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MAMA SAN RA-AB RAMPA
A TRIBUTE OF LOVE
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The lilies and the wild roses don't live more than one day, although that
day is eternity consumed in freedom.
The history of the world is not more than the great men's biography.
Carlyle
From the eye of the sphinx flowed a tear. Like this the Egyptian President's
death, Anwar Sadat, was interpreted by a newspaper cartunista the following
day to that in that the President was murdered such cruel mind.
One day, in chat, my husband asked me: “If you had the opportunity to
find a certain person, who would you choose?” After a moment of reflection
I answered:
“Well, it must be the Egyptian President, Mr. Sadat.” When he asked me
about the reasons that influenced that choice, knowing that the Master also
admired Sadat, I exposed him as he felt in relation to the President. I
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explained that it seemed important that a world leader defended the peace
and that, in spite of being submitted to a situation of constant personal risk,
he didn't stop having hope in contributing for the understanding among
nations.
Two days then, still [reflectindo] after that inhuman murder, is far too
much evidence that man's altruism placed the well-being of other ones
before his own comfort and personal profits and he died as a martyr for
that cause.
There was many opportunities for reflecting on that subject during the year
that passed — we attended other attempts of men's peace liquidation – one of
which well happened.
It is not among the smaller losses that we suffered, in the last months,
the departure of Lobsang Rampa from this world. He whose suffering was
very much larger than any that most of us will arrive one day to understand.
That he contributed so much all over the world to the hope and the trust in
the future of thousands of people.
This in spite of the mockery and of the disbelief proclaimed by those that
envied his abilities and they feared that their own positions were threatened
by the knowledge of Lobsang Rampa's superior experiences.
It is to weave with pulled up threads of its heart, as if the dear person will
use the fabric. It is to build a house with love, as if the dear person will live
in it. It is to plant seeds with tenderness and to harvest the crop with
happiness, as if the dear person will eat of that fruit. It is to impregnate
everything that molds with a blow of its own spirit. It is to know that the
blessed deads are close observing.
TWO
TWO
I got up at the first hours of the morning to join the people that would be
rendering a homage to President Sadat's memory to everybody on television.
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When sitting down before the screen accompanying all the acts of the
funeral, many were the thoughts that paraded quickly before me. I recovered
remembrancs relative to Egypt on that which he had spoken to the Master
and that little by little began to come to the surface.
Everything was very calm at three in the morning and the whole city light
points that were distributed could be seen in the place where I met seated, in
the old chair of Taddy, in my opinion the most comfortable and, without a
doubt, the friendliest.
Therefore Miss Cleo left the bed and she wandered for the runner, out of
my vision ray. later, when I looked behind the quina formed by the wall,
there she was, lied with the extended body, obviously tuned in. I thought that
she was finding all the solemnity she had owed interesting. If Cleo was in
human form she would be known, in terms of metaphysics, as an “old soul”,
a soul that had lived a lot of lives; I would be correct to include it even in this
category being still integral with the hierarchy of the felines.
The image is the one of an old lady sitting down in an armchair before
television. In yours I glue it is Cynthia, a white kitty, fastening an inquiring
glance in its owner. Some time passed and in a moment of revelation, the old
lady exclaims suddenly, “What you think of that, Cynthia? That stupid
cowboy is talking with the horse”.
The test that a man is truly educated consists of what he is, what he thinks
and what is absorbed by his thoughts, or the dreams he creates when he is
alone.
- Donald K. David
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THREE
I receive many readers' letters interested in knowing about our life, now
that Miss Cleo and I are the only ones that remained in the family of Rampa.
I would like to take advantage of this opportunity to tell all our corresponding
ones how much it is being appreciated by the manifestation of their concerns.
Many times, when I was imagining the (feather ??) was been worth that
effort of continuing in ,[livros??] and letters, a letter arrived with a cordial
message – “I was interested in reading your book, Lady of the Autumn. I found
it beneficial, such a big experience it is for the love that emanates of the
book. I also consoled myself to the knowledge that others were devoted to
observe the mind of the cats or of the animals with the same respect and love
as me”. And the 14 year-old Italian boy's small note that included a photo
with the following legend: “ Oi, this is me”. So friendly and sincere.
Soon after the enchanted lady, of Japan, wove a comment concerning the
prefix to my name. “Mrs. Our Mother” went to interpretation given by her
she Suckles her San. She could not believe me remembering a lot of cordial
letters that I received from Australia, particularly that of Mrs. Samuel telling
about the benefits received by her son, through the reading and the study of
Lobsang Ramp's books.
All those people turned easier to Miss Cleo and me to continue. Many
exist more than they helped us, so much that it is impossible to mention them
here; I wait, even so, that they understand all the manifestations of friendship
that did they were appreciated.
Opportunely somebody will wonder. ‘Is there how long you met the Dr.
Rampa’?
And others still: “How long were you married?” For the ones that feel
curiosity for things of that type I would say: “If you read with attention the
Master's books, and mine also, a lot of things would be illuminated”. Still
precise to find that they can tell me with honesty that it is possible to
remember everything after only one reading.
On the other hand there exist many letters from those that are familiar with
the Master's works, but they never affirm that they get tired of relating.
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would not really need to ask so many questions. I don't think it important
how many years of life on the earth we were together — I feel sometimes
that I have known him my whole life. Instead of that it is the Quality of the
association, instead of the chronological time.
Didn't he affirm frequently that, “A Thousand years in the earth are not
more than a blink of the eyes in the eternity?” Many didn't still understand
entirely the Master's coming from the Occident in order to complete a special
task, one which, for several reasons, he needed to assume another person's
body. Anyone can obtain larger understanding when studying the book “As
It Was”!
I would like to emphasize that this procedure is not a rare fact; it is enough
we stop ourselves in our own Christian religion and its leader. He already
made himself reference to that previously, but he doesn't make badly some to
reiterate that, in a certain apprenticeship, Christ assumed Jesus' body.
Many seem to consider that event absolutely I/you had been on purpose, it
is because the Truth and the Reality were obscured for a long time.
A lot of things have been coming to the light, things that nowadays people
cannot do more than accept and that before would be totally out of cogitation.
He is one of the ones that possess the [amplidão??] of the desert for a
pillow, and he called it a sister star. Alone. But the solitude can be
communion.
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Dag Hammarskjold
General secretary of the United Nations
(already died)
FOUR
Although last year I have a lot of times revived in thought some of the
experiences, of the period in which the Master was among us, I had not felt,
until then, capable to share them with the external world, in spite of all the
solicitations. So that I wrote about my life with Dr. Rampa. However, in the
months that preceded his departure from this world, and even during the
whole year past, we enjoyed extremely gratifying experiences to know that
the time, for him was drained quickly and it still turned every moment more
precious.
The first time in that me [1embro??] of the Master to have made that
observation was when my cat, Mr. T. Catt, left this life. I thought that
nothing would be the same, my pretty Argentinean Cat, my Flower again —
Tiger, could never be substituted and it disposed me to retreat of the world,
dressing in the equivalent of “mourning” black.
But the Master was right when telling me that good times were coming,
other feline entities awaited to assume a place among us, needing the
experience that turned them capable to continue developing and that we
could be useful in the sense of providing them those opportunities.
I hope all will forgive me if for one moment I seem to digress; however
this is not actually a digression. Did you already think that frequently it is
much easier to look at back to the front of the one what glance?
The people in general, not just the oldest, resemble to resent changes,
preferring to continue to live their lives in the same way as they are
habituated, in their ancestors' family way.
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It is been imagining the reason for this behavior. You already heard it
spoken on the theory that says, “The world is its own problem?” If I am not
mistaken, I have heard it said that it is making its rotation in the wrong
direction that there is a lot, a long time behind our planet moved of course
after having been [abalroado??] for other cosmic body.
In the beginning of last year the Master and I met unexpectedly alone,
except is clear for Miss Cleo, and there were rights you read just it they be
done. When a member of a family is extremely sick and has had a very
sudden change it is not good. And as a consequence it was verified, starting
from then a worsening in the Master's health. For about two months we had
to face the situation; we noticed, then, that it would be necessary to find help,
not an easy task because it tends in view that we always took a very recluse
existence, almost without any contact with the external world. However, it
was proven once again that nobody is irreplaceable; we found people that
helped us in fact, making our lives a little more bearable.
Cleo and me, even so, we still needed to face the problems during the day
because the aid that was rendered us was restricted to the period of the night.
Cleo was a great comfort to us.
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Miss Weetabix says that she will for ever keep at remembrance of the
months passed at our house until the moment of the Master's departure,
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knowing she had provided many moments of cheerful companionship for the
family Rampa and tends her same, during the whole process, acquired new
knowledge.
She was very agile and possessed to walk safe always appreciating to
accompany the Master in the few occasions that he was capable to venture to
the exterior in his wheel chairs, taking care so that the chair was driven
smoothly, avoiding fissures or projections in the roadways. I judged
convenient to comment on that because the Master considered that period
very much pleasant; per times he expressed to feel that perhaps people found
his illness an [amolação??] and that he caused too much upset. Cleo and I
will always be thankful to Weetabix for the affection that she released to all
knots for those terrible moments.
Some more thing caused pleasure and entertainment in those days; that
happened when Persian, Betris, and Mitze, the Siamese gentleman, all came
to visit us. Betris was very reserved, but Mr. Mitze wandered through the
whole apartment, speaking without stopping, and he sometimes jumped on
the Master's bed. The Master ask him why he spoke so much and if he could
not be a little quieter, he answered to the Master by telepathy: “When I speak
it is because I am thinking and I think a lot”. Seemingly, the two cats
changed ideas on our apartment, comparing it with that where they lived; one
of them, then, commented: “Why am I imagining the walls here healthy so
distant one from the
other?” The cats possess a different form without a doubt of discussing the
things and we felt a lot had we not the Master to interpret their messages.
Taddy, having seen the picture of Taddy and Cleo in the layer of the
Spanish translation of THE Feline Mind. * Mrs. Holmes writes: ‘And your
cat Miss Cleo is a pretty lady that is entitled of being called the vainest
person of Calgary, am I not right?’ And she continues: ‘But as it was that
Taddy got to return under the form of a cat of normal proportions and still to
seem exacly with an enormous feline of the jungles’?
When Miss Tadalinka came to us she was a cat, much smaller than her
sister, but with passing of time she grew extraordinarily fast. I always
believed that the Master had made use of his powers to influence her growth,
because it would not have been possible to maintain a great feline of the
jungles in a common house. She, however, always gave the impression of
being imposing and ferocious when in fact she was not.
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Those that know the book were like this! They will leave [1embrar??] of
as the members of the Race of the Giants, that came to the earth to mix with
the human beings, they had their size reduced by magic means, in ways to
allow for them to associate with human beings without being recognized as
Gardeners. The Master had knowledge of many of those suppositions
mysterious procedures, but he rarely discussed his uncommon abilities, for
him nothing contained of mysterious or magic. If the public's certain secrets
had given him the possibility of success after such a long battle, him and the
world would have profited a lot and it would not be anexaggeration to affirm
that nowadays peace on the earth would be much closer.
It is not a simple task the one of describing a person like the Master.
Although he was so different from most of us, after living with him for so
many years and some decades, his habits and faiths I thought more normal
than the ones of the people of the external world.
For the interested ones, and I know that they are many, I would
recommend the book writing for the author of Fernão Capelo Gaivota,
Richard Bach.
The title is Illusions and it was published in 1977 by Delacorte Press.
I know about people that affirmed to have liked that book more than of
Fernão Capelo Gaivota and the editor defines it as a type of volume II. I see
great likeness between the character Donald Shimoda and the Master, and I
am right that the Master's readers will find it as fascinating as I, whenever I
leaf its pages.
It is a feather that we don't have more authors like Richard Bach, because
his histories do well to the soul. In contrast with the commercial of television
that affirms “We are honestly that which we ate”, somebody could increase
“We are that which we have”.
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October 25 ~ one Sunday and a special day for me.
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accept that they can still be [connosco??], same if the external peel already
left. I always felt [atraída??] for the pages that they compose the ‘Chapters of
the
Life’, one of the few [autografados??] for me, “Ra'ab, the first of the edition
Of [Chen??] the last of a series”!
On this era of Kali, when the civilization seems to crumble, there is a lot
of comfort to be found in that book; the first chapter is exclusively about the
hope for the future; not feeling any nostalgia for the days that are left, my
trust rejuvenates in the knowledge that, in spite of everything, our dear planet
Earth is not to be abandoned.
Just think that the next “World” Leader's first pupil is already a person
with maturity, and that this leader will come shortly to the Earth, for soon to
reach the maturity, when its vehicle will be used by a Superior Entity and the
concept of transmigration will have made him more acceptable because the
people have been prepared for him through other [ensinamentos??], among
them the Christian Bible.
This weekend particularly has been a period of calm reflection reviving the
experiences of the Family, the almost two year-old period in Ireland and later
the long crossing of Atlantic in direction of New York destined for Canada.
In those days, the Master nurtured great hopes of forming a small group,
with the purpose of helping to increase his plans for the dissemination of the
knowledge that he had acquired along an extremely difficult life, due to his
weakened health and to the incomprehensions. That group was composed of
not more than half a dozen, and everybody was animated in participating. A
bookseller, a housewife with [dactilografia??] knowledge and a third linked
to the automobile industry. The idea was to transmit knowledge for half a
correspondence course and then work with the lessons was put into operation
with the expectation that everything would take place in agreement with the
plan.
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prostrate due to its obligations. He finally decided that the only solution was
to gather the lessons under book form and it soon appeared in “You –
Forever”. Even so, the same past every year, some people still write us
asking information on the course that they think to be the disposition.
Those that know his books will know how the Master felt on groups and
sects, and everything takes to believe that, in what he told in respect, it was
necessary to work alone.
Through the years they have been having countless inquiries on the part of
anxious readers while visiting, just to sit down and talk, and it has been very
difficult [mantê-1os??] at the distance.
He would like to leave it clear that he doesn't want to say that he was a
person of difficult access, but, to the opposite, his solitude was determined by
absolute need. I have been interested myself about other people that maintain
their private lives very separate from their work.
This lady would seem to be serving her country, according to the largest
interests of the nation, without evidencing to receive a lot of
[encorajamento??]. Perhaps opinions are released.
There is the case of a very well-known actor and it is said that “he is
invariably a discreet man. He maintains a completely reserved personal life,
not allowing even journalists and photographers in his house”.
Nobody likes to feel too different; like this, it is good to know that other
people exist that find it to be necessary, once in a while, to isolate the rest of
the world.
Religion is what the individual does with their own solitude _- if they
never feel solitary they won't ever be a religious person.
Dean Inge
SEVEN
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“How does time for you pass, now that Dr. Rampa has left”?, could anybody
ask.
“Certainly it cannot be so busy, you should have a long free time”. If people
just stopped to think, they would notice that a precise life continues and the
departure of somebody doesn't mean that everything should be interrupted. I
like to think, and I believe it is true, that many of the Master's readers, that
use to write once in a while to him, still find satisfaction in a continuing
correspondence with me. It is as if it were a two-way street where so much
the remittent, as the addressee, picks benefits.
Weetabix is a very nutritious food; if the name leaves one perplexed, let
me quickly say that it was checked by the Master being of the family of the
Wheat. Besides, the Master said that it looked good. That nobody thinks that
the [srta??].
Cleo and I thought our life is as complete as in the days when the Master
was [connosco??], because it is not that. When I see the fixed eyes of Cleo
on something or on somebody, for besides my normal power of vision, I
don't feel very competent.
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In that way Cleo had the advantage of her “television”, where she could
observe the members of her family that had left this space, while she
observed the same. I fear that a certain dose of envy on my part exists, even
so I possess considerable telepathic aptitude.
Still not being capable of seeing the Master, I am fortunate for receiving
these supposed impressions that reveal very clearly that he is still very close.
Whenever I receive his readers' letters telling me that they had a, “dream”
where they saw and they talked with an image that they knew to be Lobsang
Rampa, I feel great satisfaction, because I always knew that the Master
would not abandon those for whom so much had been sacrificed.
A few pages behind I presented Miss Persian Betris and Mr. Mitze Seal,
Siamese, and I thought that it would be good to know them a little more and
as it follows they brought pleasure and entertainment for this [lar??]. Those
creatures are members of the family Weetabix — they take care of the
apartment while Miss Wheat accomplishes her love work in [prol??] of
Rampa. Betris was the first to arrive there, not very more than one and a half
year, and she possesses a pretty orange color.
Miss Weetabix was rescued from a position where the cats didn't accept it;
she now enjoys a very happy domestic life, shared with Mitze. In spite of
Mitze having arrived one or two months then, he is definitively in command.
His coming was due to my friend Loni's kindness that took care of him for
several days, before informing us of his existence.
The master was capable of discovering that Mitze had taken a long trip,
crossing a bridge that cut the river, before reaching the house of Loni.
It was evident the Mitze suffered bad-treatments. We noticed that there was
a bruise in his tail in cicatrization phase and there was an absence of shine in
his hair. Now, even so, he receives the cares that before were denied him and
that were due to a feline entity highly developed like Mitze.
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He talked with the Master and in elapsing of the telepathic dialogue he
expressed the desire “to be called” Mitze and it was soon after that he
received this name.
When he/she works, you are a flute for whose heart the whisper of the
hours if it transforms in music. Who of you would a flute be it moves and
silent, when all the another sing in unison?
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Without a doubt he doesn't make himself necessary to observe that the
appreciation and the Master's affection for the felines is shared by me, so that
I am always interested in those creatures' well-being. If I am allowed to
count an incident which happened in the last summer, it will be a favor for
me because I will have enormous pleasure in doing it.
On a Certain night, when Loni and her husband were seated on the balcony
of the front of the house, [Riga??] exclaimed suddenly, “Ha, there, see, that
cat is carrying. a [ratazana??]!”
Thus, he gave me the key to the garage, having opened a big hole in the
door. Big enough to allow the passage of the cats. One cannot leave a
garage without bar, particularly if there is kept equipment of value in the
same way that one cannot leave open a house.
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The [srta??] Wheat and I started to walk up the river every morning and
every night, calling for Susie and, when hearing us arrive, she jumped from
the hole greeting us with profusion, anxious to please with the food for cats
called “Nine Lives”, in particular the tuna and the mixture of eggs.
Those few weeks had been the rainiest of the year, but Susie always came
out running to greet us from where she had been appreciating the shelter that
the garage offered. The saga of Susie, however, doesn't finish here, because
it still persisted the problem of meeting a definitive [lar??] for her, since it
had been right that Loni could not take the responsibility that the problem
created.
Mr. Smooch, with whom the readers will be familiar after the reading of
Lady of the Autumn, had aged, he had gotten sick and he had left this earth in
about one year.
Loni had decided, then, that it would not be exactly right to have another
feline entity, because she and her husband camped with a lot of frequency
and they knew that Smooch, on those occasions, had felt very alone. We felt
that we had already drained all the possibilities in search of families
[adoptivas??], because our few acquaintances already “possessed” a cat or a
dog. I simply didn’t know from where the next given would come.
Our veterinary friend, Dr. Randall, always solicitous, he would take charge
of the mother and of the [filhote??]. There was no doubts that he would be a
person adapted to find a [lar??] for them, together or until separate, because
of Susie with a very brand new cat and that would facilitate the [adopção??].
Although I don't see any reason that justified not giving a [lar??] to an older
feline, some people prefer them younger, believing them more adaptive to a
new [lar??].
I thought a lot on the future of Susie; due to her wonderful qualities, of her
gentile nature and of her beautiful behavior as a mother, I thought she
deserved a future with safety. Suddenly, I remembered at [1embrança??]
from “a position”. It was as if they were telling me: “Why don't you enter
into a contact with Mr. Mac? He will have a solution”.
The chat on the telephone was so well-happened that soon there was
provided an affectionate [lar??] full of understanding for Susie. Mr. Mac and
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his family, the woman Kay and her four children, Eldon, Calvin, Darren and
Marlon, everybody adores Susie.
That didn't mean the end of our relationship, because Weetabix had said to
me that we could visit whenever we wanted. We had, thus, the satisfaction of
maintaining contacts with Susie and to observe her development.
Growth
I sometimes think that He heard the murmur of suffering of all the things
that grew under the sun and that He raised them and aided them, not just with
their own knowledge, but also when revealing to them the power that they
possessed to develop and to become complete.
NINE
The readers that know my first book, THE Feline Mind, will leave
[1embrar??] of Mrs.Gertrud Lavery, that she lives in Australia and she is a
devoted pupil of the Master's [ensinamentos??]. Mrs. Lavery belongs
together [connosco??] since that decade and we started like this to know her a
lot better; on several occasions she recounted many of her experiences,
particularly in what she said in respect to the treatment of felines, who
possessed special likeness.
But now Mrs. Lavery assumed another commitment and the description that
she gave of a little bird and its life which she revealed so clearly, about the
likeness and the harmony that can be developed among man and nature, that I
thought appropriate to tell it here — the history speaks for itself.
These photos demonstrate that the small son of a parakeet, that I brought
home a few weeks ago in a box, had learned a lot in a few months, in spite of
my inexperience in the treatment of birds.
It doesn't remain doubt that I read some books and I asked information
concerning experiences and methods to the people that had already created
parakeets. Therefore in the first days I decided, wrong or wisely, that he
should be taught, from the beginning, to leave the cage and fly freely
thereabout. Thus, one day, I removed it from the cage very fearful of hurting
that life piece, but it stayed the rest of the day and the whole night
[empoleirado??] in the rails of the curtain.
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The following day, in the middle of the morning, it discovered the way
back suddenly to the cage and began soon to eat. I just needed to remove it
once again and start it over. From then on it understood and it began to fly
inside and outside of the cage whenever it had the will; even so, while it was
out it would be also out of my reach.
Some weeks later, an the only time it stayed out of the cage, besides its
normal schedule of sleeping; seemingly, it was not capable to find the way
back, staying landed in the rails of the curtain, even after all the lights had
been lit.
Finally, I placed the cage close to my bed with the small door opened in the
direction of the rails of the curtain placed above my bed. About ten or fifteen
minutes later, it flew for the cage; I jumped off the bed, I closed the small
door, I put back the cage in its regular habitual and I covered it.
It took some time for me [!conseguir??] that Gerry, still inside of the cage,
jumped for my finger when I pressed its breastbone.
“Now he already lost the whole fear of me, which cheers me enough.
He possesses his favorite places in the room of guests, in the kitchen and in
the [lavanderia??], flying freely thereabout.
“Gerry is just confined in the cage when he is waiting the doctor, the
[1impador??] of glasses or some domestic employee, but he already got used
to that and he is not displeased. One should leave him alone for a long time
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and for that precise to arrest him, he appreciates plenty to be hunted because
he likes to feel that we cannot capture him.
“If I make some thing for which he is interested, as to write, to sew or his
[desamarrar??] mirror, Gerry soon will be close. He makes the best he can to
seize, with his beak, the point of the pen, the point of the seam needle or of
the pin. He seems to think nothing else doesn't exist entertaining than to do
[furinhos??] or to tear pieces of the [beiradas??] of the paper leaves,
including the one of the books, particularly of those larger ones and of more
careful impression.
I received the recounted history above concerning six months, in fact last
May, and he said to me same that, if he had the opportunity to write another
book, the history of Gerry would be included, although just to show everyone
that what some patience, understanding, and love can do in the sense of
uniting man to the creatures of nature.
He/she/it can do with that a heart stops of cutting into pieces, I won't live
in vain; He/she/it can mitigate the suffering of a life or to liven up a pain, or
to help a thrush [desfalecente??] to return to the nest, I won't live in vain.
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Emily Dickinson
TEN
Some people, when they are left alone to face life, they think they need to
go to another place because the memories are simply made intolerable. To
revive the happy moments and to enjoy the sensation of coming comfort of a
well-known atmosphere seems to be an addition they can support and then
they decide to begin new a life in another locale. But not all the people, only
some!
And that is comprehensible.
When the Master was among us, that type of things we discussed and he
said something similar to: “What do you think I should do if you leave
before my hour has arrived”?
I noticed that Miss Cleo was very satisfied. She had lived in this
apartment more time than in any other place and as her sister Taddy, that was
blind, still visited us, it was well easier for her to wander around in an
atmosphere that was known. Cleo always thinks of the other ones. Although
we had not probably expressed our thoughts, she was aware that we would
both be happy with that disposition, because that, in a certain way, would
also help her feeling closer to the Master.
Well, the hour of our temporary separation arrived much too early and we
remained, Cleo and me feeling that loss in a very sharp way. In the last days,
when the Master's health became a lot worse, he sometimes told me: “You
know Ra'ab, a life without me would be much easier for you”. The Master
saw himself as a bale, and it displeased him deeply to need to depend on
others. It was difficult to do and to understand that it was not [incómodo??]
none.
I tried to explain that I would not be better alone, that this era of my life
and that of his was not anything he would make sense.
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Perhaps it does seem strange that I decided to choose a nurse's profession
but, in the uncoiling of my life, that proved to be the best experience that
somebody could have had, being considered the paper that I later was called
to carry out.
Let us return, even so, to the present where we are in position of evaluating
our [actuação] in the last period, when we had need to adjust to a different
routine, filling the days with several activities.
I have already affirmed previously, Miss Weetabix and I dedicated to answer
a lot of the readers' letters and the subjects linked to the business of our time,
and I frequently wanted to have enough knowledge to answer some of the
questions with larger details. But I never intended to try to substitute for the
Master, nor I never heard anybody say that I could be qualified to do that,
because the Master's knowledge and his ability to work with the problems
were a lot beyond the possibilities of most of us. It is a notorious truth that
we all needed to vary our activities, if we hoped to reach our potential in life.
We were, then, imagining what we could do to amuse a little, when we felt
that we were noticing our mental processes were going too much in only
direction. We felt that we needed an amusement, and this appeared in the
form of a game that consisted of spelling and to word forming.
When the idea happened to us for the first time I knew that there had been
the Master's intervention. When the end of the day approaches and Miss
Cleo and I were alone, perhaps that was the moment in which we felt more
the Master's absence. Everything was very calm and we can feel the silence;
there, then, we sighed and we thought a lot. The times, if the night extends
too much, seeming that it would never finish, Miss Wheat joins with us for a
beat-crop after that certain cup of tea.
You know, when the Master was among us, Cleo visited him frequently,
especially during the night, she liked to settle down on his chest, taking care
not to be arriving very close to the hiatal hernia that caused so much
suffering to the Master.
In the elapsing of the last year that he was among us, there was always
somebody close, a fourth neighbor, during the whole night, to render
attendance, so that there was no opportunity for Cleo to be alone. A paper of
this feline [senhorazinha??] is reason for great pride for its Mother, and any
human being should be proud following its example. Without her this would
have been in fact an arid existence.
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An oyster commented with one that it met closer:
— I carry a very big pain inside of me. It is weighed, round, and I feel in
danger. The other answered with disdainful indulgence:
— Thanks to the skies and to the sea, I don't carry any pain with me. I feel
perfect inside and outside.
In that moment a crab then passed over, hearing the chat among the two
oysters, it went for the one that felt perfect inside and outside and it said,
“Yes, you feel perfect; but the pain that your friend complains about is a foot
that rolls of rare beauty.
Kahlil Gibran
ELEVEN
Henry David Thoreau observed at certain times that he seemed to write
always about himself, that happened because it was he who knew himself
better. Like this, if somebody thinks that I write the same, perhaps it be for
identical reasons. Our thoughts and experiences are much more alive for us
than those that link with other people.
Yesterday, during a chat, Calvin told me that his brother had read that
sentence for him and that both had agreed with the truthfulness of those
words.
Who doesn’t still try terrible despair sensations, when things are going badly
and we are not capable of finding the solutions for the problems? The ones
that escape ae not many.
When beginning this page I intended to write something different, but now
that I mentioned the cats and the care that they should be provided, I am
taken, and to all those that are disposed to accompanying me to a visit to Mac
to hear what happened yesterday.
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It is once in a while necessary to promote a change in the routine and
nothing exists better than the fresh air, blowing the spider screens, and to see
the life under a different angle. The Master finds it extremely beneficial to
answer the readers' letters or to work in one of his many books, or just to
slide his electrical wheel chairs up to the elevator, and for him to go to the
lobby where he could leave and take a turn or two around the streets of the
neighborhood.
Well, Susie seemingly slept in a great armchair and there was nothing
strange in that, because we were in the beginning of the afternoon and we
were aware that she had been inactive during the whole morning; even so,
she was very aware of us. We cannot get our hopes up when a cat seems to
sleep before a visitor comes because, as you will observer, you will see the
ears in position of alert, while the chat is registered.
After six or eight weeks there were new acquisitions on the part of Mac
Cat, in the form of an almost white [filhote??], two or three months of age
and with brown grooves, that encouraged the house a lot. In a rainy morning,
in the hour that he left for school, Marlon, the more youthful of the family,
saw this small feline entity and posted it in the entrance of the cars; he, then,
caught it and he took it home in turn, presenting it before the mother.
You can imagine the happiness that I felt when telephoning to say that the
Animal Central Hospital would take charge of Sally and they would take care
to obtain her an appropriate [lar??]; there was a moment of silence at the end
of which Mrs. Mac exclaimed with her melodious voice.
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We talked later on with the boys and they decided they wanted Sally
[connosco??] seems that she adopted Eldon. Weetabix and I sighed of relief.
The following day, when Sally jumped on the chair where Susie rested and
got involved with her paws, giving her a [1ambida affectionate??], Mrs. Mac
observed, “See, they get along well. It is as if she was destined to come here;
she just had to be here like this.”
Dr. Rampa said there was nothing like having mingled with people that
loved and took care of cats. It seems that the Família Mac belongs to that
category, in spite of the fact that [apercebido??] be had, just in elapsing of a
year past, of satisfaction and of happiness that is obtained through that
relationship type. A cat in the [lar??] of Mac is somebody that certainly
should be worthy of envy.
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TWELVE
This late, when wandering from the apartment, feeling the atmosphere of
the autumn, my thoughts were on the Master. I began to think of the values
and the point of view that somebody,like me, can suffer such important
transformations after a life beside somebody of spirituality so elevated as
Lobsang Rampa. While digressing, [1embrei-me??] of the Master
[encorajava??] in the works of compilation of my three books previous. He
could have said: “Why do you want to write? Don't you think one writer in
the family is already enough”? But no, he would never have said something
like that because, to the opposite, he believed in the encouragement offer to
all those that showed the slightest sign of artistic or intellectual inclination.
The same when he thought it would be good that he was here to give me
one or two ideas, a suggestion perhaps, for a possible subject to be
approached later on in this book, a powerful image appeared before me.
You interpret it as not being missed to acccount to our readers a little more
on the person that has been, for us, such a great help in these last two years.
“You know, Ra'ab”, these are the words that I heard in my mind, “you know
a lot albeit without Weetabix you would not have been capable of working
with the whole correspondence and still write another book. Why not
account to the readers a little more about her? They would appreciate it”.
Perhaps they would like to know a little of her vision of her life, yours
fence in cattles, the things that she appreciates and where she is walking.
Only today, during a chat, I asked Miss Wheat which problems, contained in
letters we received from the readers, that she considered of larger importance.
For being her who [dactilografia??] them answer, has the opportunity to
study the subject, being like this highly describes as to do a judgement.
— Well — she said here without hesitation – “that question is very easy to be
answered. Without the smallest doubts it is the solitude that worries me most
about the people. It is mandatory to agree that that is a situation
difficult of being faced — not to be alone, but to feel the sensation of a more
complete solitude.
The experience of Miss Wheat has been showing that the solitude appears
perhaps in “pieces” when the physical conditions of somebody is shaky, and
it is just necessary to let pass the indisposition, what soon will happen.
When she thinks it is necessary, she goes for a walk, if possible unto the river
where the trees are leafier.
She considers, this form of a more beneficial [lazer??] than any other
exercise. I have rarely found people that are so susceptable to the bad mood
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of others. In fact she is so sensitive that she feels the need to enjoy periods of
solitude to renew her energy. These are those excellent qualities making it so
valuable to the present situation, one of collaborating in the continuity of the
Master's work.
A small fact that I would like to narrate exists, but I don't want to cause
any [constrangimento??]. See, Weetabix is a modest person believing not that
she is a lot of importance. Certain time observed:
— Instead of writing about me, my time could be better taken advantage of
if I wrote on the cats and its activities.
“Ah”, said the Master, “You were making some interesting images while she
spoke and perhaps we can help her to put the things in order.” We sat down
to his circuit while he rescued [1embranças??] in the conscience of Miss
Wheat, the ones which before had not passed vague ideas, I found of his
thought. He was capable of telling us about a previous life in the south of
England, in the beginning of this century, which finished prematurely
because of the war. It was very fascinating to testify to the revelation of the
history of the area where she had lived and the position that she had
occupied, which implied her to be active in the community where it was
capable to carry out countless good acts.
We talked a lot of times on the subject, and in each one of those times
Weetabix had said it felt good to know that she had acted wisely when
hearing about herself, in spite of those that would have tried to discourage
her.
About herself she says, “this is my life and I can only answer to myself for
my own attitudes.”
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If somebody could imagine this it would be the best hour of finishing an
incarnation that unhappily ended much too early and was lived to the service
of others.
THIRTEEN
Here we are again, Sunday morning, one more week has passed; we are
therefore, authorized a rest period, having worked the last six days.
Miss Cleo and I had a gratifying night. Before we pick ourselves up we
decided to do a visit to our Family now in the Earth of the Gold Light.
To that we woke up with the thought gone back to the felines, and with
such peaceful sensations and harmony, that we decided to use them as the
subject in this chapter.
Thus, here we are, and they are not nor seven hours of the morning.
You some time already envied the freedom of the cats? In spite of all the
attempts if they evoke laws for those creatures' control, they stay free, being
perhaps the only “domestic” animal that releases permission to live.
Perhaps I may be allowed to tell the history of the family: she had stopped
having hopes of seeing Baby, after the cat to have moved away him of them
running during a picnic to 30 [quilómetros??] of distance from the house in
Calgary. The mother recounted that was the first time the cat had been out of
the neighborhood and had never left the car when they went for a walk, so
that she could not imagine that the cat would be capable of finding its way
back. They had not had any sign of Baby when they made the suitcases to
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return in August past, and they were concerned to leave like this with it lost
in that deserted place.
The following day, they went back to seek again, but the cat was not found
any place. But in the days that proceeded, after 78 days of disappearance, he
was located, outside of the house. The mother saw him in the gate and she
screamed, “Baby, Baby”, and he came running. She recounted that the first
thing he did was jump for his favorite chair, do a circle and later jump again
in search of his plate of food. He had been surviving that whole time of
[camundongos??] diffused in the brushwood ~ the mother said. But she
found the way back?
Cats possess a radar sense out of the common. I consider very gratifying
histories like the one that recounted above, but another side of the life that is
more difficult to face exists.
The master always said that we should not ignore the sadness, and he
referred to the animals that, having placed their confidence in the human
beings, are frequently cruelly battered. “If we blinded ourselves to the reality,
we will be steeling ourselves against assuming our responsibilities”, he told
me. “If we stay distant to the suffering of the world, we cannot be made to
respect it”
It became public, weeks behind, that in certain people's opinion were done
many unnecessary researches with animals in the laboratory belonging to a
certain infantile hospital; he decided, then, to do some thing to respect it.
Some people got to free some of the animals, and these were taken to a
veterinarian where they were examined and properly tested. In one case in
particular, involving a cat, there was great indignation on the part of public
opinion, which was translated in letters to the newspapers, one of which was
sent by me, because I rioted with the case. There was a picture of a specialist
at the Pet Hospital holding up an animal showing its ears had been cut off.
The supplied explanation said that the ears of cats are very similar to the
ones of human beings. There were experiments that took place to discover an
easier method for injecting liquids with a syringe.
In the same week we were winning with new information, of this coming
time of United States. Scientists told the dramatic results of the tests with a
hormóne applied in cats that eventually could be used to prevent the paralysis
and death in human beings that suffered lesions in the spinal medulla. Is it
difficult to believe, it is not?
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Do you believe that so much cruelty is necessary?
I think that type of experiment is unjustifiable, but that is what thery are
doing in Boston. Why are voluntary criminals not used for tests of that type?
Something exists more than I would like to mention before finishing this
chapter, something that has been included in a previous book. It is the retreat
of the claws of a cat. Every year many people have been asking our opinion,
if we respect it, and we always answered that that was a barbaric practice.
Judging by the books and good writings of veterinarians, the general opinion
is that causes not only physical but also psychological damage.
[CATORZE??]
Therefore after finishing the Last chapter, I received a letter from one of
my regular correspondants that happens to be also my Only “one to regulate”
of Wales. When he reads or he hears something entertaining, that he
considers can be of some interest, he sends it to me. When receiving this
here, [acOei??] I could not help but share it with you, the matter lies in it
being about cats and of furniture.
A Mr. Gray mentions the following observation, done by a lady that lives
in England. “To discourage my kitten from sharpening its claws on the
furniture, I entered into a store of goods for animals and I asked the scraper
for patented [gatos'??] that I seen in the shop window. A customer of age
that was to my surprised side [o1oou-me??]. ‘You without a doubt spoil its
[gato'??] a lot’, she pondered him.
Exactly now, in the autumn, when he misses the forests and the
peacefulness of the field there arrives a letter to me from that gentleman and I
feel it would be wonderful to be transported by the force of thought to the
beautiful Welsh scenery. He tells me the feeling would be pleasant if we
went neighboring, because we could go for A walk and enjoy the fields in the
company of one another. The descriptive talent of Mr. Gray is so vivid that
it makes us feel as that involved by everybody you be they of the nature,
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where the birds and the trees possess a private language. We have very much
in common with that gentleman -- Mr. Gray lives a calm life and he dedicates
a great part of his time in the months of winter to reading. But it is his
capacity to paint images with charming words that I particularly appreciate,
as well as this – “All the stations enchant me -- the spring with its new one to
wake up, the indolent, long and hot days of the summer, the kaleidoscope of
colors of the autumn, and the
nakedness and the immobility of the winter that makes all the other stations
seem so attractive. Yes, I am very happy”.
Correspondences as the one of Mr. Gray provide a type of oasis for the
soul, a spiritual experience, a food that is absent in many replete letters of
questions and with frequent requests of useless information. I thought of the
experiences of Mr. Gray when I heard, one or two days behind, of an
observation done by a Canadian politician.
Mr. Angus MacLean, first-minister of Príncipe Eduardo's Island, a
smaller county of Canada, his imminent retirement discussed, recounting for
his audience the vesperses of leaving the farm of the family, where he had
grown up and where hopes of reviving some of his youth's most pleasant
periods.
A very dear Mr. MacLean was presented by two of his advisers with a
rocking chair and a shepherd [cajado??]. Everybody agreed that nobody
could have found two presents more adapted for a gentleman than, after his
30 years of public life, in which he had always demonstrated good sense and
intelligence, facing with objectivity, the fact he was about to return to the
field. In his acceptance speech, Mr. MacLean rendered a beautiful tribute to
nature when saying, “When you live close to the earth, and sell the things
you grow, you settle down and communication with the Creator”. At 67
years of age, he should know.
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“The scarps of Maxwellton are pretty to see when the first dew drops.
It was there that Annie Laurie took me to turn its promise reality”. And the
eternal “Before a relationship of the times of formerly it was forgotten
and never more it came back to thought”, that soon would be in the lips of
everybody when approaching the end of the year. Oh that it doesn't lack for
here they are [Mc's] and [Mac's]; we maintain contact with several of them.
First Mac that possessed those cats — Mac is just the first part of the name,
because we don't want to identify him totally for the case that excessive
publicity appears, which, I am sure, it can become a nightmare for the
beneficiary.
That that provides that a person's final form is the child that formerly she
was.
—Robertson Davies
FIFTEEN
The first pages of this book contain some lines on President Sadat; now, as
we approach ourselves of the end, I would still like to do some more
comments on him, mentioning some of his own observations, at least.
Mr. Sadat commented that his last period in prison was a gratifying
experience, and the last six months of jail constituted the happiest period of
his life, because he started to know himself and it dominated the situation.
He believed he had grown in man's immortality — and he said, “The body
can perish, but the soul remains living”.
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I want to do another reference — constituted in special gratefulness to a
German lady that told us that her acquaintance had asked the Dalai Lama
about the Master, and the Dalai Lama had answered, “Lobsang Rampa
renders us a great service”.
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