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792 pages, Hardcover
First published November 17, 2020
“Here’s a prophecy for you, she’d said. One will die. One will rule. And one will sleep for eternity.”
“Hate was a funny thing. It gnawed at her insides like poison. It made every muscle in her body tense, made her veins boil so hot she thought her head might split in half, and yet it fueled everything she did. Hate was its own kind of fire and if you had nothing else, it kept you warm.”
“The best plans were a secret until their execution. The hidden knife cuts the deepest.”
“Once I was your screaming victim, begging for your mercy. And now you cower before me.”
“We all lost our parents early on, before they could tell us what provinces we were from. Perhaps that’s why we were so bent on unification. We were from nowhere, so we wanted to rule everywhere.”
“I am the force of creation… I am the end and the beginning. The world is a painting and I hold the brush. I am a god.”
“Ideological purity is a battle cry, it’s not the stable foundation for a unified country. A nation means nothing if it can’t provide for the people in it. You have to act for their sake.”
“For it was wonderful to remember that this land could still be so breathtakingly beautiful, that there was more sewn into the heart of the Twelve Provinces than blood and steel and dirt. That centuries of warfare later, this country was still a canvas for the gods; that their celestial essence still seeped through the cracks between worlds.”
“Do it. Take what you want... I’ll hate you for it. But I’ll love you forever. I can’t help but love you. Ruin me, ruin us, and I’ll let you.”
"Rin had spent so long hating how she felt when she burned, hating her fire and her god. Not anymore."
(beautiful art of Rin by merijae!)
"She was capable of such cruelties, even without the Phoenix’s power, and that both delighted and scared her."
"Hate was its own kind of fire and if you had nothing else, it kept you warm."
"You don’t fix hurts by pretending they never happened. You treat them like infected wounds. You dig deep with a burning knife and gouge out the rotten flesh and then, maybe, you have a chance to heal."
"They want to erase us. It’s their divine mandate. They want to make us better, to improve us, by turning us into a mirror of themselves."
"There are never any new stories, just old ones told again and again as this universe moves through its cycles of civilization and crumbles into despair."
"When you conquered as a totally and completely as he had, you could alter the course of everything. You could determine the stories that people told about you for generations."
"Take what you want, it said. I’ll hate you for it. But I’ll love you forever. I can’t help but love you. Ruin me, ruin us, and I’ll let you."
The quotes above were taken from an ARC and are subject to change upon publication.
Buddy read with Maëlys! ❤
It’s so much harder to stay alive. That doesn’t mean you don’t deserve to live. It means you’re brave.
This was chaos, but chaos was where she thrived. A world at peace, at stalemate, at cease-fire, had no use for her. She understood now what she needed to do to cling to power; submerge the world in chaos, and forget her authority from the broken pieces.
Rin had spent so long hating how she felt when she burned, hating her fire and her god. Not anymore.
Let them think of us as dirt, Rin thought. She was dirt. Her army was dirt. But dirt was common, ubiquitous, patient, and necessary. The soil gave life to the country. And the earth always reclaimed what it was owed.
“I am the force of creation,” Rin murmured as she stared at the ceiling and watched it spin. Vaisra’s sorghum wine burned sweet and sour on her tongue; she wanted to swig more of it, just to feel her insides blaze. “I am the end and the beginning. The world is a painting and I hold the brush. I am a god.”
Do you know what your problem is? You’ve been fighting this entire war on the defensive. You’re still thinking like someone on the run. But it’s time you started thinking like a ruler.
You’re not fighting a campaign for this land, you’re fighting for the people. And if you learn to trust them, they’ll be your best weapons. They’ll be your eyes and ears on the ground. They’ll be natural extensions of your army. But you never, ever endanger them against their will.
Enjoy your Republic, she thought, fingers curling against the cold armrest. Enjoy it while it lasts, Young Marshal. Take a good look at your splendor, and remember well how it feels. Because I am coming to burn it all down beneath you.
And she would promise them all that she would make their sacrifices worth it. Because that was what the dead were for her—necessary sacrifices, chess pieces lost to advance her position, tradeoffs that, if she were given the chance, she would make all over again.
So Rin marched because she knew that, at the end of their journey, salvation was waiting. She marched because every step brought her closer to the gods.
The great empires of the waking world were driven so mad by what they had forgotten that they decided to slaughter the only people who could still dream.
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“Do it. Take what you want. I’ll hate you forever. But I’ll love you forever. I can’t help but love you. Ruin me, ruin us, and I’ll let you.”
Hate was a funny thing. It gnawed at her insides like poison. It made every muscle in her body tense, made her veins boil so hot she thought her head might split in half, and yet it fueled everything she did. Hate was its own kind of fire and if you had nothing else, it kept you warm.
One will die. One will rule. And one will sleep for eternity.
“You can’t do this for me. I won’t let you.”
“It’s not for you. It’s not a favor. It’s the cruelest thing I could do.”
“I am the force of creation… I am the end and the beginning. The world is a painting and I hold the brush. I am a god.”
Thank you to Harper Voyager for sending me a copy of this book in exchange for an honest review. This did not affect my opinion in any way.
All quotes are from an advance copy and may differ in final publication.
Dying was easy. Living was so much harder—that was the most important lesson.
“One will die. One will rule. And one will sleep for eternity.”
“Hate was its own kind of fire and if you had nothing else, it kept you warm.”
“And you should know by now that when you leave your enemies alive, wars don’t end.”
War didn’t end, not so cleanly—it just kept building up in little hurts that piled on one another until they exploded afresh into raw new wounds.
“Do you know what your problem is?” Daji asked. “You’ve been fighting this entire war on the defensive. You’re still thinking like someone on the run. But it’s time you started thinking like a ruler.”
[…]trusted first Daji and then Vaisra, and they’d both sold her away without blinking. From now on Rin took charge of her own fate.
It’s not just about the enemy. It’s about what the world looks like after.
“The point of revenge wasn’t to heal. The point was that the exhilaration, however temporary, drowned out the hurt.”
“It doesn’t go away. It never will. But when it hurts, lean into it. It’s so much harder to stay alive. That doesn’t mean you don’t deserve to live. It means you’re brave.”
"Dying was easy. Living was so much harder—that was the most important lesson Altan had ever taught her."
“You never want to hurt them. But you have to. You have to put them through hell, because that’s the only way anyone else will survive.”
“Do it. Take what you want... I’ll hate you for it. But I’ll love you forever. I can’t help but love you.
Ruin me, ruin us, and I’ll let you.”
“War doesn’t determine who is right and who is wrong. War determines who remains.”