicide And hoping the world dried up and died But knowing that we could talk like this I didn’t mean a word of it So it goes You had a dream of waking up happy Maybe that’s what not waking up is I had a dream of both of us laughing About how crazy this is We will live again, I know In different bodies Working different part-time jobs With different hobbies And we will make it through this time We will make it through this time You saw the world and it was small Ran from yourself and hit a wall With nothing beyond it but darkness And you started punching holes in it All alone I saw your bloody knuckles and I said Nothing because they looked like my own I should have told you, I thought that you knew You were never alone We will live again, I know In different bodies Working different part-time jobs With different hobbies And we will make it through this time We will make it through this time

I’d feel better Accepting Any way I am, I am Any way I am, I am But “acceptance” Is not my thing It’s just the way I am, I am And any way I am, I am I’ll try to sit still While the sunset’s on TV Take in its beauty Let its rays wash over me And reassure me that I am nothing The river’s burning The dog is dead And any way I am, I am Any way I am, I am The world keeps turning I lost my head But any way I am, I am Any way I am, I am Any way I am, I am I’ll try to sit still While the ocean’s on TV Take in its beauty Let its waves wash over me And reassure me that I am nothing Reassure me that I am nothing Reassure me that I am nothing Reassure me that I am nothing

I’ve tried to keep it together But I haven’t ever felt Like I’ve been feeling these Past couple weeks and It is not going away Sick with anticipation Down at the train station Just knowing that mine will come At any minute And I will be on my way Angelica is in today When she looks up I look away I haven’t thought of much to say Yet anyway I know you’re somebody’s baby So I know that maybe I should try to just forget Those sneaky feelings And just look at what is there Because for me, just to know you And have you to go to As someone who understands Feels like a blessing, Knowing you’re a friend who cares Angelica, you can’t be mine I met my love at the wrong time But these things happen, all is fine These things happen all the time

​​Cut down for Being born Not the right way Like the truth Wasn’t killing you already Every day When they brought out your body, It looked just the same as the others A human name, we are brothers I feel so ashamed for just being here But it’s not me Your beliefs Made it this way So shut your mouth Or we’ll carve your tongue Into a snake’s To always recognize you The world is yours but not only yours Your house is dark, you keep locking doors From the outside to keep us here To choke on your fear To choke on your fear We won’t choke on your fear We won’t choke on your fear You say what comes to your heart You spew the vilest nonsense I hope you suffer the strangest of accidents Because in this life Ruin comes at random While you’re smiling, laughing With your closest friends There in the flickering of strobe lights To the pulse of music Just wishing that the night would Never have to end In the flickering of strobe lights To the pulsing music Just wishing that the night would Never have to end And then it ends

Everybody I know Is in Pittsburgh tonight I’m gonna cancel my show I want to cancel my life And it’s not getting better You were right Waking up on a floor I could never afford To the facts in my face I’ve forever ignored Can’t ignore them anymore Tonight Buying ice cream in the rain How will I ever find myself again When after that November I still cannot remember Who I was or what I am? I’ve been missing my dogs Every one that I’ve had I’ve been hoping my mom Isn’t missing my dad Everybody I know Is so sad And how couldn’t they be Considering this place We’re gonna die in Hell Staring off into space Believing that it had to be This bad Buying ice cream in the rain How will I recognize myself again When after that November I still cannot remember Who I was or what I am? You can’t go home again When you have never been You can’t ever go home again I miss you like a friend But all good things must end You can’t ever go home again

Undiagnosed at a young age I wandered away for years Into the brush with the black snakes The county had never cleared I needed some help to get hurt And you were right there for me We sifted through mountains of dirt Just trying to find the key I wonder where I would be now If I had been shown the way If every misstep I have made Has made me this way today But I’d rather not worry about what’s Already been set in stone I’m letting it roll downhill And climbing up toward my home I can see us In the distance Rising from our beds Climbing from the holes we dug And burying the dead