The Flea Palace by Elif Shafak
The Flea Palace by Elif Shafak
The Flea Palace by Elif Shafak
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ECONOMIST
ELIF SHAFAK
Elif Shafak was born in Strasbourg, France, in 1971 and spent
her adolescent years in Spain before returning to Turkey. Her
first novel, Pmhan, was awarded the Mevlana Prize tor literature.
Her second novel* The Mirrors of ihe City, is about the expulsion ot
the Sephardic Jews [rom Spain and their subsequent flight to
the Ottoman Empire. Her third novel, Mahremt received the
Turkish Novel Award. The Flea Palace is her fourth novel.
Elif Shafak
Fra ns h ted by Mtige Go^ek
MARION BOYARS
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Best Friend-To All of Us*’ Once again the lid would be given
a spin and once again the players would reach out to scop its
delirious circumvolution The third round was intended to find
an answer to the question 'What?’ Four auspicious and four
ominous words were marked on the remaining eight spaces,
always equal in number* to add a dash of fairness to the
whims of fate; Tovr—Marriage—Happiness—Weakh-Sickness-
Separation-Accident—Death.' The bd would turn once again
with the answers now building up so the players could tinalh
reach the long awaited response to the question, ‘U hat will
happen to whom and when?: "To Me-Wealth-Soon? "To The
One ! Love-Happiness-Tomorrow? ‘To Mv Best Fnend-
Marruge-Right Aw ay/ or To AD of Ut-Separarion-Never*,..
Starting the ball of narration tolling is not hard, I too can
employ the logic of the Garbage Game with some minor
adjustments here and there First of all, one needs to find the rime
frame of the narration: 'Y^trrrtov—TcKiav-Tomomiw-Infinity?
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business for almost thirty-three years and had ne%-er hated his
job as fervently as he did that day
In order not to get himself into trouble once again, he
shunned the shortcuts and made his way through the winding
roads, only to arrive a full hour and forty-five minutes late for
his appointment at the apartment building he had been
searching tor, Shaking ofiThts trauma bit by bit, he parked along
the sidewalk while staring suspiciously at the cluster o! people
blocking the entrance of the building. Having no idea why
they had gathered there, but nevertheless convinced they
would do him no harm, he managed to calm down and again
checked the address his chain' secretary had handed to him
that very' morning: ‘Cabal Street. Number HK (Bonbon
Palace).' His chatterbox at a secretary' had also included a note:
‘The apartment building with the rose acacia tree in the
garden .'Wiping aw ay the large beads of sweat on his forehead.
Injustice Pureturk stared at the tree in the garden that was in
bloom with reddish-pink flowers. This, he thought, must be
what they' called ‘rose acacia*.
Still, since he did not at all trust his secretary whom he
intended to replace at the next possible instance, he personally
wanted to sec the buildings signpost with his own short¬
sighted eyes. Parking the van askew, he jumped down. No
sooner had he taken a step, however, than a small girl among a
group of three children standing m the crowd screamed in
horror:‘The genie is here! Grandpaaa, grandpa, look, the genie
is here!'The round, grevmg. bearded elderly nun the girl was
tugging turned around and inspected first the van and then the
van’s driver, each time with an equally disappointed look.
Evidently dissatisfied w ith what he saw, he screwed up his face
so that it looked even more sour and drew the three children
closer to him.
Injustice was done to Injustice Pureturk. He was not a genie
or anything, but just an ordinary man who possessed a
disproportionate face with mammoth ears and unfortunately
coloured hair He also happened to be short. Indeed verv
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still lived in Istanbul: those who had remained all their lives
utterly faithful to their religion and loyal to their state, as well
as those who refused to recognize either God or a state...
For that is how things are* It is not their quantative scarcity vis¬
a-vis the majority that makes mu unities hapless but rather
their qualitative similarity As a member ol a minority group,
you can be as industrious as an ant, even hit the jackpot and
acquire a considerable fortune, but someday, just because you
presently and will always belong to the same community, you
could lit an instant find yourself on a par with those of your
community who have idled their lives away since birth. T hat is
why the affluent among the minorities are never affluent
enough; neither are their exceptional members ever
sufficiently so. In the Turkey of the 1950s in particular, the
moment a rich Muslim bumped into a poor one, what he
would see on the latters face would be 'someone so very
unlike him,’ whereas a rich minority member running into a
poor one would encounter on the latter s face someone so
very unlike him and yet treated alike Accordingly, the same
misery might awaken compassion in the rich Muslim who has
the comfort of knowing that he will never sink to that
position, whereas for a member of the rich minority it might
easily trigger angst, with the unease of foreseeing that he too
might unexpectedly end up there. Once a person starts to fear
injustice, however, he can end up missing the real target and
mix the results up with the causes. Hence, while the gentry of
tin* Muslim majority may demonstrate a tender mercy toward
the miserable m particular and to misery in general, the cream
of the minority will approach the materially and spiritually
downtrodden of their ow n community' with chilled unease,
AH these nominal distinctions go no further however* At the
end of the two and a half month period, only a sprinkle of
tombs were transported from the Orthodox Armenian
cemetery; the majority of the minority had thus remained
behind, As for the Muslim cemetery, far more tombs had been
transported: the minority of the majority was left behind.
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bcads, the same sharply pointed arch around their seats, the
same heading/Htoi to baqtya to-a/ in Ottoman cel sulus*
script on their tomb inscriptions. Odd as it was, next to each
one rested a rusted sign, probably posted at the same time bv
the same people:‘Here lies Saint *Hewhopackedupandleft’ who
performed countless heroic deeds tor the conquest of Islam
while serving in the army of Ebu Hafs-i Haddad and who
reached Gods mercy before witnessing the fall of the infidel
city. A prayer to his sou/
When ordered to remove these two sarcophagi, the worker
on the bulldozer had to leave work early with a awful pain in
his groin.Though the pain had abated by the following day, he
refused to drive the bulldozer ail the same. On the third day,
instead of the worker, his grandfather, who had no teeth m his
mouth and no might in his muscles but ample ‘oomph’ when
it came to words, turned up instead. He narrated to whomever
he came across spine-tingling stories about the dire fate of
those hapless souls who had attempted to plunder the tombs
of saints. By the morning of the fourth night, not a single
worker was willing to drive the bulldozer, If truth be told, no
one except them seemed much interested in Saint
'Hewhopackedupandleft,' and things would have remained so
had the authorities not taken a sudden interest ui the topic,
upon being warned that their political opponents might use
the current state of affairs against them.The year was 1949 and
the political balance extremely fragile. Both the newly
burgeoning opposition as well as the government itself
constantly tainted one another with the brush of alleged
insolence toward religion . It w as at this point that‘The Three
Consultant Buddies’ showed up
The First of the Three Consultant Buddies came up with
the idea that in order not to disturb the saints’ tombs, the
avenue should take tw?o separate twists at two points. His
suggestion might have been considered had it not been the
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case that no one took him seriously; not since that ominous
day when he had been given a ruthless tongue-lashmg at his
workplace by his wile, upon her discovery that he'd spent their
entire month’s rent at a nightclub. The Second of the Three
Consultant buddies, in turn, proposed the avenue continue in
a straight line, right up to the two tombs* where it would
bifurcate like a piece of string cheese. Though everyone knew
he managed, albeit with difficulty, to gain the upper hand over
his wife, even dared raise his voice at home and smash
unsavory food against the wall, his idea was not accepted as no
one wanted to take responsibility for possible future traffic
accidents. It was then that the Third of the Three Consultant
Huddles asserted in a meandering speech, that they were
committing a grave error by* rushing to a solution. First they
had to grasp what exactly the problem was and, had they done
so, would indeed detect more than one peculiarity' in this
particular case Thus he paraphrased his oration:‘First diagnosis,
then treatment!1
The points of emphasis the Third of the Three Consultant
Buddies wanted clarified for diagnosis were as follows:
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never forge! due m this matrimony the Wes! 11 the woman and
East the nun. The biter is therefore naturally the head of the
household. For that reason it should be those swanky streets
built for a few overindulged ladies to gallivant on and tor
dressed up dandies to show off their ears that show respect to
the saints, not the other way around
With the detection of a crime necessitating the disclosure of
the criminal, the time was ripe to get some people into
trouble. After a brief consideration of possible options, trouble
flew around to finally perch on the heads of the old and loyal
cemetery guards. Having managed to hide all traces of nightly
disturbances at the cemetery from people who visited in the
morning, they were not able to hide themselves from the
notice of their chief, and after being found guilty of trampling
the tombs of saints, were laid off temporarily. Of the three
guards, two were elderly men who believed there was a silver
lining to every disaster Of these two, one returned to his
village and the other retired to his house to dedicate the rest
of his life to his grandchildren. Yet the third one, relatively
younger and not easily content with Little, could not accept the
injustice that had been committed. In the months to follow he
penned reproach till letters to the directory of the cemeteries,
the mayor, ministers, prune minister and high ranking
members of the military; all the while complaining to each and
even person be encountered. During this time, there was a
change of gov ernment and the opposition assumed power, but
all the same, his letters remained unanswered and the
authorities indifferent. As they became increasingly deal to his
pleas, he became muter, drifting inward. Everyone expected
him to eventually get over the past, but just when they thought
he had, he did something utterly unexpected.
Now this nun had a wife whom he had not touched m
years and whom he had banished from his bed for snoring till
daylight like an elephant. One day out of the blue, it was rhis
woman that he started to chase around the house utterly
unconcerned about the blame neighbours would place on him
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for such lust at this age. He finally caught his wife after a long,
scream-filled chase and, paving no attention to her excuses,
objections, entreaties and curses, with total doggedness and the
help of fortune impregnated her at the age of fifty.
He did not waste a second to rush to the registrar's office as
soon as the baby was born. In order to make sure neither he
himself, nor anyone else would ever forget the wrong done to
him, in spite of all the protests of bis wife and after giving
fistfuls of bribe to the civil servant on duty, he officially named
the son God had given him after all this time:' Injustice*.
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WHEN AGRIPPINA FYODOROVNA ANTIPOVA saw
Istanbul for the first rime in the fall of 1920 from the deck of
a freight ship, she did so with one small swelling in her womb
and a larger one on her back. With the help of her husband,
she ploughed her way through the crow'd of passengers, who
had all stood up tor the entire three days since they left the
Crimea. She clung to the rails to see what the city that awaited
them looked like. Ever since she was a little girl, she relished
playing games w ith colours more than anything else Wherever
she went, she needed to discover the colour of the place first
in order to feel at home there. The mansion in Grosn} where
she was born and had spent her childhood, for instance, was
rhubarb, and the church they attended every Sunday
parchment yellow. In her mind s eye, the villa they lodged in
during religious festivals was a spark Jy emerald awash in dew;
the house she lived in with her husband after their wedding
was the orange of a winter sun. Not only places but aho
people, animals, even moments had colours each of which, she
had no doubt she could see if focused fully. She did so once
again. At first with curiosity, then with frustration, she stared
and stared without a blink at the silhouette of the city in front
of her until her eyes watered and the image became blurred.
Istanbul was under a heavy fog that morning, and as all
Istanbulites knew too well, during foggy days even the city
herself could not tell what her colour was. How ever, \gripnu
Fyodorvna Antipova had always been pampered with great
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care since birth and had been subsequently led to presume that
others were to blame whenever she could riot obtain anything
she desired. Hence she interpreted the persistence of Istanbul
in withdrawing herself behind the veil of fog as a sign of
intentional hostility and personal insult. She still, however,
wanted to give the city a chance, as she firmly believed in the
virtue of forgiveness, ! ifting her small silver Virgin Mary icon
toward the city she smiled benevolently:‘What you just did to
me was not right, but I can still show tolerance and forgive
you. For that would be the right thing to do;
‘And I will give you water and bread in return.' replied a voice*
When she bent down the rails, Agripim Fyodorovna
Antipova saw there in a bo it at the side of the ship a wiry man
gesturing at her with bread in one hand and water in the
other. Before she could even fathom what was going op, a
chubby, rosy-cheeked, blond woman with shorn hair pushed
her aside, tied the gold ring she took oft her finger onto the
belt she released from her daughter s waist and lowered it from
the ship. The swarthy man in the boat grabbed the ring, lifted
it in the air giving it a quick inspection with disgrundemerit
and relayed the belt back with a round, black loaf of bread tied
m its stead. As the blonde, who had sheared her hair when a
lice epidemic broke cm the deck, and the scrawny daughter
standing by her started devouring the bread. Agripnu
Fyodorovna Antipova looked at the sea with her eyes wide
open in bewilderment and noticed that not only the ship they
were in. but all the ships anchored in the harbour were
surrounded with such boats. Cunning Turks. Greeks and
Armenians waved foodstuff from these boats haggling with the
White Russians who had been without food or water for days.
Figuring out what was going on, Agripina Fyodorovna
Antipova fretfully w ithdrew her silver Virgin Mary as if it too
would be snatched a wav
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would succeed in believing she had loved her with the same
intensity right from the very first day.‘I liar she might not have
done so, is so unspeakably appalling that it could not be
confessed to anyone. Not to the husband, tor instance, saying: "I
at first felt miserable for having given birth to your baby but
then recovered,1 Not to the child:"1 really did not love von at first
but gradually developed warmer feelings Not to herself: ‘How
could I fail to love my own child?' So the official history of
motherhood necessitates a meticulous cleansing of the secluded
corners of memory. Aghpi.ru Fyodoiwna Antipova s misfortune
was that before she had a chante to start hiving the baby, that is,
to love her year by year, degree by degree, to eventually arrive at
such a depth in love so as to have no difficulty' in convincing
herself she had always loved her so, she lost her.
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and shutters. She cared not. Not onlv did she not tare, she
found the world s behaviour ridiculously childish. She simpk
did not want to struggle with the world and .ill of us endless
burdens. Her only true desire was to see God. to see what
colour God was. if any Until she sasv that straight out - and
along with it. God's intention to taking her bahv assay - she did
not care at all to see the colours of this world of illusions . To her
husbands continuous insinuations about having a second baby
so as to start hfe anew' and to his consolation about nine healing
all wounds she reacted with revulsion. Agripjna Fyodorovna
Antipova had realized chat babies who died before their first
birthdays and cities abandoned before their first year of
settlement ominously resembled one another. No baby arriving
after a dead one could hillv detach its existence from the
absence of the dead sibling, just like no new acy reached would
fully welcome those exiled by the previous one.
Pavel Pavlovich Antipov did not pay anv attention to Pans
either that day or later.The helping hand his disgraced younger
brother extended with a pleasure he did not fed the need to
contain. .Antipov accepted with a displeasure he felt he had to
suppress - and did not let go until he had taken and learnt
everything he could from him. He gradually started to think
that trade was no different than the military; and once he had
believed in that, he fully dedicated himself to it. He had the
unprincipled resolve of ail those w ho. at a certain stage of their
lives, suddenly plunge full force into an option they had once
turned their nose up at. He was reckless and impatient, as if to
make up for the time he had lost.
However, it was only much later, with the sun of another
World War that his luck fully took a turn tor the better. From
black-marketeermg during the war, he acquired a considerable
fortune and an abscessed standing in society; lake a rubber ball
he succeeded in bouncing his way through the mins of war, at
rimes even conducting business with the Germans. It did not
matter to him at a 11.The war that raged on was not his. He no
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Vet when that time came, Pavel Pavlovich Antipov had lived
so long and had become so old that lie had started to carry his
age like a dilapidated outfit worn over and over throughout the
years, so comfortable that it could still be worn again and again
were it not tor the embarrassment of being seen in it by other
people. All Ins goals he had actualized one by one, he had
recovered ill he had lost and lived as long as he had hoped.Yet
still, even though life was done with him, it did not come to
an end. There was not a single person around him who had
lived that long. As all those people so much younger than him
that lie had loved, protected, fought or hated, departed one by
one, Ins torment at the death of each was deposited on his
chest layer upon layer, throbbing at night with a sharp, piercing
pain. He could not help suspecting that the relatives of the
deceased, even his own woman and daughter, blamed him
deep down, that every one hated him for living so long in such
a damned age when not only life but even death had lost its
enchantment. Though ninety-four years old, not only had he
not aged, let alone become senile, he had barely even grown
old.There was nothing he could do about it.The only way he
could make up for his fault was through death but one did not
die on demand and he did not demand to die either.
At times, he blamed himself through the persona of the
tlabby-cbinned Levantine who had been his boss tor a total ot
three days, but whose castrated voice he still, after all these
years, could not forget: 'How old are you Monsieur Antipov?
So almost a century! Within this century, states fell like a house
of cards, people were wiped out lake flies, the Trumpet of
Israhi* grated on our ears nor only once, but at least a dozen
times. But what about you, did you erroneously go through
the gates opening up to a time beyond time or did you
knowingly make a pact with the devil? How much longer
do you intend to live Monsieur Antipov? ('mild it be that you
leaving your country to escape death s clutches, to now wait
* it is believed that the Trumpet of Israill will bt heard on the Day
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here in this country of others for death to come and take you,
is another one of Fomina's tricks?’
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Just when the agony brought by his incurable fault had started
to nuke Pavel Pavlovich Antipov grow more and more distant
from people* he received a letter from the chief physician:
Agripina had suddenly taken a turn for the worse. One
morning, under the startled looks of the patients, nurses and
physicians* she had suddenly ran screaming outside and tried to
talk one by one to the peasants at the vineyard but, upon
realizing that none of them understood a word she said* had
suffered a nervous breakdown. When brought back inside and
having been somewhat calmed down with the help of
tranquilizers, she had spilled out her unintelligible words to
those at the clinic. Noticing how scared the other patients were,
she had become scared herself and had withdrawn. The head
physician wanted Monsieur Antipov to come at once to see his
wife because as far as he could tell the foreign language that his
most silent and most easygoing patient had started to speak after
alt these years - without the presence of a single event that
would have triggered such a transformation - was Russian.
When Agripina Fyodorovna Antipov saw Pavel Pavlovich
Antipov, she embraced him with a contentment brought on
less by seeing her husband after all these years, than by finding
someone who could understand her,Then she started to talk.
Her words had neither meaning nor coherence. She
blubbered about the songs the peasants at the vineyards sang
at sunset. T hen she complained about the childish jealousies
of the elderly patients at the clinic and also about God's
callousness. She did not stop.That day in a monotonous voice*
neither raised nor lowered but eventually hoarse, without the
slightest indication of happiness or sorrow, she kept switching
topics all the while mentioning a kitchen with smells of
cinnamon and whipped cream. As the night drew closer and
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far led. To this end, m spite of all the delay, he had to provide
her with the opportunity to avenge the pun of those earlier
day-s, by returning vears later to the city where at such a young
age she had been so scorned, trampled, belittled and defeated
He wanted to make sure this incomplete and stumps tale would
be completed in peace; while he spread out in front of her the
pleasures she had once been deprived of, the luxuries she had
not tasted, and the bliss she had not felt. He had made up bis
mind. Agripma should spend the rest of her life not at this clink
but in Istanbul, only this rime not as a refugee or deponee or
stranger or guest or tenant. She should not be in the others
Istanbul but her own , To make her a home there, he would first
make her a Homeowner.
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Thus they arrived. They armed but at first glance neither the
city' could recognize them nor they the ary. Having no desire
to spend a day more than necessary in hotel rooms, Pavel
Pavlovich Antipov started immediately to search for a suitable
house. He did not yet know if the local laws permitted
foreigners to acquire property' or not. However, given that
there were so many people in the world willing to tamper with
the gage of their nature for personal benefit or illicit gam, he
did not base the slightest doubt that he would somehow find
a way. Nonetheless, the opportunity that presented itself within
ten days was more than he could wish for. By chance a usurer
they' sat next to during a dinner reception, hosted by the
ow ners of their hotel, mentioned how the construction of an
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'Oh God, what wrong have we done to deserve this smell? We
literally live in garbage. It won't be long before we start
scrabbling around like roosters '
It was none other than C emal uttering these words and
whenever Cental said anything at the beauty parlour, female
laughter, some genuine, others out of politeness, would
immediately follow. That, however, was not the case this tune.
On the contrary, as soon as he stopped, a heavy silence
descended upon the place.
Here such pure silences were rare as rubies. For silence to
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the customers all day long (not minding his broken accent in
Turkish which he sail had not been able to get rid, of), kept an
eye on the television to vilify every single music clip,
incessantly scolded the apprentices, eavesdropped on others
conversations to put in his two cents' worth...and he did all
these dungs, not in any particular order but all at once...
Still Celal could not get angry at him. Like many who
believe their younger sibling’s childhood to have been more
difficult than theirs, Celal nurtured a tender love toward his
three and a halt minutes younger brother. The twins had been
separated when they were children, ( elal had stayed in the
village with his mother; in a suffocating yet affectionate,
Imuted yet protected womb* always where he belonged, w ith
and within his own roots. Genial, on the other had. had gone
to Australia with his father; uninhibited yet unshielded, in a
boundless but entirely solitary universe, communicating with
an estranged language, always half-setded, half-nomadic. Upon
Centals unexpected return to Turkey; their harshly parted
paths had crossed once again after a youth spent apart. Their
relatives had all presumed that the reason behind this sudden
return could be nothing but homesickness' and had therefore
forgiven Genial for not coming back years ago to attend his
mother's funeral. The truth is, the state of affairs in a country
always tinkers with the perceptions of its citizens. The natives
of less developed countries love to love those who, after
spending years m a developed country and despite having the
option to remain there, come instead to live with them. As
soon as he had returned to Istanbul, t emal too had benefited
from that distinctive love reserved tor those such as Christians
who convert to Islam, foreigners who settle in Turkey, tourists
who spend their vacations here every year and above all,
Western brides married to Turks who are willing to bestow
Turkish names to their children.
Be that as it may. Cental actually considered Australia his
country and did not much like either Turkey or the Turks,
especially Turkish women! With their narrow shoulders.
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had been separated from by a singl
resolute breach in his highly irresolute soul. If only he could
tear him away from this country, Cemal thought he would
surelv take his twin to Australia. However, as he could sense
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terminal, he had stared, first with
then embarrassment, at the curly-haired, large-nosed, big-
bellied man running to him with open arms and cries of
ecstasy His outfit was completely bizarre — a T-shirt adorned
Wit h kangaroos, a legume-green pair of shorts and those leather
sandals that thrust his pink, hairy, ugly feet into plain sight -
and his movements hugely vivacious. He made dozens ot
gestures just to say a single word, forever running into people
and knocking things over/! hat he was so garrulous himself was
hardly surprising. He made whopping promises that they
would never again be parted, squealing with tears in his eyes
about ridiculous plans and, damn it, never shutting up. If one
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the world may have a bottom to reach and the judgement L)av
a cut-offdate, you can be sure that Israfil will not blow his sur
while you are sitting in the beauty parlour An earthquake can
happen in Istanbul at any moment, any second, hut definitely
not while you are at the beauty parlour. Not in there.
Distinguishing the differences between the two photographs
on the wall was a recurring delight tor the women customers.
The female gaze has, after all. a predilection to identify
differences before similarities. For three seconds show j man
the picture of five beautiful, young models in blue bathing
suits and ponytails lined up b\ a pool. What he sees would
probably be this: a ponytailed, young and highly good-looking
model in a bathing suit x5. Then show the same picture to a
woman. What she in turn sees would probably be:x5 models by
the pool, some with good postures, some not: some carrying
the ponytail well, others not: the blue bathing suit hitting the
figures of some well, others not; some are more good-looking
than others.
Be that as it may, when it came to the photographs of Cclal
and Cental taken at the Marmara Region's 19th Traditional
Hairdressers Contest, even the female gaze would have a hard
time detecting the nuances. Leaving aside their clothes and
C'ern.il n silver accessories, they were identical, right up to then
facial expressions. From the way they leaned their heads
sideways to the angle with which they bent over the models
whose hair they fixed, from the way they crossed their
eyebrows to emphasize how seriously they took what they
were doing to how they bent their fingers... Still, there was a
small difference that did not escape the eye: Genial lightly hit
his lower lip — perhaps because he knew he was not as good a
hairdresser as his brother, or he was not as enamoured with the
thickly braided buns w ith the curled strand of copper red hair
from the nape of the neck as he had thought. Alternatively,
perhaps all he could think of at that moment was finishing up
what he was doing so he could go and get something to eat.
How Genial, with his infatuation w ith food and ins non-stop
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appeared at regular interv als from the window on the flat at the
top floor of Bonbon Palace, on each appearance dropping yet
another piece of clothing.
As the clothes rained down one after another, the
manicurist stretched out of the window to catch the falling
clothes with the happiness of someone erving to touch the first
snow oi the season. From among the dresses, socks, sweaters,
shirts, pullovers, she managed to catch a resin yellow ribbon.
1 )on't do that, it's not proper,' said Madame Auntie who had
maintained her composure through it all. Her lifeless voice
raised and lowered like a knobby watt or a jagged piece of paper.
The manicurist grumbled with the deep disappointment of
being forced to be virtuous just as she had started to savour
being witness to another persons insanity'.With a long face, she
threw the ribbon on top of the mound of cloches in the garden.
It did not last long. Afrer a minute or two the rani of clothes
stopped by itself. The concluding act of the show was a royal-
blue school uniform. Like some sort of coy parachute it opened
up to land quietly on cop of its predecessors. The windows of
the top floor were noisily shut and the snow white arm
retreated inside. As the spectators on the sidewalk dispersed one
by one, the ones inside returned to their places as well.
'Sonny, make all of us coffee." said Cental to the apprentice
without pimples. ‘Cod knows, our nerves are on edge." He
collapsed onto the large couch, suddenly feeling exhausted.
Were sick of it. Ever since we moved in here, things have been
raining on our heads The cracked woman has not left a thing
in the house, she open* the window's whenever she loses her
temper and “whoosh!' whatever there is comes down. One ol
these da vs she’s going to throw daw n a TV vet or something
like that and whichever one of us gets it in the head will die
tor nothing/
Though he remained pensive for a moment, it would not
take Cental long to collect himself together. He was always
somewhat scared of sadness settling in with no palpable reason.
‘So inventive! Never have 1 seen her throwing the same
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thing twice. Celal, do you remember* she once threw down her
husbands ties and they remained stuck on the rose acacia tree
tor days/
A hearty response from his brother being one of the last
things he expected to get at this moment, Cernal turned not
to him but the customers instead; Cdal got out and brought
the ties down He didn't let the young ones out fearing they'd
break the branches of the rose acacia. He climbed himself. Had
it not been for him. the stupid mans ties would have been
hanging out for days.'
Cchl smiled with a visible distress, i hope someone will
gather the clothes up. It’s getting dark, god knows someone
could steal them/ he mumbled to escape being the focus of the
conversation.
‘She’s gathering them up. 3 lie new cleaning lady is down
there gathering all of them up. What a shame, the poor woman
is red with embarrassment as if shed thrown them down
herself/ blurted out the manicurist.
Tt wont be long,This one will soon quit as well/ mumbled
the jittery brunette as she puffed away, examining the
permanently waved strands of hair chat had started to appear
from under the dun rollers that the apprentice with the
pimples had started to undo.
Oh, can any cleaning lady survive fijen? Whoever comes
runs away/ remarked Genial.
Hygiene Tijen! Hygiene I yen!' giggled the blonde with a
cast m her eye 1 I he woman hasn't stepped out of her house
lor exactly four months. Can you imagine? She hasn't been
able to go outside for fear of catching a disease. She's utterly
mad these days '
Come on* what do you mean by these days* for Gods sake?
Those who are in-the-know- will tell it straight* she's always
been nuts. Madam Auntie s known them since day one. Isn’t it
so. Madam Auntie?’ shouted the manicurist. Like many ol her
peers* she too leh the need to raise her voice when talking to
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Turk just like everyone else. The reason they could not help
but call her "Madam1, was not because they had any doubts
about her religion or citizenship, they just felt deep down that
she was different, though they were unable to explain why It
was not because she was so advanced in years (though she
certainly was) or because her manners were unusual (though
they certainly were) that she differed from others; her oddness
was less visible and yet was easily detectable. Since her nature
little resembled that of the others, "Madam1 she remained.
Besides, having been here for so many years she had much
older roots than anyone else, she w as the only one among them
who was born and raised in Istanbul. While most of the
neighbours were immigrants, her entire life had been spent in
this neighbourhood. Unlike the others, she had not popped up
out of now here, turning her back to a future that never came
and a past that was never left behind. Here she was, neither
dragged along by others nor having dragged others behind her.
Her name was "Auntie* because her very being was a residue of
a past none of them had lived.
Madam Auntie low-ered her head with a withered smile, She
looked at her blue, purple and burgundy hands with brown
spots drizzled over them, i he same spots, only smaller and more
faded, had been randomly sprinkled from her temples to her
cheeks. If these had been the loudest colours on her skin, she
would have looked, like many women her age, too old to age
further.Yet the orange of her lipstick that seemed less spread on
than glued oti, the sunny yellowness of her leaf-shaped gold
earrings, the rouge on her cheeks that made the concentric
wrinkles stand out line by line, the purple tones of eye shadow’
that collected on her eyelids laser upon layer, the navy, blue and
grey twinkle of her turquoise eyes, and then ot course, the
platinum yellow of her hair, had opened up wayward
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the other; the bun of one was finished and the other one had
just been started. We d been up all day long, totally beat, I
looked outside and saw this woman coming again wobbling
with garbage bags in her hand, 1 opened the window's, stuck
my head out, waiting/‘ May be shell be embarrassed when she
sees me and go back, 1 thought. No wav' This creature of God
tame looking right into my eyes and still threw down her
garbage. Oh, if l could only understand! Who declared our
garden wall a dump? Who told these people, “Come throw'
your garbage in from of your neighbours house?" The
apprentices could barely hold ine back. 1 was going to tear the
woman to pieces. I lost it, 1 was hollering, hurling insults.Youd
think a person would be a little embarrassed and at least feel
reluctant in front of all the people, right? Guess again! She
stares at my face with a stupid naivety. I swear to God she
didn’t even understand why I was angry. She must've thought
I d escaped from a mental institution. “Even if she doesn't
understand, she’d probably be afraid to come again,’ I said to
myself. Yet didn't she come again at the same time with the
garbage in her hand? There she w as, eyes wide open, fixed in
an idiotic stare to see what 1 was going to do. She’ll make a
murderer out of me. Oh my beautiful God, one doesn’t
meddle in vour business but why on earth do you create such
people? Now' w hat do we have to do to these bulgur, I don’t
know ? Because of them, the apartment building is thick with
the smell of garbage, i he wav things are going, no one will
come m here. Well lose our jobs, our daily bread. Child, spray
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chat the sofas she was going to put in the living room be egg
yolk yellow, When the cousins son tried to contain the
situation by reminding her that it was she who had chosen this
colour, Meryem could not help throwing up again. She threw
up so many times before noon that finally she got her way.The
new agreement was as follows: die cousin's son who had still
not received his first order was going to change the colour of
the upholstery and in re turn, Meryem would give both her old
sofas and more money than they had initially discussed,
Meryem $ pregnancy had reached its third month when the
cousin's son notified her that the sour cherry burgundy sofa set
was ready. In the meantime her morning sicknesses had
considerably diminished. Now she instead suffered from
schnialtziness. When the time came she went to the workshop
to see the completed work, looked at the colour of the sofas
and started to weep. Sour cherry burgunds! When even the
image of a single sour cherry tallen from its tree was enough
to remind her of untimely death, the possibility of the sofas in
her Living room being sour cherry burgundy could not be
even brought up. When the cousin's son tried to defend
himself and reminded her that she herself had chosen this
colour, Meryem could not help weeping again.That afternoon
she cried so much that she finally got her way. The ness
agreement was as follows: the cousins son who had not yet
received his first order was going to change the colour of the
upholstery and in return, Meryem would give both her old
sofas and tw ice the money they had initially agreed upon.
Only this time the most innocuous of all colours was going to
be selected to guarantee customer satisfaction: aquamarine!
h worked. Two weeks later, when Meryem saw the
aquamarine sofas she neither vomited nor wept.That night the
cousins son slept peacefully for the first time in days. The
following day, he threw the aquamarine sofa set in a pickup
truck and brought it to Flat Number I, Bonbon Palace, with
two skinny porters he hired at the last minute as his big and
burly apprentice had suddenly been taken ill Meryem had
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Muhammet, I ler mother bad died while she was Mill .1 baby
and her father had remarried. I he step-mother constantly
tormented this rmy orphan because she had a stone instead of
a heart. T he poor girl escaped from the house at every
opportunity to spend tune at the bakery with her dear father.
Sweet-smelling soft breads were prepared at the bakery, ako
crisp jimifs As Meryem kept reading these, it never occurred to
Muhammet to wonder how so much information fitted onto
a piece of paper that was only one times three ccntimetres-
squared. In the universe of nought-to-one years, bread was
sacred and every piece of paper with writing on if remained
an absolute mystery; as the abstruse magic of the two met on
the nose of the bread, the baker's daughter would shimmer
under a halo of sheer enchantment.
Muhammet wanted to learn everything about her: what the
bakery looked like, what she did there, it she liked to sleep in
the morning and be up at night when all children her age* had
to go to bed early, the games she played and, most of all,
whether she was beautiful or not,., Meryem described the girl
as ‘blonde and a* delicate as a water lily that blooms in the
water.' She kept her hair long. It reached her waist on each side
m two braids. Muhammet. too. bad long hair then. 1 hose who
saw him on the street thought he was a girl.
In her letters, the baker's daughter mostly talked about the
people who stopped by the bakery all day long, Old people
came, leaning on their canes; they dipped the hard biscuits they
bought 111 their teas and dissolved them noisily in their
toothless mouths There were ako the sirnit sellers, who came
earls every morning with round wooden trays on their heads
I he baker’s daughter wanted to be friends with them but some
behaved rudely toward her and said impolite things. Still, there
were some among them with hearts of gold. For instance, there
was i freckled boy who could hop on one foot while whirling
in each hand imi/% put onto two thin sticks, Muhammet was
offended at the bakers daughter talking so frequently about
the talents of this boy bur wouldn't object, Then there were the
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arms* her chubby flesh bulging from her thighs, her feet as big
^ a child's grave and her endless superstitious beliefs and
mi believable energy were all so big as to totally crush even”
obstacle into dust...and would always remain so.,,
Hence he put his toasted sandwich with parsley into hn
lunch bag, stepped on the flattened corpse of the cockroach he
had crushed just this morning at the corner of the aquamarine
double chair and, dragging his feet, set out on his wax to school.
Upon entering Bonbon Palace* the inhabitants ot the flat on
the right, like all family residences on the ground floor,
complained about being in front of people's eyes too much. All
day long, the residents of the building and their guests of all
kinds, as well as the door-to-door salesmen who always failed
to read the written sign strictly forbidding their presence,
could not help stealing a glance through the living room
windows of Flat Number 4. With the snooping customers of
the beauty parlour across horn them added to all these people,
the glances aimed at infiltrating the living room via its
windows increased ten fold as did the anxiety of those inside.
Some of the families living on the ground floor might
eventually get used to such traffic. There are even several
among them who made the most of the situation of being
continuously watched from the outside by continuously
watching the outside in return — some sort of‘an eye for an
eye' policy! Perhaps it is not a coincidence that the most well-
informed peepmg-roms of apartment buildings usualU reside
in flats at the entrance level.*.but the Firenaturedsons were not
of this type.They could neither tolerate being seen by those
coming to the apartment nor intended to spy on them. In their
view, the world outside their house was a boundless terrain of
everlasting trepidation. In point ot fact, when the ‘surname
law' was promulgated in Turkey, if rather than letting each
family make the choice, their characteristics were taken into
account, the doorbell of Flat Number 4 would have read
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about the odds that her new canary would meet a similar end.
She was particularly suspicious of that tar-coloured, grim-
faced giant of a cat, with fur so fluffy it seemed it had skinned
and donned the furs of at least four cats.
Actually Zeren Firenaturedsom did not have the slightest
interest m either canaries or any other bird of breed until
Zekenya Fireruturedsons (thirty-three years old) broke his
nose tbr the fourth time. A long time ago, when her son's nose
was a pleasant protrusion on a soft cartilage that had not yet
found its form, life was so nice and uncomplicated.Then, as he
stepped into adolescence, the gentle curves of his baby face
were totally wiped aw ay and his nose somehow underwent an
unexpected change, first insolently growing longer and then
curving down. All the meanwhile Zeren Firenaturedsonv had
anxnmsK watt heJ this transformation as it following die
approach of a menacing stranger. She was very content with
her own delicate nose; her husbands, though it might not be
regarded as beautiful, was at least well-shaped. Given these
facts, Zeren Firemturedsons felt the need to climb further up
the family tree as she firmly believed that all types of flaws m
the world stemmed from the genes. In this vein, when she
painfully realized that her son's nose had completed its
transformation and would never again be as before, she started
to search with a gene-map m her hand to at least find out the
person responsible for this mishap. Going back systematically
step by step, concentrating more on her husbands lineage than
hers, she first reviewed the relatives she knew and w hen that
did not turn anything up. combed through the old albums one
at a time, only to return from her countless trips to the gene-
map empty handed. With time, she gave up the search.
Then Zekerlva turned fourteen and smashed his nose to
pieces when he took wings with the speed of puberty and flew
down a hill on Ins bicycle. Upon receiving the news, Zeren
Firemturedsons felt a relief she could not confess to anvonc.
Despite her hopes that this unfortunate accident would be a
new beginning,setting straight not only her sons nose but also
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older daughter; at one time she had loved her more than
anything else. In the days when her son started to follow that
crooked nose of his, she in turn had started to pour all her
attention and love onto her older daughter. Back then,just as
today; Zeynep Firenaturedsons (now thirty-one) was far more
active and outgoing than either of her siblings. At age eleven*
she wanted to be the principal at the school her mother
worked at, a firefighter to spray all the water of the Stare Water
Works where her father worked, bum-around like her brother,
crochet lace like her younger sister and become an actor like
the father of her best friend at school - all at the same time.
Little had changed at age twenty-one* She sull wanted to be
more than the sum of everyone around her, Bulling the day
apart into chunks of rime and squeezing a separate occupation
into each chunk, she had divided herself mto many pieces,
doing first one thing then another and, strangely enough,
succeeding in most of them. Her intelligence was sharp
enough to flatter her mother’s genetic pride. Yet, she was just
as unhappy. Whatever she possessed was far from being
sufficient* in fact, nothing was sufficient,There was not a single
thing m life that was complete: to her 'completeness was just
a hollow word in dictionaries. There was no sea. for instance;
even within one sea, there were an infinite number of seas each
one trying to flow in another direction. 7 he height and
frequency of the waves we saw reaching the shore was what
remained of inter-sea wars. They arrived only to be decimated
bubble by bubble, particle by particle. Likewise* there was no
Istanbul. There were tens, hundreds, thousands, millions of
groups, communities and societies.The 'pluses took away the
'minuses', opposite svmds prevented each others drift and
because no one group was strong enough to dominate
another, the city' managed in the end to preserve itself though
it could not help being constantly diminished, ill the process,
just like the waves, Istanbul svas what remained from the total:
from what the rats nibbled on, the seagulls pu keel 10 shreds, the
inhabitants shed, the cars wore out, the boats earned, the very
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physician said as she took neither the physician nor his words
seriously. There was no leaf on any branch of the family tree
where one would come across such a disease. The mind of
even the darkest blot. Hoopoe Hanidi was in excellent
condition. That aside, her older daughter was the smartest,
brightest one among her three children The crisis she went
through could be nothing mote than late puberty despair.
Zeynep Firenaturedsons' quick reeosrry convinced her
mother further that she had been right Yet, as it soon became
evident, this recovery was not permanent but temporary. From
then on life for the older daughter of the Firenamredsons
would be divided into rwo seasons: when she was sick, it was
as if she would never recover from her illness, yet when she was
well, it seemed as if she would never be ill again There was no
middle ground. No one could tell when she would make the
transition from one state to the other The most evident
difference between the two states was her reaction to bad
news. When sick, she would only be interested in certain items
of news, like a colour blind person only nonces certain
colours, and she would read the newspapers for this type of
news. Street children who got high on painr-thmners, honour
crimes, suicides, women forced into prostitution, suicide
bombers, babies kidnapped from hospitals, souths taking
overdoses, all sorts of tragic occurrences... In addition to the
papers, she also carefully searched through the community
news: uncovered sewer pits, burst water pipes, uncollected
garbage, dosed roads, ferocious pickpockets, pastry shops sealed
up for filth, butchers selling horse meat, grocers marketing
contraband detergent, parking lot gangs, old wooden houses
mysteriously destroyed by tire, gas explosions, gas leaks...
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Upon seeing their all time favourite subject of gossip walk in,
the people in the beauty parlour had plunged into the uneasy
silence that is typical of those caught in the act. Encountering
right in tfonr of your eyes the person you were ruthlessly
gossiping about a minute previously might lead you to suspect
something mysterious is going on. Likewise, it seemed to the
people inside as ii HygieneTijen had heard the mention ot her
name from the spirit world. Still the reason for the nervousness
they fell in front ot her, did not solely stem from their inability
to figure out hem" to straighten the facial expressions they had
so carelessly slackened while gossiping. They were equally
bewildered at seeing a person who had not stepped our of her
house for months now; visiting a place that was probably one
of the last locations on her list of potential places to stop by if
and when the time is ripe enough to step out one day.'
The first to shake off this immobility w as Genial, He headed
towards the door, saying in an almost merry voice/ Welcome,
come on in. Misses Tijen! without even noticing how impolite
it was for him to address by name someone he had not once
before met. Such are the side effects of gossip addiction: if you
wag vour tongue too much and too often about someone, you
ought may well start to believe that you have known them
personally for quite some time. Had Centals intimacy been
reciprocated even the tiniest bit, he might have gotten so
carried away with this delusion that he could have even
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tor nor coming more often-,*but that did not happen. Giving
him a once over from cop to toe with a coldness that revealed
she was not at all thrilled with this greeting, the woman facing
him turned her head without saying anything and started to
scrutinize everything. Her eyes got stuck one by one on the
shorn hair on the ground waiting to be swept away, the
threadbare towels that had lost their colour from frequent
washing, the stains on the leopard-patterned plastic smocks
tied to the necks of the customers, the thin crack on the wall-
to-wall minor, the dead mosquitoes lying around the edge of
the counter adjacent to the mirror, the dust on the shelf lined
up with boxes ot the same brand hair gelT hair foam and
bri Ilian tine, hair-balls jammed in the hair brushes, the filling
that was sticking out of the tears on the chairs, the shabbiness
of the furniture and the bubbly water with doubtful contents
on the three-byered manicure cart,The dissatisfaction she felt
at what she saw was so deep and her desire to immediately
leave the premises so evident, that Genial, who felt both the
place he worked in and himself demeaned, swallowed hack all
the cries ot greeting that were on the np of his tongue and was
reduced to silence.
However, Hygiene Tijen did not, as Cemal had feared, turn
her back and run away. After standing stock-still for a few
seconds unable to move as if nailed to the spot, she cut her
scrutiny halfway along so as not have to witness any further the
hideous and slovenly world surrounding her and slid her looks
outside the open window.There she saw her cleaning lady who
had come down to the garden to collect the clothes- The
woman, whose displeasure at being forced to collect so many
clothes so meanmglessly thrown down could he read from her
hlearv eves, had seen her .it the same moment Her nerves shot
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from cleaning all day long, she was so tired that she did not even
have the energy to wonder what fijen was doing down here.
Leaving the laundry basket heaped up with clothes on the
ground and with her elfin body remaining out in the garden,
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While Cekl was busy taking his voting customer to the seat
in front of the mirror, Cental, resignedly enduring the
treatment he had been subjected to by the child’s mother,
invited her to one of the sofas on the side. Hygiene Tijen did
not sit down right away. For a few seconds she remained
standing, stuck in her uneasiness. She then gave up and
halfheartedly perched on the closest sofa she had been directed
to. When the manicurist, whose habit it was to ask every
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Cairene wouldn't hear die hum and the Istanbulite couldn’t spot
the smell of his or her own cities — and these are such old cities.
When l was young, I didn't know Istanbul was so old. Naturally,
as it ages, the garbage increases, I no longer get angry Neither
should you be angry; Misses Tijen*
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'Once upon a time there lived a much venerated saint,*..’
But you said it was gonna be a real story this time!* veiled
the seven and a half year old*'Why did you start it again like
a fairytale?*
Hadji Hadji pouted at the bov in anguish Among his three
grandchildren it was this child who upset him most, upset him
like no other. He was not human, this boy, but a /tMnr disguised
as human or, even worse, the mixed oft spring of a jmni and a
human being That was why he had turned out to be so
peculiar, with a head like a demijohn , but the moment the old
man caught himself thinking of such things, he felt ashamed.
He immediately repented and shooed such wicked thoughts
aw as. Repentance had with time produced some sort of a
spontaneous effect on him. Whenever ashamed, he would
immediately repent, like a muscle spasm, with an urge almost
as uncontrollable He did so again, three tunes successively First
he repented for attempting to grasp and even question with his
limited mind why Allah had created people as He had. After
that he repented for having indirectly and inadvertently
mistrusted his daughter-in-law's chastity by tracing the
bloodline of hil grandson to the finm Finally, he repented fur
having such dreadful thoughts about a little sick child. This last
one. however, he had uttered out loud 1 he seven and a half
year old narrowed his moss green eyes into a hire and, as if he
had understood something had been said about him, observed
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his ryes. Even it not a jinni, who could deny that this child was
jinn-like.
Allah had conferred to his siblings all the beauty He had
withheld from him, but then, to ensure justice, had bestowed
upon him tar more intelligence than his siblings, actually even
more than the entire family line What was he going to be like
when he grew up? Not only his body, but the disproportion
between his head and his body grew day by day How much
bigger could his head expand than the one and a halftimes its
normal sire it had already grown to? His hands could not bend
back but twisted inside like a monkeys. How much longer
could he live with these clawed hands and w ith the *Ma-ro-te-
jux-h-syu-drome* that no one m the family had even been
able to correctly pronounce? Suddenly feeling a tug at his
heartstrings, he forced his face into a smile.
'This isn't a fairytale, it’s the plain truth? he said with a
gentle expression/The saint lived a very long time ago, that's
why it came out of my mouth sounding like a fairytale. These
things reallv happened. He even has a tomb. If you don't
believe me, you can go and see it with your own eves?
The moment he said this he recognized what a1 gaffe' he had
made. His oldest grandchild could no longer leave the house.
It was to Ins best interest that he did not. Unlike his peers and
ablings the boy s entire world consisted of this one hundred
and five metres square house; With a compassion rolled up in
mercy the old man patted the child's puny back.
This great saint, before he was a saint, used to be a dervish.
When his Excellency Sultan Muhammed the C onqueror
besieged the city of Istanbul, lie immediately ran to help,They
beat the city walls with canons. They fought for days but
weren't able to get the Byzantine infidel to surrender. Then
our dervish had an audience with the sultan. He said, “My
sultan, give me permission to open a big breach in these walls
so our soldiers can get m from that gap and snap off the
infidel's neck like that of a chickcn?*The sultan looked at the
ordinary, ragged dervish standing in front of him. What could
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the surm. As tor the seven and a hall year old, he in turn had
questions to articulate, objections to raise. Still, however, he did
not say a word. It was time tor the noon nap, and that, the kid
reckoned, was far more imperative than identifying the
numerous mistakes in the rationale operating behind his
grandfather's tales
Around these hours of the afternoon, time in Flat Number
5 gradually slowed down The same things were always
repeated every day in the same order Rarlv in the morning
their mother went to work and their father to look for work.
When left alone with their grandfather, every weekday
morning with out tail, an argument broke out among them
regarding the television, Hadji Haji would rather not have the
children watch much television but, it thev did, preferred it to
be one of those insipid childrens programmes or even better,
the cartoons that were simultaneously broadcast on a couple of
channels. The kids how ever had a different choice, insisting on
watching the morning programme hosted by a chatty and
flirtatious person who wore outfits that, depending on the day.
either left bare the red rosebud tattoo on her belly or the
cleavage of her breasts. When their request w as not granted,
thev either took out the battle-axe and went on the attack or
became fussy and refused to talk to their grandfather Hadji
Hadji $ reaction also varied daily: Now and then he put up with
the situation and while the children watched the programme,
he kept reading one ot the tour books he owned — a number
which had remained the same over the years. At times he got
hold of the remote control and. in spice of all the objections
buzzing around hum fixed the screen on the first cartoon he
could find. On other occasions, he tried to draw' his
grandchildren s attention away fiom die screen and wore out
his imagination by concocting various games, each more
strained than the other. Whatever he did, however, he could
not wrest power away from them, especially not from his oldest
grandchild, until noon. After that things got worse for the old
man tor they' would, just like thev had been doing every
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weekday for the last two months, pile up all the sheets, pillows
and covers in the middle ol the living room and start to create
'Osman',
Two months previously* Hadji Hadji had read to his
grandchildren the first three chapters of one of his four books
entitled. ‘How Was a Magnificent Empire Born and Why Did
it Decline?’ When he took a break, he got* as usual, three
dissimilar reactions from his three grandchildren. The seven
and a half year old had listened austerely, attentively and was
now ready to voice a couple of issues of great interest to him:
'Grandpa* how many tents did the Turks have when they
arrived m Anatolia?''A thousand!' Hadji Hadji hastily made up,
Yer that response did little to satisfy the child’s curiosity." About
how many people m all were there in these thousand tents?'
*Ten thousand!' Hadji Hadji roared. The anger dripping from
his response only provoked his oldest grandchild even more,
'When the Turks came with their tents, weren’t there already
other people in Anatolia?’ No, there weren’t, this land was
empty, whoever was there had run away,* grumbled Hadji
Hadji. Okay, did the Turks settle m the houses of those who
had run away? Or did they continue to live as nomads tor
some time? Did they build their first cities due of tents- In that
case would that he a tent-metropolis? How could one draw on
a map a city that was peripatetic? How...?'
‘Shut up!’ Hadji Hadji had replied losing control.
The child had indeed shut up but all the questions that had
accumulated on Ins tongue circulated in his mouth, moved up
through the passages of his nose and climbed up from there to
trickle into his teardrop ducts* so in his moss green pupils
curious, insistent, accusing sparks of questions continued to light
up and fade away like fireflies flitting about on summer nights.
In order not to keep looking at him. the old man had turned
with a weak expectation to the six and a half sear old, but
judging from the indifferent expression on his face the only
thing he registered from the story was that there were many
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Around the same time the next day, the five and a halt year
old had placed herself in his lap in exactly the same manner:
‘Come on. grandpa, let’s make Osman!' When the old man
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heard the name “Osman*, his hair stood up as he had not yet
been able to get nd of the fatigue the previous tent-exercise
had produced on hi* out of shape legs and stiff back, Alas,
neither his dulcet warnings nor his seeching anger had been of
much help in teaching the girl that the tent was not supposed
to be called ‘Osman'* Such was the girl s nature. Once she
coupled one word with another, no authority in the world
could sever this linguistic connection m her mind. Just as
ghosts, spirits, ogres, hellhounds and the deceased were
altogether lumped in the category of JINS', so too was the
tent called OSMAN’.
After that Osman became an essential part of their lives.
Now even dav around the same time the children started to
get antsy like drunkards awaiting their drinking nme. Within
half an hour, all the sheets, bedspreads, mattresses and pillows
were piled in the middle of the living room. Even chough
Hadji Hadji hoped in vain that, with their record of getting
bored with all the games they played, his flighty grandchildren
would also get their till of Osman, this was not to be. On the
contrary, they gradually expanded the boundaries of the tent
adding new rooms, sections and cavities, leading a blissfully
nomadic life m an area of five and ten square metres- Osman
was rebuilt at noon even* day, stayed m the middle of the Imng
room until lace iti the afternoon, and then when it started to
get dark outside, was taken down in a flash minutes before the
parents were due back from work.
There were a number of other incidents repeated daily
without exception. For instance, the phone rang around the
same tune, around 11:45 a.m., after the last minute theatre¬
goers had settled in their seats for the noon show Each tune it
was the oldest kid who answered the phone. He reported what
they had done since morning, alw ays giving the same responses
to the same questions: yes, they had finished their
breakfasts.,, no, thev* weren't being naughts...yes, they were
watching television...no, grandfather wasn t telling a
story...no, they hadn’t turned on the gav. no, thev didn't mess
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the house up...no, they didn't hang out of the balcony...no,
they didn't play with fire..,no, they didn't enter the
bedroom...Allah was hn witness that grandfather didn't tell a
story,,.' and so forth.. *
Even though deep down the Daughter-in-Law was
suspicious of her older sons honesty, never willing to call her
father-in-law to the phone, she had to be satisfied with what
she heard. Meanwhile, as the seven and a half year old held the
phone in his hand and recited his usual responses with a
suggestion of slyness in his voice, not even for a second did he
take his eyes off his grandfather. Lie was more than aware of
the continuous tension between the two adults and had long
since discovered that he could bolster his power by favouring,
as the occasion dictated, one adult over the other.
Not only did they have their meals inside Osman, but they
listened to their bed-tune stones there as well, Every day after
lunch before their nap, new- personalities joined them:
coldhearted stepmothers, ill-fated orphans, hellhounds
escaping from the bowels of the earth, bandits wavlavmg
people, female jitws seducing men, bloodied fighters, certified
madmen, poisonous rattlesnakes, spiteful hags with sagging
flesh, malicious skeletal demons and ogres with protruding
eyes.„all crammed into the tent. Once they arrived, they never
wanted to leave. As the concluding sentences of the fairytale
still smoked in the air weariness descended upon them.
Everyone curled up in their place. Hadji Hadji was the one to
fall asleep the fastest and the easiest, followed by the five and a
half year old and then the six and a half year old. As his
grandfathers snores and his siblings puffs filled the tent, the
seven and a half year old got up quietlv. First he stopped by his
grandfather and watched him. He watched as it examining a
creature he did not know; a tropical fruit he had not tasted or
a clam tilled with surprises, Hadji Hadjis round, greying beard
rising and tailing w ith each intake of breath, the amber prayer
bead that had slid from his fingers, the greying hair creeping
from his chest to his neck, his cracked lips, the deep wrinkles
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Strange as it was, I w oke up without the help of an alarm dock
this morning. As if that was not astonishing enough* when I
woke up, t found myself already awake. My eyes were opera as
if they had awoken by themselves and having once done that,
had taken to wandering around the ceiling. Tor a fleeting
moment 1 thought 1 was looking at myself from the ce ling. I
cannot say I liked what I saw.
Whenever 1 fall asleep here, my legs spiU over from the
couch but this time l seem to have forgotten to take off my
shoes to boot. My head had slipped from the pillow, my neck
was sore. In the dent extending from the side of my mouth to
my car, 1 detected a bubbly, pasty spittle - befitting a dog gone
rabid or a baby regurgitating the food just consumed. My shirt
had wrinkled up on me, the pain of lying down lopsided had
hit my back and my mouth was parched. I had also thrown up
on the corner of the rug. At least 1 had thought of taking off
my trousers, but as Ethel the Cunt1 likes to articulate in yet
another aphorism ot hers^To be without pants while in socks
and shoes can make a man only as attractive as a candied apple
with the exposed parts all rotten../ or something like that.
When viewed from this angle, perhaps 1 should consider
myself lucky for waking up alone this morning, just like S had
done for the last sixty-six days
It is all because of this house. It has been two months and
five days since I moved in here, I have come to realize that for
all its abstractness and vastness the terms in which time is
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nothing there except a pit, but this was better, much better, I ic
then tuned to track down the White Russians who had shared
the same fate with them in the 1920* but had stayed to become
Turkish citizens. Realizing the advantage of having the name
of a Turkish citizen on paper to ease the legal procedures, but
unable to trust anyone not from the same origin as him, after
some rescan i . he finally reached an agreement with a reticent
couple who had become Turkish citizens and made a living
selling delicate lampshades at a dingy shop in Asniahmcscu. A
company in which the couple had no shares provided a front
to cover the ow nership of the apartment building. Without a
single false move Pavel Pavlovich Antipov calculated
everything precisely and paid abundantly. His chequebook
speeded up transactions that would have otherwise taken a
long tune and cause ample trouble. For an architect he hired
an Armenian Istanbul)tc whose tamilv he had conducted
business with in France. He had also left a large chunk of
money to his mistress there, to make the lies he told her more
convincing. Hardly did he complain. For the first time in years,
he was content spending money freely without any
reservation. Whilst he did not Withhold any expense, he did
want control over all the expended materials. Even though he
did at times consult his wife about the trimmings such as the
gates, the gaiden walls, the iron grills of the balcony, the frontal
decorations, the curl of the stairs or the marble used in the
entrance, all in all he did what he wanted.
Agripma did not seem interested in such details anyhow.
Ever since her arrival in Istanbul, she spent her tune either
watching the sea from the window of the hotel room or
listening to the squabbles of her Alsatian companion and her
Algerian maid w ho did not even for a moment leave her side
The expression on her face while looking at the w aters of the
Bosphorus was no different from that which she had worn
whilst gazing at the vineyards from the window of the clime
m France. Not only did she seem unmoved at being back at
the place where they had buried their baby but she
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occasionally confused which city she currently was in. Anti yet,
she did not look unhappy either. 1 ike a timid, tremulous
raincloud she floated above Istanbul, ready to shed tears but
impossible to touch.
For Pavel Pavlovich Antipov, his wife’s insulation from the
world was an indication not of her illness but her innocence
Many a time at the front, he had witnessed how soldiers of
different nationalities retained a common belief that if there
was even one innocent person among them, this would spare
them all from a portentous end. He too sought refuge in his
wife with a similar conviction.
When the outside walls were painted in ashen tones, the
window frames and iron grills of the balcony m two shades of
grey and the line decorations on the double-panelled entrance
door completed, the apartment building emerged in all its
dazzling beauty The most striking characteristic of the
building was that no two storeys were alike, having been
constructed upon Pavel Pavlovich Antipovs insistence in An
Nouveau style, even though no longer in fashion. As if to
compensate for their lack of balconies on the facade, the flats
at the entrance had much larger windows than the rest. The
balconies too changed from one floor to the next. Those of the
second floor extended outward in a semi-circle, while the
balconies on the third floor were buried so far inside the
building one could easily sir in the apartments without
worrying about being seen from [be outside. Instead of an
iron-railing, the sides of the balconies on the fourth floor had
been surrounded by a stone wall adorned with floral reliefs and
two large marble flowerpots on either end. So striking were
the differences that one could not help but think the residents
of the building shared the same space without living in the
same place.
In front, the relief between the windows of the first and
second floors was particularly eye-catching. Here placed
within a circle was a small-headed, large-bodied peacock.The
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their success* and should indeed do so* since there was so much
effort, suffering and also money behind it. Agripina Fyodorovna
Antipova listened to her husbands soliloquy with a docile
smile. But each time her response remained the same.
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there was the mushroom pizza slice sent by that elderly woman
neighbour. I had seen many who send puddings and the like* but
had never before encountered one who made pizza and
distributed it slice by slice. ] was going to throw it away but
forgot. Now; however, as the alcohol panicles left over from the
ilight slowly gnawed on die membrane of my stomach* I
reached for the pizza slice with gratitude. It took three minutes
to heat it up tn the microw ave oven and approximately thirty
seconds to get it down my stomach, It was a bit stale but so
what: it was great considering the conditions! Having thus
appeased my stomach, just a tad, I embarked on preparing my
medicine. This included a pot of skimmed milk with two
heaped spoonfuls ofTurkish coffee* one spoonful of pine honey,
a generous quantity of cinnamon and a little cognac. This n my
miracle medicine for hangovers, its curing power proven
through experience. It may not suit every coustitunon. Actually
everv constitution should, through trial and error, develop its
ovsti cure. That is hovv I found mine. That day I made the
proportions more generous than usual, as 1 needed to sober up
as soon as possible. It was Thursday and since the beginning of
the term, every Thursday afternoon I have taught the course I
love the most to the class I love the most.
While waiting for the milk to boil, 1 looked through the
brochures F.thel had thrust into my hand. Another private
university was being founded m Istanbul. 1 had been aware of
some of the details for a long time, like the long preparation
process for example. What I did not know was that Ethel the
Cum was involved as well; she was actually at the very centre
of it all and told me more than 1 ever wanted to learn at
dinner. Only two minutes after we had met, she introduced the
topic with a “plop' and talked of almost nothing else until the
end of the night when* under the weary looks of the skinny
Kurdish waiter who could barely keep his long black eyelashes
open, we wobblmgly departed from the restaurant that had no
other customers left except us She kept talking continuously
about howf this university was not a financial investment but a
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yme time You might smoke jione but to speak in this kind of
garbage-language you definitely need a companion.
For years, whenever left alone, Ethel and I would speak, or
used to speak until yesterday, m SAWish. Whenever we got
together, without stating that one needs to be serious to call
die other sills, without making any claims to he just or
equitable, we loved to recklessly and coarsely belittle
everything and shower this or that person with insults. Just like
a bully brushing off an attack to then plunge into a tight by
randomly pruning the noses and ears of his adversaries, we
attacked social hie with our cutting tongues and did our best
to prune the maladies and blunders ot whomever chanced to
appear in front of us.
Who says you cannot make fun of other people's detects?
With spears in our hands and waterproof goggles on our eyes,
we would dive headfirst into the seven depths of the sea of
flaws* faults-failures and bring each defect captured to land,
with the intent of examining it at great length and tearing it
to shreds. Sometimes, not content with this, with an appetite
befitting calaman-lovers we would lift our catch up in the air
and hit him against this or that rock for hours on end. In the
final instance, no one escaped our tongues but some received
from our shower of generalizations more of their share than
others. Peasants, the lumpen proletariat, advertisers and
academics, housewives and lawyers...all were a target, albeit for
different reasons. Yet the diameter of our net was rather wide,
enough to easily contain all sorts of people. There was a place
for everyone there.
We pitilessly and coarsely belittled those we saw to be
unsteady or those who attempted to look smart. We were
irritated by those who caned about their appearance but totally
drowned in derision those who dressed tastelessly as well; had
no respect for the masculine heroes of the have-not's' but were
beside ourselves with anger at the pnma donnas ot the "have V.
We turned up our noses at those who feared death to then
merrily trample on those who had no concern about death. We
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us.The genie in the lamp, the houns of heaven, even Peter Pan s
fairy ,, none would have served their masters with as much
devotion. Ultimately, sooner or later, all these guest-masters
ended up falling in love with their host. Yet this aKo brought
their downfall. Those who had the freedom to swim as they
pleased in this vast sea, often moved so far away from land as
to suddenly realise, upon looking back, that they had lost sight
of the land. Ethel was no longer at their side; she had lost
interest in them just when they had miserably fallen for her.
The only drawback of being a guest at this house was the ease
with which one overlooked the fact that both the guest status
and also the visit were temporary. Hence each departing guest,
just like the infinite replenishment of the materials of the
temple-house, was quickly replaced with another. Saint Hizrr's
prayer for abundance was valid for Ethel s 'brains' as well: they
constantly multiplied and never lessened.
As for me. I was the exception. From the beginning till the
end, I was the only constant visitor of the temple-house; a type
of honorary member. 1 was ambitious, more than was
necessary according to some. My report card was filled with
'AY for a couple of solid reasons. For one thing, I was tall
(three stars), then wide-shouldered (three stars). 3 will not be as
modest as to say i w as ‘considered handsome’ for I w as always
the most handsome in the places 1 frequented (four stars) and
1 was extremely impatient and*difficult’ (five stars). Unlike the
others, l had choices. 1 certainly enjoyed being here but could
have left at any moment 1 could have gone and not returned.
Ethel was too well aware of this.That is why 1 was so dear to
her. The seed of discord in the middle of heaven. My presence
enchanted Ethel and disquieted her guests. Little did I care.
Being considered a threat by other males was old news to me.
If] had cared about these types of looks, I would have done so
much earlier: back when walking the distressed corridor of an
eleven year old. With a plate filled w ith wedding cake in one
hand and only underwear on my wiry body, I had almost
collided by the kitchen door with my stepfather, I was so
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receiving from another man love that is more than that which
they receive from their husbands. Cheating on Ay shin with
Ethel flattered my vanity. Those days, I very much enjoyed
observing their differences. As to whether Ayshin cheated on
me or not, I never attempted to find out.
‘Okay; but these are so for a reason.' Ayshin had spoken up,
by no means intending to give up, Then she had gotten down
to business and commenced with a detailed explanation.
Trying to employ objective expressions, she had talked about
the shaky psychology of being a minority, the constant
insecurity generated by the crisis of belonging and the
■domination nurtured not by concrete threats but by abstract
tenets. She did so neither to be a smart alecks nor to display her
interest in talking big. She talked like that because this was the
only language of debate she knew. Yet debating in an academic
language is like going to bed with a woman who does not put
a drop of drink into her mouth. You can rest assured rhat she
will remain standing until the end of the night, never go
overboard and never lose it.Yet you have to accept upfront [rut
you would not be able to relax around her. let out w ild yells,
hit bottom, pass out in each others arms; in short, that you
would not have any fun whatsoever*
'What you say is nice but totally useless,' Ethel had
remarked, girding up the swords she had just sharpened* ‘It
gloomy writers, slovenly producers or socially undesirable
painters had emerged from among the jews in Turkey, do you
know what explanation the generations succeeding us, say fifty'
or a hundred years later, would've given? Exactly the same
ones you used just now.They would’ve said/4Yes, so and so was
a great artist or thinker. What made him so great, what
separated him from all the rest?' I hen they would’ve started to
count the reasons you gave: the psychology of being a
minority, alienation from the language* insecurity; being
unprotected and so on. Thus everything you now see as an
obstacle would have become a cause for difference, for
privilege even. This is how these things operate. If a lame man
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cant dance, we say, “Of course he can't dance, he's lame!" but
if the same man is an expert dancer, then we say/*Of course he
has to be better than others, for he's lamer
Aysftiin had flinched, as if avoiding a pushy salesman,
shaking to one side then the other both her head and hands.
1 knew that motion too well. It meant, "Thanks, but I'm not
buying that nonsense " During our three and a half years of
marriage, she would conclude almost all our arguments wLth
the same gesture.
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Shooting up the stairs,'I he Blue Mistress unlocked the door of
Flat Number H panting. She was very late, As if it weren't
annoying enough that the visit to the beauty parlour had taken
so long, she had also spent too much time afterwards shopping.
Once inside the flat, she emptied the contents of the shopping
bags onto the kitchen counter. The food could wait, her
appearance could not. She dashed into the bathroom. While
brushing her teeth, she scrutinized the waves in her hair with
discontent.This new style had seemed much nicer in the mirror
down at the hairdresser than here m her bathroom. Being one
of those women who sometimes envied curly hair and
sometimes straight, but in each case only ever on others, her
hair had all this time been oscillating, unable to lean in either
direction. Now that chatterbox of a hairdresser had upset this
delicate balance, making it far curlier and trimming it far
shorter than she had asked for. She stole another glance at the
tuU-length mirror while taking her clothes oh m the bedroom.
Though her hips had somewhat widened lately, she was still
fond of the way she looked. If only those cuts were not so
visible ,. She applied a handful of foundation cream, the same
colour as her skin, managing to conceal the scars once again*
The drawers opened one by one and she paused for a
fleeting moment but did not have to ponder for long over
which underwear to pick since it seemed to make no
difference to the olive oil merchant,That had not been the case
in the beginning. Back in those days, he wanted her to wear
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the naughtiest underwear possible, buying it personally as a
‘present’ to her He always chose the same colour: a lucid,
brilliant* infinite sky blue,The Blue Mistress liked this colour,
she really did, except in panties or bras, When it came to the
underwear in her gift packages, she tele uneasy about the
incongruity' between the docility ol their colour and the
licentiousness of the intention behind. A garter could be as
desire-inducing a colour as cherry; as carnal as black or as
deceptive as white; even violet in its flirtatiousness or pinkish
in its hypocrisy,.,but it could not he a lucid, brilliant, infinite
skv blue, Fusing that specific hue with those specific intentions
was pretty much like diluting milk with water, or even worse,
adding milk to rah. Not that it wasn’t possible for a man to
enjoy both, just as long as he refrained from drinking them
simultaneously. Of lambs turning into wolves or wolves into
lambs, she had seen plenty; but it was the ones trying to be
both lamb and wolf at the same time who spawned the worst
monstrosities while believing themselves to be innocuous in
the meantime.
It was the half-lamb half-wolf who had harmed her the
most - even more than those who liked to remind her of the
unsurpassable border between women-to-marrv and women-
to-bed. Such men lusted after what thev vilified and vilified
what they lusted after. The Blue Mistress had once seen a
hoodwinker on the street tricking the passers-by with three tin
cups on a cardboard box. As he changed the places of the cups,
the bead hidden in one of them was displaced too. At the onset
it was in the first cup: 'Be ashamed ol your desires!’ In a flash
it moved into the second cup:"Be ashamed of the woman you
desire!’ Then, in one move, there was the bead again, now
under the third cup: ‘Desire the woman who brings you
shame!’ That, in turn, meant that sooner or later these men
would start to scorn the women they slept with.
In order not to repeat this vicious pattern, the olive oil
merchant kept seasoning their affair with spices that would
outweigh both the zest of desire and the tartness of shame.
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school. Before she knew it, the scar on her face had drawn a
hair-thin boundary, first between her and her peers, then
between her and the age that she lived in. She had to leave that
house. If given a choice, the only place she would like to go
was, undoubtedly, the universe that her grandfather
inhabited...a grandfather whom she loved dearly, lost too
early,..After losing her dedeJ tracing the jumbled footprints of
people from all walks of life in Istanbul, she had tried to track
down those that belonged to the dervishes.
Hard as it was she had managed to find them - scattered
here and there on the two sides of the city and gathered, like
moths attracted to light, around their own dedes. She had
joined them. For two years, she had participated every week
without tail in the sermons of three separate religious orders in
Istanbul, seeking solace in the resemblance between the words
she heard from their sermons and those she had heard back in
her childhood from her own dede. bur it had not worked. It
wasn’t that the words were not reminiscent of those of her
grandfather's, lor they were. Nor was it that the people who
uttered them were not sincere, lor they were. Still, tor some
reason it just did not sound the same. Little by little she came
to realize that in these meetings it wasn't the talks that she was
really interested in but the chants that followed. She would sit
side by side with the other disciples while the dede calked, but
rather than be all ears like the rest, she would withdraw behind
a solid deafness, Only when the chant started would she
reopen the sealed gates of her ears. How profoundly she loved
that moment, that true and total desertion of the body, again
and again, sealed in the minuteness of repetition. It wasn't the
words articulated there but instead the beat of the drums and
the notes of die underlying melody that took her away
However, no matter how far she swerved she could never quite
shake that old feeling of incompleteness. After a while she had
started to feel like a hypocrite. Why had she insisted on being
one with those she felt so apart from? Every' chant attended left
her yet another mile awa\ from the other disciples, just as she
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ry^es and therefore the men they are with also belong to a type
- with only one difference: a bug cannot leave its type and
make the transition into another type. A horsefly, tor instance,
cannot at any stage of its life turn into a praying mantis. It stays
the same. However, Adams sons and Eves daughters can
indeed accomplish this transformation. The trademark of a
human is the faculty' to deviate from what it was originally; to
betray its own type. Accordingly; the table of modern human
types is less complex but much more convoluted than that of
the primitive bug. Nevertheless, making the transition between
categories is not easy. After all, m order to preserve their
stability and maintain their existence* not only do all types
nuke, without exception* their members exactly like each
other but they fix them in that guise as well. The olive oil
merchant belonged to upper category of the mens type/Long
Term CompUiners about Marriage’, svas on the 'Can't Quite
End Marriage team and also m the Want Change Without
Loss' subsection: a harmful type whichever way you looked
at it.
'You are my betrothed,' he had said as they silently drunk at
the raki table they had, on their first night in this house, set
together He liked to dnnk and often drank at night. He was
not one of those w ho made do with a fistful of appetizers* half
a mould of cheese and a slice of melon. Instead he always
insisted on having a table filled to the brim. It couldn't be
ready-made either, everything had to be prepared at home
from scratch. Chicken with ground walnuts was his favourite
dish I hat night, w hilst using a piece of bread to wipe off the
last crumbs of chicken with ground walnuts from his plate, he
has! remarked: ‘Gur religion permits it as well. As long as you
are fair enough* you can have up to four women * The Blue
Mistress had tittered* a bristly; edgy' snigger, He had grimaced.
She had left the table: unlike the olive oil merchant* she did
know the mentioned verse of the Qur’an m its entirety*
Choosing a gauzy green dress from the wardrobe, she
dressed in no time, then ran back to the kitchen to open the
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packages from the grocery More. First she placed the hummus
in a bowl, decorating it with mint leaves. Next, she arranged
the other appetizers on plates: dried bean stew, eggplant puree,
green beans m olive mb liver with stewed onions,,* She lined
up the cheese pastry on one side, planning to try it when he
arrived. There was also the Russian salad Madam Auntie had
sent yesterday with the janitors son. This she actually had
found rather odd. The Blue Mistress had never before seen a
housewife sending Russian salad to neighbours and the like,
but she guessed that the ohve oil merchant might enjoy it on
the rnkt table. She could place it on the table as if she had
prepared it herself After inspecting the plates for the last time,
she crumpled up the packaging paper into a ball and threw it
in the garbage; then tied up the garbage bag and took it
outside. It was then that she recalled the conservation at the
hairdresser She had not mentioned this to anyone but her
garbage had also been stolen a couple oi times from her front
doorstep. Inspecting the garbage bag suspiciously, warily; she
took it inside again to put it out later w hen Meryem was due
to come to collect them,
The delicaaes she bad prepared the Blue Mistress then
earned to the table with the azure tablecloth. She set the
napkins that matched the tablecloth in colour, then the plates
and the glasses. She rook out from the refrigerator the rah she
had seasoned with ground mastic and poured it into the crystal
water pitcher with the turquoise handle. Finally, she poured
into a maroon bowl a small amount of the heavy-smelling
olive oil the merchant had brought and sprinkled it with red
pepper, sweet basil and thyme. Though it w as still early she
could not resist lighting up the lily-shaped candle that floated
on a glass bowl ball-tilled with water. With a soft, satisfied
smile, she scrutinized the table and then everything around.
She liked her bouse. Ef only this horrendous smell of the
apartment building could be gotten rid of.,*
She lit a green apple-scented incense stick and plated u m
the middle of the living room. As the smoke delicately
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I went out to the balconv and lit j cigarette,The balcony the
only place 1 enjoy in this house. It is almost detached from the
house inside; whatever attachment it has to the flat seems
fortuitous, as it it doesn't really belong here, I notice a brick-
coloured bug wandering on the iron grills. Mv presence
annoys it and its presence annoys me. There are bugs
everywhere. They spread out from the kitchen cabinets, under
the refrigerator, the cracks on the tiles,..
For a fleeting moment I ponder calling Ethel to ask her help
to And out w hether I had talked to Ayshin or not the night
before but l soon decide against it. Since I already had had
more than my fair share of the Cunts whims, to ask her for
Ayshin's new phone number, asking once again for help, would
he of no use other than further inflating her already over¬
inflated ego. I can't stand hearing her grouse one more time;
Tm going to lose my best girlfriend became of you sugar¬
plum! If it were up to me 1 am sure I’d have done both a great
favour by putting an end to that gangrenous relation ship of
theirs but why bother?
This twosome, the closest of buddies in high school, used
to meet without fail once every two weeks to dine, always at
the same type of restaurants. After our engagement, u hadn't
taken Ayshin long to convince first herself, then me, chat I’d
better join this uninviting routine. In order not to upset the
balance, Ethel too had started to bring her partners to our
meals* Before long, these partners were gracing our table one
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nonce, just as she had done years ago to her guest* in the
temple house. As she did not love herself, she did not love the
men she turned her lovers into either. However, there was one
among them who did not tic this pattern and whom Ethel
cherished like no other...
He w as a ney player. In the days when the principal Mawlawi
order had bifurcated over the debate/Is it permissible tor male
and female dervishes to whirl together?* he had taken issue
with both sides and retreated into his shell, ever since that
moment devoting half his day to seeking refuge in sleep and
the other hall to escaping from his dreams. How exactly and
on which part oi the day Ethel had met him l had no clue.The
only thing l do know for sure is that she had once again
plunged her hands into the water to pull our yet another
mussel and, as soon as she parted the shell to look inside, had
encountered what she least expected: a shy pearl! For a while
she gave to him what she had given to others: financial help,
excessive attention, suffocating love , but unlike all the others,
there w as no visible change in the nature of this heavy- eyed,
big-nosed, absentmuided Mawlawi. hi the guy's calendar of
life, the longest time period vvas one day. Whenever Ethel tried
to plan something, say go on a trip in a week’s time or get
married in the spring, the only response she got from her lover
was ‘I et s see what that dav looks like when it comes/ From his
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Look* its no longer where you said it was! Now it isn't the
fifty-fifth hut perhaps the thirty-fifth one. It keeps coming
closer. That is, it moves toward us by itself and as it draws near,
it brings many things along with it. I'he sea being what it is,
you are left with only two options Ethel,You can either forget
about the waves and dive into the sea to become a drop within
or sit by the shore and simply wait. Watch the waves get
smashed as they hit the shore, each turning into a drop in from
of your eyes. Life is lived in one of two ways, if it's to merit the
name. You either render yourself invisible within life or render
life invisible within you.*
Poor scandalous Ethel! It must have been the curse of all the
lovers die had frittered away. As she listened flabbergasted to
the dazzling words of the Mawlawi, she kicked me under the
table, throwing me despondent looks begging for help.Though
she sure could manoeuvre around all the ins and outs of the
language of the mundane, when confronted with these
spiritual abstractions she was as inexperienced and helpless as a
child. After a while, she started to blame herself. She should hair
I'/jtmw r/ib How she repented now turning her nose
up at her grandmothers attempts to teach her the basics of
Jewish mysticism.To nuke up for her shortcoming, she started
to read in a frenzy, devouring first the books given to her when
she was a child and then others. Her increasing interest in the
Kahala was a bridge she hoped would lead her to all those
things her dear ncy player kept prattling on about. She
wouldn't go around without at least a couple of books to hand,
including, for sure, a copy ot the Mathnawi, Frequently
stopping by a senile bookseller m Beyazit, she parleyed with
the man behind the counter in w hispers, as if tracking down
an art ane hand-written manuscript, and each time emerged
from the store with bags full of books. So seriously had she let
her heart be captured that she was ready to go anywhere and
even settle wherever her lover wanted. Ethel the ugly crow,
w hile gliding guilelessly in the sky, had all of a sudden spotted
something shiny down on earth, and now wanted to grab it,
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whisk it away and make it totally hers. Why didn't they wander,
say for a couple of years, around the most mystical cities of the world f
like Jerusalemf Tibet and Delhi, or go in search for the lost tomb of
Shams? 1 have seen people mess their minds up but Ethel had
literally lost her identity Yet however much she tried, she could
not convince her beloved to go on these exotic trips. The
serene Mawlawi was as inclined towards the idea of taking a
trip as a cat to the activity of taking a bath.
Be that as it may, this young man who was so unwilling to
go anywhere turned out to be too much in a hurry to change
worlds. A week before New Year’s Eve that year, he was one of
the four victims claimed by the bomb that had exploded in
one of the garbage cans on lstikl.il Avenue — an explosion
tor which no revolutionary organization would claim
responsibility. I do not think Ethel cried so much for anyone,
nor even her own mother and Either, though perhaps with the
exception of the older brother she had lost to suicide when
she was fourteen...he was the only person she might have
loved so intensely...
I got married to Aysliin two months and two weeks later.
Ethel attended the wedding alone.
A day before the wedding, she was lying down stark naked
Parading in front of my eyes all of her fat body, so big,
belligerent and bulky. When her body turned into a heap of raw-
white meat, that hairy reddish birthmark spreading from below
her neck to the top of her breasts was even more pronounced.
She could have had this removed if she wanted. Just as she could
have gotten nd of her body fat, fixed up her nose or nipped and
tucked pans of her body like everyone else. Women as ugly as
Ethel and just as rich spent everything they had on plastic
surgery, cosmetics and dimes to become beautiful. As tor Ethel,
she had put her entire wealth into the service of her ugliness.
Not only did she not try to beat her ugliness, she did not even
care to spruce it up and hide it away either, The door* of the
wardrobes taking up two of her bedroom walls were covered
with full-length mirrors. After making love, she had the habit of
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they lived in, and did not, in spue of the noises they heard day
and night, find it necessary to go down and unlock the old,
musty door on their pantry floor.The types who think they are
right basically because of the rights they were granted... Ethel
was not mistaken. Avshin was indeed one of those.
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style. At the mast, she must have seen I was too crocked to
wind her up and decided to drop me off home. That is more
Ethel-like.
[ stretched my legs to the rails of the balcony and lit another
cigarette..The brick-coloured bug remained under my foot. It
had had a chance to escape but n did not. Down below on the
street I noticed a skinny swarthy woman throwing garbage
bap onto the pile in front of the garden wall just at the same
time a fuming voice roared from somewhere in the lower tl.u -
The woman stood still for a couple of seconds and then,
heedlessly, absentniindedly, as if in a dream, scampered back
and hared away. This place pisses me off l have ro get out of
here one way or the other. Perhaps J liken Bonbon Palace to
myself - a disgruntled apartment that bitterly misses the
prosperity it was once accustomed to. I need to move
somewhere eke but do not have the money. All throughout my
marriage, Ayshui and I had maintained a division of labour, the
absurdity of which l can only novv comprehend. Since the
house we lived in belonged to her parents and therefore to her,
I paid all the other expenses. How scatterbrained of me! I do
not have any money saved ‘on the side’ either. When faced
with unexpected expenses and the need to pay rent, my salary
shrivelled ridiculously. 1 could no doubt borrow' some money
from Ethel, but that I won’t do. Such a move would only upset
the symmetry in our relationship. I d better start making some
money soon.
‘That's none of your business Loretta l cell you* none of
your business/
‘You are wrong honey!’ bellowed the woman with the
daisies, narrowing her eyes with rancour. Everything that
concerns hint concerns me too.'
‘Everything that concerns him atmerrts me too' repeated
HbWifcNadia, trying to pronounce the words in Turkish
exactly as she had heard, 1 he soap opera she watched was
called "The Oleander of Passion’ and it had been broadcast
every weekday afternoon for the past two and a half months.
At the outset it was broadcast before the evening news, but
once it had become indisputably obvious how slim its chances
were of becoming a hit. the scheduling had been altered m a
flash. Now in its place was aired some other soap opera, one
far more ostentatious Unlike its precursor, this soap opera had
been so successful and drawn so much media attention from
week one that quite an uproar revolved around it. especially
when the leading actors were flown to Istanbul to sign
photographs for their fans after a glitzy press conference.
However* HisWifeNadu was not interested in either this or
indeed any other soap opera. It was only ‘The Oleander of
Passion' that mattered to her. Every afternoon at the same hour
she took her seat on the divan with the burgundy patterns on
a mauve background, the re-upholster mg of which she
constantly postponed, and watched the soap opera while
simultaneously doing some other work. I >ependmg on the day,
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she would haw a tray full of rice or beans on her lap to sort
and shelf look at old photographs in old albums, try to do
crossword puzzles with her limited vocabulary in Turkish,
reread the letters from her great aunt or write her a response.
Yet everv so often the tray would become weighty, the puzzle
unsohable and the sameness of the photographs and the
dullness of the letters depressing. At such times, HisWifeNadia
would scurry to the kitchen to get a few potatoes and, as she
watched the soap opera, would craft yet another potato lamp.
Though the whole house was filled up with these lamps, she
still could not keep herself from making new ones. Anyhow;
given the frequency of power-cuts at Bonbon Palace, one
might need a potato lamp any time.
As to why she could not watch 'The Oleander of Passion'
without doing something else at the same time, there were a
couple of reasons bclund that. Firstly, she found the soap opera
so mind-numbing Ehat she could barely bear it without some
sort of a distraction. Secondly, when she kept herself busy with
another task at the same tune, the hidden discomfort of having
become a hackneyed viewer of a hackneyed soap opera tended
to diminish Perhaps most importantly, however, by keeping
busy w ith ocher things she could prove to herself how much
she disparaged not onJ\ the soap opera, but also that leading
actress of it, namely Loretta.
'The Oleander ot Passion', like all other soap operas, was
broadcast on weekdays only. However, despite the fact that all
the other soaps were constantly in the public eye, via fragments
from upcoming episodes and gossip from the real lives of the
actors saturating the papers, not a single ime - good or bad -
had yet appeared about either ‘The Oleander of Passion’ cast
members m general or Loretta in parDcuiir. It w-as not onh the
new spapers that remained so indifferent on this matter. Among
the acquaintances HisWifeNadia had made in Istanbul, there
was not l single person w ho had heard of the programme, let
alone become a regular viewer. I t was as if die entire country
had unanimously pledged to feign ignorance of'The Oleander
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of Passion'. The tact that nobody took the wap opera seriously
did not by any means please HisWifeNadia, After all, for the
vilification ol anything to have any value whatsoever, the thing
sneered at should at least be of some value for some people in
the first place. Under these circumstances, it was neither
gratifying nor consequential to vilify Loretta, Thus,
His Wife Nadia kept her thoughts to herself. No one knew
anything about her obsession with this soap opera: not even
her husband,,.least of all him...
Be that as it may, the fact that the papers mentioned nothing
about the future episodes of the The Oleander of Passion’ did
not seem that awful to HisWife Nadia. There wasn’t much to
pry into anyway since almost every forthcoming event,
including the most imperative secrets, were already revealed in
the early episodes. As such, perhaps the real riddle was less to
fins! out what the ending would be than to find out how the
already proven ending would be eventually arrived at If there
was anyone who still did not know* the mysteries woven in the
soap opera it certainly wasn’t the viewer but other Loretta
herself In the fire that had erupted in episode five,she had lost
not only the mansion she lived m. along w ith her title of a lady,
but her memory as well. Ever since then, she had been
struggling to recall who she was and mistaking an unknown
woman for her mother. She could not even fathom that the
famous physician whose photographs she kept seeing in the
new spapers had once been, and actually still was, her husband.
Since her condition had worsened m the ensuing episodes, she
was nowr about to be checked into a clinic - a move destined
to complicate things further given the fact that her physician-
the-husband/husband-the-physician happened to work there.
Deep down HisWifeNadia wras fond of being so we
informed about all these things that still remained a mystery to
Loretta herself. Whenever the latter made a wrong turn failing
to spot the truth behind the intricacies she faced,
HisWifeNadia was secretly thrilled. At such moments, her hie
and the one in the soap opera would sneak into one another.
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was not in its place.That could only mein one thing: Metm
Chetincevii was going to head to his second job this evening,
from which he would probably return around midnight. Her
achievement at asltare had excited 11 is Wife Nadia so much that
she couldn’t possibly wait that long. Hence she decided to do
something that had never crossed her mind before: to pay a
visit to Metm Chednceviz’s workplace with a cup of
Though it had been four years since she had arrived in this
cm; Istanbul remained a colossal mystery to her. She had seen
so little of the city so far that she had no sense of the direction
in which its streets lay nor any sense of its structure in her mind.
Her ensuing audacity might therefore be attributed to nothing
but ignorance. In such a state she headed to the studio on the
Asian Side.Though crossing the Bosphorus Bridge had cost her
two hours, finding the address turned out to be unexpectedly
easy. She left her identification card at the entrance, received
information from the receptionist, got in the elevator, went up
to the fifth floor, walked to Room 505, peeped inside and stood
petrified. Metin Chednceviz was there sitting knee-to^knee
with a woman; he had placed one hand on the knobby, peach-
puff kneecap of the latter which puckered like a blemish too
tinud to come to light. As for his other hand, he employed that
to rotate a tiny coffee cup, as he told the woman her fortune. It
must have been good news, for a dimpled smile had blossomed
on the latter's face Fixated with her husband, HisWifeNadia
was not able to eve-up the woman as much as she would like
to. It wasn’t so much the fact that she'd been cheated on which
rendered her speechless, rather the affectionate expression on
Metin Chednceviz s face. Neither the woman in the room, nor
the hand caressing her knee seemed a sight as horrid as the
affectionate expression upon her husband's face, so dulcet and
tender, so unlike her husband.
Up until now. His Wife Nadia had forgiven each and every
one oi Metm Chednceviz s wrongs and in her jaded way
endured his never-ending jealousies, callousness, even slaps,
believing that he did it all involuntarily, almost against his own
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an attempt to nuke his body a perfirn draw n m between the
two women, he had stood there wriggling tor a moment, not
know mg whu h side to turn to. Not only his mind but his face
too had bifurcated as he struggled to smiultancnudv give a
cajoling smile to Ins lover, whom he had always treated gently,
and frown at his wife, whom he was used to treating coarsely.
Unable to ding on to this dual mission any longer, he had
grabbed his stinking amber briefcase, along with his wife's
hand and hustled both outside, I har quarrel that night had
been no shoddier than the ones before, except that it had lasted
longer. HisWifeNadia had hitherto been afraid at various
instances that her husband might kill her, hut now for the first
time she had felt she too could kill him* Oddly enough, this
gruesome feeling had not seemed that gruesome at all.
What uvts truly gruesome for HisWifeNadia was to know
nothing about this other woman. Since she had no
acquaintances among Metin ( hetmcevizs colleagues, getting
this precious information would be more arduous than she
thought. Startlingly, she could not even describe her to anyone
tor however hard she tried, the woman's lace remained hazy in
her memory. Still not giving up, she had made oodles of plans
each more complex than the previous one. and kept calling the
studio with new excuses under different names each time.
When unable to attain anything like that, she had started going
to the studio every day, w asting four hours on the road, just to
patrol around the building. She sure knew that her husband
would break her legs if he ever spotted her around here but
even this dire peril had not urged her to give up.
"The gravest damage psychopharmacology has wrought
on humanity is its obsession with cleansing the brain trom
Us quirks.1
According to Professor Kandinsky, the human brain
functioned like a possessive housewife priding herself on her
fastidiousness. Whatever stepped inside its house, it instantly
seized, remarkably vigilant of preserving her order. That,
however, was no easy task since, tike many such possessive
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Keeping an eye on the door for Muhammet\ return, Menem
embraced her swollen belly with her dimpled arms and heaved
a deep sigh.1 hat day, she had again had success in sending her
son to school but god knows what he would look like when
he returned home, In the beginning Muhammet used to cell
her in great detail everything that happened in school, be it
good or bad. Yet he had sunk into arrant silence over time.
What her son did not put into words, Men em heard anyhow'
from his troubled eyes, or the split seams and ripped out
buttons of his school outfit, or the bruises on has arms. As she
listened her worries soared.The thought that somebody might
be hitting her son, be it a child or a grownup, killed her: his
own father had not yet given turn a flick. Only Menem, she
alone had slapped him a few times, may' Allah forgive her, and
occasionally pinched him too but that was different. As a
matter of tact, ever since she had discovered that others had
been ‘roughing-up' her son, Meryem had retrained from even
this minimal disciplining. When in her minds rye she saw
children raining blows on her son, her blood boiled.There w as
a time when she thought it was nothing other than a simple
scuffle among children and vet weeks and months had passed
without any change for good. What infuriated Meryem the
most was not so much her son's being smacked by his peers as
seeing how he gradually became indifferent to torment
As to why her son was relentlessly bulbed she had a hard
time unravelling. Was it because he was a janitor s son? But she
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was dead hit by a ear, she would of course have been distraught
with sorrow but her life would not go astray, in point of face
it would not even change. Yet if she were the one hit, Musa
would be smashed to smithereens as if the car had hit not his
wife’s body but the mainspring of his ow n life and livelihood.
Though Meryem struggled hard not to think such
inauspicious things, she couldn't help doing so.and the more
her pregnancy moved ahead, the more fixated she became on
the ghastly thoughts parading full force in her mind.
Laielv she had been more and more scared at outlandish
apprehensions, having nightmares upon nightmares, waking up
every morning her heart pummelling, agonized by the thought
that something ominous might happen at any moment Given
her score in the Patience Sack episode, how could she be
expected to wait passively for evil to come her way?!hus she
took precautions If researchers conducting ethnological
analyses on the birth customs and beliefs m Turkey had. instead
of surveying each and every village and town, simply come
across Menem, they would indeed have obtained the same
data with much less expense and effort.
Meryem s package of precautions concerning birth came
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piece of bread to her right side to feed the eyes of chose who
coveted the bounty of their table. Reserving her left hand tor
the dirtiest jobs, she took great care to turn from her right
when someone called her name on the street, hung up her
clothing from right to left as if writing in Arabic and always
made sure site got up from the right side of the bed. Though
this inevitably meant that Musa would have to get up from the
left side* he did not seem to care about this as long as his sleep
was uninterrupted
All day long, Mervem collected premonitions and read
signs. It was good portent if her right eye twitched but she
instantly got wary' if her left eye did so. A ringing in her right
ear w as good news but she would start to worry about her fate
when the ringing was in the left one. Itchy feet was a sign of
a journey on the way, itchy palms meant money and an itchy
throat suggested a tight spot. If she got goose bumps, Mervem
suspected that jinn were nearby; As for tea leaves...if an
unexpected tealeaf escaped the sieve and appeared in her tea,
Meryem would expect a visitor that same day. From the leaf 's
shape, she would try to surmise the identity of the guest and
from its colour their intention. It a dog howled after midnight
she forlornly concluded someone would soon be dead.Yet she
was no longer as resolute about this matter as she used to be
since a dopev. skin-and-bones medical student had moved into
the flat across from hers with his ogre of a dog.
Meryem resorted to the coffee cup in order to find out the
calamities bevond her grasp. Morning coflee was reserved tor
fortune telling and night coffee tor the simple pleasure of
drinking it. Recently she had formed rhe habit ot topping-up
her night coffee with three thimblefuls of banana liqueur It
wjs that Blue Mistress in Flat 8 w ho had introduced her to this
liqueur business.There were all types of liqueur there, lined up
with olive oil bottles of all sizes. She had made Meryem taste
each and every one. The raspberry was scrumptious and the
mini left a pleasant freshness in one s mouth, but it was the
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that the curse of the evil eye might touch upon her son
terrified her. Thus ever since he was a baby, Muhammet Used
his life going around with amulets pinned to his undershirt and
blessed black cumin seeds in his pockets; finding papers covered
with Mervem’s scrawl under his pillow; getting under a sheet
once every ten days, its four corners held by lour women while
melted lead in cold water was poured over his head to break i
spell. Muhanunet would readily endure all ol these things as
long as he was not forced to eat eggs.
Having spent the interval between six months and six years
being spoon-fed a soft-boiled egg every damn morning,
Muhammet had a small problem with eggs. What he found
even worse than their taste was their shells being used as
complaint petitions. Every morning, once the egg was eaten
and the shell was sparklingly clean inside, Meryem had penned
on the shell whatever complaint had been left over from the
day before: "Yesterday Muhammet lied to his mother, but he
will never ever do so again,"'Yesterday he did not want to eat
his egg, but he will never ever do so again,’ ‘Yesterday
Muhammet cursed the auntie w ho poured the lead, but he will
never ever do so again.,/. These empty egg shells were each
time thrown tn the birds so that they could take these
complaints to the two angel clerks recording on their celestial
registers all the sms and good deeds committed on earth, Until
the day he started elementary school, every morning before
breakfast Muhammet would peek out of the window to see his
winged informants .Yet each time he did this, the only species
of birds he could spy were either the screeching sparrows
perched upon the branches of the rose acacia ui the garden or
the ugly crows recklessly hunting the streets.There was also the
caged canary inside the window of Hat Number 4 but that
bird could not even flap its w ings, let alone fly.
It was the seagulls Muhammet was suspicious ot. He spotted
them as they dug into the garbage bags accumulating by the
side of the garden walk In the damp breath of bdm* they drew
circles as they descended onto the trash piles and it seemed to
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He opened the door with a grim look on his face. It was not
screwing up the anatomy exam that upset him so much, hut the
fact that he had taken the anatomy exam in the hot place,
knowing only too well he would screw it up. He now
profoundly regretted that when waking this morning, on
realizing the alarm clock had again failed to go off* rather than
hitting the pillow he had scurried out of the house and paid for
a cab to hoot. He even more profoundly regretted that aiter the
exam he had joined his friends, who were clustered like pigeons
flocking to wheat, to learn how each had answered every single
question, to then complain unanimously about the instructor
and then the w hole university structure. To top it all off, once
having joined them, he had ended up spending the entire dav
in cafes amidst non-stop chatter. Now he regretted all the
energy' he had so lavishly squandered. Energy, Sidar reckoned,
was a finite commodity, like an eye lotion in a any dropper.
Accordingly, he spent no more than two drops a das. one to
wake up in the morning and the other to go to sleep at night.
Closing the outside door behind him without turning on
the hall light, he found himself engulfed in darkness. He must
have forgotten to draw the curtains back when he left
hurriedly in the morning. Not that it would have made much
difference, as its miniature windows were at ground level, this
squat, narrow basement floor could get only a morsel of light.
Cursing the dim-wit who had placed the switch two metres
further in from the entrance, Sidar wobbled in. He could not
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The rruth is that when Bonbon Palace was built. Flat 2 had
been designed not as a residence but a storage area, and had
been used as such for many years. However, alter the death of
the owner, when the control of the apartment building had
passed onto his daughter who had preferred to take care of
everything from afar, this place too had received its share in the
changes that occurred, each more problematic than the
former. During the disarray that had prevailed, such huge
tights had erupted when each and every neighbour attempted
to pile their unused personal belongings up in this narrow
space, that no one had the good fortune to use it tor a long
tune- In the end, upon the instructions received from France*
this stumpy narrow* single-room basement floor was rented
out at half the amount of rent of the other flats. From then on,
a myriad of people had taken shelter here: people blatantly
different from one another but with poverty and bachelorhood
in common. Among these were, m the following order; a local
radio news announcer living on chicken sandwiches three
tunes a day; a depressed accountant whose best friend had
snatched away his entire bank account along with his wife of
eight years; an army deserter who turned the ! V an full blast
during Ramadan making everyone listen to sermons and
hymns; a fishy fellow w hose job no one had been able to guess
at or dared ask about and a droll artist who used the place as
an art studio painting the legs, ankles and shoes he watched
from the window. Among all the tenants Flat 2 had seen thus
far, the Cat Prophet, who had moved in next, was the one who
had left behind the most in terms of traces and smell
After the Cat Prophet, Sidar had appeared with his St.
Bernard breed dog. As he* unlike the previous tenants, barely
had any belongings, though it had for so long been
accustomed to being chock-full Flat 2 was now going through
the most barren phase in its saga,
tiaba was such a bizarre dog, a walking contrast when
compared with his breed, famous for their ability to go for days
without water and food, to sense impending danger and make
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thtf Istanbul soil. his nerves were so shot that be was too
confiiscd to know where to look or who to bark. Finally, when
stuck in this tiny fiat, he had developed the habit of attacking
the walls and started to chew any kind of paper he could find,
due to hunger or irritability induced by love of his homeland.
In desperation. Sidar had then begun to move his pictures and
posters a bit higher Yet *a bit higher’ could not be high enough
for Gaba whose height, when standing up, was taller than the
Turkish national average. Bit by bit, all pictures and posters
escaping Gabas sharp teeth, like refugees heading for the hills
to flee from the warfare in their country; kept constantly
climbing north to finally transcend the boundary of the wall,
rushing altogether into the lands of the ceiling. Sidar had
enjoyed this unexpected innovation so much that he had
expanded the business over rime and filled his topmost part
with all types of visual and written material he held dear.
Lately; this daily increasing bedlam had, like a vigorous vine,
started to branch out into the kitchen ceiling on the one side
and the bathroom ceiling on the other.
When stretched out on his hack onto the only sofa m the
living room with a rolled cigarette in hand, Sidar would fix his
eyes on this ceiling for hours, While the smoke circulated in his
blood full speed, the ceiling would acquire an astounding
vivacity. At such times, Wittgenstein’s black and white picture
reddened, as the philosopher's face blushed; the miniature
figures in the cartoons ofSelcuk hopped and jumped around
the ceiling; Spiderman dangled from a thread climbing up and
down; the coronas in Blake s drafts started to blink as if relaying
messages m code; Carringtons hairless magician melted into
Ins own image and disappeared; Goyas bogeyman all of a
sudden took the white sheet off to reveal his face; a cruel smite
appeared on the Scientific Circumcisers face; Hygieas breasts
heaved with excitement; the figures on the photograph at the
Haydarpasa train station one by' one withered away. Before
long, Sidar would fed the blood in his veins, as well as the two
droplets of energy he possessed withdraw from his body, and
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graves, slovenly kids with pitchers lit their hand who followed
the visitors to fork out some money, those who came with all
their family and tilled baskets as it* for a picnic, those who
arrived alone and were tor hours lost in thought, drunks w ho
imbibed nearby at night, pickpockets who mushroomed
wherever there was a crowd, clairvoyants with young, old,
urban and rural women as followers... Over time he had
learned to differentiate them. The habitual visitors of the
Muslim cemeteries fell in two groups: those who came to leave
a trace and those who came to follow some sort of lead . The
former visited their relatives at regular intervals and then
departed leaving behind their prayers, tears, pitchers foil of
water and flowers.These were harmless, self-contained people
when compared to the latter.Those who came to follow some
lead or another were rather sinister. They came to steal goods,
milk people out of their money, cast a spell, gather signs... That
is, they came to get something bom the cemeteries and did nor
leave until they got what they had come for. Those who
acquired a profession, wealth, status or a past from the
cemeteries were included in this group, as were ail soothsayers,
the insane, thieves...and also Canadian gynaecologists.
He had met the Canadian gynaecologist and his charming
wife, who did not seem to have any knowledge whatsoever
about either Turkey or the Turks, at one of the Muslim
cemeteries while they were searching the grave of the mans
Turkish grandmother,The young couple had gone around for
hours with a cemeterv guard eager to help, and as they were
on their wav out to try their luck at another graveyard, Sidar
had not been able to resist asking why they had undertaken
such an endeavour‘So that 1 have a family cree to give to my
future children,5 the young man had said, his eyes shining.
Meanwhile his wife, as if holding the thing called the family
tree in their hands, had softly crossed her fingers on her breast
and smiled as she lifted her hands up like branches,
Sidar had remembered the brass picture frame in the shape
of a tree at their house, one of the few pieces they had taken
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with thorn when they escaped from Turkey. It could fit a total
of ten photography in round frames big as plums, hung from
five separate branches, two on each one His mother had
somehow decided to hang here the pictures of all the family
members, starting with her own mother and father. As Biting
out all the frames had become a problem, as they were unable
to reach ten in this manner* they instead exceeded this number
by leaps and bounds upon the inclusion of distant relatives,To
solve the issue the photographs of the two cousins they loved
the most were included. As the frames were too small, each
photograph had to be carefully cropped, leaving only a tiny
head behind. The heads of the family members had swung on
that braw frame for years like the fruits of the mythical Vakvak
tree with fruit shaped like humans that, upon being plucked,
rotted away in screams.
/ do not share the same Mood as jwr My htrth into your family r*
just a coincidence l am one of those children udto are given life to mk
to sleep the fear of mortality. / am one of those children you abandon
to produce yet another one upon realizing you sftll amid not escape
death. I scatter rw)1 semen to the ground. I do not want to fertilize
anyone... and t that being the only way not to end by dtattce th>es
started by chance; / Mess not yuw f but suicide., *
His interest m death had incited further rebukes from
Ktanbulitev The people he consulted instead of giving him an
answer almost always counselled him to recite the opening
chapter of the Qur'an. This he did not do, as he did not know
how to recite anyhow and not only did he not know? much
about Islam, he did not intend to learn anything either* He did
not think that any rehgion had the right to expect obedience
from him as long as it continued to ban suicide.
Still he was not as ignorant about Islam as he thought Even'
now and then he realized he knew things he didn't even know
he had learned. For memory is like a cyclist going downhill
fast against the wind; all sorts of knowledge carried bv the
wind hangs onto you. gets inside your mouth or into your hair
and sticks to your skin.,, lim and pteces of prayers, the pillars
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sponge. When the bar had closed down late at night, on her
own she had followed Sidar to Bonbon Palace. Once inside, she
had scrutinized the flat in a vain attempt to find an item that
could be a rapport between the guest and the host There was
no object to talk about. Thank goodness there was Gaba.
Spotting the hazelnut wafer the girl offered him out of her
purse, Gaha had sprinted toward her rolling like a ball of fur.
Like all burly creatures, he was unaware of more refined
techniques of expressing his love, the two of them had
tumbled around the floor together in some sort of a game
invented there and then. Meanwhile Sidar had watched them
from aside, scowling at Gab s unexpected v igour and ogling at
the girl's belly appearing every time her T-shirt slid up a bit
Then suddenly, like the men in the ‘Tales of a Thousand and
One Nights,’ who go mad with anger when the woman they
had their eves on is interested not in them but in an animal, he
had interrupted the game, chased Cuba away and drawn the
girl to himself, just like her belly, her breasts too were milky
white,They shivered when kissed.
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House cleaning sessions fall into rwo types; those that stem
from yesterday and proceed into tomorrow and those that have
neither a yesterday nor a tomorrow. So utterly different they are
from each other in terms of both causes and consequences that
where there is one not even the name of die other comes up.
Accordingly, women w ho do house cleaning also fall into two
type'*: the traditionalists, with a strong awareness oi yesterday
and tomorrow, and the radicals, writh no notion of either.
When the traditionalists clean their houses, they know' too
well that this will be neither the first time nor the last. The
cleaning done at the moment is an important and yet ordinary
hoop of an extended chain that advances at regular mtervah.The
last house-cleaning stmt lias usually been done only a week (or
fifteen days) previously and will be repeated within a week (or
fifteen days). Hence every cleaning-day is part of a solid routine
and more or less the same as the one before, k always
commences and ends m the same w^ay: first the windows are
cleaned and the rugs shaken out, then the floors are swept,
starting always with the same room and proceeding in order.The
furnishings are dusted without altering priorities, the kitchen
alw ays receives great attention, tea and meal breaks are taken at
approximately the same hours and finally, in the last phase, the
cleaning is completed when the bathroom is given a once over.
Since the traditionalists have such firm ties with the pa'*! and
their confidence in the future is just as strong, there is no harm
in leas ing the unfinished parts until the next cleaning episode
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marble and tiki); brushes, a different one tor die sink, toilet and
the tub, lime removers, rust removers, stain removers; floor
wax, silver polish, sink drainer, toilet pump; a vacuum cleaner
{with different hose accessories for liquids,, dust, curtains,
armchairs, rugs, corners, air filters), carpet-sweeper, mop,
duster, pail, brush, sponges and coated sponges (separate lor
smooth or rough surfaces); detergents with cider, lemon, lilac
and pacific islands smells; throat searing disinfectants; cloths for
the floors, walls and dusting; nvoth balls, lavender pouches,
garment bags, soap pieces,,,all had been mobilized and, along
with special shampoos from the pharmacy, were defending Flat
Number 9 of Bonbon Palace against lice shoulder to shoulder
at every' possible corner.
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4Please grandpat plcease.*/ repeated the seven and a half year
old while looking sideways at his siblings.
The other two children were glued to the TV, Though the
programme they watched had ended about ten minutes ago,
they had not yet been able to detach themselves from the
vacuum left by the coquettish announcer with the rose bud
tattoo. Still., Hadji Hadji considered the demand of her older
grandson the joint wish of all children, 'Well, okay, let me tell
you the tale of the fisherman Suleyman then,* he said, as he put
aside his four books - the number of w hich had not changed
m years - the second one entitled/Interpretations of Dreams
with Explanations.*
'During the old days in the Ottoman Empire, there lived in
a cottage a fisherman named Suleyman. He was so poor his
hands had not touched money even in Ins dreams, but he had
a golden heart. He lived alone without getting mixed up in
anything, not hurting even an ant* Those were the most
wretched days for the Ottomans. It was the period of The
Rule ofWomen\a time when the country had hit the bottom*
The concubines in the palace pulled a thousand tricks every
day So many innocent souls were strangled because of them.
The bodies of the victims were thrown into the sea from the
palace windows,The corpses would bloat in the water for days,
sometimes getting caught in fishermens nets/
The six and a half year old, unable to adjust to the spirit of
his grandfathers tale after the vivacious morning programme
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tale had not died anyhow. Before burying her in the soil,
fisherman Suleyman said, “Let me remove the dagger on her
breast" The moment he took out the dagger, the woman
moaned. She had not died after all. Tlie dagger had reached the
bone but not the heart.’
Trying to find solace in tins unexpected explanation the five
and a half year old gave a crooked smile. She cowered on her
grandpa’s lap, and certainly would have felt a lot more
comfortable had she not felt her older brothers gaze upon her.
‘Our death is written on our foreheads. Even if they thrust
a dagger to your heart, you won't die if it is not so written on
your forehead. When the poor woman came back to life, she
asked fisherman Suleyman for a cup of water. Then she started
to talk. Apparently she was a concubine at the pa! ice. The
sultan liked her the most.The other concubines were so green
with envy and their hearts were so tainted with evil, they had
decided to kill this innocuous soul. Buying ofi the harem
eunuchs, they had made them stab the beautiful concubine's
white chest. She told this story in tears and then said: ‘ It you
take me back to the palace, our master the sultan will surdy
reward you with heaps of gold." Upon hearing all this, our
fisherman Suleyman became lost in thought. He didn't want
gold or anything. He had fallen m love. That night this
beautiful concubine slept in his bed in the cottage but
fisherman Suleyman slept outside in his boat. Some time in the
middle of the night the devil approached him. “Don e take the
woman back." he hissed, *‘Hosv could one take such an
attractive woman back? ! er her he yours. She could stay here,
wash your clothes, cook for you and be your wife." That s
exactly what the devil whispered.'
Hadji Hadji silently studied his grandchildren as if expecting
them to put themselves in the hero's shoes. Yet, that
pertinacious smile on the face ol the six and a hall year old
hinted his mind was not on the moral dilemma of the tale but
on the parts that promised sexuality. As tor the five and a hah
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her wallet of words newly learned. Once again, the seven and
a half year old was the only one left. When his grandfather *
eyes turned to him, he slurred sarcastically/Of course he didn’t
take her back*
* Of course he took her back!' thundered Hadji Hadji/He
personally delivered her to the palace. The sultan was
delighted. You can ask for anything from mc,‘ be declared, but
fisherman Suleyman asked for nothing. He left the palace gates
as poor as he had entered them.’
There ensued a prickly silence. Finally convinced that the
tale w as over, the six and a half year old hollered: ‘I'm so
hungry! The five and a half year old, closing the wallet in her
mind, jumped off her grandfathers lap:4Osman first, Osman
first!’ While the pot warmed up on the stove, they set upon
building their tent, piling sheets, pillows and bedspreads in the
middle of the living room Only the seven and a half year old,
he alone kept sitting where he was, maintaining his
composure. He had picked up an illustrated novel and
pretended to be reading it with interest, but his moss green
eyes, that looked contracted as they failed to keep up with the
growth in his head, were fixated on his grandfather and
siblings. Every passing day, he detested them more.
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Ants raided my balcony today - or perhaps it was just today
that I noticed ants had raided mv balcony I hev never remain
still* In step with commands chat only they can hear, in orderly
russet strips they now march back and forth between the dark
fissure at the wall and the hot dog I had forgotten on the coffee
table, 1 cannot figure out where they came from and how on
earth they made it to the third floor. This apartment building
is teeming with all types of bugs. At nights they keep me
company w hilst I down a few drinks.
My father’s curse, 1 guess. Either his curse or his genes,
Back in those days when I assumed my drinking had nothing
to do with his, 1 thought my father’s greatest problem in life
was not to know how to drink. Ever since I realized how
badly my drinking habits resembled his, I started believing
instead the problem was not his drinking but his not
knowing when to stop. He couldn't break it off, it was that
simple. At the outset, he couldn't possibly foresee w here to
stop and once he armed at that point, he would have gone
too astray to care about stopping. After he had polished off a
few, it didn't take him long ro pick up the pace. Before long
his bloodshot eyes searched for a road sign, A clear sign, a
concrete warning: ‘Slow dow n, fine gravel at ten metres!' or
‘Slippery surface! Sharp turn! Graded road! It was at those
times that he needed most someone to come forth and tell
him how he looked from the outside. Only we could do that,
being closest to him, but we never really tried Both my
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mother and I would take our place at the table with him,fill
uur plates with appetizers, pee! apples, dice oranges, make
lanterns out of orange peels and simply wait for what was
going to happen to happen. My mother had convinced first
herself, then me, that my father should not he disturbed
while drinking. She was so diffident when she was around
him, and perhaps rightly so, but even at that age 1 knew this
was not the only reason tor her behaviour. I hough it
certainly pained her to witness my father's collapse, 3 couldn’t
help but think that she also secretly, unknowingly enjoyed it.
Observing him squander every night the grandeur he would
not even momentarily be bereaved of during the day gave
her pleasure. That is why she set those rakt tables lavishly
garnished with appetizers and Inezes each more delicious than
the other every night... Every night for twelve years...
Alter all, my father was too much of everything. He was too
handsome, too dexterous, too pedantic, too intricate, too
egotistical, too unflappable, too frivolous.,.too much for me
and my mother; too much for the housing complex we lived
in, the army he served at, the towns he was appointed to, the
animals he failed to heal ...too much for the life he led.., I
cannot tell for sure if there ever was a time w hen I loved him,
but I do remember being proud of him once. As a kid I was
proud of him because he was tall and handsome, far too much.
Back in those days, oodles of stories circulated about children
being kidnapped and raised by the gypsies and I remember
thinking of my father being one of the kidnapped kids
thereafter accidentally mixed in with us. He was so unlike
everyone else. We all had similar features, brownish hair,
average height and the same laughter. When annoyed we
averted any eye contact, even our stormiest moments looked
composed, so patient, ordinary and meek we were, men and
women all the same However, amidst us there he was, with a
height that did not fit through doors, a head of hair that turned
burning blonde under the rays of the sun* piercing hazel eyes
that darkened when sad and always looked you directly m the
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overlooked the fact that everything has a life cycle of its own
- a hint my father knew all those years. The morning hours
were not apt to hide secrets away. Not only because we mingle
with others all day long or have duties to perform in full view
of everyone, there is something else m daytime, intrusive and
insidious, transforming the city into an open forest of unseen
creatures The moment 1 placed a few crumbs of secrets into a
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I he Blue Mistress had been sitting without taking her eves oft
the thin, crimson stripes of peppered oil oozing from the halt-
eaten. halt-messed-up chicken with ground walnut.There was
nothing she could do. She did not even want to talk, let alone
raise objections. There wasn't much to say anyhow She bad
been caught in the ultimate trap of nusiresshood: children!
Being the mistress of a married man is to know too much
about what should remain unknown but not know what to do
with this surplus knowledge. Mistresses are cognizant ot the
most hidden, most shameful secrets of certain members of the
same sex who they have never met before and are probably not
at all likely to meet hereafter While spouses know’ httle about
them and are most probably not even aware of their existence,
mistresses have long since gathered by the armloads all sorts of
information...thorny, meaningless, morbid details... If the
at ore mentioned have the habit of plastering their faces with
cream before going to bed at night, for instance, a mistress will
even know what this cream smells like, Likewise they would
know the latter* taste in clothes, their devotion to make-up,
the type of mothers they were, the sort of jewellery they wore,
at what time they went to bed and got up, their eating habits,
unceasing curiosities, hideous obsessions, frigidities,
hypocrisies, complexes, and also, what their possible reaction
would be if (hey learrH the truth. Mistresses know all the answers
without having asked the questions about these kinds of
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In the lassitude canopying Flat Number 2, entirely severing it
from the world outside, Gaba snored away each paw pointing
in a different direction. Since he had curled himself not only
within the serenity taking over the house but also on top of his
housemate, there was no way Sidar could budge until Gaba
woke up. Not that Sidar minded that. He loved to stay still
without achieving anything, not even trying to. with barely
any energy, feeling slightly zany and slovenly, embraces! by
aimlessness, next to the being he loved the most in this
world..,to stay just like that, simply and purely stay,.. He too
slid into sleep.
In a wide, weed-tilled garden trained by an ornate steel
railing, Sidar stood gazing at an amber-haired young girl who
had wrapped herself in silvery tulles and stretched out on a
chats? bng> The girl looked astonishingly like one of his sisters
but was more beautiful. She had been motioning him to come
hither. Sidar checked Gaba sleeping away at the entrance.
Though he knew only too well that Gaba should not be left
there alone, he pushed open the humungous entrance gate
without taking his eyes off the girl and plunged in.Though the
garden was greener than it appeared from the outside, the pool
at its centre was lor some reason bone-dry. Bugs the size ot fists
wandered around in it. The girl got up smiling and Sidar
suddenly saw that she was much, much taller than him.What's
more, the girl did not stop growing, as she stretched toward the
sky. The shoes she wore had towering heels. The girl suddenly
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As I sat on the balcony sipping my drink. Why don’t you think
of something to stop these folks?' Ethel asked, grabbing the
railing with fingernails painted a hue of dried apricot. Where
she pointed, l spotted a headscarfed woman throwing her
garbage by the side of the garden wall.
[ shrugged. It doesn 't make any difference anymore if I open
or close the windows. With the weather warming up every
passing day the garbage smell gets worse. If exposed to this
malodour on the street, one walks faster, if in the car, one rolls
the windows up. However, it the house you live in, the
morning you wake up into, the night yon steep through, the
walls, the windows, the doors and ever) direction you turn to
stinks, then you are trapped. There is no way of stepping
outside the yoke of smell. Every night when I return home I
encounter yet another warped garbage hill by the side wall of
the apartment building. Every night a brand new garbage
mound awaits me comprising of stuffed plastic bags of all
sizes marked with the emblems of the grocers and markets
in the neighbourhood, bags with their tops tied but for
some reason always with a hole or slit at the bottom, cardboard
boxes tossed here and there, items that once belonged to
godknowswhom, and black clouds of buzzing flies landing on
and taking-ofr from the leaking watermelon juices and
scattered scraps. Cats too... dozens of cats loom hither and
thither,., some skinny, some chubby, all indifferent to passers-
by, bedridden in their foul-smelling kingdom, basking all day
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long over, inside and under the garbage bag*, as their number
increases incessantly, alarmingly.,,
1 watch the garbage hill at various hours of the day. Before
noon there already is a substantial pile, which mounts further
during the rest of the day. Close to dusk, two gypsies, one
juvenile, other elderly arrive with their handcarts and pick
at the garbage.They load tin cans, new spapers and glass bottles
into separate sacks to take them away. Lile down there
seems to be based on endless repetition where each part
complements one another: the cats dig up what the flies have
set their eyes on, the gypsies pick on what the cats have dug
up. the garbage truck that enters the street every evening at the
rush hour cakes away w hat remains from the gypsies, what the
garbage truck scatters, the flies, cats and seagulls swipe at once
again. Within this ceaseless rotation whatever diminishes is
speedily replenished, never letting that sour smell fade assay.
*What do you want me to do?' 1 asked-‘Should I stand guard
by the wall?’
‘Do something so drastic that they’ll never again want to
dump garbage here. Come on sugar-plum, use your brain!
You'll think of something, she said once again finishing her
ralri before I did,
1 leaned back lighting a cigarette. Oddly, there are no ants
tonight. As the smoke coiled like gauze in the air, out of the
blue, an idea as tiny as a louse crossed my mind.
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Watching Gaba lick the crumbs of the floured cookies with his
rough, rose-pmk tongue. Sidar couldn't help recalling a
particular day of his childhood. It was a snowy Saturday. They
had paid a visit to grandma, as they always did on Saturday
mornings, but this time for some reason their visit lud been
shorter than usual. Ever since they had left the old womans
house, his mother and father had been walking arm-in-arm,
murmuring reticently. Suiar, whom no one expected would
grow up to be so tall and lanky back in those years, was
covered in layers of clothes, lolloping like a cabbage; Ins
reindeer-motif wool beret pulled down to his can and the
same coloured scarf wound around his neck. As the distance
between him and his parents who were coming at a snail’s pace
from behind extended, Sidar took the liberty of tramping
through all the puddles on his way. He could thus estimate the
guveness of the quiet quarrel between his parents. The only
thing adults need to do to make their children sense the
iuauspiciousuess hovering in the air without explicitly
declaring the news is simply to not get angry at things that
always anger them Accordingly, Sidar had fathomed something
was wrong. For him to be convinced this day was like any
other day, he first had ro find a deep, dirty mud puddle to
march in, and upon doing so, be rebuked by his mother and
conceivably slapped by his father.
Before long he came across what he wanted, a russet, murky
hole full of mud, the depth of which he could not possibly
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1 he only things that were real to him at that moment were the
mud left on his trousers, which was already drying up. and the
pain tormenting this puppy, The rest was entirely meaningless.
He had a family but was lonely; he was constantly behrded by
everyone and he in turn constantly belittled everyone; he did
not know how to be happy and did not think he could learn it
either; he had turned eleven but was still a child in everyone's
eyes; no one asked his opinion on anything and even if they did,
he did not have any opinion anyway.
No doubt he should have returned and asked lor help from
his parents or else, moved forward to help the puppy himself
but he could do none of these things. He nervously thrust his
hands into his pockets and simply waited. The sour
despondency of his parents was approaching step by step from
the back: this was life. In from of him, a puppy speedily slid
from pain into oblivion: that was death. As tor Sidar, he did not
want to join either side; he would stay as far away as possible
from both the death that excluded him and the life from
which he had excluded himself If only he could withdraw
behind Ins eyelids the way he had hidden under the coat,
gloves, beret and scarf. I ost in his thoughts it took him some
time to realize what the soft thing in his left pocket was. It was
a floured cookie.
‘The girls will stay with me,’ grandma had remarked
broodingly that morning.‘But the male child, he has to be by
the side of his father.'
When Sidar had entered the kitchen, the two women had
their backs to him, 3 hey were doling out the freshly baked
floured cookies into the porcelain plates lined up on the
counter. Don't leave me without news,' grandma had
mumbled.‘But as soon as your new phone is connected, call a
candy store first thing.’
When a new phone was connected at a new house, whom
one called first determined all the rest. That was W'hy, with a
new phone, before calling friends and relatives, one had to
randomly call a candy store so that all the following calls made
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Shut in her room, sitting cross-legged on the carpet next to the
cockroach she had squished, Zelish FireriatUredsons had tor the
last half hour been staring at the mirror she solemnly and
dolefully held, as if some grave injustice had been inflicted
upon her by the face she saw there* Until some time ago
her face had been as pallid as if she had run into a ghost at
night and as round as a pastry tray. Yet, for about five months
now, it had been spotted with tiny, ruby blisters ,is if she had
had a heat rash without knowing. ! he dermatologist w ith
bleary eyes and hearty- laughter they visited, diagnosed them as
being neither adolescent acne nor an allergy but instead
psychosomatic* Under extreme anxiety, he had maintained, the
skin could transform itself into a red polka-dotted tablecloth.
Chuckling at Ins own joke, the physician had given Zclish a
whopping slap on the back and thundered in Ins bass voice:
For goodness sake, if you get so anxious at this age, you’ll end
up racking your husbands nerves when married. Relax, my
daughter, relax’1
If there js one thing in this life that starts to multiply out of
spite and proliferate all the more the moment it is intended to
be reduced, it must be anxiety. Even fear has an ending, a
saturation point When that particular point is reached, even if
one were up to the neck m fear, one would and could not be
frightened any longer Excessive fear anesthetizes itself As for
anxiety, that is the venomous water of"a bottomless well. It has
neither an overdose nor an antidote [mi .is inmh .is [hi mhitlC
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relax* she did not think she could ever learn either. Finding out
that the cause for all these blisters was not a particular allergy
but an ambiguous anxiety had simply heaped more angst upon
her pile oi angst.There was no soap, cream or lotion on earth
that could heal her. Anxiety had no cosmetic solution. The
blisters hitherto confined to her forehead and chin had since
then increased twofold, spreading all over her face.
All of a sudden she overheard some music seeping through
troin the fiat downstairs. Getting down on her knees, her face
turned to the dead cockroach, she glued her ear to the floor.
By now she had formed the habit of eavesdropping on the flat
below at various times of the day. Her room was right above
the living room of the wiry guy residing in the basement flat.
At notes she heard this strange ‘tap* and ‘rap* as if he had been
walking on the ceiling or was taken hostage downstairs and
was trying to climb up ..or perhaps he was sending her a
coded message... Once she had even heard moans jumbled-in
with dog barks.That dav she had patiently waited bv the living
room window to see what this female guest looked like. She
had seen her. A pence girl with short, spiked, coppers hair and
loose, baggy pants that looked like they would tall ofl at any
moment. As soon as she had left Bonbon Palace, the girl had
lit a cigarette there in the middle of the street. She didn 't seem
to have any blisters and thereby no anxieties.
‘Every human being spends life searching for her own
image,’ wise men said*‘To become one w ith her and to find
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herself til her.' Due even if that were the case, just as the Tuba
tree in heaven had turned upside down with us mots up in the
air and branches under the soil, so did certain mirrors turn
what was sought upside down. In the girl who had left Sidars
house, Zelish Firenaturedsons had seen the opposite of her
image If only she could, she would entirely do away with
herself and be converted into her.
“What the hell are you doing on the floor"'
Zelish Firenaturedsons bolted to her feet and trow ned Lit her
brother who had dashed into her room without bothering to
knock on the door first. Zekeriya had come to dinner that
night with his wife and child. In slow, heavy steps Zelish left
the room in silence. She found everyone seated around the
table m the living room having their soup while watching the
news. At one end of the table stood three pieces of the coffee
cake the old widow at number ten had sent them
As Zelish perched on the chair at the corner, the TV screen
caught her eyes, A sixteen year old mother who had left her
three-days-old baby in the dumpster of a supermarket was
trying to hide her face from the cameras.Thc lut kless baby had
slept in the barrel among the litter quietly all day long and only
when it started to wail at night had it been noticed and saved
by passcrs-hy.The policemen who took her to the station and
ted her had named the baby-from-the-garbage 'Kader
All of a sudden Rader appeared on the screen, her tiny face
flushing crimson. She kept crying and crying, turning a deeper
and deeper colour with each cry, Zelish Firenaturedsons broke
out in a sweat.1 be baby was so red.Though she tried to release
her glance from the pressure of that nasty colour, it was too
late. As baby Kader was being passed around from the lap of
one policeman to another, all darkened - and the darkness was
a vivid red.
Zelish Firenaturedsons had fainted.
Awakened with the squeal of the alarm dock at 5:45 a.m.,die
idea l had relished so much last night now seemed pure
nonsense. 1 would have hit the pillow and gone back (o sleep
if only 1 could. Instead I got up and looked out the window.
It was still dark outside. That was when I felt like trying my
plan out. At least it would provide me with something to
laugh about with Ethel the Cunt. Taking the bag l had
prepared at night, 1 slipped ghost-like down the stairs. The
apartment building was dead silent. As soon as I opened the
building door, the cool morning breeze hit my face - and
then the subtle garbage smell, It had started already. Who
knows, maybe my plan will have some use. If I succeeded in
convincing even one person not to dump their garbage here,
1 would have considered myself as having served not only the
residents of Bonbon Palace but the entire city.
In all its fudonmess, for the first tune since I had moved
here the street I lived on looked gorgeous to me. Two sturdy
street dogs sprung from the corner. They advanced zigzagging
tram one sidewalk to the other, got in trout of each other;
slowed down upon reaching the garden waif stuffed at the
garbage reluctantly and failing to come across anything worthy,
trudged away. As 1 looked after them, for a fleeting moment I
felt someone s eyes on me. Yet when 1 turned around Bonbon
Palace was in utter darkness with the exception of Fiat
Number 9. A shadow rapidly passed by the living room
windows of the top floor, The lights of all the rooms in the
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direction the shadow moved were lie and then for whatever
reason were turned off in the same order, I fck awkward. As I
cased my surroundings, the silliness of what 1 was about to do
upset me. Still, something in me refused to give up. My plan is
pure nonsense but perhaps it is better that it be so. At times the
only way ot stopping ongoing nonsense is not to fight it back
with rational rules or despotic prohibitions but to launch back
some thing just as nonsensical.
As 1 got on the sidewalk and faced the garden wall, a grim
pair of eyes accosted me. 1 had seen this cat before. It stares at
humans with such pure hatred. Disturbed by my presence, it
got up and walked to the end of wall with klutzy steps from
where it continued to watch me. Taking the paint can out of
the bag, I opened the lid with difficulty. When buying the paint
the day before, I had asked the salesclerk for 'Muslim green' to
match the occasion but what emerged from under the lid now
was downright pistachio green - certainly not an apt colour
for otherworidlmess. What's more, another nuisance struck me
once 1 faced the wall with the brush in my hand. 1 sure knew
what sort of a message I wanted to write but hadn't given
much consideration to how to phrase it most effectively A
bread van passed behind me noisily, continuing on its route
after leaving a crateful of bread in front of the grocer opposite.
Realizing what little time 1 had left before the whole city
woke up, I hurried to write the simplest expression that came
to my mind, going over every letter twice, As I worked
conscientiously the bastard cat watched my every move,
swinging the tar black tail it had dangled off the wall.
When finished, l stepped back and examined my handiwork.
It was not bad, Though the pistachio green was far too vivid
and l had apparently tailed to centre the w riting, it still was all
right. Large and legible enough to be perceived from even the
middle of the street. I winked at the cat, collected the pamt and
the brush and returned to Bonbon Palace.
Just as I was about to enter, someone was getting ready to
go out.
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one last time. She closed the door behind her, but stood still.
For the brain does not always go in the front blit occasionally
comes from the rear like this. Hy giene Tijen s brain too had
decided with a lag of few seconds that it had seen something
black, pitch black, wandering somewhere within the whiteness
covering the entire bathroom. She reopened the door; she was
not mistaken. A black and disgusting antenna was rapidly
making way on the w hite tiles. Her heart in her mouth,
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when really close could she distinguish that the thing she had
been looking at in its details, but had failed to see in its entirety,
was not a black and disgusting antenna, but a black and
disgusting cockroach.
Before she let out a scream, the black, repulsive owner of the
black repulsive antenna had already vanished into a hole on the
bathroom walk
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Because of the squabble inside, Musa woke up earlier than
usual this morning. As soon as he entered the living room he
spotted Muhammet there, squeezed between an armchair and
the wall. Pretending not to notice the plea tor help flickering
in his son’s eyes, he sat doss il at the breakfast cable. Grudgingly
shovelling into his mouth a lump of cheese, he reached for the
teapot only to let go of it even more grudgingly. Alas, the tea
had gone cold again.Though he pointed the teapot out to his
wife, Mervem. too busy pushing the armchair with one leg
while stuffing parsley twigs into half a loaf of bread, paid no
attention to him. Sullenly bowing to the fact that he had to
take care of himself Musas sluggish gaze scanned the
surroundings and, passing at a tangent to his son s despondent
stare, inspected one by one the armchairs, coffee tables and
chairs weightily lined up. Having thus drawn a complete circle
in the living room, he finally focused on his wife once again,
Meryem’s belly seemed even bigger this morning.
Gobbling half the cheese on the plate, three slices of bread
and all the olives left in the bowl as fast as he could, Musa left
the house without a word. At this hour of the day, as the only-
place he could think of going was the grocery store opposite,
that is where he headed The grocer - who was notorious for
sitting hunched-up on the same stool and in the same spot, all
the time spying on the passers-by - hadn’t arrived yet. Like
many a grocery store in Istanbul, in this case too, what made
the store different from others was less the qualities of the
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groceries sold than the traits of the grocer So prof oundly had
this identification of shop-with-owner been internalized by
the hunched-up grocer himself that for a long rime he found
it impossible to accept the simple fact that his store could open
in his absence. Nevertheless, ultimately facing the risk of losing
customers if he kept on closing the shutters even time he
went to the mosque to pray, he had been forced to entrust the
store to his freckled apprentice
The apprentice happened to be his brother s son. but since
the hunchbacked grocer was a firm believer in the need to
keep kinship and trade apart just like water and 01L he treated
the youngster not like Ins nephew but as an apprentice ought
to be treated. As for the boy, on no account could he work out
how on earth this uncle of his, who bombarded him with
callous orders and icy scoldings six days a week could then on
the seventh day, on a Sunday family visit, turn into an utterly
different person, bringing him chocolates he would not even
let him get near to in the store. On such Sundays, whenever
his uncle asked - as if they had just run into each other tor the
first time in weeks, as if it w asn't him who had sworn at the
boy only that morning in the store in front of ev eryone - *Tell
me, my nephew, what do you do in your spare time after
school?', at those thwarting moments how desperately the boy
wished to vanish from the face of the earth. The acrimony of
the past F east of Sacrifice was still seared fresh in his memory
i )n that day, all their relatives gathered together, sacrificed a
bulky ram early in the morning, then spent the ennre day
gulping down tea, almond paste, roasted meat, yogurt soup,
w heat boiled with meat, vogurt drink, rice and meat sausage,
apricot compote, meat pilaf tea again, baldava with pistachios,
semolina dessert for the spirits of the dead, grapes, watermelon,
again baldava with pistachios and coffee; only to end up
suffering from severe indigestion at night.7 he next morning,
when the boy had arrived at the grocery store later than usual
and still drained of colour, his uncle had yelled at him,
crowning his reprimand with a sermon on an apprentices
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Having emptied every single one of the hags she had brought
in. Madam Auntie opened the double doors and stepped onto
the balcony, fhe roofs of the apartment buildings across were
dotted with hordes of seagulls, all staring in the same
direction, all similarly sullen, as if compressed under the
weight of the same cryptic contemplation. Her eyes fixated on
them, Madam Auntie distractedly caressed the pendants on
her two necklaces, one of which she never took off On the
long chain there hung a key, and on the short one, the austere
face of Saint Seraphim,
Istanbul, she thought, resembled a woman heavy with child
a woman who during the last months of pregnane)1 had put
on far more weight than she could carry. With every step, the
swish of water rose in waves from that belly of hers, long
swollen with grandeur. Though she constantly devoured
whatever she could get hold of, she was no longer able to tell
how much of what she ate benefited her or the crowds of
teensy, touchy and voracious beings growing within her body
day by day. How desperately she would like to, if only she
could, get nd of this excruciating burden. Instead all she could
do was to simply swell up throughout the centuries. The
comestibles which she consumed in one gulp were transported
to her by ships and boats, cars and trailers, shaky-legged porters
and caravans, their tails long lost on the way. Had she, with this
insatiable appetite of hers, not been able to spurt anything out,
Istanbul would have long before blown up, taking the life of
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It was almost noon when I woke up. Thrusting into my briefcase
today's lecture notes, js well as yet another Kierkegaard for Ece,
who apparently preterred to borrow them from me rather than
purchase her own. I rushed out. While 3 was leaving my flat* the
neighbour at Number 8 was going into hen In a hurry, as always.
She seemed to have done something to her hair. It was better
before but she soil looked fetching, indeed very fetching. She
greeted me warily with a nod, averring her eyes.Yet 1 caught dial
glance in her eyes. She is not as timid as she seems tu he. Neither
is she that indifferent to the world around her. Down on the
ground floor, the door of Flat Number 4 was ajar. That nasty
woman was standing at the threshold, asking Meryem to do her
chores. Upon seeing rue, her lips twisted into a galling smile.
’Professor, did you hear what happened to our apartment
building?' she blurted out, ‘It turns out there was a holy saint
in our garden!’
I had completely forgotten about it.
T am not at all surprised,' I said, not losing my cool. It is a
well-know n fact that there are countless graves left from the
Ottomans, as well as the Byzantines, at various corners of
Istanbul,' I added without taking my eyes off my watch. Are
we to claim that all the dead in this city lie within the existing
cemeteries? Of course not!5 There must be still thousands ot
undiscovered graves. What could be more natural than the fact
that some of these graves belong to people regarded by the
populace as holy saints?
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you should instantly turn your head. Don't ever try to sneak a
look! When you get up to go to the bathroom at night, don’t
ever take even one step without uttering Allah's name aloud!
Particular attention needs to be paid to thresholds because
that^ where the gomes like to linger.The only way to eschew
the genies is to not do anything without uttering Allah\ name
If you forget to do so, the gomes will surely reach you and
meddle with your life"1 repined Hadji Hadji, leaning his aching
hack on one ot’ the pillows piled up on the couch to build an
Osman afterward. The little girl next to him cowered and
moved in tandem, as if glued to the old man.
The most horrible one is the “Crimson Broad ". When she
haunts a woman w ho lias just given birth, she’ll never let go of
her prey. All night long, she mounts the new mother's chest as
if riding a horse, Only ,u daw n does she leave the pour thing
drenched in sweat and fear, hut the next night, she's back there
again, this time mim king the cradle, throwing the habv up in
the air like a soccer bait.’
*Oh I remember her," the seven and a half year old blurted
out, eyeing his siblings,'She came to their birth!'
lOf course* she would! If, instead of having the birth her
way, your mother had called for your deceased grandmother,
there would be no quandaries. Your grandma, peace be upon
her, would certainly have managed, to get rid of the "Crimson
Broad ’, but the poor soul passed away without seeing her
grandchildren *
Deeply vexed by their grandfathers response, the five and .1
half year old and the six and a half year old grovelled at once.
While the little girl s lower lip drooped down* the boy h id
started to suck his thumb which was already thinned out from
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constant sucking,
'And you better be cautious about the “Black Congokw1
too, the most merciless of them all,.. She disguises herself as an
aged woman, wandering on the streets, waiting for her prey at
street corners She asks questions to the passers-by: “ Where are
you coming from?” and “Where ire you going to?” she
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'You seem to he in good spirits today. Professor,' Ece sitting at
the front row twittered in the most glib voice she could
manage. She was dressed in pitch black from top to toe, as
usual: black lipstick, black nail polish, black eyes made to stand
out with black eye pencil. I took out the copy of‘Sickness
Unto Death' from my briefcase and placed it on her desk.
1 have indeed come to class in good spirits, but whether I'll
still be in this state when we are done depends on you. Let’s see
if the articles have been read.1 f said, proceeding with a typical
introduction to a typical Thursday lecture.
‘We have read from/In Praise of FollyT, by Erasmus.The part
where he mentions Fortuna we compared to Machiavellis
Fortuna, Entirely read, analyzed and memorized/ Fee spoke up.
Fine, then can somebody please tell me what sort of a thing
this Fortuna is?” I asked, taking pains to address not Ece but the
whole class.
‘For sure, a female.’ Ece raised an answer, apparently pleased
with trampling whatever prudence I maintain, ‘In both
Maehiavelli and Erasmus, Fortuna is personified and feminized
and because she's a female, its no big surprise that tbev don’t
find her reliable The church fathers shared the same opinion -
and we Turks are no different. We say destiny is either blind or
a slut. If blind, she can't see w hat she distributes to whom, so
can't be expected to be fair If a slut, she’ll have nothing to do
with fairness anyhow. At tunes there’s a wheel in her hand At
other omes she herself forms a wrheei by swirling her skirts.
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Mom, why are you taking us with you?’ whined the five and
a Sialf year old*
‘Come on, isn't this great? Don't you want to see where
your mother works?" the Daughter-in-Law said, as she held
more tightly onto the hands of the two children forcing them
to adjust to the speed ol her footsteps. How on earth she was
going to restrain the kids at the box office all day long she
hadn’t quite yet worked out, besides which she was afraid of
angering her boss, but she was too high-strung to think
rationally after the fight with her father-in-law. As they neared
the end of Cabal Street, she slowed down and looked back
over her shoulderThe seven and a half year old was two metres
behind them. Despite the inquisitive looks of some passers-by,
he seemed remarkably happy now' that he had stepped outside
Bonbon Palace after two years*
Soon the lump of anguish the Da ugh ter-in-Law was used to
savouring whenever she watched her older son chased away
the wisps of worries pullulating from her mind. Though she
knewT too well that her oldest child would be the shortest to
live with her, among all her children it was he that she was
most deeply attached to. Children born with a lethal illness,
unlike their peers and siblings, belong only to their mothers
and always stay as such.
At the corner of the Cabal Street, just when she motioned
her older son to hurry up, a swarthy, skinny hand slowly tapped
the Daughter-in-Law's shoulder.
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the garrulous, raucous female had got out of the car, a brotherly
silence echoed around us in her absence.
'Sorry about the fuss,' I muttered.
'No problem, brother,’ he shrugged, *1 wish things like this
were our onlv troubles *
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thing had she not been pregnant at the time when the writing
appeared on the wall. Since pregnancy rendered her a bit
bizarre, early that morning she went out into the garden with
an empty jar in hand to collect from the soil of the nameless
saint Not that she really believed there was a genuine saint
buried in the garden, but as that university professor had stated,
given the fact that under all these Istanbul sidewalks rested
ancient graves* one could not predict what would emerge from
where. If the writing turned out to be bogus, she would be left
with just a jarful of soil, that was all However, if there really
was a saint under the rose acacia in the garden of Bonbon
Palace, then there was only one request she would like to make
to him: to infuse Mu hammer with courage, even it it were only
a morsel.
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When the doorbell rang, Nidar scurried to answer it, hoping
that Muhammet had once again brought them something to
eat. However, when he opened the door, there in front of him
stood not the little emissary of Madam Auntie but the nutty
girl with the coppery hair, Either the girl had drastically
changed since they had last seen one another or Sidars
memory of her bad gone awry but her eyes were just like he
remembered, so beautifully solemn. She barged in with a
bewildering smile and without waiting to be invited. As it tired
she tottered unsteadily towards the cnuch and asked her host,
still standing fixed on the spot, lor something to drink Sidar
shuffled to the kitchen scratching his head. He opened up the
only bag of coffee in the cupboard and poured the water
heated up with the only pot in the house into the only mug
on the shelf
Aren't you going to have one too?1
‘Later,’ Sidar shrugged There is only one mug in the house
anyhow,'
Three hazelnut wafers emerged from the girlV backpack,
immediately arousing Cabas interest. Still, however, he refused
to move an inch,
‘What was the dogs name?1
‘Gaba,’Sidar grumbled, suspicious of having alreads told her
this in their previous meeting,
‘What does it mean?'
'Gaba is the abbreviation for gamma-amino-butiric add —
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Tired of criss-crossing a path between the kitchen and the
living room, the Blue Mistress threw a last look at the table.
Everything seemed ready. She lit the lily-shaped candle
floating in the water-filled glass bowl and placed blue napkins
next to the blue plates.They had agreed to meet at seven.The
doorbell rang at ten to seven.
Welcome,* she chirped. Though she was already wearing
high heek she instinctively left the need to rise up on her toes.
‘Do you always arrive early like this?’
I tried hard not to, but it turns out that it takes three and a
half steps to get from my fiat to yours,’ ] said smiling,
‘Of course, yntir tegs are so long,' she cackled, blushing at the
end of her sentence* as if she had made an erotic remark.
We stood up by the entrance in a daze germane to people
who* after long desiring each other, come to a sudden halt die
moment they notice how close they actually are to obtaining
what they have so badly craved. Though the intensity and
frequency of our acquaintance had been limited to running
into each other now and then, and chatting about this and that,
I had long been aware oi how deeply attracted she was to me.
Hers is a face that cannot mask secrets. Still however, S hadn’t
been expecting this thing between us to run its course so
speedily, so effortlessly...
Taking her face between my palms, I caressed that tiny, azure
Tve made chicken with ground walnuts,' she breathed
when she drew back, trying to urge me to continue not from
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bluff after all! Once the ropes were untied and rhe smelly
blanket lifted, he sat up on the stretcher with pride. While the
beet-face whose leg had been broken was carried off to the
hospital with the same stretcher, Muhammet was enjoying the
sweet syrupy taste of bravery for the first tune in his life.
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‘Oh, Fra dying to learn about the imn who put up the saint
writing on the wall Is he pulling one over us, or has he lost his
mind, if only l could tell! 1 swear to God, l can't wait to see
what's going to happen next. Last night, my good old bulgur
didn't appear. I have been waiting for her. I guess I've gotten
so used to her dumping garbage into our mouths, I'll miss the
woman if she doesn 't show up anymore. Could it be, I wonder,
that she has taken that writing on the wail seriously. Not that
its impossible. This place is Turkey! The West long finished
exploring the moon; they are now busily dividing Mars up
into parcels and will soon clone humans. What about us. what
have we been doing in the meantime? Finding holy saints m
our backyards! Bless him, but is he a saint or some sort of a
flower that sprouted from the soil? After that we ask in vain
why on earth the European Union does not take us in? What
would they want us for? Only when they are running short of
saints will the Europeans ask us to join.’
A few flimsy giggles followed but Cental did not seem to be
offended at all with such limited backing from his audience.
‘I swear to God, it wouldn't come as a surprise if one of
these days we had a red alarm meeting at Bonbon Palace: an
emergency meeting with a special ‘holy saint agenda’, in the
house of our building manager Mr Hadji Hadji! Sonny why
don't you spray a little!'
The pungent smell of the bug spra\ they had amply used last
night all over the place had still not dispersed. In the morning.
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decreed the brush with the bone handle, if we are all of the
same opinion on this matter, there are specific agenda items we
have to settle without further ado. The very first item on our
agenda is the following question: whose holy saint is the one
lying in our garden?You can't just call it such and be done with
it. Every saint helps a certain segment of the populace in our
cou ntry. Some are the saints of the sailors at sea; others care for
the soldiers on land. Several saints heal women who cannot
become pregnant, several others help the lepers. One should
always go to a saint relevant to his particular problem, if the old
maid mistakenly pays a visit to the Saint of the Bedridden, the
most she can obtain will he an extra hop and a jump.*
‘Someone should record all this in the minutes,’ piped-up
the clerk ol the Criminal Court, lifting up her other eyebrow.
'All right,’ said Cental, and after brief consideration,
appointed the manicure file for the job, ’ Write this down
missie, the first item on the agenda is to find out whose father
this honourable saint is.'
'How do we know that? Maybe the saint is a woman,'
objected the Blue Mistress.
Nonsense,* roared the brush with the bone handle.
‘Why? Couldn't a woman be a saint?' the Blue Mistress
asked obstinately, without taking her eyes off the gel container
that represented her. And since she had the floor to herself, she
delivered a speech there and then;‘Plenty of pious people have
emerged from among women. Let’s first count the exalted Ayse
and Fatma. Then there is Rabia, tor instance. Of course.
Mother Kadincik is also notable, as is Karyagdi Hatun.There is
Huma Hatun, the mother of Sultan Mehmed the Conqueror.
Mevlana s mother, MLimine Hatun, is another example...not to
mention the ‘Seven hides'
The women lined up in front of the mirror turned to the
Blue Mistress in bewilderment, She had too much knowledge
on religious matters, way too much for a mistress. Cental
seemed to be the one who was most impressed He gaped at
her with adoration, as if the matchless concubine Canayakm
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Hut sir, please take some pity on us, if we don't cut hair,
we'll go hungry. This is our livelihood, spoke up one of
the two multi -vitamin hair repairers with keratin. Ccmal
whispered another footnote winking at his customers: That
was Celalr
*We guessed so,' trolled the women in unison.
It absolutely can't be done. Don’t forget that of all the flats
in this building it is yours that happens to be the closest to the
grave of the honourable saint As such, the deepest reverence is
incumbent upon you.You can no longer open the windows to
sing popular songs, shake out hair or clip nails, just like you
cannot cut hair or pluck eyebrows whilst looking at the tomb
of the saint. If you cannot abide by the rules* go open your
beauts- parlour somewhere else,
*k Article 6 From now on. the flesh, hair, feather and the like
of animals such as hones, donkeys shall not enter into this
apartment building.,.and this includes dogs as well,./1
The fine toothed corub blurted out from the top of the
roller basket: "And why is that so, may I ask?"
Tor the very reason that according to our religion dogs are
reprehensible," snapped the brush with the bone handle.
However, realizing at this point he had barely any knowledge
to support his claim, c/emal stared at the Blue Mistress for help
She spoke up as if waiting for an opportunity:‘See the Araf sura
in the Qur'an: if you go at it. it breathes dangling its tongue, if
wu let it lo<im-, ir bie.itIdangling its tongue In addition, let’s
not forget that Mevlana too calls human greed canine.'
None of these apply to my dog* Gaba isn't Turkish. He's
Swiss!' shouted the fine toothed comb,
The women lined up m front of the mirror looked at the
chunky, carroty, notched hair roller m sympathy
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I sure hadn't been expecting the Blue Mistress. It turned out
she had applied bug spray all over her house, so she asked if she
could stay at my place until the smell faded away 1 told her 1
was etem; lly grateful to the bugs. She laughed. Her grin curled
into a quizzical smile, when she caught sight at the mammoth
plate oi cheese and smoked salmon on the table inside.
Tin coining into money’ l said. Meryeni stopped by this
morning. The woman at Number 9 had sent her as an
emissary. She wants me to give English lessons to her daughter.
1 w asn't interested at first.The last time I had given such lessons
I was a studenr myself, but then, tor some reason unknown, the
woman ottered a hefty fee per hour.'
its probably because she hates the idea of her daughter
going out of the apartment building/
‘Whatever! Weil have the lessons at their house/
"Perhaps she preferred to have the teacher from within the
building/ she beamed before gulping down a large piece of
cheese., ‘Or perhaps, she too has fallen for you, |ust like ine!'
When she smiles the scar on her left cheek becomes more
visible. I like caressing that scar Slowly, I pulled her hand and
dragged her inside, 1 like the taste her tongue leaves on mine,
"Do you know 1 was raised by my grandfather/she mumbled
as she grabbed my fingers stroking her cheek and lifted them to
her lips. I lit a cigarette and leaned back. I’ve always enjoyed
pillow calk. Thanks to the Blue Mistress, 1 had started after all
that time to sl^ep again in the bed chat was Too big’ for me.
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grandfather!” !t was then that truth struck me: I didn't love the
Mauve Prince! The things that l cherished were of little value
to him/'How am I gonna spend the rest of my life with him
then?” 1 asked myself Upon hearing of my decision to break
up with him, he refused to take it seriously. “Oh. you are so
touchy/he smirked, thinking my mood would change in a feu
days and when he saw that it did not, bullying was his next
move. Such threats! One night, we were having dinner at
home; he came to the door, stinking drunk, He hurled insults
at my stepfather Then he grabbed me by the arm and pulled
me outside. He smelt so strongly of liquor, it was as if he'd
fallen right into the bottle/'Hey. look here, if you leave me, 111
cut up your face!”That’s exactly what he said/‘Don’t bother.
Ill do it myself I replied. I know you won't believe me. I can't
believe myself either, I don't know why l spoke like that or
why I did what I did I was seventeen years old then, but it still
happens to me from time to time. Whenever in pain, I do such
things without thinking... harming myself.. Not intentionally;
afterwards I'm amazed, 1 say, “Goodness how did I do this?"
But my mind is blank while doing such things. You know what
I mean? It I gave a thought to it before doing it, I probably
couldn't do it, right?
I smiled. One end of naivety leads to negligence, the other
to innocence. The negligence part can be flawed but there is
probably not much in this world as alluring as innocence.
'My mother and stepfather were listening from behind the
door, ready to intervene if something happened, fearing harm
tram the Mauve Prince.They had no clue what 1 was about to
do. i >f course. I didn't have a knife or anything.There w as only
this steel pm in my hair bun - sharp enough - back then my
[lair was so riiick, no other hairpin would do. Anyway, that's
what I used to slash my left cheek. Though l couldn't see m\
face at the moment I could see the Mauve Prince's: ashen with
honor, almost lemon yellow. He started yelling and shrieking
to stop me. My mother ran to the noise, she too let out a
scream. Only then did I understand I must be in pretty bad
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02:22 a.m.: She turned onto her lace with a clipped moan. I
covered her body and turned off’the light. Rakt would have
gone down well at that moment. As soon as [ turned on the
kitchen light, several cockroaches vanished like greased
lightning. Sooner or later 1 too would have to have the house
fumigated. I sliced plenty of white cheese and melon. On the
cheese, I poured the olive oil the Blue Mistress had brought
and thyme, a great deal of thyme.The olive oil merchant w ould
probably not want to know that the bottles he carried to his
little mistress were consumed bv another man.
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Madam Aunde had been watting tor hours bv the seaside
together with collectors like her. With each gust of lodos, that
enraged southwest Wind, the waves brought bits and pieces, torn
sails, broken oars, compasses with shattered pointers, rudders that
had lost their course, the letters spilled from the names of the
boats left behind from those voyages that were never to reach a
port of tranquility and those travellers long disembarked.
The sea, once satisfied with pUsing with those plastic balls
or in datable beds the waves had long ago snatched away whilst
you were on vac anon and the straw macs or hats the wind had
carried far away from their rightful places, brings and delivers
them all to different shores.
Next to collectors like her. Madam Auntie was waiting to
collect what the sea would ferry to the shore.
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As soon as Ola] left the beauty parlour, he blasted through the
back streets right out to the avenue. After walking for about
fifteen minute?; in the crowd without a destination in mind, he
entered a street lined up with live bars looking exactly alike,
[ hough n was not at all his habit, he tell like having a beer.
From among them, he chose one randomly and dashed in.
Inside it was crammed full He headed directly to the table
closest to the doort as it was his habit to be as close to the exit
as possible, asked for a beer, and also tries from the gaum, runty
waiter with gestures that displayed not only his distaste tor his
job but also the fact that his mind was occupied elsewhere.
As Celal waited to give his order, he spotted at the table
across a swarthy man with three rings in three different shades
of purple under his eyes, who either could not stand still or was
simply on the verge of collapsing onto the cable. The man $
eyes were fixed on the raki in front of him. Though not taking
a single sip from his glass at present, it was only too evident that
he had already had more than his share. He had not touched
the fried anchovies either
‘ W hy-1 h e-hetl-a re-you-star-in g-a t- n i e- mate ? c roa ke d the
man all of a sudden, slurring the words hoarsely, Celal shrunk
in his seat not knowing what to say but thankfully the waiter
sprung up by his side at precisely chat moment. "Take it easy on
him, brother,’ the waiter advised, his attention fixed on the
passers-by scurrying on the other side ol the windows, as if he
would like to be there among them rather than here in the bar.
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sigh. Why was his twin so different from him? They did not
have one single thing in common. Why were they not alike in
any way? And if they were so very dissimilar, why did they still
work together? By the time the third beer had vanished, he
had reached the decision to part ways with CemaL
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Su was going to haw her first English lesson tonight 7:<X» p.m.
was the time agreed upon She looked at the glow-in-thc-dark
svatch her father had given her as a binhd.n girt: 4:35 p.m. I here
sull was a lot of time. Bored stiff, she w andered around the house
wherein everything had turned white. Her mother was sleeping,
having once again spent the night awake and cleaning.
Opening the windows she peeped at the children playing
dow n on the street. Though she watched them with interest, it
did not even cross her mind to join them She wouldn't want
to be among them even if given the chance Like all lonely
children who had not a friend outside of school or buddy at
home, who had mastered the an of being is w ell-behaved as
expected and as docile as was not expected and who were now
searching for ways to subvert the an, she too looked down on
the street games with a hidden fury Ex c ceding) \ careful not to
nuke a sound, she sneaked outside. The intimacy that had
blossomed with the old woman that day at the hairdresser was
still fresh in her memory Not that she had forgotten the ban
on leaving Bonbon Palace, w'lth the exception of attending
school., .but on second thoughts, the flat right across could not
be considered "outside', could it?
Thus, she did what she had never done before, daring to
visit the neighbour next door. Not a sound was heard from the
flat after she rang the beQ. She pressed it again, this time a bit
more tenaciously and w as just about to give up when the door
of Flat Number 10 opened.
Offended that his twin brother had not come back* Cental saw
oft the last customer and turning over the beauty parlour to
the apprentices, went out into the street feeling depressed.The
night breeze felt good. He blasted through die back streets
with speedy steps, as if sliding, and went right out onto the
main street. After walking for about fifteen minutes in the
crowd without even knowing where he was headed, he
entered a street lined up with five bars, all looking exactly
alike, Though not at all his habit, he felt like having a beer.
Among all the bars on his way, he randomly chose one and
dashed in. Inside it was crammed full. He headed directly to
the table closest to the door as it was his habit to be as near to
the exit as possible. He then asked for a beer and also fries from
the gaunt, runty waiter with gestures that displayed not only
his distaste for his job but also that his mind was hooked-up
somewhere else.
As he waited to give his order. Cental spotted at the table
opposite a swarthy man with three rings in three different shades
of purple under his eyes, who either could not stand still or was
simply on the verge of collapsing onto the table. StiU without
shifting his gaze from the mkt in front of him, the man beckoned
the waiter and whispered, his breath smelling profusely of liquor,
to the latter! e,^r:'Ask~hilTl~why-he-is-back4ef~us-knQw., Upon
seeing the confusion on the waiters face, he impatiently
dar ified:4 Ask - h m 1-why-did - he -leave-if-h e-was-to- c omc-back -
if- h e- was - to -come - back- why - he-did-he-leave -1 f?*
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left the place, but today he felt like drinking. So he stayed and
continued to drink in spite of the provocations of the drunk at
the table across from him, the mayonnaise on the tries and the
thumb terrorizing the next table.
Unused to alcohol, his eyes turned bloodshot before he was
halfway through the second been Fixating his glance on the
stains and cigarette burns of the tablecloth, he heaved a deep
sigh. Why was his twin so different from him? They did not
have one single thing in common.Why were they not alike in
any way? And if they were so very dissimilar, why did they still
work together? By the time the third beer had vanished, he
had reached the decision to part ways with Celal,
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When the doorbell rang. Madam A untie was busy emptying
out the bags she had brought in from the street. She stood still,
completely startled. No one rang her door except Meryem
who distributed bread every morning and collected the
apartment maintenance fees once a month. At first she thought
the bell might have been accidentally pushed downstairs, but
when it rang again, this time even more tenaciously, a gnawing
worry grabbed hold of her. She thrust into the bags everything
she had taken out and then carried them all to the small room.
Panting hard she closed shut the white door with the frosted
glass separating the living room from the rest ot the house and
double locked it just in case. As for the key hanging on a
purplish velvet ribbon, knowing too well she would lose it
otherwise, she hung rt around her neck. Giving the living
room a last once over, she headed to the outside door feeling
hesitant and anxious,
lOh, was u you, Su?" she marvelled, relaxing visibly, as soon
as she had opened the door. ‘How are things my dear, are you
comfortable with your hair short?’
Su, three and a half centimetres taller than Madam Auntie
when in sneakers, nodded with a beaming smile. The old
woman once again felt ill at ease with the exuberant joy of the
child. Her discomfort gave way to considerable anxiety upon
realizing the other was there to be invited in. Warily she threw
a glance back at the living room. For years not a single visitor
had stepped into this house. Not even her brother whom she
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two mugs in Iront of him, lit* could never decide which one
to drink from; if there were two towels, lie wouldn't know
which one to wipe his face with; two books, two CDs..,any
option would be more than battling. As long as there was
more than one, the question of which fork or glass or plate or
coffee-pot turned into a daunting enigma worthy of the ones
asked in purgatory. Many a time he had been petrified with a
sesame cookie in one hand and a creamy cookie in the other,
only to realize he had been standing at the same spot without
budging for forty' minutes or so. Wrestling his way out of this
tight bind, he would sink in deeper; whenever he felt inclined
to choose one item, his thoughts would get stuck onto the
one left behind T he objects would then, just like rowdy baby
birds whose mother had still not returned, open their In tie
mouths wide and shout in unison;*Me! Me! Me Sidar! Please
choose me!T
However, he did not want to choose. Everyone thought he
had made a choice between Switzerland and Turkey m coining
to live m the latter. That was not true. He had not decided on
anything, be had merely arrived and maybe some day he
would merely leave. Likewise, the act oi suicide, which he had
lately started to think about more often than ever, did not
mean, as deemed by everyone, choosing death over life. Suicide
was like Gaba, the one and only. He would merely commit it.
Of course, that credo was subject to scrutiny when not the
why but the way of suicide was considered because in that case
he would once again be confronted with the question 'Which
one?1 There was such an assortment of choices presenting so
many different ways of committing suicide, and whenever
Sidar rode the ochre cart oi hashish or the chromatic horses ot
acid galloping into the uncharted maze of suicide, he got stuck
there on the verge of the same quandary. Then the gas oven in
the kitchen, the rope waiting to be hung down trum the gas
pipe crossing through the living room, the pills m the bottles,
the razor in the bathtub and the Bosphorus Bridge with its
Goliath feet would start to scream in unison: Me! Me! Me,
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Though Cental had intended to go home directly after the bar,
either because he found it hard to walk straight or came to
realize his decision to part ways with his nvm meant saying
farewell to their joint workplace as well* he soon found himself
in front of Bonbon Palace, Trying not to touch the reeking,
leaking garbage bags huddled on the sidewalk* he leaned over
the pistachio green writing on the garden wall and stared at
the beauty parlour with sorrowful eyes, hut what he spotted
there was quick to replace his sorrow with agitation. I here was
a candle flickering inside. He had no doubt that the
apprentices had locked up the door and left hours ,igo. With a
frown on his face he stood still* staring at the low set balcony
of their flat . That must be where the thief had gained entrance*
Though he was hardly experiencing a tidal wave of courage,
after guzzling three large beers* Cemal was more than ready
to give any thief a black eye. Grabbing a broken hanger
godknowswho had thrown in the garbage he rushed into the
garden, passed by the rose acacia and managed to land on the
balcony on his first try, As predicted* the door was slightly ajar. He
rushed inside toward the shadow of a man standing by the
candle*..and instantly dropped his weapon of a broken hanger...
Meanwhile* the other, faced with such an aggressive
silhouette plunging in from the balcony* had scampered to his
feet* taking cover behind a hair-removal machine, Celal was
hardlv experiencing a tidal wave of courage. Had it been am
other time, he would have been scared to death but he too had
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The tw ins were ten years old when their father had returned
from Australia where he had emigrated many years previously*
In united awe they had listened to the stories the man they so
much admired told them. He had worked hard, made heaps of
money, and had now' returned to take his family back with him
to that land of prosperity. Awaiting them there was a house*
vivid yellow like boiled corn* with a tyre swing in the
backyard. While the twins had listened to their father with
bated breath, their mother had been busy packing* bidding
farewell to the neighbours and doling out all their belonging?,
since they weren't going to take any of these things w ith them
The day before their departure, while Celal and Cental
tossed and turned in their beds on the floor* their father had
sneaked into their room. Patting their heads, he had taken out
from his chest-pocket one photograph. There was a house in
the photograph which indeed looked huge and corn yellow;
and the backyard was just as he had described. There was a
swing there as well and on that swing sat a plump woman with
a smile blooming on her face. She had ginger hair with a strand
curled* thickly braided and loosely fastened into a bun at the
nape of the neck,‘What do you think of her? Beautiful* isn't
she?’ their father had asked, i’he twins had nodded shyly. She
did not at all look hke the women they had hitherto seen,
especially not like their mother. Putting the photograph back*
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folds, blowing his nose on die Use fold, the power came back
Cdal ran to the kitchen to fetch has twin a glass of water. Before
handing him the glass, he put in five drops of lemon cologne.
‘Thank you,’ Cental said,
i had lost my shoe.' Celal replied.
Staring with lustreless eyes at the candle flame, which
looked so rickety and flintsv now that the electricity had
come, CemaJ tried to make sense of what lie had just heard,
M had lost my shoe, Celal repeated. He would rather have
remained silent but has mouth talked w ithout consulting him.
How he wished he had not had that third beer, 'Just as I was
getting into the car, one of my shoes fell oil That's why I got
off the car, to put on my shoe. However, before 1 had the
chance, mother showed up. As soon as father spotted her
coming, he started the engine. I ran after you with one shoe
on but the car careered away. I kept veiling at the top of my
voice. 1 ran after you all the way to the end of the village.'
Celal, bruised all through his life from being the child his
father had abandoned and Cental* bruised all through his life
from being the child who had abandoned his mother, stood
staring at one another, half-dejected, half-confused, their
respective identities turned inside out in the mirror chat each
provided tor the other.,.and whatever it was that they saw
there led each to believe that his situation had been graver than
the others...
There's one more thing I need to tell you,' Celal bumbled.
"You kno\vr ma was an uneducated woman. After your
departure, she fell ill with sorrow. People urged her to seek
hdp from this famous spell-caster. She took me there with her.
A young man with eyes like glass, turns out he was blind. He
must have taken pity on my mother. “To this day I have never
prepared a bad spell," he said, “and 1 nev er will hereafter, but
this husband of yours deserves the worst so I*11 make an
exception and help you Let’s block their way. capsize then car,
sink their ship if need be, let's make sure they never make it to
Australia Do you want me to do that? Do tell, is this what you
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really want?" he asked. Poor tiu stood still, cried, moaned and
then unable to take it any longer she said: "Yes!1
As that mght it was taking Cental longer than usual to
comprehend his twin's words, he was lagging behind, lus mind
functioning no quicker than an icicle feigning ignorance of the
sun He would have liked to intervene and put in a few words
himself but not only did he not know what to say; at that
moment even the idea of moving his jaw tired him. How he
wished he had not finished off that third beer.,.
‘Poor nia. she was so exhausted she couldn't even follow
w hat was said. So it was me who had to get the instructions on
how to cast the spell,The sorcerer gave me a corn husk, filled
i bottle with blessed water md wrote who knows what on i
piece of paper, “Separate the corn husk into two pinches and
tie them tight. Put them in the paper and roll the paper up
lengthwise like a cigarette,Then bum jt all up" he instructed,
"Right then, you'll hear a voice. A sound will speak out of the
fire. When you hear that sound, rest assured you're doing the
right thing Do not ever touch the fire, Let it burn away its
course, When the flames are entirely out. sprinkle the ashes
over the blessed water and then pour the water at the bottom
of a red rose tree. The rest will, come by itself,’ he concluded "
The power went out once again. Fhe puny flame of the
candle visibly heartened, appreciating the sudden darkness.
"As soon as we reach home, get to it" said nu, "Do exactly
what the sorcerer told you!1’So 1 tied the corn husks, making two
hunches (one small* the other big)* put them in die paper,
w rapped it up nicely and then kindled it. You should have seen
ira, her eyes were wide as saucers! (iod, that hope in her stare, she
expected so much from me The paper really went up m flames. I
tried to convince myself, "Nothing will happen " but suddenly 1
heard, just like the sorcerer said 1 would, a scream.ls if someone
was crying...then another scream, 1 thought 1 heard your voice.
Shaken up ! took the blessed water and poured it right onto the
burning fire. It went out with a hiss. I felt so relieved. Of course,
1 didn't tell my mother what 1 had done. She thought I'd poured
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it all out at the bottom of the red rose tree. Next we went to bed.
At dawn a noise woke me upt I get out of bed and what do I see?
Mj is out ui the garden weeping on her knees! “Celal, what have
I done? How could 1 have murdered my sweetheart son” she
moaned, "I wish to God not a single stroke of harm happens to
them on the way”,“You mean both?" I asked “Yes. 1 mean both?
she said, I noticed her hands were covered with scratches. She had
uprooted the rose ore to break the spell, "Nothing bad will
happen, right, Celal?" she begged, "Nothing? I consoled, “You
didn't do everything you were told, right" she asked. “Right," I
replied. She was so relieved. “Good for you. my smart boy," she
smiled. Then hugged me w ith such gratitude that I understood
right then. I understood she loved you more dian me. The son
who had left was the one she loved the most?
Cental shivered, He struggled to get up to dose the balcony
door but was so dizzy he had to squat right back down,
‘From that day on Cemal, whenever someone mentions saints,
sorcerers and the like, 1 get scared. Not that 1 believe it or
anything. If you ask my opinion, 1 believe none of it. If the truth
be told, after all these years, 1 even doubt those corn husks had
really made a sound. 1 was so frightened I must have imagined it.
However, the doubt is always w ith me. Were it not lor that doubt
my poor mother would spin in her grave. That s how 1 feel?
The silence that ensued lasted two minutes.The lights came
back right in the middle, leaving one minute m the darkness
and the other in the light.
'So that’s w hy you got so mad at my making fun of the saint
in the garden! But I promise you, I'll never ever open my
mouth again!"
Celal sighed. His twin set the gage of his temperament to
either excess or dearth,
'Let s close down tins parlour if you’d like. That is, il you’re
worried about this idea that cutting hair is against the hob
saints wishes We can get a parlour somewhere else?
'Oh, come on!' Celal said laughing, I think you are
confusing me with the brush with the bone handle?
‘At the fatsos with the headscarves! The fatsos with the
headscarves!* yelled Su, her head popping in and out of the rear
window like the wound up bird of a dock, Jn the front seat
two boys with chickpea guns in their hands were waiting,
taking turns sliding into the window seat where they would
shoot at the targets she pointed out.
The women with the headsearves Su had her eyes on had
been caught m the middle of a two-lane road struggling to
cross. They did not notice the school minibus hurtling along
behind, never mmd being aware of the chickpeas whizzing past
them- Before the boy who missed his goal turned hi% seat over
to his friend with a long face, Su had already designated the
new target:"At the chap with the dog! T he chap with the dog!'
One of the chickpeas made it into the hood of the casually
dressed man but his terrier was not as lucky k took a couple
of barks and tail-chases to figure out what was raining on it. It
could only chase the minibus the length of its leash, at the end
of which it stopped with a painful whine waiting for its owner
10 catch up. One of the chickpeas must have hit the dog in the
eye tor it constantly winked after them. 'Awesome!!!*
exclaimed the sniper commending himself - awesome being
more in fashion in their circles these days than ‘cool’
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was an eve doctor, had an office in Sisli. Thev truly loved one
# ” # #
somewhere else. After all these years she sea]I doesn’t let me into
her house. She didn't get re-married either. All this time she
stayed single like that. Whenever we get together, we meet at a
patisserie, i >o you know anything about dream interpretations?
My sister sure does and her dreams always come true,"
*So how did she interpret this dream?" Sidar wondered.
4She said she might die before waiting for her time to come.
That's why my mother was angry at her like that.'
* You mean suicide?" Sidar exclaimed with a tinge of a thrill
in his voice.
However, blinking his hluish-grey eyes the old man looked
deadpan, as if never before had he thought of such a word or
even heard of it.
Gaba sounded far more distraught now. He was using the/If
you so insist on not leaving me alone, then I will leave!’ ba 1
Sidar scurried to his feet though he had more questions to .e
At the entrance of the cemetery, he found Gab a. just as he had
predicted, barking in distress in the middle of a circle of
affection and attention formed by inquisitive onlookers. Before
he ran to the rescue of his dog. he stopped for a second to wave
to the old man, but the latter had turned to the other side still
murmuring, as if he was unaware that he was now alone on the
bench.
T7I5
6:54 p.m.: Dangling from the armchair, her stick-thin legs
covered with myriad mosquito bites each «f which she had
turned into an abrasion from scratching non-stop, 5u thrust
her hands into the pockets of her shorts and hilly concentrated
her ga/e on the minute hand of the clock on the wall, is if by
so doing she could make time run faster. Her tutor was always
prompt.To this day he had never been late, not even a delay of
few minutes, but such punctuality had recoil of its own. He
always ended the lesson right on the dot. He had never stayed
longer, not even for a few minutes. The instant he started the
lesson, he placed his watch with the leather strap between the
two of them on the table and though he did not keep glancing
ar it as a bored man would, he still jumped to Ins feet as soon
as the hour was up,
6:57 pan,: She sprung up with the ring of the doorbell
Three minutes earlv!
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Ml
Back home after the lesson, I found the Blue Mistress sail
there. What’s more, she had put in place a number of the boxes
that had been waiting to be opened since the day I moved in
and had also straightened the place up. However, she told me
she would soon leave to go cook for the olive oil merchant. I
refrained from delving into that story — it being no new s to me
that things were not going well between them lately
'Tell nu\ she cooed. What sort of food do you want?’
‘Pasta; l grumbled. Despite her initial frown, she tound the
idea practical. As 1 boiled the pasta, she set out to prepare a
tomato and thyme sauce with the limited ingredients in the
house, I guess that is why she loves me. Unlike the other men
in her life. I demand from her far less than what she is willing
to give. In return, 1 receive far more than what I had demanded
initially.
The doorbell rang just when we had sat down at the table
Su was such an odd little girl. With her book in her hand, there
she was, telling me 1 had forgotten to give her homework tor
the weekend. The Blue Mistress invited her to rhe cable She
did not want to come. While they talked, I chose a number of
exercises way above her level. If ruining her weekend with
extra homework is what she pines lor, so be it.
’Well, it turns out I am not the only neighbour to have
fallen for chat handsome face of yours. Mister,1 snorted the Blue
Mistress when we were able to sit dow n again to eat
‘Don’t talk nonsense, she’s just a child.'
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“So what? C lift children tall iti love? I swear to (iod, 1 know
1 could when i was about that age. Weren’t you in love with
anyone as a child?’
It suddenly felt so awkward The Blue Mistress talked about
her childhood as if referring to a distant past whereas she must
he at most ten to twelve years past it.Come to think of n. there
WM only eleven years between Su and the Blue Mistress*
‘You didn’t answer! Have you ever been in love as a child or
not?* she insisted, apparently annoyed with my silence,
I indeed had, except that it had never been a memory worth
recording. There was a flighty, freckled, loud'mouthed girl I
went to school with, 1 recall being attracted to her,To this day
] have never met someone so naturally inclined to theft. All
that mattered was that an item belonged to someone else, there
was nothing on earth she would not enjoy stealing: fruit from
the neighbouring gardens, slippers from the thresholds of
homely homes, pencils and erasers of classmates.,.she would
embezzle them all and share her loot with me each time...
Every now and then she lurched into the foul smelling store
of a hideous, glue-addicted shoe repairman we passed by on
our way to school While 1 chatted up the man, she would fill
her pockets with handfuls of nails and soles. God knows why,
we would then hammer these onto all the fences, benches,
cases or doors we came across, After all we shared, however, my
beloved played dirty for no good reason and ratted to my
parents. My father was barely shaken upon receiving the news
of his sons thefts but with my mother it was a completely
different story. She blew her top, exaggerating her parental
punishment out of proportion. Ten days later, however, tny
father died, thereby erasing off my mothers agenda the scandal
of mv offence forever,
Jr
'What was her name?’ asked the Blue Mistress, shaking the
salt-mill for the umpteenth time, as if determined to find
its bottom.
Hard as I tried, l couldn’t remember her name - just as I
can’t remember what the majority of my childhood friends
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Are you upset about something Su?‘
I m fine, Su grunted a jagged response* constantly
squeezing the English exercise book she had rolled up.
Why don't I make us a nice cup of coffee with milk and
you go choose mo coffee cups from the glass cupboard honey*'
Madam Auntie said, trying not to tret over the child’s
bitterness. Despite having solemnly pledged to herself to send
the girl awav with an appropriate excuse if and when she
appeared at her door again, seeing her in such a sullen state
today, she had not been able to keep her word.
Su heaved a pompous sigh as she followed the old woman
inside. In this warm weather coffee with nulk was the last
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"Keep walking/the Daughter-in-Law bellowed/Keep walking
or 111 break your legs!"
Upon hearing these words, the two children tugged along
by their hands started to cry even harder The seven and 4 half
year old walked behind languidly, tranquilly. Though he had
indeed had lots ot fun today, it had been a rather awful time
for his mo in. Probably as a result of the other box office
worker complaining, the big boss who usually showed up once
in a blue moon had appeared at the movie theatre around
noon. 'Do you think we run a daycare centre here?' he
growled, scowling at the five and a half and six and a half year
olds who were standing in the corner, mouths agape at the
huge Aladdin and the big-bellied genie sitting cross-legged on
the 1 x 2 metre cardboard carpet hanging from the ceiling to
promote the film. Both had been crying non-stop from that
moment on.
‘If you could only manage tor a couple ot days. I'm sure iTll
sure find a solution by then/the Daughter-in-Law- had pleaded
crestfallen, though she knew only too well boss unlikely that
would he.
As they approached Bonbon Palace* the kids' crying
dwindled and their bawl transformed finally into a barely
audible buzz but as soon as they plunged through the door of
Plat 5, like a watch with its spring loose, both ran screaming to
their grandfathers lap.At that moment. Hadji Hadji was having
.1 little snooze on the divan with one ot his four books slipping
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3*1
You have so much stuff in here Madam Auntie?!' exclaimed
Su, bobbing her bead in escalating amazement.
When the old woman had caught up with her, the child had
already reached the end of the hall; reached it and seen inside
the three rooms opening up to the hallway.
it isn't all mine.'
‘Really,T then whose is it?1
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than their flat. Never mind their flat, it was much bigger than
all the other flats in this apartment building, even larger than all
the flats she had hitherto seen put together! In tact, it seemed
that Number 10 was not a flat at all, but a convoluted
contraption with heaps of different pieces and hundreds of
different buttons. If even one piece pulled out, the whole
structure would break down and become inoperable.
There were ballpoint pens everywhere...and burnt-out
bulbs, used up batteries, torn tulles, burst balloons, expired
medicine, used clothing, buttons with no two looking alike,
stickers that had lost their adhesive, empty cartridges, lighters
without gas, glasses with broken lenses, jar-lids of all sizes,
money no longer in circulation, torn pieces of cloth, cracked
trinkets, photographs turned yellow, pictures with no frames
left, torn tassels, tattered wigs, keys that had lost their key
chains, mugs with broken handles, baby bottles without the
nipples, threadbare lampshades, worn out books, boxes of all
sizes (some plastic, others wood), lustreless mother-of-pearl,
cardboard, empty tndk bottles, candied apple sucks, ice-cream
sticks, food bowk, dolls with missing heads or limbs, umbrellas
with wires sticking out, strainers turned black, doorbells that
even themselves could not recall which doors they used to
make ring, pantyhose with runs stopped by nail polish,
wrapping paper, door knobs, broken household items, tilled
out notebooks, journals turned yellow, empty perfume bottles,
single odd shoes, shattered remote-controls, rusty metals* stale
candy, rings with missing stones, macrame flower-holders, shoe
liners, rubber bands, bird cages, typewriters with missing
letters, mildewed tea m tin boxes, tobacco parcels, bracelets of
all colours, barrettes each more beautiful than the other,
binocular lenses.,, As Su looked around in bew ilderment, her
eyes caught a large fishing net hanging over a pile of objects,
'The sea brought that,1 Madame Auntie said, her voice lilting
with pride,
'You said the sea brought it?’
‘The sea becomes so generous when the loiios blows hard.
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pot bad long boiled over and spread everywhere over the oven,
putting out the gas tire
Once they had cleaned the oven and moved back to the
living room, Su took another look into the still ajar hallw.iv
door, exclaiming at full blast. ‘Heavens dubetsyV - ‘heavens
dubetsy' being in fashion in their circles these day* instead of
'crappy'. Perching on the nearest armchair, she started to swing
her scrawny legs,‘This is the Castle of Garbage. If only the boys
save this, they’d be thrilled.’
'But the boys shouldn't know about this place! No one
should...* the old woman stammered as she handed the child
the coffee with milk She then offered white chocolate from
the crystal candy bowl on the coffee table. Su threw one into
her mouth without thinking only to tense up right away. What
if this chocolate had been dug out of the garbage as well? Su
gaped fretfully at the old woman as if the answer was written
somewhere on her forehead. Vet, before the chocolate melted
in her mouth, a new question struck her mind.
Madam Auntie,' she hooted, her voice instantly,
inadvertently dwindling into a whisper. ‘Is this why Bonbon
Palace smells so had2’
3#$
"Hey, what's the matter with you? Did the cat get your
tongue?1 asked the blonde with one eve cast, there yet again to
have her hair dyed, never persuaded that she need not have this
done so often.
Cental paid no heed to the womanV teasing, preferring
instead to fullv focus on the strand of her hair he was about to
highlight, I hough determined not to respond to his customers,
be now the pressure of each word squelched on the tip of his
tongue had so much inflated that in an urge to speak, he turned
around and yelled at the pimpled apprentice for no reason.
Being wound-up in front of all these women the apprentice,
who was already hapless enough to have to spend this delicate
pubescent stage of his life working in a womans beauty parlour,
blushed crimson. As soon as die gaze he averted from everyone
accidentally met the Blue Mistress’s, he blushed even more,
turning a darker hue. He didn’t know- it, but when he flashed
this particular shade of red his pimples almost disappeared,
‘What’s wrong with Cental?" whispered the Blue Mistress to
the manicurist next to her, She had never had a manicure
before, but today was no ordinary day as, after a lengthy hiatus,
she was going to meet the olive oil merchant again. He had
sent a text message to her mobile phone in the afternoon
saying he wanted to stop by and have a heart-to-heart. Not
that the man had any special interest in manicured hands; it the
truth be told, it was doubtful whether he would even be able
to tell the difference, but as she sat there with one hand
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Ac first I thought the kid was lying* Children make things up.
[ checked my watch. It had been fifteen minutes since the end
of the lesson We had been whispering since then, fust as I was
about to leave, she said, "Sir, I need to tell you something/
Hygiene Tijen, Meryem and Fsma Hamm were all in the next
room busily putting up the curtains they had just washed*
From the way they were talking, one could tell that Esma
Hamm was up somewhere high, probably on top of the ladder,
and Hygiene Tijen was holding her steady from down below;
Meryem seemed to be the one giving out instructions* As for
us, we talked in wary whispers so as not to be heard.
M swear to God I'm telling the truth / Su groaned, miffed at
my Jack of faith.
1 feigned being convinced but this time it was her turn to
doubt, She wanted me to give my word that I would never
ever Jet shp the secret she had entrusted me with. My word
must not have been enough for she then made me repeatedly
swear an oath — first on my honour and after that, one by one
and name by name, on all my loved ones, fust so that the angst
in her big black eyes would abate, I obeyed her every demand.
Yet it was as if far from comforting her, eadi of my promises
rendered her even more anxious. At one point, she went inside
swishing around on her slippers and came back earning a
miniature Qur’an with an emerald green cover, the ty pe that
people carry in their wallets and handbags Just so she could be
soothed, I swore with the Qur’an in mv palm When I finished.
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realizing chert was nothing else left to do except crust me, die
breathed out a final sigh. Demanding as she is, how could 1
become annoyed by her demands? Love makes all and sundry
miserable, even a child,
‘Come on, lets pul an end to this topic,* l said.‘Don’t worry.
My lips are sealed. I won't tell anyone.'
Seeing her smile cheered me up. df I do tell your secret to
anyone, let God turn me Into an ass!*
‘Not an ass, not an ass!* she objected m a voice that sounded
hke a chirp,
'What should I be then?'
By now she had shrugged off all her anxieties and regained
that galling glee of hers. She walked around me talking
pedantically, listing all the repulsive creatures she knew, in order
to find the worst beast ever on the tace ot the earth. Owls were
macabre but not sufficiently wretched; rats were dirry but not
gross enough. Cockroaches were nauseating, spiders
bloodcurdling, alligators chilling, jellyfish odious, scorpions
poisonous, wasps dangerous. Pigs scrabbled in dirt, vultures fed
on carrion, bears could devour their ow n offspring, hats sucked
blood. Sea urchins pricked, frogs gave us warts, centipedes
snuck into our ears,The worm that emerged from the soil after
a rain, the caterpillar that writhed in lettuce, the grasshopper
gobbling up the field, the lizard running away leaving behind
its tail, the fiv not giving anyone peace, the mosquito sucking
blood ..all had an unpleasant side to them but none were
malicious enough. Even the leech, which looked more
disgusting than all of them put together, could be of use to
humans and was thus disqualified. What she searched for was
something much worse than all of these creatures; something
that was ot no use either to itselt or to others, something
incompatible with any kind of benevolence, whose existence
was apparently without any real purpose and one
comparatively worse than all those absolutely useless but just as
harmless creatures God had created with leftover day. Such
was the sort of creature she needed to scare me with turning
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‘NooqooT
*Let me be a piranha,' 1 rattled, opening my mouth wide,
‘Come on, 110000!'
i cant get you to like anvhmg,' 1 pretended to be
disgruntled,
I guess until that moment, I was having fun, but all of a
sudden an abstruse distress descended upon me. 1 put on my
watch. This preposterous game had gone on too long and l
don't know why but it had started to get on my nerves,Just as
I was thinking about leaving/1 found it, 1 found it,’she cackled
her voice hiring with delight, ‘1 here was no need to search
after all!'
‘YouVe now going to repeat after me, ok?" she asked, so
easily and swiftly shifting from the formal speech form we
normallyff used to a tar more casual one, l nodded meekly She r
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m
*1 told you not to give up hope in God, Loretta. My daughter,
you should be grateful now that you have recovered your
memory.You so much deserve to he happy,' cooed the nurse to
the woman who was about to be discharged.
‘Its so strange/ the other one smiled, opening wide the
green eyes which she had made more dramatic with loads of
even greener eye shadow/What I most desired thus lar was to
remember my past, but now ! want to escape from it. I'm
going to start a new life nurse, and will never leave you from
now on.'
‘See? Loretta will never leave us from now on; snorted
HisWifeNadia to the bug struggling in the empty jelly jar she
kept rotating in her palms. ‘Unlike you, BhrteUa Germanic*f you
were going to abandon ust weren’t you?'
Toward the end oflast the century, on a dreary, hazy day in
the middle of a dirty; muddy street, a scientist excitedly
reported witnessing the en masse migration of a cockroach
breed named Biatclla Gerrnanka. Of the migrating Hock almost
all were female and w hen Dr, Howard encountered them, they
were in the process of leaving the restaurant they used to reside
in, getting ready to cross the street. The migration of the bugs
took approximately three hours* at which point they reached
the place they would hereafter dwell in. When Dr. Howard
started to question why these cockroaches had left the
restaurant in the first place, he could not come up with a
satisfactory answer. As much as one could observe, nothing
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3MS
As I was heating up the leftover pasta from the day before, the
doorbell rang piercingly and persistently. I opened the door. I
had never teen her like this.
“I sure deserved this,' she moaned. Swollen bags as red as raw
meat had gathered under her eyes; the gleam of her young face
had vanished along with the brilliance of her eyes and the
histre of her skin. The sides of her nose were so irritated from
the constant wiping that they were peeling off. This was a
strange face and since the Blue Mistress existed and subsisted
with and within her face, she too was .1 strange woman now
Still waiting for the pasta to heat up* 1 held out my raki to her
She refused to sip from my drink but waited patiently for me
to sw ig half a glass before starting to speak.
*He was going to come tonight,’ she sighed,/having sent me
a message on the mobile phone. 1 made pureed eggplants I was
actually going to prepare chicken with ground walnuts but
didn’t feel like it this time, J guess 1 was a bit offended.You know
he hadn't stopped by for ten days. That’s why 1 prepared the
pureed eggplants. He likes that dish too* but not as much as the
chicken with ground walnuts. All day long. 1 grilled eggplants.'
Stern as l stared at her. she did not even notice howf
uninterested I was in all these details. Hurrying full blast, as if
someone might any minute declare her time svas up* she sliced
to shreds dozens of details each more meaningless ihan the
one before and piled them all up in front of me. 1 did not
intervene anymore.
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grow long tike a girl*The kid went around like a girl until he
started school* in order to trick Azmet.'
I am curious, do women have special machinery or
something chemical m their brains that prevents them from
expressing themselves straight out. So many details, so many
introductory statements, so many stones whirling circles
within circles that never get to the point... f refreshed my rakt
but found no soda left on the empty shelves of my huge
refrigerator. 1 needed to go out and get some.
Anyway, the kid survived but he was then constantly
beaten-up at school.Yet, Meryem said recently he had changed
so much I hat fainthearted boy was replaced by someone
utterly different and is no longer beaten up by his (fiends. Its
like a miracle.1
[ wondered whether the Islamist grocer across the street had
dosed yet. Though he did not sell gin, he carried tonic.
Though he did not sell liquor, he stocked chocolate with
liquor. In a similar vein, he does not sell mki but indeed sells
soda to mix with raki.
4We were talking about how at could be possible for this
child to change so drastically. Menem then confided to me
that she had made a vow to the saint. Which saint?' 1 asked.
Don't ask!'she replied puzzlingly,Tf you have a long awaiting
wish, you too should go for it. If it ever conies true, only then
will 1 tell you which saint 1 visited." So she asked me for a clean
scarf, I wrote my wish inside, then folded it up like a Hidrelicz
request and gave it to her.’
[ gave up By the time this story was over, the Islamist grocer
would have long closed the store and gone home, (oven my
preferences, I decided to make do with water.
'She said, ‘If your wish comes true, so much the better. It
would be my gift to you.You gave me so many banana liquors.
If it doesn't come true, no one will know. All we would have
done is try1 That's what she said. Well, maybe that's not exactly
what she said but it was something like that, I can't remember
right now.'
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The rah tinted awful! That damn drink is no good with water.
4So I folded it like a Htdrellez letter, as she’d instructed me.
‘ Let me be treed of this state!’ 1 wrote. Or perhaps 1 wrote/Let
me be freed of this man!1,.. If I could only remember!
Everything got mixed up. What did 1 w rite? God, what did the
saint understand? The man is dying there because of me.’
What I had just heard was so enor mously, astoundingly and
fantastically ridiculous. I could hoe even consider it likely that
she could really have believed this claptrap. Even if she did, I
couldn't place much significance on the pam she would sutler
because ot it. After all. that is how things are. In order tor us to
truly share a person's pam. they first have to share the same
reality with us. When we calm down a child who is crying
because a part of her rickety tov is broken; when we swear to
the anorexic who looks skeletal but stall imagines herself obese
that she really is not a fatso; when we put up with the absurd
talk of our best buddy, mad ac life having been cheated on by
a worthless woman he s only been with for a total of two
weeks; when we strive to distract until the arrival of his
psychiatrist the mentally ill man who suspects his soul has been
stolen by a pigeon and thereby chases ail the pigeons out in the
square to search inside the beaks of each and every one; in ;
of these cases we stand by these people but look at their pam
from wav yonder. The child shedding tears tor such a simple
thing, the anorexic who camps so tar away from reality, the
miserable buddy who cannot see it is not worth getting upset
by such a worthless woman, the nut incapable of
comprehending chat the poor pigeons flock around real
concrete for wheat kernels instead of intangible elusive souls;
all might plausibly expect from us some degree of attention
.md compassion, soothing or solidarity, fhey’ll most likely get
it too. We could indeed fulfill the role of comforter without
much hesitation. Upon seeing how they talk nonsense because
of their suffering and how they suffer because of their
nonsensical talk, the chances are we might even led
emotionally close to them deep down...but that is the very
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Following the lecture, Ethel came to pick me up in a honcy-
coloured CCherokee. We left my car at the faculty parking lot
and continued on our way m this new toy of hers. She did not
seem in the mood for chatting at first but then, as we got stuck
m the traffic jam her tongue loosened, 1 would have rather she
had just paid attention to the traffic. Her driving gets worse by
the day. As she started to chatter about the last phase they' had
reached in the university project, I noticed she had lost her
initial enthusiasm. Either this business is going totally down the
tubes or Ethel has decided to part ways with it, I refrained from
asking which. She will eventually, if not today; tomorrow,
report to me everything anyhow.
Hey; tell me, how are things going at the apartment
building of the wacky?' was the first thing she said when, after
struggling in traffic for fifty minutes, we had finally reached
our reserved table at the restaurant;just as I wanted, all the way
down, by the window.,, I chose to turn my back and Ethel
her face to other diners. She apparently wants to keep an eye
on other people. What do I care?
‘Don’t ask! Bugs all over the place/
‘So bugs too are coining for entertainment. What a blessed
bastard you are! You’ve ended up dwelling in a most hilarious
place. Rather than an apartment building it resembles an
insane asylum/
’I knowf its bard for you but try not to exaggerate/ I
gtoaned/God knows, the apartment building 1 formerly lived
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plate. Not that I ant one of those people who constantly cause
trouble at restaurants, shouting reprimands left and right, hut I
do hate to have my plate changed without my asking for it
Waiters generally do not want to even consider this as a
possibility but there are people in this city who relish the
pleasure of munching on their leftovers. I cannot stand seeing
the remains of my food being instantly removed as if it wen-
something disgraceful. I fit were up to me, I would not part
with my plate until the very moment I leave the table. I could
mix the remnants of the cold appetizers with the hot ones and
keep nibbling for a whole night. Not only do I not feel the
slightest discomfort at having the fruit slices smeared with the
oil, sauce, salt and spice of the hot appetizers, 1 sometimes sit
down and make sweet and sour compositions with these. If 1
like this final fusion, 1 cat it: if 1 do not, 1 rum it. Ethd knows
this habit of mine. She does not meddle. The waiters do not
know it. They' meddle.
‘Please excuse him. Its just that hes going through a tough
phase, just got divorced from his wife,1 croaked Ethel to the
waiter now standing beside me with a scratched white plate
utterly unable to comprehend why he had been snapped at.
The man intuited the mockerv in these words and curled his
£
pale lips into a smile, but at the same moment he must have
felt the need to be cautious just m case, for he suppressed his
lip movement, thereby lingering behind me with a face like a
mask; one half smiling, the other half sad.
"Please, go ahead, you can change my plate. Vm perfectly
normal,' Ethel smirked. The waiter, defeated by this proposal to
share a confidence, grinned with her while removing the duty
plate in front of her.
"If you ask me, the guy is a total pushover.' Ethel said
shrugging, when we were once again left alone. It took me an
additional minute to fathom it was not the waiter she was
talking about but Ay shins husband-to-be. 'He's a well-
in ten noned pushover — meek and almost gullible - but a
pushover nonetheless. Docile, compliant, and of course,
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FIAT SUM BE R SF V F N
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The first garbage trucks and garbage company in Istanbul
started work in !H68. Before them, the same job was
incumbent upon the Guild of Seekers working under the
control of the litter Superintendent, Just like todays garbage
men, the seekers of old times were in charge of getting nd -
even if only partially - of what the in habitants of Istanbul
wanted to get rid of entirely* eternally. However* when the
issue came to how they did so, there was a grinding difference
between the contemporary garbage men and their
predecessors. The foremost purpose of the Guild of Seekers in
gathering what was to be thrown away was to find among the
gathered what should be saved from being thrown away. Before
they discarded the waste, muck and debris they had collected
into dumps, they would carry7 it all to the seashore m their
haversacks and there they would sort, rinse and rummage
through this pile over and over. There were rimes w hen they
encountered copper plates, steel rods, nails that could be re¬
used, clothes not yet threadbare, nan-oxidized silver or gifts
that had been unappreciated If lucky enough, they could even
hit upon lost jewellery.
The Guild of Seekers visited the sites of fire frequently.
Whenever a house turned into ashes in Istanbul* the city of
tires, they carried away the wreckage. Just like from the
garbage, from the ashes too, they collected items. 1 he seekers
would gather to sift through, Yet the garbage men collected to
throw away. For the city to modernize the order of things had
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In spue of steeping only m dribs and drabs,! woke up early this
morning. As I tucked the hair stuck on her sweaty forehead
behind her ear, the Blue Mistress stirred slightly. I let her sleep.
Lighting a cigarette I headed to the kitchen. She had crammed
the refrigerator with food, as usual. All of the things the olive
merchant would have liked- In our happier days with Ay shin, 1
had become used to getting up late during the weekends to
have lengthy, lazy breakfasts. Now she is probably breaking that
old badger in to her own rhythm. If the man is as Ethel
describes, I have to meet him, Not that I expect to change
anything, hut I still want him to see me. I could trigger the fuse
of the inferiority complex in him. I may even succeed in
embedding in his mind the tiniest louse of suspicion. Let hint
then struggle with sitting through the sourness of the
possibility that the woman he is about to marry might go back
to her old husband one day.
1 must have awakened the Blue Mistress with my clatter. As
she stood by the kitchen door wrapped up in her speckled
shawl, she looked much better than the night before even
though her face was still pale and her eyes miserably baggy
‘I hope you are not blaming yourself anymore.’ I said, as I
tilled up her teacup.
She does..,and I blame her too... I blame her and everyone
who acts as if they are the god of their squat universe. There is
no way I can comprehend those who first pray with all their
heart that harm be given to someone they cannot reach
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otherwise and then, when fortuitously then wishes happen to
come true* simply breakdown in guilt and shame. I cannot
stand those who, on the one side, delegate all the problems
they cannot handle and don't even lift a Unger to resolve, to
some ochcrwurldlmess purportedly purified of all evil and* on
the other side* yearn for receiving a slice ot otherworldly evil
to purify their most mundane problems. It enrages me to see
what people are capable of doing to themselves when they' fail
to distingueh their limits. Not because they overestimate
themselves way too much but because they' underestimate
evil way too much. I he world is full of people who watch
trom alar lor a chance to hurt someone and, when by chance
that happens, do not hold Fortuna responsible but the
thoughts and wishes that had once crossed their minds. 1 did
not want the Blue Mistress to join their ranks I did not want
to lose her in this way and instead hoped to spare this lovely
naive crearure w ho believed that this God of" hers w ho created
the universe by pronouncing1 BET could likew ise destroy w ith
the pronouncement of ‘DIE! * So I decided to explain w hat 1
had done.
‘Will you please get this saints tale out of your mind?
There’s no truth to it,' I said, as I \hd onto her plate half of the
best omelet I had made in a long while. "The holv saint
Meryem talked to you about most likely emerged from the
writing on the garden wall but it was l w ho wTote that.'
If I could only have grasped w hat she was thinking right at
that instant. If I could only be sure that I was doing the right
thing by disclosing this.
Look, I'm sorrv about the olive oil merchant — and don t
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use-you-wan-ted-to-get-nd-ofehim-but-he-ca-use-he-had-a-
he-an-at-tack
There it was again. Her looks became cast in shadow. Once
again in my life, 1 witnessed that dusky phase wherein f started
to awaken hatred in a woman whose loving eyes l had been
accustomed to.
‘Basically my sweet, it you are going to blame yourself for
every calamity and keep slicing up your bods; there is no way
[ can stop you, but if you intend to give this habit up. I'll do
everything to help. Now, if you’ll see me not as vour enemy
but as your friend, let s sit down together and talk about what's
going to happen from now on. After all your life won t be like
it used to be. But maybe, why not, it can be more beautiful.’
lWhy did you lie?' she maundered.
If you mean the saint business, I don’t consider myself as
having lied-The only thing I wanted was to get the apartment
building rid of this awful smell. I just wanted to make those
who dump their garbage here feel uncomfortable. It didn't
even cross my mind that anyone would take that silly writing
seriously,'
Her face clouded up, as she once again got immersed in .1
thorny silence, 1 made a last effort to win her heart.
‘The truth is, if the smell had indeed been coming from the
outside, niy writing might have helped to overcome tins
problem but we d been suspecting the source of the smell to
be in the wrong place all this time- It turns out the smell was
coming from the inside, from within Bonbon Palace ’
It worked. Now she was looking at me with less hatred and
more interest, I shovelled the breakfast plate toward her, Seeing
her take the fork into her hand I felt a childish joy. She was
going to taste the omelet l had made. She was going to make
love to me again.
Tm announcing our Garbage Commander. Hold onto your
seat!' I rasped.The thrill dribbling from my voice disturbed me
for a fleeting moment but I did not mind.'Flat Number 10!
Our respected neighbour, the widow
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"Lets throw a big p-tm, nurse. Let's invite everyone, even our
enemies*' hollered Loretta, as she slid at the clinic door away
from the arms of the faithful elderly woman crying tears of joy.
Standing by her was the husband-physician who had been
struggling lor so long to treat her. so that she could remember
being married to him. Before they got into the ear that was
waiting for them, they turned around and waved
simultaneously to the continuously crying wet nurse and the
continuously smiling clinic personnel.
HisWifeNadia turned off the FV. I hen. inspecting rhe
contents of the smelly, amber suitcase for the last time, pulled
rhe zipper shut The shadow puppets looked at her offended
from the corner in which they had been thrown. She could
easily have picked up another suitcase, but for some reason
unknown to her, she wanted to take this one in particular.
HisWifeNadia was leaving. The State of Dormancy had ended.
Just like bugs, humans too, have an ecological potency, that
is, an endurance limit. When and where they run into negative
circumstances, they react by limiting their life functions,Their
bodily mechanisms thus function less or perhaps differently
and. thanks to this ability, they adjust their metabolisms to the
new conditions they are subjected to. Within the circle oi life,
such a state of consecutive dormancy could emerge ar any
time, at any phase, and could be repeated many times over
Certain ty pes of bugs, for instance, survive through winter bv
going through different stages of larvae as an egg. The>
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On Wednesday May 1st 2fNl2t at 12:20 p.m., a white van - in
need of a wash and decorated with the picture of a huge rat
with needle-sharp teeth on one side, a hair)' humongous
spider on the other and signs of various sues all over it -
stopped in front of Bonbon Palace, The ginger haired, funny-
faced, flap-eared driver who did not at all look his age was
named Injustice Puieturk. He had been fumigating bugs for
thirty-three years and had never hated his job as much as he
did today As he parked close to the sidewalk, he suspiciously
eyed the gathering at the entrance of the apartment building.
He checked the address his chatterbox of a secretary had
handed him in the morning: ‘Cabal Street. Number
(Bonbon Palace}.'The chatterbox secretary had also put down
a small note below:‘The apartment building with a rose acacia
tree in the garden/ As Injustice Pureturk wiped off the sweat
beads covering his forehead, he inspected the tree in the
garden with pinkish flowers on some branches and purplish
ones on others This must be, he thought, what they called a
rose acacia.
Still, since he did not trust his secretary, whom he planned
to replace as soon as possible, he wanted to see personally \\ hat
was written on the door with his near-sighted eyes. He could
easily have asked the people gathered in front of the apartment
building but having become so terribly, immovably used to
taking care of his own business and as he never trusted others,
he left the van askew in the middle of the street and jumped
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That day, other than the van driven by Injustice Pureturk, two
other trucks turned up in front of Bonbon Palace as well the
car of a private television channel. They left Bonbon Palace at
the end of the day, the trucks jammed with garbage and the
vehicle of the television channel with all the shots it
required. Rather than the neighbours who were eager to be
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interviewed, the anchorman had wanted to interview the
woman Living in the garbage house, hut once her apartment
had been emptied out and fumigated she had sealed the door
of Flat Number HI, refusing to open it to anyone.
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Zelish hiremturedsom panted as die dosed herself up in her
room and hurled her little suitcase onto her bed. As she tried
to regain her balance by holding onto the side of the bed. she
waited for her heartbeat to return to normal. She had chosen
the wrong day to run away from home. As soon as she had
stepped out to the street, she had found herself in the middle
ot an insane mayhem with two bright red trucks approaching
from either direction. It was unbearably red out there in the
outside world. Amongst all the colours, the streets of Istanbul
were closest to red.
‘Whv am I so disconsolate? I should have known I'll never
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No matter how hard 1 try not to, 1 recurrently recall
everything we talked about that day, As to what happened
afterward, Vd rather entirely erase it from my memory or at
least only rarely, vaguely remember. However, Su's curse
seems to be working. Even if my body didn't, my memory
did turn into a louse. Like a fleshy louse wedged tightly onto
my head, my memory has become menacing, procreating
every passing day. In my mind’s eye 1 see my memory
wandering around my head, sometimes on top of it, inside it
at other times, making squeaky sounds as it lays its invisibly
small, innumerably many, white eggs all around. Out of these
eggs thousands of damned and unabashed hungry mouths
come out, feeding on me, in spite of me. In tandem with
their number, their appetite also escalates. Voraciously they
bite through my flesh, numbing my head from pain as if
thousands of pins have been stuck on it. 1 do not mention this
to anyone. As I can no longer stand the person I am when
with others, I trv to stay alone as much as.possible and seek
out the answers to the same unanswerable questions.
If I had not written that nonsensical writing on the garden
wall and had nor babbled away, if I had used the intellect which
1 prided myself on so much and so unreservedly to fathom the
consequences of my act, to foresee the damage I was about to
cause to another person, would alt this still have happened? If
I had never moved into Bonbon Palace and had not mixed
with these people or learned their secrets, it I had succeeded
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The boyar and his lover on rhe wooden ladder leaning against
the wall fretfully snuggled closer The house smelt ot death.
They no longer dared to breathe. Averting their eyes from one
another they stared at the halt-emerald, half-obscure torest
extending languorously yonder.
When the door was broken, men with masks fully dad m
white dished inside. They placed the stinking corpse on a
stretcher and carried it away The old widow's corpse was so
light, so petite,., the residue of a body that had refused for days
to eat-to drink-to take its pills. Madam Auntie had not been
halt as resistant to thirst and hunger as cockroaches.
As soon as the men departed, the ilat was fumigated once
again. The insecticide spray drizzled on the eggs of the bugs,
as well as on the one hundred and eighty-one objects from
the past, but fortuitously the boyar and his lover managed to
escape at the last minute. They' went down the ladder,
ploughed into the woods and walked out of the round, glazed,
delicate tray ofVishmakov.
m
42h
Back in his house, Sidar threw himself on the couch, gasping
hard. He had been brooding on suicide for so long, hue that old
widow who in all likelihood had never contemplated it as
much, perhaps not even considered it until the last moment,
had committed it much faster. When he got up, he wrote on
small pieces or paper the nine factors he had deduced that day
and stuck them on whatever empty spot could be found on
the ceiling:
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absurdity, it made sense to them. It did not at all stick out that
bo til Ethel and I were too old to be students In their eyes
somehow school was deemed untouchable a place where
every absurdity was considered permissible.
Finding the people who had written these things proved to
be more arduous than finding the writings themselves. We had
to accept the fact that nearly all the writings were anonymous,
but l did once manage to find out the perpetrator behind the
writing on the wall of a dilapidated, soot grey edifice.‘Don’t
make me swer, I'll sav bad things to garbage trowerx. He who
trows plaster here, come and get it, don’t trow agen and make
me swer.4
I he children of the street knew the man who had written
it. Though nobody knew his name, they knew Ins profession
He was a gatekeeper it one of the universities who had resided
there with his bedridden wife and mother-in-law until last
spring. While the adjacent construction continued, he was so
infuriated at the construction workers dumping plaster in front
of his house that he had gone out and written that, The man
had passed away in the tall, the construction had ended right
afterwards, but the writing on the wall had stayed all this time.
'Can't you dress more modestly seeing as we create a centre
of attention wherever we go anyhow?’ I grumbled at Ethel
after we left the neighbourhood of the gatekeeper
'Don't pick on me. Out subject matter is not my clothing
but your guilty conscienceshe snapped as she changed gears.
'This mess we are in is vour 4TAGHHO\ not mine/ She
pushed on the gas pedal though the road was getting rougher,
narrower ahead/We hit the road for the “Project to Acquit the
Gentlemans Heedlessly Hardened Conscience "! All your life
you saw yourself as different from, if not superior to everyone
around you, but the moment you realize you've messed up the
whole lot, you need to prove to yourself that, after all, you are
like everyone else! Only that conviction can ease your guilt.
You seem to hope that the more we go around collecting
garbage writing, the more uncontestable your innocence will
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two signs back to back, one written for the students inside and
the other addressing the passers-by outside: “PLEASE LX>
NOT THROW GARBAGE INTO OUR SCHOOL
GAR HEN FROM THE OUTSIDE “There was a similar sign
on the wooden boards surrounding the construction at the
entrance to Asmahmestit, this tune half-Turkish, half-English:
DUMPING GARBAGE IS STRICTLY PROHIBITED,
PLEASE!" Once again, at Good Fortune Street:"WHOEVER
LOVES GOD SHOULD NOT DUMP GARBAGE HERE
IT IS KINDLY REQUESTED"
Among the garbage writings, ‘prohibited* was the most
frequent word. On the walls surrounding the Walladnan
Palace, engraved with big letters, was: "IT IS VERY
PROHIBITED TO THROW GARBAGE" Likewise, on the
side wall of a famous tailor in Harbiye, the writing was short
and ro the point: “GARBAGE HERE FORBIDDEN " The
word absolutely* was just as widespread. On the humungous
wall of the SSK Okmeydam Education Hospital Polyclinics,
highly visible from down the street was: "DUMPING
GARBAGE IS ABSOLUTELY PROHIBITED!" and a few
steps away from it: "TO DUMP GARBAGE DEBRIS
FORBIDDEN UNCONDITIONALLY."
There was almost never a name given under any of the
writing. They remained absolutely anonymous. Still, now and
then we bumped into some exceptions. In those situations
where the need to invest the writings with sonic sort of
authority was crystal clear, the name of the head of the
neighbourhood wras encountered the most. On the
Mesnevihane Street it was written: "IT IS REQUESTED
THAT NO GARBAGE BE DUMPED, OTHERWISE A
FINE WILL BE APPLIED!/THE NEIGHBOURHOOD
HEAD." Municipalities also got involved m the busmess:"THE
MUNICIPALITY WILL UNDERTAKE PENALTY
PROCEDURES CONCERNING THOSE DUMPING
GARBAGE HERE" Sometimes the inhabitants of the
neighbourhood owned up to the writing, as seen in Zeyrek:
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'What are you going to do with so many photographs**
frowned the Blue Mistress, discontentedly scanning my flat,
which increasingly resembled a depot more than a house.
‘What purpose will they serve?’
"I do not accumulate them to serve a purpose*
‘Why on earth are you doing this?' she insisted
1 do not have the impression of doing anything, I guess in
the last analysis* all my actions are determined more by not
doing than by my doing; lack of action rather than action, I
cannot help searching: when 1 search, I find, what 1 find I
collect, what I collect l accumulate and what 1 accumulate 1
cannot bear to throw away.
‘What is going to happen next?’ asked the Blue Mistress
adamantly.
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WHAT IS GOING TO HAPPEN NEXT?" asked my
cellmate adamantly.
'There is no next. The guy just accumulates garbage
writings that will never be of any use to him,'
"Nonsense!' said my cellmate. 1 wasn't offended. After all,
that is the coarsest way ever invented of saying 'You have a
fanciful mind!'and he might be right,Whenever I get anxious
and mess up what I have to say, am scared of people’s stares and
pretend not to be so, introduce myself to strangers and feign
ignorance about how estranged I am from myself, feel hurt bv
the past and find it hard to admit the future won’t be any better
or fail to come to terms with either where or who I am; at am #
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Ever vincc 1 time here, 1 have not spent j single day without
thinking of Injustice Pureturk. Its .ill because of these bugs. I
happen to be a radical with a deep fear of insects Unfortunately
there are too many of them here, especially cockroaches 1 hear
them in the toilets, air vents and even the dents and crevices in
the walls. They keep scurrying around and encouraged by
darkness, incessantly multiply,,,but 1 can assure you that the
louse is the very worst,..
No doubt, in order to observe all of these creatures better,
you should come visit me and spend some time here. If you
have no time, however, you ought to be content with my
version of the story. Yet I too, ultimately speak only in my own
voice. Not that I'll foist my own views onto what transpires
but I might, here and there, solder the horizontal line of truth
to the vertical line of deception in order to escape the
wearisome humdrum reality of where 1 am anchored right
now. After all, l am bored stiff here. If someone brought me the
good news that my life would be less dreary tomorrow, I might
feel less bored today. Yet I know only too well that tomorrow
will be just the same and so will the succeeding days.
Nevertheless, I should not give you the impression with my
fondness of circles that it is only my life that persistently
repeats itself. In the final instance, the vertical is just as faithful
to its recurrence as the horizontal Comrarv to what many
presume, that which is called 'Eternal Recurrence' is germane
less to circles than to lines and linear arrangements,
I cooked up this story basically to overcome my bug phobia.
Dreaming of a surreptitiously garbage-collecting old widow in
some vertical world helped me to survive better the horizontal
line here of cells next to one another. Still, 1 cannot be
regarded as having entirely lied. If anything, l can be accused
of merging the truth with lies. Of returning to the beginning
rather than reaching a decisive end.
As tor me, I will not be staying in this prison too long The
sentence thev deemed fit for me is one vear and two months.
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vix days,! passed the first week by getting used to my place and
tearing the bugs, and passed the rest trying to target my fear by
way of making up the story you read. Now chat the circle of
the greyish tin lid of garbage has stopped turning, 1 frankly' do
not knou how I am going to spend the remaining three
hundred and sixty days here.
However, as soon as l am released, the very first thing l want
to do is pay a visit to Injustice Pureturk, The first bug
hinugator in Turkey taken into custody for being a
revolutionary. Life is absurd, at its core lies nonsense* and if you
ask me. Fortuna must be long fed up with tackling the possible
answers to the impossible question; "What will happen to
whom when?’
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