Allyson Farris

Final Manuscript

My love, My love

He gives my life color

Like a splash of red
On a black and white painting.
There is never a gray day
The sun is always out
Even when there’s rain.
His eyes light up like the grand finale
On the fourth of July.
He makes me feel safe
When he pulls me in closer and tells me to
Stay.
I’ll assume there is no one else that could make me feel this way.
As long as I can see his puckered up face
I know I’ll be okay.
My love, my love
I'll assure him every day
I'll never leave, and that I’m here to stay.
I’ll love him more every day.
 Where am I?
Beep... Beep… Beep…

It’s a cold dark room

Where is everyone?
I try to get up
I’m tied down.
I look to my right
the machine.
Its got a green line going up and down
Up and down.

A woman appears wearing a white gown

It’s covered in blood.
Her face is as white as a linen sheet
Where am I?

I scream and I cry.

I feel like I’ve been dignified.
Ivs hooked up to me
My blood is draining.
I just want to go home!
 Too late to change

The trees sway

Like I’m at Panama bay
The wind picks up
And it carries my strength away.
I never was asked to stay
Maybe that’s why I’m in so much pain.

I used to pray
And I used to say
Everything will be okay.
But what’s the point
When I’m not
Okay.

I always rush my life

I’m convinced I’ll run out of time.
I’m like a lost dog
Always running
But I never find a home.

I need to figure out where I’m going

So one day I can be happy
One day I can find a
Home.
 Walk
I can walk my streets forever
Day and night
And I can never find the answer.
I can read every book
Front to back
And gain no knowledge
I can’t find the answer.
I have all this energy
I’m so lost
Negative
The leaves fall
But not fast enough
CRUNCH
The car runs over it
I wonder what they think
Did they even see me
BUZZ
My phone goes off
The media
Negativity.
Do we really know whats going on
I’ll just continue walking
I’ll find my answers soon.
 Tucker

You follow me around and around

Everywhere I look you’re
There.
Your big brown eyes and your droopy ears
The way your tail wags when I say
“get your leash, we’re leaving!”
Sometimes it feels like you’re the only one there for me
Sometimes it feels like you’re the only one who loves me unconditionally.

You’re the first one to greet me at the door

Bringing me your favorite redbone
It doesn’t matter what kind of day I have
You always make it better.
Although we don’t speak the same language
I know you understand
Me.
I may be your human,
But you’re my best friend.
You have been there for me during my hardest
And best times.
You’ve greeted the people I love
And the ones I no longer enjoy.

My friends think I’m crazy for taking you everywhere I go

And for giving you a better life than anything else
“He’s just a dog, treat him like one!”
But what they don’t know is that you saved me
You’re my companion
And I would be lost without
You.
 Making a better You
I follow the clink of dark brown leather shoes
Of a man
Who is wearing a white lab coat
And dress slacks.
I don’t know where I am
But I’ve got nothing to lose
After all, the billboard said
This place makes a better
YOU

I’ve been sad

Not me
This should’ve been the last thing I’d ever do
But here I am
On a Wednesday afternoon
I don’t know what to expect
Maybe a shot or two
Anything is better than this feeling of blue.

Walking I trip on my shoes

Deep in thought.
I fall to the floor
I hope I don’t bruise.
I look up and damn
I’ve lost the dude.

There’s a woman in a white gown

She's screaming for help
Blood dripping down her face
I turn away
I don’t know if this is real or fake
Is it too late to turn away

I stumble in a room and lock the door

I pray to God there’s nothing more
I turn on the light and I see a mirror
I take a look into it
I’m not even there
I wonder whats going on
I wonder if this is true
Did they really make me a better YOU?
 TBK
I wish you could see your potential
I wish you’d realize the importance of you.
I love everything about
you.
From three am conversations about life
To our car rides where we just vibe.
I look at you and realize you’re the person
I want
to spend the rest of
my life with.
Even on the days, we hate each other
There is no one I’d rather hate.

You love me for me

And I’ve never felt that before
You love the things I hate about myself
Including my doubts.

You push me harder than anyone else

We are like Bonnie and Clyde
Two people you never thought
Could show each other light

We laugh
We love
We argue
We fight

But we are the perfect fit

You give me butterflies when I see your eyes
There is no one else I’d rather want
These are just my broken down thoughts.

I watch you peacefully sleep

And I can't help but fall more in love with
You.
Thank you for picking up my broken pieces, I thought they were unrepairable. Turns out I never
found the love I needed. I feel so selfish having you all to myself
But hey, everyone else missed out.
You’re my whole world and there’s nothing I wouldn't do for you.
Just know when you find this crumpled up piece of paper
This is all about YOU.