Ann Cvetkovich in The Archive of Lesbian Feelings 1 PDF
Ann Cvetkovich in The Archive of Lesbian Feelings 1 PDF
Ann Cvetkovich in The Archive of Lesbian Feelings 1 PDF
Ann Cvetkovich
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lic cultures have failed to chronicle gay and lesbian lives. In addi-
tion to accumulating these textual materials, gay and lesbian
archives are likely to have disproportionately large collections of
ephemera because of their concern with sexuality and leisure cul-
ture, as well as with the legacies of grassroots political activism.
Thus San Franciscos Gay, Lesbian, Bisexual, and Transgender
Society of Northern California (GLBTS) has items such as match-
book covers, the notepads available for exchanging phone num-
bers in gay bars, iers for club events, personal photo albums,
condoms packaged for special events, and vibrators. LHA has a
collection of T-shirts with political slogans, the hard hat with a
lambda sign on it worn by a lesbian construction worker, and
posters from political and cultural events. Both archives also
house the les of activist groups such as ACT UP and Lesbian
Avengers, which include ephemera such as meeting minutes,
publicity iers for demonstrations, buttons, stickers, and nan-
cial records. Their principles of selection and inclusion differ
from those of a public research archive that denes value accord-
ing to historical or research interest. It is LHAs policy, for exam-
ple, not to refuse any donation of materials that a lesbian consid-
ers important in her life and actively to encourage ordinary lesbians
to collect and donate the archival evidence of their everyday lives.
In insisting on the value of apparently marginal or
ephemeral materials, the collectors of gay and lesbian archives
propose that affects associated with nostalgia, personal mem-
ory, fantasy, and trauma make a document signicant. The
archive of feelings is both material and immaterial, at once incor-
porating objects that might not ordinarily be considered archival
and at the same time resisting documentation because sex and
feelings are too personal or too ephemeral to leave records. For
this reason and others, the archive of feelings lives not just in
museums, libraries, and other institutions, but in other more per-
sonal and intimate spaces and also, very signicantly, within cul-
tural genres. The lms and videos explored in this article use the
power of the moving image to conjure and preserve emotion, and
they often seek to move by moving or combining a series of still
images to create a montage that works affectively. Especially strik-
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visual style of the lurid covers bold, articial colors, noir light-
ing, and retro fashion. Accentuating their status as pulp covers
brought to life, each of the sequences ends in a freeze-frame that
dissolves from the lmed action to an illustrated portrait resem-
bling a book cover. Largely replaced by photographs in the six-
ties, the illustrated covers of the pulps derive their nostalgic
appeal from the now outmoded aesthetics of drawing, which
allows for melodramatic exaggeration.
Forbidden Love heightens the affective power of its fantasy
sequences by including interviews in which lesbians explain the
signicance of the pulp novels in their lived experience. Their
testimony, along with that of Ann Bannon, who has been justi-
ably celebrated as one of the few lesbian writers of these novels,
offers different, and sometimes conicting, perspectives, as the
narrators alternately joke about the pulps and consider them seri-
ously, revealing that, then as now, lesbians are adept at negotiat-
ing popular culture representations to meet their own needs.21
One might expect the juxtaposition of documentary footage of
real dykes with massmarket stereotypes to result in the privileging
of the former over the latter, as true over false images, or posi-
tive over negative or stereotypical images. However, the montage
of oral testimony, fantasy sequences, stock footage (from both
lm and photographic sources), and shots of pulp novel covers,
along with the musical soundtrack, challenges simple distinctions
between real lesbians and their pulp ction counterparts. The
narrators accounts of their consumption of the paperbacks
reveal that these artifacts form a vital part of the history of lesbian
culture, as does the lms visual engagement with the covers.
Combining the sensationalistic covers of the novels with the
images of the women narrators, Forbidden Love posits the central-
ity of fantasy and ction to the construction of lesbian identity
and community. Homophobic and formulaic as the novels might
have been (in their conventions, for example, for punishing les-
bianism and/or perverse sexuality), they also provided evidence
that there may be other lesbians out there. In the absence of
other forms of public culture, this form of print culture offered
access to lesbianism within the (sometimes stolen) privacy of the
home (Stephanie Ozard describes reading pulps while babysit-
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ting) or for those in small towns that did not even have bars (Ban-
non mentions the signicance of the mass distribution of paper-
back novels for reaching a wide audience).
It is notable that the pulp novels are primarily represented
in Forbidden Love by their covers. This is not just because the trans-
lation from novel to screen privileges the visual over the textual;
as the narrators make clear, the covers of the novels, even when
only tangentially related to the stories, constituted a crucial part
of their value. Ozard explains that novels with lesbian content
could be selected from among the vast displays of genre ction by
looking for a picture of two women. The needs of a mass-market
culture using sensational and titillating representations of women
and/or lesbians to sell books converge with the needs of actual or
incipient lesbians eager for visible evidence that lesbians exist.
Even if the books tend to ignore the reality of butch dykes or even
butch-femme couples in favor of pairs of very feminine women
on the covers, this fantasy has its own power. Reva Hutton remem-
bers that the novels all had great covers that were very sugges-
tive and entrancing. The intersections of the fantastic and the
real in constructions of desire are highly unpredictable, and the
lesbian readers of the pulps feel no pressure to identify mimeti-
cally either with the characters in the novels or with the women
on the covers. Of course, such interpretive skills may be available
only to certain readers and thus constitute a specically lesbian
reading public. Keeley Moll describes with bemused horror her
mothers efforts to understand her lesbianism by reading pulp
ction, which was the worst kind of literature she could read
next to the Kinsey Report. The lm is a remarkable testament to
the value of reception studies, as the women describe the creative
ways that they negotiate the discrepancies between the covers and
real lesbians. Moreover, it proposes an alternative to a cultural
politics of positive images by articulating the ways that pulp novel
covers could become treasured objects in the archive of lesbian
emotion.
One name for this form of reception might be camp, the
aesthetic that governs Forbidden Loves fascinated documentation
of the covers and its narrative homage to their pulp aesthetic.
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her mistaken assumption that she and her lover need to assume
butch-femme postures and clothing in order to be visible in the
streets of New York, thus implying that the novels were mislead-
ing, her testimony articulates pulp as a powerful resource, not a
distorting mechanism.
Taking its cue from its narrators, Forbidden Love draws on
the considerable pleasures of mass culture in its representation of
lesbian life and becomes a documentary that understands fantasy
as part of reality. Its use of the pulps suggests that the desire for his-
tory takes affective forms and that the current fascination with
bar culture, butch-femme roles, and pre-Stonewall homophobia
makes history, like sexuality, the stuff of romance. Forbidden Love is
joined in this recognition by many gay and lesbian archives which,
like the LHA with its Mabel Hampton collection, have extensive
pulp collections. Many of these collections are displayed promi-
nently because of the books visual power as both objects and
images. For example, in the opulently decorated reading room of
San Francisco Public Librarys James C. Hormel Gay and Lesbian
Center, which is the spatial point of entry for the librarys gay and
lesbian holdings, pulp ction is displayed in a glass case, and a
selection of the covers can also be viewed in the librarys digital col-
lection available at computer workstations.23 Forbidden Loves visual
and affective power helps explain why the pulp covers are essential
documents in the archive of lesbian feelings.
sional quality footage, she uses it like a home video camera to cre-
ate a personal or intimate point of view. Because the camera is
highly portable and gives high-quality footage in available light,
Spiro can work without an elaborate setup or crew, and she is thus
able to develop a spontaneous rapport with her subjects. Less a Q-
and-A session than a conversation, Spiros interviews establish a
relationship with her narrators; it is clear that the fact that she
likes these people and feels she has something to learn from
them generates her interest.
Yet even as Spiros documentary mission resists traditional
ethnography, her emphasis on queer eccentrics and the cultures
that they have created away from the mainstream does have the
familiar resonance of the folklorists effort to preserve authentic
regional cultures. Moreover, as individual self-creations, her sub-
jects in a sense become other to everyone except themselves and
thus embody that quintessential American type, the rugged indi-
vidualist. There is a romantic dimension to Greetings construc-
tion of its subjects, as well as its fantasy that being gay, and thus
queer, enables one, as Gurganus claims, to negotiate other kinds
of difference.
Nowhere are these complexities of Greetings queer sensi-
bility more evident than in its attachment to an archive of emo-
tion comprised of the artifacts of tourist culture. The videos con-
trast between the urban and the rural, and the North and the
South, emerges from Spiros desire to locate something outside of
mass culture and from her nostalgic and retrospective search for
a lost or disappearing version of America. This has long been one
of the functions of the American tourism that emerged out of
postwar automobile culture; Greetings displays a nostalgia for that
earlier era of tourism, now replaced by a landscape of interstates,
chain motels, and mass-produced rest stops. Spiro is fascinated
with the old national highway system, the one-of-a-kind neon
signs of independently owned motels and restaurants, and the
thrift stores that circulate the artifacts and documents of tourist
culture, making them available to collectors who can be thought
of as amateur archivists. Greetings seeks to intervene against the
Wal-Martization of the US that destroys regional culture and
replaces it with a homogenized national culture. This dichotomy
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drives its relation to queer and gay and lesbian issues, producing a
resistance to the forms of gay identity associated with urban cul-
ture and commodication and a resistance even to collective
identity itself.27
Spiros interest in this earlier period of American culture
turns Greetings into a visual archive. The video almost obsessively
way of seeing that queers the landscape, Spiro nds that queers
are present everywhere in the homespun ephemera of tourism.
Serving as transitions from one narrator and place to the next,
these visual diaries are a crucial part of Spiros archive, equal in
signicance to the stories she collects for the archives of oral his-
tory. As visual icons turned into documents, they are the counter-
part to Forbidden Loves pulp novel covers mass-produced images
that performed important affective and cultural work in their
own time and that now form an archive of sentimental value for
the lm- or videomaker.
It is important to note, however, that if Greetings is nostal-
gic, it is nostalgic for an earlier version of mass culture, not a pre-
or noncommodied folk culture. Furthermore, its version of the
South is not necessarily a strictly local culture since the archive
that interests Spiro actually results from the commodication of
regionalism for consumption by outsiders and the creation of a
national tourist culture that (literally) paved the way for that
which has displaced it.28 Her love of objects, and images of
objects, as the foundation for history draws her toward an archive
of commodities, but the commodities of the thrift store as opposed
to the mall superstore. The resulting archive queers both US and
Southern cultures, showing them never to have been what a cele-
bratory straight culture might make them. It reveals the queer
possibilities always there in the celebration of rugged individual-
ism, Southern identity, tourism, or consumerism. The archives
meaning emerges from the queer sensibility of its collector rather
than a history intrinsic to its objects. As queer ethnographer, the
archivist builds a collection out of love and intimate connection,
creating an archive in which popular cultures ephemera has the
power to conjure the past.
having to establish their sexuality and their life stories without the
benet of public afrmation or representation.29 But rather than
documenting a subculture by interviewing a range of people,
Benning stays at home, focusing primarily on herself and often
venturing no farther than the connes of her own bedroom.
Although her work is often classied as experimental video or as
autobiography, I want to claim it as documentary in order to pro-
mote its value as an innovative archive of lesbian life, one that
includes the material spaces of intimacy, such as bedrooms, and
intimacys imaginary spaces, such as fantasies.30 Insisting on the
value of the narcissistic and the insular, Benning creates the video
counterpart to a young girls diary, chronicling her secret desires,
the intimate details of her body, and her fandoms and fantasies.
(One of her early videos is called If Every Girl Had a Diary [1990],
and It Wasnt Love [1992] includes an image of a diary, on the
cover of which is a drawing of a girl and the words Dear Diary in
feminized handwriting.) Her camera is a childs toy, the Fisher-
Price Pixelvision camera that can capture only a fraction of the
angle of vision of a more standard video camera and that makes
objects look fuzzy and distorted. Although her transformation of
the point-and-shoot real world into an alternately haunting and
comic psychic landscape gives her work its experimental look,
her videos are also easily accessible to a punk generation raised
on video, MTV, and DIY (do it yourself) production values.
Benning documents a culture of girlhood that is even less
publicly visible than the marginal locations recorded in Forbidden
Love and Greetings because it is not public in any conventional
sense of the term. If one imperative of the gay and lesbian and the
emotional archive is to remake the relation between public and
private spheres, then Bennings videos do so by including a
teenage girls bedroom within what Michael Moon has called the
semi-public sphere.31 They reveal that, even when isolated from
the world, such bedrooms are connected to it, offering sanctuary
from the alienation of more properly public spaces through a
queer version of the cultural logic of domesticity. Moreover, the
television and lm footage and the many popular images that
Benning includes, as well as the soundtrack of pop songs that
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accompanies her images, bring the world into her bedroom. She
in turn refunctions that world by recording televised images and
combining them with images of herself, turning this archival
resource into her own product, a video that can be circulated in
public. Rewriting studies of popular culture that have sought sub-
cultures in public spaces such as streets and clubs, and that have
hence produced a largely masculinist picture, Benning suggests
that girls culture begins at home.32 The process of documenting
and archiving it by making a video provides testimony to its exis-
tence, breaking out of isolation to build an imagined community
of girls in their bedrooms.
Like Spiros Greetings From Out Here, Bennings It Wasnt
Love shows the inuence of popular culture by reworking not
only the road movie genre, but the gangster movie and the
romance as well. But when Sadie and another teenage girl leave
home in search of romance and adventure, they dont get very
far.33 Sadies head appears in front of the camera (the Pixelvision
version of a talking head becomes surreal in its fuzzy too-extreme
close-up) to explain: We didnt make it to Detroit, much less Hol-
lywood. Instead, we pulled into a fried-chicken parking lot and
made out. After one of the most remarkable sex scenes in con-
temporary lesbian visual culture, in which Sadie wraps her ngers
around the camera lens and sucks on her thumb slowly, her voice-
over explains that this ending is far from a failed version of the
standard plot: I wanted to feel sorry for myself like I was missing
out on something. And yet in that parking lot, I felt like I had
seen the whole world. She had this way of making me feel like I
was the goddamn Nile River or something. We didnt need Holly-
wood. We were Hollywood and that made us both famous. These
girls make a whole world out of a parking lot and kisses, in deance
of what usually counts as fame and fortune in popular fantasy and
world history. Without going anywhere, they are as famous as
Hollywood stars and as adventurous as (but possibly less exploitive
than) the explorers who colonize the world. It Wasnt Love bor-
rows from pop culture narratives, acknowledging their power to
confer the public status that enfranchises one as a citizen. But it
uses those stories to construct forms and spaces of celebrity and
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power and makes them the raw material for her own vision. Like
Ellen Spiro, she turns words and signs into her own affectively
charged montage of images.
The sequence climaxes with the end of the song and cul-
minates in a shot of two girls kissing and then one of a mouth
laughing triumphantly in a mirror. The camera moves across
another line taken from the textbook that reads I was a girl, 19
years of age. Benning has remade the case history in her own
idiom, documenting the life of young dykes by reworking an
archive that depicts them in crude and inadequate ways. Like For-
bidden Loves inclusion of archival footage and pulp novel covers,
Girlpowers incorporation of ofcial documents carries nostalgic
and emotional power. The riot-grrrl sensibility that Benning
shares with many musicians and zine makers reappropriates cul-
tural constructions of girlhood that often seem denigrating and
infantilizing, especially those from earlier generations, and con-
verts them into a powerful repository. The fashion and visual sen-
sibility of girls culture, which over the last decade has surged far
beyond its subcultural formations of the early nineties, has
become a new language of feminism.39 Images from the archives
of the fties and sixties and from pseudoscientic sources have
become a resource for the montage and collage aesthetics of
videos and zines.
In its affective response to mass culture, Bennings aes-
thetic draws on another staple of girls culture fandom. Sadie
fashions herself in the image of pop culture icons, reecting the
role of fantasy in shaping gender and sexual identity that Forbid-
den Love also emphasizes. Fantasy takes up the seductions of a
mainstream culture that apparently connes its audience to het-
eronormativity; Sadie can be Matt Dillon from Teen Beat, or Erik
Estrada rescuing young girls (far from being an obstacle for dyke
fantasy, masculinity fosters it), or a medley of girl-band icons.40
And when I sang, I became every member of the Go-Gos. Blondie,
Joan Jett, Devo I did it all, she says, as she samples footage of
Debbie Harry singing Rapture. Voice-over, text, music, original
images, and sampled images are woven together to represent the
intertwining of pop culture heroes and Sadies own iconic power.
Luke Perrys image on a poster waves in front of the camera and
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then gets cut in two as Sadie, a baby butch who styles herself after
her male heroes, inserts herself between the two halves. Her
voice-over fantasy about being Erik Estrada rushing on my
motorcycle to save the life of some girl who desperately needed to
be rescued is accompanied by home movie footage of a young
girl (quite likely Benning herself) riding a tricycle around the liv-
ing room. The personal archive of the home movie and the pub-
lic archive of television are both resources for an affective archive
shaped by fantasy and by the teenage Sadies nostalgic relation to
herself as an even younger girl.
Benning rewrites the relation between public and private
spheres in her assertion that, In my world, in my head, I was
never alone, whereas the worlds of school, my father, and my
culture produce alienation and isolation. Fantasy is juxtaposed
with reality as a necessary survival tactic rather than a luxury or a
ction: I survived because I created my own heroes. But the raw
material for those heroes is the archive of images available for
scavenging within the connes of her room: textbooks, movies
broadcast on TV, home movies, records. Privatized consumption
becomes a form of public access when the streets are dangerous.
The archive that the girl fan or collector accumulates is the public
archive made personal, a scrapbook in which the feelings that
accompany media events are as important as those events. Private
ownership of images becomes a form of self-assertion in the face
of a mainstream culture that threatens to keep girls feelings inar-
ticulate and invisible. Through a highly personal and intimate
archive, Benning creates an imagined community of girls every-
where who can recognize themselves in her tastes and senti-
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Notes
4. According to Vester, there have been proposals that the top oor
be used for the collection, but others think the live-in resident
gives the archives their identity as a home.
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13. For more on how lm festivals create publics, see Patricia White,
B. Ruby Rich, Eric Clarke, and Richard Fung, Queer Publicity:
A Dossier on Lesbian and Gay Film Festivals, GLQ 5.1 (1999):
73 93.
14. Mabel Hampton is also one of the oldest lesbians whose story of
life in butch-femme cultures appears in Joan Nestles collection
The Persistent Desire: A Femme-Butch Reader (Boston: Alyson, 1992),
which is itself a kind of archive. The widespread popularity of the
collection (both ction and nonction) as a gay and lesbian
print genre owes something to its archival functions.
17. I adopt the term narrators here and throughout this essay from
Davis and Kennedy, and from Newton, who use it in their oral
histories of gay and lesbian communities to indicate that their
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23. For information about the Barbara Grier and Donna McBride
Pulp Paperback Collection, see sfpl.org. Pulp ction has also
been a rich resource for contemporary lesbian visual culture,
including ephemeral genres such as posters and zines. See,
for example, Nina Levitts refunctioned pulp novel covers
in Conspiracy of Silence, in Stolen Glances: Lesbians Take
Photographs, ed. Tessa Bofn and Jean Fraser (London: Pandora,
1991), 60 66. Levitts work rst appeared in an exhibit curated
by Lynn Fernie, codirector of Forbidden Love. Another sign of the
recognition of the historical signicance of the pulps, and
especially their covers, is the recent publication of a book
devoted to them: Jaye Zimet, Strange Sisters: The Art of Lesbian Pulp
Fiction, 19491969 (New York: Viking Studio, 1999).
24. See Kath Weston Get Thee to a Big City: Sexual Imaginary and
the Great Gay Migration, GLQ 2.3 (1995): 253 77 and John
Howard, Men Like That: A Southern Queer History (Chicago:
University of Chicago Press, 1999) for discussions of the need to
question how urban/rural distinctions structure gay and lesbian
histories and discourses.
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25. For a different reading of Greetings, see Chris Cagle, Imaging the
Queer South: Southern Lesbian and Gay Documentary, in
Between the Sheets, in the Streets, ed. Holmlund and Fuchs, 30 45. I
disagree with Cagles argument that Greetingss narrators
represent different regions and communities, an argument
linked to his criticism of Spiros use of kitsch. A different
understanding of Spiros use of popular culture, I will argue, can
give rise to a different understanding of how she is representing
or documenting the South.
26. See Kennedy and Davis, Boots of Leather, Slippers of Gold and
Newton, Cherry Grove. For further discussion of how these books
function as archive, critical ethnography, and theory, see my
review of them in Signs 21.1 (1995): 212 15.
29. The videos If Every Girl Had a Diary (1990), Me and Rubyfruit
(1989), Living Inside (1989), New Year (1989), A Place Called
Lovely (1991), Welcome to Normal (1990), and Jollies (1990) are
available in two compilations distributed by Women Make
Movies. Video Data Bank distributes compilations that include
It Wasnt Love and Girlpower.
34. For more on mass culture, publicity, and identity, see Michael
Warner, The Mass Public and the Mass Subject, in Habermas and
the Public Sphere, ed. Craig Calhoun (Cambridge: MIT Press,
1992), 377 401.
35. Laura Marks, Video Haptics and Erotics, Screen 39.4 (1998): 331.
39. In 1999, for example, the Spice Girls hosted a Girl Power video
event on MTV, and the success of girls culture is now visible in a
range of cultural products from Buffy the Vampire Slayer to Sanrios
Hello Kitty line. The commercialization of girl power, like that
of lesbian chic, is, of course, to be expected given its origins in a
subculture fascinated by mass culture.