Secdocument - 453download The Uses of Delusion Why Its Not Always Rational To Be Rational Stuart Vyse All Chapter
Secdocument - 453download The Uses of Delusion Why Its Not Always Rational To Be Rational Stuart Vyse All Chapter
Secdocument - 453download The Uses of Delusion Why Its Not Always Rational To Be Rational Stuart Vyse All Chapter
1. Ridiculous Reason
2. A Bright Future in Sales
3. I Feel Fine
4. Things Unseen
5. Soul Mates
6. The Living Dead
7. Bedtime Stories
8. The Gangster Within
9. The Mind’s Best Trick
10. Odysseus in Rags
Acknowledgments
Notes
Index
1
Ridiculous Reason
On most surface levels I was rational. To the average observer I would have
appeared to fully understand that death was irreversible. I had authorized the
autopsy. I had arranged for the cremation. I had arranged for the ashes to be
taken to the Cathedral of St. John the Divine.1
Yet Didion insisted on spending the first night after her husband’s
death alone, “so that he could come back.”2 Bringing her husband
back became the focus of the next several months, during which she
kept his shoes in the closet—because he would need them when he
returned.
Despite the evidence, to most people, the line on the left looks
longer than the one on the right. The most common explanation for
the illusion is that, for those of us who have grown up around boxes
and cubes, the figure on the left looks like the inside corner of a
cube that is a bit farther away from us, and the one on the right
looks like the outside corner of a cube that is pointed toward us.
Finally, in judging the size of objects, our brain makes an adjustment
for their distance from us, boosting the apparent size of far-away
objects. This calculation keeps us from mistaking a distant oncoming
car for a toy car. Therefore, according to the common depth-
perception explanation for the Müller-Lyer illusion, the line on the left
looks longer because it appears to be farther away.
But telling you the two lines are the same length doesn’t
eliminate the illusion. Even measuring the lines and knowing about
the depth-perception explanation doesn’t help. The lines still look
different, and we are powerless to see them any other way. In a
similar fashion, some of the delusions in this book are just as sticky.
Knowing that we are under the sway of a delusion doesn’t help us
shake it off. These stickier delusions appear to be part of our basic
equipment. Other delusions are more amenable to modification. We
can allow ourselves to fall under their sway or not. But unlike a
simple perceptional illusion, all of the delusions we will encounter in
the following chapters have important implications for how we live
our lives. Although delusions sound like things we ought to avoid—
and usually they are—some delusions help.
Part of the problem is that we are so intelligent. Philosophers and
psychologists point to the human capacity for reason as an essential
trait that distinguishes us from other species. As far as we can tell,
humans alone have the degree of consciousness required to
appreciate and comment on their own lives. Indeed, existentialist
philosophers—never a cheerful bunch—considered reason and the
desire for understanding to be uniquely human burdens that
inevitably lead us to recognize the absurdity and meaninglessness of
life. In The Myth of Sisyphus, Albert Camus put it this way:
If I were a tree among trees, a cat among animals, this life would have a
meaning, or rather this problem would not arise, for I should belong to this
world. I should be this world to which I am now opposed by my whole
consciousness and my whole insistence upon familiarity. This ridiculous reason
is what sets me in opposition to all creation. I cannot cross it out with a stroke
of the pen.3
Reason and the sheer processing power of our brains have produced
great cities, art, and technologies, but even without falling into
Camus’ existential despair, we can recognize that our intellectual
gifts are not without drawbacks. Among our many talents is the
ability to anticipate death—our own and that of our loved ones—and,
as a result, we experience illness and loss in a way that a tree or a
cat cannot.
Furthermore, we are not just of one mind. Science’s dominant
theory of human cognition suggests we have two separate
motherboards running in our brains at the same time—one thinks
fast and the other slow. System One (clever name!) is our quick
intuitive brain that helps us maneuver the world in real time without
having to engage the more powerful machinery. It uses our past
experiences and simple rules of thumb to process the billions of bits
of data that wash over us every hour of every day. In contrast,
System Two is a slower supercomputer capable of doing math and
figuring out the things System One can’t do. System One wants to
make a quick decision and get on with it; System Two needs a
minute to weigh all the pros and cons. When you are going on a
road trip, the methodical System Two figures out how to fit all your
family’s stuff into the back of the station wagon, and System One
probes your gut feelings to decide what to order for lunch.
Although there are many advantages to having two motherboards
processing information, there are disadvantages, too. The last four
decades of behavioral economic research have shown that System
One and System Two are often at odds with each other. Psychologist
Daniel Kahneman received the 2002 Nobel Prize in economics for
work he did with the late Amos Tversky, a research program the
writer Michael Lewis called “The Undoing Project.”4 In a long series
of simple but clever experiments, Kahneman and Tversky showed
that quick-acting System One, while accurate most of the time,
sometimes made important mistakes—mistakes it would be best to
undo.
One of the most dramatic examples of this kind of conflict is ratio
bias, a phenomenon studied by psychologist Seymour Epstein.5
Consider the following choice. Imagine that you can win a dollar if
you draw a red jelly bean from a bowl, but you must choose which
of two bowls to draw from. In one bowl, there are ten jelly beans
total, one red and nine white. In the other bowl there are one
hundred beans in total, ten winning red ones and ninety white (see
Figure 1.2). The deliberate, mathematically inclined System Two
motherboard tells us that the chances of winning are exactly the
same in either bowl. You only get a single chance to pick a red bean,
so you should be indifferent between the two bowls. Flip a coin and
choose one. But, as you might suspect, the intuitive System One
motherboard is distracted by the ten winning jelly beans in the
larger bowl. Far from indifferent, System One often wants to draw
from the larger bowl because it appears to have so many more
winning red beans. When Epstein and his colleagues gave college
students these choices, as many as 80 percent of them chose the
larger bowl.
Figure 1.2 The arrangement of jelly beans in two bowls with equal probabilities
of choosing a red jelly bean.
Based on Denes-Raj and Epstein (1994).
Figure 1.3 The arrangement of jelly beans in two bowls with unequal probabilities
of choosing a red jelly bean.
Based on Denes-Raj and Epstein (1994).
Now you see the conflict. While the intuitive System One
motherboard was going for the big bowl, the more numerate System
Two motherboard must have been blowing its circuits. It knew that
as soon as the probability of winning in the big bowl dropped below
10 percent, the best choice was the small bowl. Choose the small
bowl! Furthermore, when confronted with choices like this, people
are often aware of the paradox of choosing against their better
interest, but the power of intuition is just too strong to get them to
do the right thing. A substantial number of very intelligent adults
kept choosing against their better judgment.
Ratio bias is a kind of mental illusion, akin to perceptual illusions,
such as the Müller-Lyer. It is an illusion produced by our mental
processing motherboards. But ratio bias is different from perceptual
illusions in an important way. As we have seen, nothing helps the
Müller-Lyer illusion. You can tell us the two lines are the same length
as many times as you please, but the one on the left is still going to
look longer. There is no cure. In contrast, ratio bias feels much more
like a choice. People who knowingly choose the big bowl have a
sense of giving in to intuition. You can imagine that a bunch of
people who were safely under the control of their rational System
Two motherboards might be able to get together and try to convince
the System One people that it is better to choose the smaller bowl.
The Müller-Lyer illusion is sticky, but ratio bias and many other
mental biases are less so. You have the impression the error can be
undone in a way that perceptual illusions cannot.
Over the last few decades, much of behavioral economic research
has been of this nature. Psychologists have discovered biases in our
thinking—many of them conflicts between System One and System
Two—with the hope of undoing them. In the case of ratio bias, it is
easy enough to stand to one side and see the right path. Intuition is
often a very helpful tool, but in this case, it obviously leads some of
us to choose the wrong bowl. By shining a light on these quirks in
our nature, psychologists hope to nudge us toward a truer path.
This book is a very different kind of project. It is not about
undoing anything at all. Instead, the following chapters will describe
a number of equally paradoxical human characteristics that are
better not being undone. It’s not that all bets are off. It would be
unwise to abandon logic and reason in favor of intuition and blind
belief. But the following chapters will present a more balanced view
of human nature, revealing a creature who is capable of great
intelligence and clarity, as well as predictable lapses in rationality.
Furthermore, there is a growing recognition that some of our
irrationalities are features, not bugs—aspects of our hardware that
at times confuse one or both of our motherboards but are,
nonetheless, very useful to us.
What’s a Delusion?
The word delusion often suggests something abnormal. The
American Psychiatric Association defines delusions as “fixed beliefs
that are not amenable to change in light of conflicting evidence”7
and lists delusions among the features of schizophrenia, one of the
most debilitating of all mental disorders. But the word delusion was
around long before there were any psychiatrists, and it is commonly
—and quite appropriately—applied to healthy, nonschizophrenic
people. Our modern English word stems from the Latin verb
deludere, the root of which is ludere, “to play.” Deludere is to “play
with” or “make a mockery of,” particularly by instilling a false belief
in your victim. This sense of the word is used by Joan of Arc in
Shakespeare’s play Henry the VI, Part I:
How selfish soever man may be supposed, there are evidently some principles
in his nature, which interest him in the fortune of others, and render their
happiness necessary to him, though he derives nothing from it except the
pleasure of seeing it.15
Of course, if you think about it, this moral sentiment can apply to
helping people you will never know, and even to helping other
species. When we give money to charities or volunteer for a service
organization, we need not experience “the pleasure of seeing” the
happiness of others. We can imagine it, and that is often enough.
When considering rational choice in an economic framework, we
tend to think of narrowly self-interested goals, but even the father of
self-interested economics understood that some of our personal
goals are not about us at all. They are selfish only in the sense that
we are interested in the fortunes of others. A number of the useful
delusions in the chapters ahead involve these other-directed goals.
he watched her departure with a light heart, and benevolent wishes for the
success of the exiles in their strange new home that was to be; and he got his
insurance-money when she went down in mid-ocean and told no tales.
Clifford went on to argue that, had the ship sailed safely, the owner
would remain just as guilty of unethical behavior. The outcome of
the trip was irrelevant to the ethics of the shipowner’s behavior. In
either case, he would be just as wrong for holding a belief without
adequate justification.
Taking the point further still, Clifford argued that even holding a
completely private belief that was not supported by evidence was
unethical. Even if the person never expressed the belief or acted on
it in any way, the mere act of holding it could lead to a general
gullibility:
The danger to society is not merely that it should believe wrong things,
though that is great enough; but that it should become credulous, and lose
the habit of testing things and inquiring into them; for then it must sink back
into savagery.
He who begins by loving Christianity better than Truth, will proceed by loving
his own sect or Church better than Christianity, and end loving himself better
than all.17
Nineteen years later, the American psychologist and philosopher
William James responded directly to Clifford’s challenge in an
address given to the Philosophical Clubs of Yale and Brown
Universities entitled “The Will to Believe,”18 which was later
published as an essay. James was a rationalist and a scientist who
agreed with Clifford in many respects, but he also described Clifford
as “that delicious enfant terrible” who expressed his viewpoint “with
somewhat too much of robustious pathos in the voice.” In most
cases James and Clifford would agree, signing on to a style of
reasoning consistent with modern rational-choice theory, but James’
essay was designed to drill a tiny hole in Clifford’s “Ethics of Belief”
large enough to pull God through. To do this, James outlined three
special conditions that made it acceptable to allow passions to
determine belief—in other words, he was making a special case for
mending the broken arrow from desires to belief. James’ special
conditions were:
Looking Ahead
The subtitle of this book, “Why It’s Not Always Rational to Be
Rational,” is something of a play on words, but in one sense, it is an
accurate description of the book’s viewpoint. The delusions in the
following chapters may not meet the standards of the rational-choice
model, but they are rational in the sense that they meet an
important goal. The psychologist Jonathan Baron expresses a similar
view in this passage:
The best kind of thinking, which we shall call rational thinking, is whatever
kind of thinking best helps people achieve their goals. If it should turn out
that following the rules of formal logic leads to eternal happiness then it is
rational thinking to follow the rules of logic (assuming that we all want eternal
happiness). If it should turn out, on the other hand, that carefully violating
the laws of logic at every turn leads to eternal happiness, then it is these
violations that we shall call rational.23
If there be any life that is really better we should lead, and if there be any
idea which, if believed in, would help us to lead that life, then it would be
really better for us to believe in that idea. . . .24
As always, James was concerned about religious belief and saw the
practical value of religion as a possible response to “tough-minded”
philosophers who were empirical, materialistic, and irreligious. And,
similar to belief in religion, there are some delusions in this book
that will not appeal to everyone. For example, many people love
their spouses very deeply but, when tragedy strikes, do not—and
could not—entertain the kind of magical thinking experienced by
Susan and Joan Didion. Grief takes many shapes. In contrast, some
helpful delusions are impossible to avoid. But, in every case, the
delusions we will encounter have a pragmatic value that justifies
their existence.
The examples of beneficial delusions in the following chapters are
not meant to be an exhaustive list. There are undoubtedly many
others. But the delusions presented here are some of the most
important and valuable delusions we possess. They are ridiculous
bits of unreason that are, nonetheless, central to our humanity.
2
A Bright Future in Sales
Self-Flattering Delusions
The Journey Into Self encounter group had been given two
questions to examine:
In the office in which I work there are five people of whom I am afraid. Each
of these people is afraid of four people (excluding overlaps), for a total of
twenty, and each of these twenty people is afraid of six people, making a total
of one hundred and twenty people who are feared by at least one person.
Each of these one hundred and twenty people is afraid of the other one
hundred and nineteen, and all of these one hundred and forty-five people are
afraid of the twelve men at the top who helped found and build the company
and now own and direct it.17
—Something Happened by Joseph Heller
Bluffing Yourself
I’m a terrible poker player. For years, I’ve played with a group of
friends, and we all know who the good and bad players are.
Fortunately, the stakes are quite low (nickel ante; quarter limit),
making it possible to win as much as $20 but difficult to lose more
than $5—although, on occasion, I’ve managed to do so.
Part of the reason I’m bad at poker is that I’m not a good bluffer.
Although there is a lot of luck in poker, successful play involves the
skillful use of a number of strategies, one of which is bluffing. If you
have been dealt a bad hand, in some cases, it is still possible to win
by giving off signals that you have a strong hand. For example, you
might raise the size of the current bet, forcing others to choose
between risking more money and folding. In an ideal scenario, the
bluffer succeeds in convincing the remaining players to drop out and
wins the pot with a very weak hand. But if the bluff is to work, your
competitors must be sufficiently concerned that you might be
holding a full house and not a pair of queens.
Of course, in everyday non-poker life, we often encounter people
who lie and engage in various forms of deception. Sales people lie
about their services, politicians lie, children lie to their parents and
teachers, and parents lie to their kids. Unfortunately, evidence
suggests that we are bad at detecting lies, and as a result there are
still many con artists among us.35 In what seems like a natural
career path, Maria Konnikova, a psychologist, science writer, and
author of The Confidence Game: Why We Fall for It . . . Every Time,
is also a professional poker player.36
But lying is rational. The person who lies is not deluded. Liars
know the truth but present a different picture in order to gain
something of value. Of course, lying is often frowned upon, but if
you are more interested in getting ahead than protecting your public
image, lying can make sense and be completely rational. Indeed,
non-human species lie in a number of ways. Insects, fish, and land
animals have evolved camouflage that allows them to escape
predators by blending into the background, and nut-burying squirrels
will dig and cover empty holes to confuse those who might want to
steal their reserves.37 Humans have the ability to reason and make
plans, and if you knowingly lie or dissemble, it is often a rational
decision whose potential costs and benefits you’ve taken into
account. In which case, you are far from deluded.
The problem with lying is that it is difficult to do well. Family and
friends who know our tricks can often tell when we are trying to pull
a fast one, and if you have been socialized to feel guilty about lying,
evidence of your discomfort may leak out in your tone of voice or
non-verbal behavior. You may stop making eye contact, start twirling
your hair, raise the pitch of your voice, or talk more quickly. Finally,
liars have to remember their lies and tell a story that is consistent
with the tangled web they’ve woven. Although most people are bad
at detecting lying, choosing to lie entails considerable risk. For all but
the conscienceless sociopath, being an effective liar is no walk in the
park. Self-deception makes it easier.
If we are going to reap the benefits of unwarranted optimism, it
helps if we believe our own hype. The evolutionary biologist Robert
Trivers has argued that humans have acquired the ability to deceive
themselves, in part, because it makes us more effective at deceiving
others.38 Take, for example, the overconfident athlete. Presenting an
air of confidence—no matter the odds against you—will be more
effective if it isn’t an act, if you truly believe you will be successful
and don’t have to talk yourself into it. Your confidence may not be
entirely rational, but if you believe it nonetheless, you can’t be
accused of lying. You are operating under a kind of delusion.
Alternatively, according to Trivers, if you are just acting and are not
convinced that you can win, your rival may detect your inner
weakness and be encouraged rather than intimidated. Just as liars
who believe their own untruths are more persuasive, people who are
authentically overconfident will not encourage their opponents by
revealing hints of weakness.39
Over the years, I have watched a number of tennis players go off
on explosive tirades when things went wrong, sometimes directing
their anger at rackets or umpires, but often directing it at
themselves. Commentators frequently explain this behavior as the
athlete’s attempt to get “psyched” into playing harder and better, but
research does not support this view. In individual sports like tennis,
in particular, negative mood prior to the match is associated with
poorer performance, and self-confidence is the strongest predictor of
winning.40 But even if the sports commentators were right, they are
not considering the effect of these displays on the opponent. If I
were in the middle of a difficult match, nothing would boost my
confidence more than seeing the person on the other side of the net
explode into a tantrum. A much more effective signaling strategy
would be to simply keep moving ahead with determination, even as
you make errors or fall behind. The zombies of The Walking Dead
and the cyborgs of the Terminator movies are terrifying because, no
matter what you throw at them, they just keep coming at you. You
have to admire the determination of those zombies and cyborgs.
When trying to present a strong front, there are other reasons
why believing in yourself may bring benefits. If you recognize that
you’re putting on an act—that you don’t really feel as powerful as
the image you are projecting—you may experience cognitive
dissonance. This famous psychological concept suggests that, when
our actions and our values or beliefs appear to be in conflict, we
often reduce the resulting uneasiness by changing our beliefs. The
original demonstration of the concept involved participants in a very
boring experiment who were paid a sum of money to tell the next
participant that the study was actually enjoyable. Some were paid a
small amount of money and others a larger amount, and those who
were paid just a small amount later rated the boring task as more
fun than those who were paid a large amount.41 According to theory,
cognitive dissonance was created by the participants saying
something that they presumably did not believe in return for such a
small sum of money. Being paid a larger amount to lie provided its
own justification, resulting in less dissonance. But those who heard
themselves say the experiment was fun in return for a small reward,
could only eliminate the conflict between their actions (reporting
that it was a fun experiment) and their prior beliefs (that it was dull)
by changing their beliefs (actually, it was kind of fun). As a result, if
you resolve any dissonance about your strong approach by changing
your belief about yourself—“I really can do this!”—it can only help,
but if the dissonance goes unresolved, it can have a detrimental
effect.
In the current service economy, many people spend their work
days painting a smile on their faces for the benefit of customers and
employers. This is sometimes called emotional labor, and studies of
service workers show that “surface acting” can lead to emotional
exhaustion and job dissatisfaction.42 The negative effects of surface
acting are particularly pronounced when the employee places great
personal importance on being authentic. According to cognitive
dissonance theory, this inner conflict is sometimes relieved by
changing your self-concept. Service workers who resolve their inner
conflict by changing their attitude toward their jobs and learning to
enjoy their contact with customers have greater psychological well-
being. Furthermore, research suggests that customers can detect
fake emotions, which can be reflected back on the employee in the
form of unpleasant customer interactions.
In some cases, there may be a middle ground between conscious
faking and true delusion. One college summer, I worked in the
machine shop of a factory that fabricated bleachers for use in
gymnasiums. The raw steel we worked with was covered in carbon,
and each night I came home with soot in my nostrils and hands that
never got clean. But I was a middle-class town kid, a summer hire,
and the regular employees, some of them my own age, came from
poor rural areas outside of town. I was just starting college, but
even then I spoke differently than they did. Despite this being the
upper Midwest, my coworkers had the drawl of farm people and
used colloquial expressions I’d never heard before. I liked the work
but was aware of being a kind of minority in this world of the
machine shop, and I wanted to fit in.
Over time, I found myself adopting their way of speaking. Today
it might be called code switching. I learned what vowels to extend
and started using some of their expressions. At home, I would revert
to my usual manner of speech, but at work, I spoke their language.
And it helped. No one ever mentioned the change in my speaking
style, and I think my coworkers felt more comfortable around me. I
know I felt more comfortable around them. I was faking a kind of
persona that was not my own, but the work environment supported
my charade and rewarded me for it. As a result, I did not experience
putting on a work personality as labor, because my code switching
reduced a conflict between my natural behavior and that of the
people in my work environment. Similarly, a study of flight
attendants found that those who were the healthiest in their jobs
had learned to regulate their emotional displays.43 They offered all
passengers a basic level of friendliness which they did not extend
further unless their customers reciprocated. This ability to adapt to a
supportive or non-supportive environment prevented them from
feeling emotionally beaten down by their jobs.
But in the case of overconfidence in a competitive environment,
Trivers’ theory suggests that we will be more effective if we truly
believe our own overly optimistic story. While no one wants to be a
sociopath, a zombie, or a cyborg, in competitive situations such as
sports and business, being consistently and boldly optimistic without
a visible chink in the armor is more likely to bring success.
There is also evidence that overconfidence is rewarded in a
number of social environments. For example, confident
entrepreneurs are more resilient during setbacks and more likely to
take on subsequent ventures after an initial failure, but they are also
able to draw more committed and motivated people to work with
them.44 Furthermore, in group settings, people who are
overconfident about their abilities are granted higher social status,
and—somewhat paradoxically—when their actual level of
performance is revealed, they are not penalized by the group and
they maintain their high status. In a series of experiments people
were recruited to answer some general knowledge questions,
sometimes alone and sometimes working together with others.45
After working both alone and together, group members privately
ranked each other on status, influence, and leadership ability. As had
been shown in other research, confident participants were given
higher status by fellow group members. Next, each person’s
performance during the individual testing was revealed to the group,
which meant that, in some cases, people who had expressed great
confidence were revealed to have been overconfident, with scores
no better than other group members. The surprising result was that,
in subsequent secret ratings by fellow group members, these
overconfident test-takers maintained their high ranking from the
other group members, despite achieving scores that were no better
than participants who were given lower-status scores. So, in this
case, overconfidence paid off and was equally or more important to
group status than actual performance.
In a direct test of Trivers’ theory, researchers in Munich, Germany
placed participants in a job interview context. Prior to the main
experiment, half the participants were led to believe that they had
Another random document with
no related content on Scribd:
fronte do vulcão. Os barcos amarrados entrechocaram-se com
lúgubre ruído e as cordas muito apertadas gemeram dolorosamente.
Daí a nada a chuva começou a cair em enormes bátegas sibilando
como flechas,—parecia que o cáos queria reapossar-se da
natureza, confundindo-lhe de novo todos os elementos».
Esta separata agora publicada pelo dr. Costa Ferreira é uma bela
obra. Os nomes dos grandes mortos são como as plantas. Precisam
de jardineiros, cultores apaixonados, tratadores conscienciosos e
dedicados, senão breve vem a delir-se na memória das gerações e
o seu derradeiro pouso é nas páginas dos livros especialistas a que
lá de vez em quando um ou outro compulsor estudioso sacode o pó
e afugenta a traça. Precisam de quem buzine ao vulgo, para
escarmento duns e exemplo doutros, a sua vida e as suas obras.
Sempre assim se tem feito.
O nome de Ferraz de Macedo não podia encontrar mais piedoso
cultor do que o seu discípulo e médico Costa Ferreira. Possuido do
mesmo acendrado amor aos estudos antropológicos, amando o
mesmo ideal, Costa Ferreira dele recebeu as últimas vontades. Foi
êle o testamenteiro de «mil e tantos crânios, trezentos e tantos
esqueletos, de origem conhecida, reproduções estereográficas de
crânios célebres dos principais museus da Europa, tudo medido e
rigorosamente observado e, com êle, arsenal antropológico e
livraria» que Ferraz destinou ao Museu da Escola Politécnica. É êle
tambêm que, cumprindo um último prometimento, tomou à sua
conta o não deixar esquecer o nome do mestre e continuar-lhe a
obra apoteotizando-lhe o nome numa contínua e modesta
memoranda dos seus trabalhos.
Piedosa homenagem esta, tanto mais para encarecer quanto é
certo que, dada a indiferença geral e oficial, ninguêm tal encargo
tomaria. Morreu, acabou-se. Trate cada um de si e já não é pouco!
Auscultem um milhar de criaturas e digam-me se não é assim que
elas pensam!
Falho de senso prático como todo o cerebral, êle só tinha uma
única paixão: a sciência. Só ela o vulnerabilizava, babando-se
diante duma esquírola do homem terciário. Fora da sciência, não
vivia. Nada sentia que não fôsse passado pelo crivo dos seus
apontamentos e pela ideia dos seus crânios. E tão afastado o
traziam os seus estudos, da vida vívida, que breve iria à mendiguez
se mão provedora e amiga não fôsse, acordando o sábio do seu
reino encantado, cuidar-lhe da mantença.
Nessa abstracção tão funda viveu, com seus canários os
pequenitos da vizinhança, os seus crânios «como num celeiro o
grão que espera embarque», medidos, e, ensacados por êle, com
mão reminiscenciada dos seus tempos de aprendiz de alfaiate, e os
seus gatos, que morreu sonhando. «Depois de morto é que eu
viverei... Para os novos é que eu apelo. Êles que me continuem e
me vinguem». Tais foram as suas últimas palavras, erguendo-se
num repelão e visionando ainda uma visão acariciadora. Não voltou
a falar. Costa Ferreira tomou o encargo piedoso de o lembrar, de o
não deixar morrer de todo, na ingratidão indígena. Tal disse e tal
cumpriu.
O sábio morreu. Os jornais titubiaram, os amigos escapuliram-se
e, mais tombo menos tombo, lá ficou no seu coval, talvez ainda com
saudade dos seus crânios e dos seus apontamentos. Solitário como
foi em vida, assim o foi na morte. A sua apoteose não chegara
ainda. Os gazeteiros não carrilhonaram às multidões cretinizadas
nem sequer o «ilustre e o distinto» da cozinha trivial. E como
morrera pobre e modestamente se enterrou, tambêm não
panegirizaram a criatura com girândolas de adjectivos surrados pelo
uso e abuso da pindarização de todo o fiel bigorrilhas que morre e
deixa ôsso que roer.
Depois talvez fôsse assim melhor. ¿Que tinham que ver com êle
os adjectivos?
Se agora a matula egoísticada bichanava sempre que o via um
apodo desdenhoso, que resvalava do seu arnez de indiferença pelo
que diriam, tão longe andava dos que com êle se acotovelavam, em
tempos idos não faltaria o ingranzeu das turbas e o rumor falaz das
vélhas macbéticas do sítio, taxando de pacto diabólico o seu estudo,
qual outro Cláudio Frollo.
Todavia êle sem se agastar da indiferença duns, da parranice
doutros e do criminoso egoísmo de todos, contente se dava com a
sua estreiteza e, não requerendo melhoria de sorte, cada vez mais
se apartava do mundo real para o mundo de sonho. O trabalho para
êle era tudo. Confinava a sua casa com as estrêlas, vista cá
debaixo, da cidade, sitando lá no alto, ponto negrusco zimboriando o
alto do monte. Uma árvore anciã, fronteiriça, foi sua companhia e só
ela talvez cogitou na sua labuta interior. Ventos brigosos
sinfonizavam óperas de tormenta, numa orquestração como só a
tem o infinito. Tudo as sentia. A árvore vélha bracejava agitada e
angustiosamente. A cidade lá em baixo era um torvelinho de cousas
indistintas. Só êle prosseguia, medindo, classificando, registrando. E
podia um vento mau terremotar a casa. Podia um tufão furioso ir
desmoronar as sacas de crânios e formar no adro a pilha de crânios
que é o quadro de Verestchaguine, aquele pintor russo que morreu
na guerra russo-japoneza a bordo do Petropavlosk,—Après la
bataille. Êle não sentiria, êle continuaria as suas notas, e só as
terminaria quando nada mais, nenhuma sutura, nenhuma bossa,
nenhuma asimetria, houvesse a notular.
Se nunca foi aos cornos da glória é porque lhe faltava a
destridade dos malabaristas do reclamo. A sua tratabilidade de
sábio raso, sem alardos de sciência, nem emprenhidões de basófia,
contumaz em lusas celebridades, de todos o tornaram querido.
Depois um quási nada de antropófobo, a antropofobia do sábio que
se ensimesma em lucubrações profundas, e gasta a vida à luz
estudiosa. Era esta que, pelas negridões da noite, brilhava sempre
no seu gabinete, como na sua mente brilhou sempre a fé, a fé numa
perfectibilidade do homem e uma consolação no estudo, que, estou
certo, afinal talvez nunca chegasse a encontrar, que o tornavam
quási um estranho a tudo, a todos os arruídos e quermesses que lá
ao fundo convulsionavam a cidade.
E quem sabe lá, a esta hora talvez êle esteja ainda contando ao
verme as palavras enternecidas dos snrs. Manouvrier e Quatrefages
e as saudades dos seus crânios muito amados.
Então da outra vida, pensam as almas crentes, o sábio abençoará
de-certo e tarefa bondosíssima, devotada e carinhosa do Dr. Costa
Ferreira.
Emigrantes
PARO diante da reprodução dum quadro. É do Salon dêste ano,
intitula-se «Émigrants» e assina-o Paul Sieffert. Eu não conheço o
pintor. O assunto conheço demasiadamente. Se não viram o quadro,
eu conto. O quadro do sr. Paul Sieffert é uma gare ou cousa que o
valha. Cai neve. O horizonte é longínqùo e a perspectiva monótona.
Nem uma árvore, nem uma planta. Neve, montes ao longe, neve
sempre. Á direita vagons. Vagons de mercadorias, vagons que
esperam tempo de seguir, levando não se sabe o quê, ocupam
quási tôda a tela. No primeiro plano uma mulher sentada no chão
estende um peito à voracidade do petiz que manduca. O macho,
dorme ao lado, cabeça sôbre uma perna sua, braço estendido ao
longo do corpo. A mão é primorosa. O busto bem estudado. Na cara
—a cara é tôda uma psicologia—mostra a estereotipia de
inumeráveis privações. Parece repousar, ou sonhar, cavada a face,
bem vincadas as rugas que a angústia marca a baixo relevo no
rosto dos que sofrem. A mulher ao lado cogita. Parece olhar-nos.
Não olha. Ela não vê. Scisma! Em quê? Só ela o poderá dizer. Uma
trouxa mísera, junto, é tôda a bagagem. Êle tipo de operário, ela de
fêmea resoluta e sofredora. Vão partir. Vencerão? Quem o saberá?
Não sei porquê, são-me simpáticos estes tipos. Se pudesse,
protegia-os. Sucede muitas vezes a minha piedade ir de preferência
para os tipos que os meus pintores ou os meus artistas me
entremostram—tão pouco a merecem, os que a gente topa todos os
dias. Ao lado uma ranchada manduca, ainda. Mais longe, pequenos
ranchos, trocam esperanças. Um vulto, ao fundo ou quási, remexe a
maleta. E, como se o pintor os quisesse destacar, aparece-nos,
quási escondidamente, um vélho que sonha, pelas costas um vélho
capote, no olhar uma nostalgia feroz, contrastando com um homem
que, de bruços, rosto apoiado na palma, scisma. Não scisma em
sonhos. Scisma em realidades. A energia da sua expressão traduz-
se assim. É amargo. Êste homem sabe da vida. Há combates no
seu cérebro. Vencerá? Todos êles vão partir. Ilusões, quimeras,
esperanças, é a bagagem. Sabe-se lá quem vence?
Até aqui o quadro. Se a agente quiser realidade, apesar da tela
ser de Paris, temo-la bem perto. Nós somos do país da emigração.
O quadro de Sieffert é tambêm nosso, com a diferença de o nosso
ser de mais recrudescível agonia. O português é mais triste.
Todos os dias desembarcam nas estações, mangas de gente
engajada que sonhou e ainda vem sonhando. Vão até ao Brasil e
são o que se chama emigrantes. Então pagam a patente à
realidade. O emigrante, por via de regra, não sabe escrever. Soletra
às vezes, mas é mais frequente não saber. Não sabendo ler, não
tendo a confidência muda da escrita por derivativo, estes cérebros
deitam-se a sonhar como nunca sonhou ninguêm. As histórias das
princesas encantadas, as mágicas, os contos da carochinha e mil
belezas populares foram criadas de-certo por quem não sabia ler
nem escrever. O Sonho é a válvula. Ai daqueles pobres cérebros se
não tivessem o Sonho! Terminariam no suicídio. Mas o Sonho é a
miragem. Acreditou alguêm no Sonho? Sempre êsse alguêm pagou
caro a sua confiança. Porque é certo: Só quem teve pesadelo
acordou em realidade. Quem sonhou delícias acorda mais
brutalmente—como alguêm que tendo vivido dois meses em quarto
escuro o trouxessem de repente para a alacridade duma paisagem
batida da soalheira.
Sonham em Portugal, na solidão tranqùila da sua choça e quási
sempre vão acordar em longínqùas e estranhas terras. Olham em
volta. Quem? Ninguêm amigo. Indiferentes, criaturas a quem a dôr
alheia, à força de vista e assistida, embotou tôda a sensibilidade. A
saudade é o pior inimigo do emigrante. «Saudade gôsto amargo de
infelizes, delicioso pungir de acerbo espinho», diz Garrett. Mas a
saudade é tudo. Se se vê o mar, é um vapor que vem, porque vem;
se um vapor parte, ai quem déra ir com êle, partir tambêm com êle.
São os poentes, duma melancolia infinita, são as noites estreladas e
tropicais, são nuvens que passam correndo, farrapos de sonho,
recordações da infância, cousas dispersas. Tudo é saudade. E o
pobre animal, bêsta de carga, gaguejando comoções, tem nos olhos
uma angústia latente, uma tristeza intraduzível, mixto de resignação,
de sofrimento e dum consuntivo mal. Mas, parte. Armazenam-o a
bordo, num dêsses casarões flutuantes, âmbito estreito, muito
desabrigo, trato mercenário e uma grade que os enjaula num restrito
círculo de vida. Ali dormem, comem e sonham promíscuamente. E
naquelas longas noites de travessia, enxugadas as lágrimas da
partida, estranguladas as saudades da largada, só o mugir surdo
das vagas lambendo o casco e os ronquidos surdos da máquina
cumprindo o seu fadário. Pobres almas divagantes, vão tambêm
embaladas no sonho, confiadas, e não escutando, no marulho do
oceano, a sua raiva fria e hostil, mas um cântico embalador, que traz
de onda em onda, de vaga em vaga, as recordações distantes, a
misteriosa correspondência dos entes queridos que ficaram em
terra.