A Heart in Pieces: A Journey from Grief to Grace
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Barbara Jo Almendinger
Barbara Almendinger has been a junior high school language arts teacher for twenty-four years. She holds a Bachelor of Science in Education from The Ohio State University and a Master of Science in Education with a concentration in school counseling from Dayton University. In 2012, Barbara was awarded the Leaders for Learning in Education award for her county. She has faced a number of tragic, personal losses in her life. As a result, she knows well the many faces of grief. She currently lives in Alexandria, Ohio, with her two sons, David and Jeremy, and their yellow lab, Scout. Scout is a trained therapy dog that accompanies her to school engaging and inspiring her students to learn. Barbara is passionate about teaching young adults and encouraging them to adopt a love for life-long reading.
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A Heart in Pieces - Barbara Jo Almendinger
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CONTENTS
Acknowledgments
Introduction
This Was Only the Beginning
Time Marches On—Whether We Want it to or Not!
Just Another Day … or Not?
I Want Answers!
Long Q What?
And the Fog Descended
And the Pot Boils Over
The Weight of the World
The Never-Ending Tug-of-War
The Empty Chair
A Night and Day Difference
Just One Wish
The Legacy
Butterfly Signs?
Epilogue
Appendix
ACKNOWLEDGMENTS
A Heart in Pieces would not have been written if not for the gentle, persistent nudging and encouragement of so many special friends. Thank you for your unwavering friendship, faith, and depth of understanding you have shared with me about extreme loss and God’s love.
People who have experienced such sudden, devastating loss share a depth of understanding that others who haven’t cannot grasp. Thank you to these special friends who also experienced this kind of loss for opening your hearts to me. There were so many willing to embark on this journey of healing together. What a blessing you all have been as you shared God’s love and its ability to heal all hurts when I needed it most.
Thank you, Sherri Somers, for the many hours you poured into helping and supporting me with this book from beginning to end. I could not have completed this endeavor without the valuable insight you offered. Your giving heart is an inspiration to so many. Thank you to the many friends and family who proofread and offered constructive, encouraging words along the way. A special thank you to my mom and dad; I love you both. Without your love and encouragement, this book would never have been possible. I especially want to thank my boys, David and Jeremy, for supporting me along this journey. What a blessing you both are to me.
A special thank you goes to my pastor, Kevin Heckathorn, for helping me find my way back from the pain and brokenness and into the loving arms of God. Thank you also for the numerous hours you spent reading my drafts and providing valuable feedback.
I would also like to acknowledge the many medical professionals who guided me as I searched for answers. Thank you to Dr. Kosnic, from Nationwide Children’s Hospital, for spear-heading the fact-finding meeting that provided the valuable insight I needed.
—To Mary K and Mary,
Always in my heart.
INTRODUCTION
If you are reading this book, you most likely have experienced loss in some form or another. Please know that my heart goes out to you. As you search for comfort and answers amidst your suffering, and as you read my book, know there is not a guide book, a quick solution, or an easy fix to healing from loss. A Heart in Pieces is not a step-by-step guide on how to get through loss. Nor is it an all-inclusive answer booklet that will fix your broken heart. It is instead a message from my heart to yours, a message from which I hope you can pull an idea and take comfort. My desire for you is that you will find hope, from one survivor to another, and move one step closer to healing. True healing comes from deep within each one of us, and with God’s help, it is possible.
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THIS WAS ONLY THE BEGINNING
Life is a journey, not a destination.
—Ralph Waldo Emerson
High school is considered the time of your life. Ideally, you are carefree, worry free, and making the most of each moment. Days consist of who is dating whom, extra-curricular activities, sporting events, practices, homework, and hanging out with friends. It is that time in life when you should not have a serious worry in the world. The first few months of my senior year were as I just described, very typical, much like any other year in high school—except that it was the much anticipated senior year, the last hoorah, the best year of my high school life.
November 22, 1986, was a typical fall Saturday in Ohio. Ohio State was playing Michigan, so nearly everyone in the entire state had donned the scarlet and gray. I was a high school cheerleader, and that night was the first basketball game of the season. I went to the game, cheered, had fun, and drove home thinking about meeting friends later for pizza. I was the youngest of three children. My parents had three kids in three years, which at times may have seemed completely insane. At this point, I was the only child left in high school; my parents were about to cross the parenting finish line. I am sure they were anticipating lots more free time and a great sense of relief.
When I got home that Saturday night, there was a note on the family room table from my parents: We went to the hospital; your sister had another seizure. We will call and let you know when we know something.
My older sister, Mary K, had been diagnosed with a mild form of epilepsy when she was young. She had these fainting spells every so often, so