12 [Park Chanyeol] I hate this love song, Ill never sing it again

In the darkness, I hugged the person in front of me tightly. Let me stay for a while more I whispered by her ear, along with warm white mist formed in the midnight of deep winter. She nodded, quietly hiding in my embrace. The few months of which I have yet to see Hayeon felt like years. She had thinned down a lot. When we met, she was wearing heavy make-up, but it was all smudged due to those tears she cried from those bastards harassments. But afterwards, when we met again, my Hayeon was looking fresh and beautiful. But, Im sorry. I let you receive so much hurt, I couldnt be there when you needed me the most, blocking you in front of you to protect you. Oppa. You should go back She slightly backed away from my embrace and lifted her head to look at me. Instead of replying, I leaned my head down, and kissed her soft lips. The feeling of longing was much more than the short night. I hugged her tightly, losing myself in the kiss. All of a sudden, it felt as if the person in my embrace was someone else. That person was thin as well, with a small frame. And the fringe before his forehead would always brush against mine when we kissed. This wasnt the first time Ive felt this way. As if panicking, I pushed her away. Whats wrong? She looked at me strangely. Nothing, IdId better go, I raised my hand to look at my watch, Its already four, I have a schedule at eight. She smiled, looking even prettier than before; it caused me to forget all other thoughts on my mind. So thats the life of a celebrity huh, She adjusted my scarf for me while saying, Oppa, have strength! Alright, I kissed her forehead, Ill call you when I have time. Morning came after the sky has brightened up. I sat in the speeding car, watching the scenery outside the window fly past, as if I was hopelessly chasing after the past.

As I recalled the palpitating feeling from last night, I felt annoyed. I closed my eyes, deciding to catch up on some sleep in the car. I had only returned to the dorm at five, but now we were on our way to the schedule, which was about a two hour ride. I did feel rather sleepy. Not long after, a few soft coughs came from beside me. Annoyed, I opened my eyes to look at the person. Have I disturbed you? That guy asked, slightly panicky. I did not bother about him, instead, closed my eyes and turned around to sleep on my side. Seriouslyjust thinking about what happened previously was making me angry. Before we left, Kyungsoo was the first to find a seat next to the drivers. Coordi Noona and the other two staffs sat at the last row, and after Sehun and Luhan got seated, I could only seat at the row behind the driver. Afterwards, I turned around to see Byun Baekhyun standing outside of the car, watching the only empty seat left in the car, his expression was hesitant along with his sickening innocence. Thus I could only end up beside this guy. During these periods of times, after I have realised my need towards Byun Baekhyuns body, I forced myself to cut down contact with him, even if it was torturous. Habit is a scary thing. I forced myself to not think about it. The lack of sleep and exhaustion allowed me to drift into sleep quickly. Im not sure how long has passed, but when I woke, I was leaning against the shoulder of the guy beside me. He was sitting perfectly straight, so that his small body could allow my head to be leaned completely against his shoulders. He was still coughing, but trying his best to restrain himself. After being in a daze, I immediately straightened my body. IDid I wake you again? Im sorry. Theres still some time before we reach, sleep for a while longer. Shut up, youre annoying. Being obedient, he did not speak. I scratched my head, feeling annoyed, and turned around towards the back row. Oh Sehun, swap seats with me. However, Sehun was in the middle of giggling while grabbing onto Luhan as they were watching a movie together. He looked at me, horrified.

No, I dont want to. Dont sprout nonsense, come here. I already said I dont want to! Yah! You twerp-- Luhan Hyung could not stand it anymore, Ill change places with you. He moved with much difficulty in the small and constrained place, not forgetting to take his iPad along. Sehun pursed his lips as he called, Ah, Ah, Lu Hyung Luhan did not reply him. Stop going Lu Hyung, your Chanyeol Hyung is here instead, I went over expressionlessly. After seating down, I decided to just lean on Sehun and continue my sleep. Instead, I unintentionally saw Byun Baekhyun who was seated in front take the earpiece Luhan had handed him. The two seemed to be watching a movie, and I could tell it was probably funny. I could see his lips curve upwards even from his side profile. There was a sudden fire in my heart. Byun Baekhyun, I bet you didnt know. I hate the way you look when you smile. But what I hate more is the way you look like a bitch when you smile at someone else. The programme this time was a music show featuring only our group, it could match up to a miniconcert. To be able to receive this opportunity, every one worked hard for the preparation. Luhan Hyung and Sehun had to go rehearse for their dance stage first, leaving the rest of us three in the waiting room. The two main vocalists were practising their ballad, feeling bored, I went out to talk a walk. Of course it was also because I didnt want to hear Byun Baekhyuns voice. When I bought a can of coke back to the waiting room, just as I was about to push open the door, I could hear the voices inside turn into conversation instead of their singing voices. Im fine, thank you. It was Byun Baekhyuns voice. You shouldnt mind too much about Sehun. Hes just a kidand you know, Luhan has been on your side a lot recently, he is just throwing a temper. The other persons voice was calm and simple as usual. Even Kyungsoo tooHa, Byun Baekhyun, you must be so charming. Its nothing, its my fault to begin with anyway.

You cant be blamed for that either. Its just that youcare too much about what Chanyeol thinks, so you thought of it to be too severe, actually at that time Hearing these, I pushed the door open with a bang and entered the room. So are you saying that all those pain that Hayeon went through is nothing severe to you? Till now, I still remember when we reunited for the first time, she told me expectantly that she had signed with an acting company. And that she would be able to debut soon as an actress. You are not dancing anymore? You used to look gorgeous when you danced. No. I dont think theres a way for me to continue. She smiled weakly. It pained me to see her that way, I gently held her hand. Even though the company had quickly sealed the news, but within the entertainment industry, she was marked with the Park Chanyeols ex-girlfriend label. No company in the singing industry dared to sign her. After all, no one could imagine what would happen if she stood on the same stage as Park Chanyeol after her debut, furthermore, its a known fact within the industry that we were forced by the company to end our relationship. I only knew afterwards that after various difficulties, she was signed with a not-exactly-big movie company so she could continue on with her dream of becoming a celebrity. So, all these that she went through, is only things that are not too severe to you? How funny. I watched them coldly. Do Kyungsoo stayed calm, not saying anything after dropping a youre back. While Byun Baekhyun on the other hand, clenched the lyric sheet in his hands nervously. Byun Baekhyun. You come out for a while. I said expressionlessly. He did not move. I could tell, that he was afraid. Are you that scared of me. I laughed coldly in my heart. Byun Baekhyun Are you not going to come out. He stood up slowly, forcing himself to walk towards me. Kyungsoo wasnt like Luhan Hyung, he didnt like to get involved in others business, he only frowned and looked over at us. When Byun Baekhyun walked up to me, I grabbed his arms and dragged him to the bathroom. There was no suspicion aroused on our way there. I tried to control my emotions and tried to keep myself calm. So that we would only look like friends going to the bathroom together.

After entering the toilet, I pulled him into one of the cubicles and forcefully shut the door. Chanyeol He called me quietly. Are you afraid that Id do something to you? In this small secluded space. You really are capable Byun Baekhyun, I fixed my glare on him, even Kyungsoo has been drawn over to your side. You, you heard our conversation? Why? Is there anything to hide? His attempt to conceal was making me even more angered. Dont blame him, he was only saying that to console me, I " He immediately tried to explain, but it only sounded hilarious to me. Let me remind you one more time Byun Baekhyun, dont act cocky, I said with pauses in between each word, Dont think you can influence the way I think about other people. You are far from having the rights to do so. He didnt speak, lowering his head, neither did he look at me. I was originally planning to let him go after some shouting but just as I was about to let him go, I heard the phone ring. It was Byun Baekhyuns. Were about to record for a show, yet you dont even know to set your phone to silent mode. I taunted. Im sorry He said as he took out his phone. Before he could answer the call, I snatched it over. I felt as if I was struck by thunder, when I saw the caller ID that was displayed. [Wu Yifan] Displayed clearly on the screen. and you said that day, that it wasnt you. I smiled coldly, waving the phone before his face. Looks like you have good social relations, you and that bastard who bullied Hayeon. He looked as if he had no realisation of the situation. But as he finally saw the caller ID, his eyes widened in shock. No, Chanyeol, me and him Before he could finish, I had given him a tight slap. I was outraged, even my hands were shaking. So it was this bastard, and you, who joint hands to bring harm to my most beloved person. Already in this situation, yet you want to find these ridiculous excuses? His face was hit to the side from the slap, yet he was still trying to explain weakly, Its not what you think, I dont know him well

Shhhh I held his phone in one hand and my other index finger in front of my lips, signalling him to keep quiet. He looked at me incredulously. He looked at me as I took the call. Hello. -

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