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343 pages, Paperback
First published April 10, 2020
"Ladies, we guys loved that you had a mouth in general. We daydreamed about the things we'd like to do it or put in it or having it wrapped around our dicks. But we never daydreamed about you making them bigger. If anything, we wished you'd stop. There was enough fake shit in this world; you didn't need to fill your face with it."
"They literally all looked exactly the same with blonde hair extensions, fake eyelashes, and filled lips. I felt like I was staring at a group of social media influencers who should be posing up against the pink wall in LA for likes and mentions, not sitting in the stands of a baseball game... I would never understand the fascination with looking as plastic as possible at such a young age..."
Cole had never been my boyfriend. Sure, we had slept together a handful of times, but he’d never once asked me on a real date. And I was done feeling like a fool because of it. How had I allowed this much time to pass, only to find that we were still in the exact same place? It was embarrassing. And I was embarrassed.
I’d been there for Cole the last three years, taking the scraps he had given me like a starved animal and begging for more. I’d allowed it all to happen. I recognized that, and I accepted responsibility and acknowledged my role.
And over the years, I’d tried to convince myself that I wasn’t just a casual hook-up. But what followed after was always a stab to the heart. I knew he hooked up with other girls; I heard all about it whenever I walked across campus or sat down in class. It sucked, having Cole’s sex life thrown in my face, but he wasn’t the only one screwing other people.“He doesn’t want me in public though. He doesn’t want me after the games or in the stands, where everyone can see us. He doesn’t want me at the fundraisers or the awards dinners. He sure as shit doesn’t want to take me on a date since he’s never once asked. And to be kept in the shadows, it’s not enough for me. Not anymore.”