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| I sat in the easy chair. “Aftab,” I said, “would you like to join me for a cup of tea?” My anxiety did not respond. I waited a while, picturing its I sat in the easy chair. “Aftab,” I said, “would you like to join me for a cup of tea?” My anxiety did not respond. I waited a while, picturing its face. It had an egg-shaped head and small, dark eyes on the sides rather than at the front. A long, slim nose and a narrow mouth beneath. Its skin was pale and smooth, except for a wrinkled frown on its brow and more wrinkles around both eyes that made it appear older than it should. Perfectly bald, it had no facial hair or eyebrows either. “Aftab,” I repeated. Still, my anxiety did not come out to meet me. What a perfectly moody read: Two Lumps of Sugar for Mr Anxiety follows a fifty-year-old British man, Jed, in the aftermath of his lonely old mother’s death — as he realises that he could have treated his Mum better; that he could have treated his wife and children better over the years, too — and as he grows to despise his job, Jed decides to take a three month contract in India; for the extravagant salary and the break from his incessant daily grind. But while Jed might think he can run away from his problems, some of those problems insist on being acknowledged; even if they need to take physical form and watch Jed while he sleeps, and follow along with him to the office, and join him in endless cups of tea. As a narrative of one man’s slow slide into anxiety and despair, author Eli Wilde has written an affecting account of a mind turning back on itself, but this is also an entertaining book filled with dark humour and witty characters. Perfectly moody and touching and sharp; three and a half stars rounded down, but definitely recommended. (Note: I read an ARC through NetGalley and passages quoted may not be in their final forms.) I continued to read, despite the Thing. No, not despite the Thing. I had a word for the Thing now. Anxiety. Naming my tormentor didn’t make things any easier. Maybe that would change if I found out more about the condition. In the Acknowledgements at the end, Wilde notes that he “found both Claire Weekes and Barry McDonagh immensely helpful in my battle against anxiety when I was working in India,” and that explains not only why Jed employs tips from these real-life experts as he deals with his own mounting anxiety, but also explains why Jed’s experience — with mental health and with working in India — has the definite ring of truth. Everything from noting that the pale, egg-headed “Mr Anxiety” (AKA “Aftab”) looks like he could have been drawn by Russian illustrator Anton Semenov (Semenov created “Other People’s Secrets”, used as the cover art for this novel) and that Aftab speaks in the voice of Stephen Fry, to the descriptions of Indian beaches and traffic and street beggars (who might be grifters or might be lepers; more info on leprosy is provided at the end), all root this fantastic-sounding tale in the real world; one with real pain. As for the title, by way of Barry McDonagh’s philosophy of Dare: if anxiety is hiding in the shadows and taking jabs at your well-being, invite it to show itself — join you for a cup of tea, even — and invite it to do its worst; you never know what it might be trying to tell you: I held onto him tightly, as his body wracked with the force of his sobs. After a moment, I wept too. If I had looked deep into myself, I would have known why, but I didn’t. I didn’t want to face the thing I had kept hidden since the first day I came to India. Much of this really worked for me — the details, the tone, the characters — but something just missed in the plot for me (maybe it felt too true: like, a person can move to India for a three month contract and have interesting interactions with coworkers from around the world in real life, but in a novel, there needs to be a narrative reason for all of this. And I will, as ever, acknowledge that I have a particular narrative taste that isn't universal; this will certainly be a five star read to others.) Merged review: I sat in the easy chair. “Aftab,” I said, “would you like to join me for a cup of tea?” My anxiety did not respond. I waited a while, picturing its face. It had an egg-shaped head and small, dark eyes on the sides rather than at the front. A long, slim nose and a narrow mouth beneath. Its skin was pale and smooth, except for a wrinkled frown on its brow and more wrinkles around both eyes that made it appear older than it should. Perfectly bald, it had no facial hair or eyebrows either. “Aftab,” I repeated. Still, my anxiety did not come out to meet me. What a perfectly moody read: Two Lumps of Sugar for Mr Anxiety follows a fifty-year-old British man, Jed, in the aftermath of his lonely old mother’s death — as he realises that he could have treated his Mum better; that he could have treated his wife and children better over the years, too — and as he grows to despise his job, Jed decides to take a three month contract in India; for the extravagant salary and the break from his incessant daily grind. But while Jed might think he can run away from his problems, some of those problems insist on being acknowledged; even if they need to take physical form and watch Jed while he sleeps, and follow along with him to the office, and join him in endless cups of tea. As a narrative of one man’s slow slide into anxiety and despair, author Eli Wilde has written an affecting account of a mind turning back on itself, but this is also an entertaining book filled with dark humour and witty characters. Perfectly moody and touching and sharp; three and a half stars rounded down, but definitely recommended. (Note: I read an ARC through NetGalley and passages quoted may not be in their final forms.) I continued to read, despite the Thing. No, not despite the Thing. I had a word for the Thing now. Anxiety. Naming my tormentor didn’t make things any easier. Maybe that would change if I found out more about the condition. In the Acknowledgements at the end, Wilde notes that he “found both Claire Weekes and Barry McDonagh immensely helpful in my battle against anxiety when I was working in India,” and that explains not only why Jed employs tips from these real-life experts as he deals with his own mounting anxiety, but also explains why Jed’s experience — with mental health and with working in India — has the definite ring of truth. Everything from noting that the pale, egg-headed “Mr Anxiety” (AKA “Aftab”) looks like he could have been drawn by Russian illustrator Anton Semenov (Semenov created “Other People’s Secrets”, used as the cover art for this novel) and that Aftab speaks in the voice of Stephen Fry, to the descriptions of Indian beaches and traffic and street beggars (who might be grifters or might be lepers; more info on leprosy is provided at the end), all root this fantastic-sounding tale in the real world; one with real pain. As for the title, by way of Barry McDonagh’s philosophy of Dare: if anxiety is hiding in the shadows and taking jabs at your well-being, invite it to show itself — join you for a cup of tea, even — and invite it to do its worst; you never know what it might be trying to tell you: I held onto him tightly, as his body wracked with the force of his sobs. After a moment, I wept too. If I had looked deep into myself, I would have known why, but I didn’t. I didn’t want to face the thing I had kept hidden since the first day I came to India. Much of this really worked for me — the details, the tone, the characters — but something just missed in the plot for me (maybe it felt too true: like, a person can move to India for a three month contract and have interesting interactions with coworkers from around the world in real life, but in a novel, there needs to be a narrative reason for all of this. And I will, as ever, acknowledge that I have a particular narrative taste that isn't universal; this will certainly be a five star read to others.) ...more |
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| He motored slowly down the point and along the south shore of the island. The gulf was calm in the last of the light and lights had begun to come u He motored slowly down the point and along the south shore of the island. The gulf was calm in the last of the light and lights had begun to come up along the shore to the west. He swung the boat around and twisted the throttle slowly forward and headed north, taking his bearings by the lights along the causeway. It was cold out on the water with the sun down. The wind was cold. By the time he got to the marina he thought that the man who’d gone ashore on the island was almost certainly the passenger I am compelled to start by noting: Cormac McCarthy is probably my favourite author (in the top five anyway; the dog curled against me as I type this is named Cormac), and as I read all of McCarthy’s oeuvre before joining Goodreads, The Passenger is the first of his novels that I have attempted to review; and the task feels daunting. Of course I loved this, I expected to, and while I had the familiar visceral reaction to his sentences, and while I had an intense mental engagement with his overarching philosophy, I also recognise that this novel serves as a synthesis of all of McCarthy’s previous work; this has the feeling of a legacy project and I don’t know that it can be fully read or reviewed on its own (by which I suppose I mean that the plot of The Passenger isn’t its most important or straightforward element and it might be dissatisfying to someone who isn’t soul-stuffed with the previous works to which it hearkens). However, it would take a thesis-length essay to write down everything I’m thinking and feeling, and nobody wants that, so, suffice to say: I did love this, and I could objectively give The Passenger five stars, but I am going to give it four only as a measure against those of McCarthy’s own previous novels that stuffed my soul and taught me what the novel could do. Spoilerish from here. Here is a story. The last of all men who stands alone in the universe while it darkens about him. Who sorrows all things with a single sorrow. Out of the pitiable and exhausted remnants of what was once his soul he’ll find nothing from which to craft the least thing godlike to guide him in these last of days. The titular “passenger” (as referenced in the first quote) seems a MacGuffin to engine the plot: Bobby Western is a salvage diver who is afraid of the murky deep, and in the opening scene, he is working with a partner to search for survivors on a submerged plane off the Mississippi coast. Western notes that the pilot’s flight bag and the plane’s black box had been removed, and when he is later visited by some government agents, he learns that one of the plane’s passengers had also disappeared before his search began. The mystery of this missing passenger hangs over the plot, and eventually, Western learns how powerless a citizen is in the face of government displeasure. And while there seems to be a direct link between Western having his assets and passport seized and the frequent visits from the mysterious men in black, we also learn that a burglary at his grandmother’s house had seen all of his family’s papers and photographs stolen; is there a bigger conspiracy at play involving the entire Western family? That’s pretty much the story arc, but there’s so much more to the novel. Western’s father had been a genius — one of the architects of the atomic bomb dropped on Japan — and the following recounts his fact-finding trip at the end of the war (presaging the opening salvage dive, with the father discovering “passengers” of his own): There were people who escaped Hiroshima and rushed to Nagasaki to see that their loved ones were safe. Arriving just in time to be incinerated. He went there after the war with a team of scientists. My father. He said that everything was rusty. Everything looked covered with rust. There were burnt-out shells of trolleycars standing in the streets. The glass melted out of the sashes and pooled on the bricks. Seated on the blackened springs the charred skeletons of the passengers with their clothes and hair gone and their bones hung with blackened strips of flesh. Their eyes boiled from their sockets. Lips and noses burned away. Sitting in their seats laughing. The living walked about but there was no place to go. They waded by the thousands into the river and died there. They were like insects in that no one direction was preferable to another. Burning people crawled among the corpses like some horror in a vast crematorium. They simply thought that the world had ended. It hardly even occurred to them that it had anything to do with the war. They carried their skin bundled up in their arms before them like wash that it not drag in the rubble and ash and they passed one another mindlessly on their mindless journeyings over the smoking afterground, the sighted no better served than the blind. The news of all this did not even leave the city for two days. Those who survived would often remember these horrors with a certain aesthetic to them. In that mycoidal phantom blooming in the dawn like an evil lotus and in the melting of solids not heretofore known to do so stood a truth that would silence poetry a thousand years. Like an immense bladder, they would say. Like some sea thing. Wobbling slightly on the near horizon. Then the unspeakable noise. They saw birds in the dawn sky ignite and explode soundlessly and fall in long arcs earthward like burning party favors. The only other meaningful use of the word “passengers” that I happened upon also concerned birds, which seems to tie into this passage: One spring, Western discovers migratory birds laying on the beach, exhausted from their flight across the Gulf of Mexico, “You could pick them up out of the sand and hold them trembling in your palm. Their small hearts beating and their eyes shuttering. He walked the beach with his flashlight the whole of the night to fend away predators and toward the dawn he slept with them in the sand. That none disturb these passengers.” The son protecting these “weary passerines” as penance for his father’s sins perhaps? Like the father, Bobby Western and his much younger sister, Alicia, are also certified geniuses: Bobby had an interest in maths until he got to Caltech, whereupon he changed his major to physics and then dropped out altogether; becoming a salvage diver, he’s an eidetic polymath who can mentally calculate the weight of water in a submerged barge or remember a badge number after a brief flash. (This rejection of one’s inheritance — intellectual and material — in order to live rough at blue collar work, obviously, puts one in mind of the title character from Suttree.) But the real genius of the family is Alicia: a mathematical savant of the highest order, her brand of intellect is accompanied by schizophrenia and bizarre phantasmagoria headlined by a flipper-handed, scabby-skulled dwarf (known alternately as an electromelic hallucination, a spectral operator, a pathogen, but most often as the Thalidomide Kid or “The Kid”; “The Kid” being, elsewhere, the name of one of McCarthy’s best-loved characters [at least, best-loved by me]). Alicia is cursed with the genius to understand the futility of existence; the impossibility of understanding or describing this pointless world (whether by physics or mathematics or the written word), and when she is visited by The Kid (in long scenes that open every chapter), he’s inclined to share something like the following: Listen, Ducklescence, he whispered. You will never know what the world is made of. The only thing that’s certain is that it’s not made of the world. As you close upon some mathematical description of reality you cant help but lose what is being described. Every inquiry displaces what is addressed. A moment in time is a fact, not a possibility. The world will take your life. But above all and lastly the world does not know that you are here. You think that you understand this. But you dont. Not in your heart you dont. If you did you would be terrified. And you’re not. Not yet. And now, good night. * A pause for a note on the language: This passage is copied as found, with McCarthy refusing the apostrophe for contractions like “cant” and “dont”, but allowing them in “that’s” and “you’re”. And I don’t pretend to understand his rules. As ever, McCarthy eschews quote marks for dialogue, and I was often struck by his eye-jarring (but brain-satisfying) portmanteaus like: spraddlelegged, parchmentcolored, or “the cold clay of her childsbody”. He’s Cormac McCarthy, he can write how he pleases and it will please me. The other thing to know about Alicia: she’s a striking, ethereal beauty, and when Bobby returned from college one year and saw his (thirteen-year-old) sister performing a solo Greek tragedy in a natural amphitheatre on their grandmother’s property, he realised that he was in love with her and, eventually, that that love was mutual; the forbidden fruit that would ruin each of them for any other (echoing, faintly, Outer Dark). Sent for electroshock therapy and committed with her willing consent, her grasp of the unreality of reality challenges Alicia’s will to live, and therefore challenges Bobby’s: In his dreams of her she wore at times a smile he tried to remember and she would say to him almost in a chant words he could scarcely follow. He knew that her lovely face would soon exist nowhere save in his memories and in his dreams and soon after nowhere at all. She came in half nude trailing sarsenet or perhaps just her Grecian sheeting crossing a stone stage in the smoking footlamps or she would push back the cowl of her robe and her blonde hair would fall about her face as she bent to him where he lay in the damp and clammy sheets and whisper to him I’d have been your shadowlane, the keeper of that house wherein your soul is safe. And all the while a clangor like the labor of a foundry and dark figures in silhouette about the alchemic fires, the ash and the smoke. The floor lay littered with the stillborn forms of their efforts and still they labored on, the raw halfsentient mud quivering red in the autoclave. In that dusky penetralium they press about the crucible shoving and gibbering while the deep heresiarch dark in his folded cloak urges them on in their efforts. And then what thing unspeakable is this raised dripping up through crust and calyx from what hellish marinade. He woke sweating and switched on the bedlamp and swung his feet to the floor and sat with his face in his hands. Dont be afraid for me, she had written. When has death ever harmed anyone? These are all the big things that are happening in The Passenger, but McCarthy fills the gaps with smaller (but no less interesting) content. Bobby Western is based in New Orleans (the year is 1980), and when he’s not working (or hiding from the feds), he meets friends (from an intellectual counterfeiter who can speak Western’s language, to drunken bums, to a bombshell trans woman) at various bars and restaurants, and the conversations range from experiences in the Vietnam War, to discussions about quantum mechanics and the personalities behind the theories, and a deep dive into who really assassinated JFK. Western travels to his grandmother’s property in Tennessee, to an offshore oil rig, to a California highway hemmed in by forest fires (and the sooty wasteland resultant is straight out of The Road; straight out of Bobby’s father’s wartime work), and, perhaps purposefully quixotic, to a windmill in Spain. And why not quixotic? Who’s to say that Don Quixote’s version of reality is any less real than Alicia’s reality, than Einstein’s, than anyone who believes that a government is in place to serve, rather than to surveil, its citizens? Many, many times throughout The Passenger, Western watches lightning flashing through the sky; several times he feels the pulse of massive manmade objects — a piledriver, an offshore oil rig’s prime mover, a millstone — throbbing beneath his feet, and as we watch him balanced thusly between the celestial and the mundane, isn’t he the passenger — aren’t we all? — with little control over the plane, the streetcar, the life he’s trapped in? (When Bobby first left college, he became a racecar driver, and even though it would seem that he had control then, he was forced to realise that racing is at the whim of the car itself; and anyway, a crash eventually ended that career. Lesson learned.) I have noted before a common theme in McCarthy’s novels (where there is no higher authority to appeal to — whether in the Appalachian backcountry, the Wild West, or the Mexican borderlands a hundred years ago, through to some bleak dystopian future — men will default to self-interested savagery), and he makes that point once again here: When the onset of universal night is finally acknowledged as irreversible even the coldest cynic will be astonished at the celerity with which every rule and stricture shoring up this creaking edifice is abandoned and every aberrancy embraced. It should be quite a spectacle. However brief. This is long, longer than I intended — and I have so many more thoughts; so many more quotes and hearkenings! — but if it is impossible to describe physical reality with mathematical equations, it is equally unlikely that I can capture the essence of this reading experience with my clumsy and imprecise words; McCarthy reaches me on a soul level, and much is necessarily lost in the translation to English. Merged review: He motored slowly down the point and along the south shore of the island. The gulf was calm in the last of the light and lights had begun to come up along the shore to the west. He swung the boat around and twisted the throttle slowly forward and headed north, taking his bearings by the lights along the causeway. It was cold out on the water with the sun down. The wind was cold. By the time he got to the marina he thought that the man who’d gone ashore on the island was almost certainly the passenger I am compelled to start by noting: Cormac McCarthy is probably my favourite author (in the top five anyway; the dog curled against me as I type this is named Cormac), and as I read all of McCarthy’s oeuvre before joining Goodreads, The Passenger is the first of his novels that I have attempted to review; and the task feels daunting. Of course I loved this, I expected to, and while I had the familiar visceral reaction to his sentences, and while I had an intense mental engagement with his overarching philosophy, I also recognise that this novel serves as a synthesis of all of McCarthy’s previous work; this has the feeling of a legacy project and I don’t know that it can be fully read or reviewed on its own (by which I suppose I mean that the plot of The Passenger isn’t its most important or straightforward element and it might be dissatisfying to someone who isn’t soul-stuffed with the previous works to which it hearkens). However, it would take a thesis-length essay to write down everything I’m thinking and feeling, and nobody wants that, so, suffice to say: I did love this, and I could objectively give The Passenger five stars, but I am going to give it four only as a measure against those of McCarthy’s own previous novels that stuffed my soul and taught me what the novel could do. Spoilerish from here. Here is a story. The last of all men who stands alone in the universe while it darkens about him. Who sorrows all things with a single sorrow. Out of the pitiable and exhausted remnants of what was once his soul he’ll find nothing from which to craft the least thing godlike to guide him in these last of days. The titular “passenger” (as referenced in the first quote) seems a MacGuffin to engine the plot: Bobby Western is a salvage diver who is afraid of the murky deep, and in the opening scene, he is working with a partner to search for survivors on a submerged plane off the Mississippi coast. Western notes that the pilot’s flight bag and the plane’s black box had been removed, and when he is later visited by some government agents, he learns that one of the plane’s passengers had also disappeared before his search began. The mystery of this missing passenger hangs over the plot, and eventually, Western learns how powerless a citizen is in the face of government displeasure. And while there seems to be a direct link between Western having his assets and passport seized and the frequent visits from the mysterious men in black, we also learn that a burglary at his grandmother’s house had seen all of his family’s papers and photographs stolen; is there a bigger conspiracy at play involving the entire Western family? That’s pretty much the story arc, but there’s so much more to the novel. Western’s father had been a genius — one of the architects of the atomic bomb dropped on Japan — and the following recounts his fact-finding trip at the end of the war (presaging the opening salvage dive, with the father discovering “passengers” of his own): There were people who escaped Hiroshima and rushed to Nagasaki to see that their loved ones were safe. Arriving just in time to be incinerated. He went there after the war with a team of scientists. My father. He said that everything was rusty. Everything looked covered with rust. There were burnt-out shells of trolleycars standing in the streets. The glass melted out of the sashes and pooled on the bricks. Seated on the blackened springs the charred skeletons of the passengers with their clothes and hair gone and their bones hung with blackened strips of flesh. Their eyes boiled from their sockets. Lips and noses burned away. Sitting in their seats laughing. The living walked about but there was no place to go. They waded by the thousands into the river and died there. They were like insects in that no one direction was preferable to another. Burning people crawled among the corpses like some horror in a vast crematorium. They simply thought that the world had ended. It hardly even occurred to them that it had anything to do with the war. They carried their skin bundled up in their arms before them like wash that it not drag in the rubble and ash and they passed one another mindlessly on their mindless journeyings over the smoking afterground, the sighted no better served than the blind. The news of all this did not even leave the city for two days. Those who survived would often remember these horrors with a certain aesthetic to them. In that mycoidal phantom blooming in the dawn like an evil lotus and in the melting of solids not heretofore known to do so stood a truth that would silence poetry a thousand years. Like an immense bladder, they would say. Like some sea thing. Wobbling slightly on the near horizon. Then the unspeakable noise. They saw birds in the dawn sky ignite and explode soundlessly and fall in long arcs earthward like burning party favors....more |
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| Please do not get lost. If you haven’t had an Ear Check, don’t come here. Level Forty-Two will be open tomorrow. Come back then. Remember you have Please do not get lost. If you haven’t had an Ear Check, don’t come here. Level Forty-Two will be open tomorrow. Come back then. Remember you have seven moons. You must reach The Light before the last one rises. I just barely squeaked in reading 2022’s winner of the Booker Prize (it took so long to be released here in Canada), and while I can see how the themes and writing in The Seven Moons of Maali Almeida would have appealed to the Booker judges (and especially as its mordant tone in describing horrific political reality appears in other novels on this year’s shortlist), it wasn’t my personal favourite of this year’s list, nor even my favourite novel exploring Sri Lanka’s long years of deadly internal conflict (for that see Michael Ondaatje’s Anil’s Ghost). It might be unfair to author Shehan Karunatilaka for me to rate this fine novel in comparison to others instead of solely on its own merits, but that was the experience its winning the Booker imposed on me, so all this is simply meant to explain why my reaction might be a bit muted. Seven Moons is undeniably good, probably not great, and four stars is a rounding up Lankans can’t queue. Unless you define a queue as an amorphous curve with multiple entry points. This appears to be a gathering point for those with questions about their death. There are multiple counters and irate customers clamour over grills to shout abuse at the few behind the bars. The afterlife is a tax office and everyone wants their rebate. The year is 1990 and Sri Lankan war photographer Maali Almeida learns he is dead when he finds himself in the chaos of a bureaucratic office with only one sandal on his feet and his camera lens cracked and filled with mud. From a Helper, he learns that he has seven moons (days) to make his way to the Light or risk being trapped in the In Between forever. As he finds his bearings, Maali is determined to get a message to his roommates — his best friend Jaki and her male cousin DD; Maali’s secret gay lover — and have them release a stash of photographs that would have been too dangerous for him to share while still alive. There’s a mystery/thriller vibe to this novel as Maali strains to remember the details that led to his death, and while the clock ticks down those seven moons, Maali finds himself torn between obeying the Helper who is encouraging him to go the the Light and a more nebulous creature who promises Maali revenge upon those who had hurt him in life if he remains in the In Between. Throughout, Maali’s remembered experiences as a photojournalist in the ‘80s — one who was willing to work for any of the alphabet soup of factions who paid the best in the moment — allows Karunatilaka to describe horrific scenes from Sri Lanka’s Civil War; and as Maali was a resident of the capital city, Colombo, Karunatilaka is able to immerse us in its unsettled setting of systemic corruption, income disparity, and rolling curfews. I appreciated that Maali’s afterlife is populated with unfamiliar-to-me creatures from Sri Lankan lore and Buddhist belief. All of this was good stuff. On the other hand, I didn’t much care for the character of Maali himself: A gambling addict with Mommy issues and a self-described “slut”, I didn’t understand all the scenes of him being pleasured by pretty young men while holding conversations with other guys (not only was this meant to be blatantly provocative at the height of the AIDS scare while Maali assured DD that he was always faithful while on assignments, but as Karunatilaka thanked his wife during his Booker acceptance speech, I don’t think this was based on lived experience, and it kind of shows). Others have noted that this feels too long, and at nearly 400 pages, it really does; there is much repetition, and I don’t think it needed the gambling or Maali’s dramatic family of origin subplots. And as for the satiric tone, the vibe is more resigned than humourous: • The Afterlife is as confusing as the Before Death, the In Between is as arbitrary as the Down There. So we make up stories because we’re afraid of the dark. Ultimately, this does feel like an important read: any light shone on a government controlling and killing its own people deserves to be amplified and I appreciate the craft and passion that Karunatilaka brought to this project. I am happy to have squeaked this in before the end of the year, if only to end it contemplating the following: You think of dead lakes overflowing with corpses, of police stations where the rich lock up the poor, of palaces where those who follow orders torture those who refuse to. You think of distraught lovers, abandoned friends and absent parents. Of lapsed treaties and photographs that are seen and forgotten, regardless of the walls they hang on. How the world will go on without you and will forget you were even here. You think of the mother, the old man and the dog, of the things you did, or failed to do, for the ones you loved. You think about evil causes and about worthy ones. That the chances of violence ending violence are one in nothing, one in nada, one in squat. ...more |
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| This I have come to believe: when a boat goes down, it’s only the shell of things — the hull and the bodies — that vanish. When there are no surviv This I have come to believe: when a boat goes down, it’s only the shell of things — the hull and the bodies — that vanish. When there are no survivors and no meaningful recovery of wreckage, there’s only speculation, the barest possibility of ever knowing what happened, and the legacies of unresolved grief. The absence of the dead shapes the story of the living. Some memoirs satisfy with their uncommon tales, some satisfy with their thoughtful analysis of the common human story, and every once in a while, I discover a memoir that combines each of these elements with beautiful language and I find myself moved and enlightened in a way that it would be hard for a novel to match. Set Adrift is one such rare gem: Sarah Conover was a toddler when she and her sister were orphaned by a family yachting accident, and as her grandparents, in particular, were persons of note in the community, Conover is able to explore both the public record of their disappearance and her own private struggle with growing up — always feeling like as an orphan — in the middle of a large and broken family. I was fascinated by everything here — Conover shares much about her situation that was surprising to me — and I am enlarged by having learned of her journey to wholeness. (Note: I read an ARC through NetGalley and passages quoted may not be in their final forms.) For years, I blithely summarized the accident and its aftermath in careless shorthand to others: My parents, Lori and Larry Conover, grandparents, Harvey and Dorothy Conover, as well as family friend Bill Fluegelman, drowned during a freak storm in the Bermuda Triangle. My parents left behind two young orphans — my sister Aileen, almost three at the time, and me, eighteen months old. People would look to me for some clue as to how I felt but would find little in my affect to guide them. I’d been schooled in dissociation and numbness: no Conover ever spoke of the perishing. None of my parents’ generation could bear this cataclysmic break in their lives. The Conovers were an uncommonly experienced boating family: Sarah’s grandfather, Harry Conover, was a competitive sailor for over fifty-five years (rated among the top dozen ocean-racing yachtsmen of his time, he “collected a lot of silverware”), he spent time as the Commodore of the Cruising Club of America, and made his fortune co-founding a publishing company that put out Yachting Magazine (among other titles). So when his highly admired yacht, the Revonoc, disappeared in a freak squall on the short jaunt from the Florida Keys to Miami on January 1, 1958, it sparked a vast search and rescue operation that was covered in the national news. No sign of the yacht or its wreckage — other than its dinghy, which washed ashore on a relative's beach — would ever be found. Because this was such a high-profile disappearance, Conover is able to quote from sources as varied as Sports Illustrated and the official Coast Guard reports (including the government’s official stance on the Bermuda Triangle itself: perfectly explainable factors can cause sudden storms), and I found everything about exploring the mysterious disappearance to be highly interesting. What is an orphan’s story if she has no memory of her origins? Say the word aloud: or-phan. The mouth warms and wombs the first syllable, or, possessing it momentarily. Then, teeth against the bottom lip while squeezing the diaphragm hard. Phan. The word pushes into the surrounding emptiness, landing nowhere. On a more personal level, Conover describes how she and her sister were adopted into her father’s sister’s family — a decision that would be challenged for years by her maternal grandmother — and the chaos that this unleashed in her aunt’s family. Despite genuine love and maternal concern from their adoptive mother (and from their new father, too, until that marriage dissolved under the strain), Sarah in particular felt like an orphan her entire life; and especially because her grandmother always insisted that she didn’t belong with the Conovers anymore. But through a love of nature, a spiritual embrace of Buddhism, and continuing education (that would lead to an MFA in Creative Writing), Conover was eventually able to make sense of her journey and find a way to “unstory” her life as an orphan. We become the people we think we are — that’s why stories can be dangerous and even self-defeating. Other people can also become who we think they are and that’s why stories can be disastrous. We can’t help but use stories to connect, but beware, stories will use us. They did me, that is, until they didn’t. Simply the perfect blend of interesting facts and heart-felt introspection; a novel could not do better at capturing what it means to be human. ...more |
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| Shortly before midnight Bruno Perzenowski and Heinrich Busch climbed up the thirteen steps. Once there, Branchaud led each man, his final stride pl Shortly before midnight Bruno Perzenowski and Heinrich Busch climbed up the thirteen steps. Once there, Branchaud led each man, his final stride placing him above one of the two steel trapdoors. As December 17 ended and the new day began, the hangman still waited, but no telegram arrived with a reprieve. At 12:10 a.m., the hangman with practiced hand “pinion[ed] their legs, dropped the hoods [over their faces], adjusted the ropes and pulled the lever.” Twenty minutes later, Perzenowski’s and Busch’s bodies were cut down, examined by the coroner, pronounced dead, and carried directly to the common grave they had been forced to dig the previous day. At 12:45, Walter Wolf and Willy Müeller were executed. Their bodies too were brought to the common grave. The child murderer, Donald Sherman Staley, was hanged at 1: 30 p.m., bringing an end to what would be the last mass hanging in Canadian history. Hanged in Medicine Hat is a book I requested more or less on a whim — I spent my teenaged years on the “bald prairies” of Southern Alberta without ever hearing the story of the Nazi POW camp that once was there, let alone the story of the last mass execution in Canadian history, so my interest was piqued — and historian Nathan Greenfield’s account is well-researched, well-told, and presents a nuanced question: In the immediate aftermath of WWII, what should justice have looked like in the handling of unrepentant Nazis who killed some of their own “within the wires” of Medicine Hat’s Camp 132? (tl;dr: we blew it.) Full of fascinating details, shining a light on a near-forgotten episode in Canadian history, what’s not to like? Opened early in 1943 and representing a sizeable increase in employment and economic activity for the city, Camp 132 was welcomed by Hatters. That the prisoners were available for farm labour and the occasional hockey game only made their presence more welcome. The locals treated the captives with courtesy, and their manners were reciprocated. The existence of Camp 132 was as positive an experience as could be expected for both sides, except for the shocking killings of Private August Plaszek in 1943 and Sergeant Dr. Karl Lehmann a year later. Along with the interesting history behind how German POWs (including members of Rommel’s Afrika Korps, surrendered to British troops) ended up in Medicine Hat, Alberta, I was fascinated to learn that, because Canada had signed the Geneva Convention, not only did these POWs receive 3500 calories a day (most prisoners would gain fifteen pounds over the course of their detainment), but they would have complete control of their own leadership and policing (which meant senior Nazis and the Gestapo ran the show within the camp). With coded messages and a secret radio bringing orders straight from Berlin, the POWs remained under German military command, and as the Russians marched on their capital and things began to look dire in the Fatherland, any POW who whispered that Germany might lose the war could be accused of treason and risk being dealt with by military tribunal. So when prisoners were found murdered within Camp 132 — and the Canadian government decided to treat it as a civil matter and subject the perpetrators to our civil justice system — was that a miscarriage of justice? Should the Germans, per the Geneva Convention, have had the right to administer punishment according to their own military rules? This is the crux of Hanged in Medicine Hat and with the presentation of court transcripts, newspaper articles, and interviews with eyewitnesses, Greenfield makes a persuasive case that the Canadian government didn’t have the right to bring these men to civil trial, let alone subject them to capital punishment. The government’s intention and the appeals court’s decisions may have settled the matter in 1946 but they do not do so today. The violation of the Geneva Convention and the War Measures Act may seem to be technical legal points. They are not. For, by trying the POWs in civilian court, Canadian authorities deprived them of something vitally important: jurors of their peers, that is jurors who understood military ethos. On the other hand: I was telling my family about this story over dinner last night and both my husband (an old conservative) and my daughter (a young progressive) said that the Nazis murdered within the camp and the Nazis hanged for their crimes were simply fewer Nazis in the world and they couldn’t get worked up about their deaths. I tried to explain that Greenfield presented some of the POWs as radicalised youth who had never known another way of life (which I thought might sway my daughter’s stance, but she just said it was less likely someone like that could be reformed after the war), and while at least one of the hanged men went to his death calling out, “My Führer, I follow thee”, Greenfield didn’t believe any of them deserved the death penalty (and especially not as the consequence of a civil trial). Perhaps it takes a book length explanation to be persuaded by Greenfield’s position (as I was), but at any rate, I found the whole thing utterly fascinating. ...more |
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| Everyone knows this is a dangerous business, but, between you and me, being a woman is a dangerous business, and don’t let anyone tell you otherwis Everyone knows this is a dangerous business, but, between you and me, being a woman is a dangerous business, and don’t let anyone tell you otherwise. Oh, those men would talk about how they fight Indians and wrestle cattle and climb the masts and look for justice, and indeed they do, but they do it for themselves, if you ask me. And what they want of women, they want for themselves, too. The best part of A Dangerous Business is the historical setting — 1851 Monterey — and Jane Smiley masterfully captures the landscape and the buildings and the weather; peopling the town with all sorts of interesting carpetbaggers and fortune-seekers. The weaker (and more dominant) part of the book is a rather uncompelling murder mystery, from the perspective of a naive (absolutely uneducated and unworldly) young woman who stumbles into sex work (which she finds acceptable and liberating) after the death of her awful husband. The tone — for a detective story set in the lawless West of saloons, ranchos, and brothels — is weirdly sedate, and the mystery itself didn’t satisfy me, but I can appreciate that Smiley was going for something beyond genre fiction here; it just didn’t add up to much for me. (Note: I read an ARC and passages quoted may not be in their final forms.) When the first of “the girls” disappeared, no one thought a thing of it. Folks disappeared from Monterey all the time, mostly because there was more going on in San Francisco, or even San Jose. Or people took their families and moved down the coast because they thought they would find better hunting there, or some land with more rain. If they were lucky, they came back, gave up on the idea of owning their own farms or ranches, and went to work the way everyone else worked. In fact, Eliza knew that her mother would say that she had disappeared, and that thought was a bit of a prickle to her conscience, but not enough to get her to answer those letters her mother had sent. She thought there was a lot to be said for disappearing, and so she didn’t think much of the disappearance of that girl, except to note the day, May 14, her very own birthday. Twenty-one now, and wasn’t that strange? At 18, Eliza Ripple was married off to an older man by her Congregationalist parents (if only to prevent her from running off with the handsome Irish labourer she was making eyes at), and after carrying her off to California in search of his fortune (and spending the brief months of their marriage demanding much of her in both the kitchen and the bedroom), this Peter was shot in a barroom brawl and Eliza spent no time mourning his death. When a local Madam offered her employment, Eliza shrugged and set to work, and as she describes it here, it was not unpleasant to spent time with one or two men each evening, knowing that the customers were vetted in advance by Mrs Parks and that Carlos the bouncer sat on a chair outside her ajar door; these men were certainly nicer, cleaner, and less demanding than Peter had been and the money that Eliza earned afforded her perfect independence. In her free time, Eliza liked to stroll the streets of Monterey, and eventually, she made the acquaintance of another free-spirited sex worker, Jean: a cross-dressing lesbian who worked at an establishment that catered only to women (and that did kind of blow my mind: did such a place really exist in 1851 Monterey? At any rate, I appreciated the way that Eliza wasn’t shocked to learn of it; why wouldn’t an overworked housewife want a place to go for gentle comfort and release?) What started with Jean sharing and discussing books with Eliza (and in particular, the writings of Edgar Allen Poe) led to the two friends employing the detective skills described in "The Murders in the Rue Morgue" when fellow sex workers start to go missing and the local Sheriff doesn’t seem to care. That’s pretty much the set up, which was fine, but the execution didn’t do much for me. On the one hand, I essentially liked that the characters talked about books (if one doesn’t mind them giving away the endings to Poe’s stories), but on the other, it irked me that once Jean corrected Eliza’s French pronunciation of the detective’s name (Dupin is pronounced DuPANN not DuPINN), every time Eliza wonders what the detective would make of something the name she says or thinks is written “DuPANN”. Like, beyond irked every time I saw it. And so many threads just went nowhere: Jean can see ghosts, but they don’t affect anything; Eliza is obsessed by horses (always asking to see someone’s horse or peeking through a fence at horses or wondering whatever happened to a dead woman’s horses), but that doesn’t have any relevance to the plot; Eliza sometimes feels bad about losing contact with her parents, but it doesn’t ultimately matter; Eliza notes this man’s unusual appearance, had an unsettling experience at that man’s house, holds a suspicion that Mrs Parks knows more than she's letting on, and none of it matters or even rises to the level of a red herring — there are simply skeins of loose threads that don’t get tied up. And Eliza’s unworldliness (but eagerness to learn) was more annoying than charming to me: She has one of her seafaring customers explain to her what the equator is (and later makes a connection when another client is talking about degrees of latitude); she asks a gentleman if he believes there really will be a (Civil) war, and his answer (most certainly) isn’t very edifying (to her or to me); she agrees with her employer that women agitating for the vote are probably wasting their time — historical details felt tacked on instead of enriching. And when the climax to the mystery came, it was neither surprising or exciting. Brutes! As soon as a man sees a rule, he strives to flout it, whether he sees it in the Bible or a constitution. That prohibition runs around in his head, and he can’t stop it. Then there he is, transgressing, and you ask him why, and he says that something was unfair or he was provoked, but what he really means is that he kept having thoughts, and then those had to turn into action, and he could not stop them. The idea of a serial killer targeting sex workers in nineteenth century Monterey, while other sex workers try to find and stop the murderer, is an intriguing concept, and this last passage about men’s justification for brutality — whether a husband abusing his wife, a killer presumably “cleansing” the streets of immorality, or plantation owners enslaving others — captures the underlying philosophy of the book: life at the time was a dangerous business, and especially for women, but women working together could mitigate some of that danger. There’s an interesting morsel to chew over at the heart of that, so while I did find this an often quiet, sometimes irksome, read in the details, the overall experience wasn’t entirely without merit. 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You committed yourself here. You committed yourself here. Presented as a “coda” to Cormac McCarthy’s The Passenger, Stella Maris contains the transcripts of seven therapy sessions between a psychiatrist and Alicia Western; the genius mathematician sister of the main character in The Passenger; a troubled young woman whose eventual fate is described in the previous novel’s first few pages. Whereas The Passenger only had generalised passages about math and physics, Stella Maris features a deeper dive into mathematical thinkers and their work — with a particular focus on Alicia’s speciality in topography — and as it is entirely presented in dialogue, this reads as a Socratic investigation into the nature of reality (and our inability to translate what we unconsciously intuit into communicable language, whether verbal or mathematical.) I did enjoy this as a followup to The Passenger — and if the math references were going over my head, they were going over Dr Cohen’s, too, and he asked for clarification where necessary — but even more so than with the previous novel, this feels a bit like a vanity/legacy project; as though McCarthy just wanted to put the summation of his life’s thinking into print without feeling particularly indebted to novelistic expectations. As a completionist, I am delighted to have read this, but this is going to be one of those rare occasions upon which I will not assign a rating; this feels outside the scope of such things. (Note: I read an ARC and passages quoted may not be in their final forms.) The problem with the unknowable absolute is that if you could actually say something about it it wouldn’t be the unknowable absolute anymore. You can get from the noumenal to the phenomenal without stirring from your chair. In other words, nothing can be excerpted from the absolute without being rendered perceptual. Bearing in mind that to claim reality for what is unknowable is already to speak in tongues. The trouble with the perfect and objective world — Kant’s or anybody’s — is that it is unknowable by definition. I love physics but I don’t confuse it with absolute reality. It is our reality. Mathematical ideas have a considerable shelflife. Do they exist in the absolute? How is that possible? I said to myself. But then myself became another self. No more than right. It took the math with it. The idea. A long period of uncertainty. When I recohered I was someplace else. As if I had escaped my own lightcone. Into what used to be called the absolute elsewhere. As a senior fellow at the Santa Fe Institute, Cormac McCarthy has long been incubating his ideas about the world in conversation with a cross-disciplinary assemblage of other deep thinkers. In 2017, he published his first nonfiction essay — The Kekulé Problem — in Nautilus magazine, and many of the facts and ideas from the essay pop up in Stella Maris. I appreciate McCarthy’s use of the Socratic format to present and debate these ideas — the psychiatrist/patient dialogue was perfectly suited as a fictional framework — and there’s just enough plot tie-in with The Passenger to warrant reading this to complement Alicia’s brother’s story. I don’t think I would call this a complete and satisfying novel on its own — “coda” does seem about right — but again, I did find considerable value in it. I look unhappy? Tougher mettle is called for I suppose. I’m all right. For a long time I’ve suspected that we might be simply incapable of imagining the epochal evils of which we stand rightly accused and I thought it at least a possibility that the structure of reality itself harbors something like the forms of which our sordid history is only a pale reflection. I thought that it was something Plato might have considered but could in no way bring himself to express. I see by your look that you have at last beheld the very incubation of lunacy. I am happy that this duology exists as a summation of McCarthy’s thought and craft — I know of no other living author who writes at this level — but I think it needs to be read in the context of his entire oeuvre; Stella Maris certainly needs to be read in concert with The Passenger, or if one wanted to mainline the ideas, The Kekulé Problem is complete unto itself. And again: If McCarthy’s main thesis entails the futility of expressing sensed truths in communicable language, I beg patience for my clumsy words. ...more |
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| I am not a pessimist or an optimist, I am a scientist. There is no agenda in understanding how the world really works. How the World Really Works could I am not a pessimist or an optimist, I am a scientist. There is no agenda in understanding how the world really works. How the World Really Works could be considered the capstone to Vaclav Smil’s impressive career in interdisciplinary research and analysis: having written over 40 books and 500 papers, he is considered “the” world-leading expert on energy (amongst other topics), and this current book attempts to synthesise and present what he knows to be fact in a world of increasing polarisation and misinformation. There was much that I found interesting here — so much about the functioning of our material world (from energy, container shipping, and food production, to the noninevitability of globalisation and the curiously out-of-touch human perception of risk) that I have accepted without examining — but I couldn’t help but be turned off by Smil’s frequently smug and superior tone (accented with snide asides and exclamation marks!) I liked that Smil positioned himself between the eco-doomsayers and the techno-optimists — calling that the rational middleground as we humans have never been good at predicting the future — but while I enjoyed the factoids, I’m still annoyed by the tone; my three stars are a refusal to take a stand on this book. Inevitably, this book — the product of my life’s work, and written for the layperson — is a continuation of my long-lasting quest to understand the basic realities of the biosphere, history, and the world we have created. And it also does, yet again, what I have been steadfastly doing for decades: it strongly advocates for moving away from extreme views. Recent (and increasingly strident or increasingly giddy) advocates of such positions will be disappointed: this is not the place to find either laments about the world ending in 2030 or an infatuation with astonishingly transformative powers of artificial intelligence arriving sooner than we think. Instead, this book tries to provide a foundation for a more measured and necessarily agnostic perspective. I hope that my rational, matter-of-fact approach will help readers to understand how the world really works, and what our chances are of seeing it offer better prospects to the coming generations. Right from the start, Smil stresses that decarbonising the economy (giving up fossil fuels) is a near-term impossibility because of the way our world is built (not to mention the staggering amounts of fossil fuels that go into, for instance, the manufacture and transport of a single wind turbine; not to mention the fact that he doesn’t believe there is an alternative to jet fuel for long distance flight; not to mention that Germany decommissioned their nuclear power plants and spent billions on solar technology that has eased their fossil fuel consumption by a percentage point or two.) A major thrust of the book concerns what Smill refers to as the four pillars of the modern world and he records that in 2019, we collectively consumed 4.5 billion tons of cement, 1.8 billion tons of steel, 370 million tons of plastics, and 150 million tons of ammonia. He makes the case that each of these essential consumables could not easily (if ever) be replaced by a more eco-friendly alternative, and as each of them requires massive amounts of fossil fuels for their production, he explains: Global production of these four indispensable materials claims about 17 percent of the world’s primary energy supply, and 25 percent of all CO₂ emissions originating in the combustion of fossil fuels — and currently there are no commercially available and readily deployable mass-scale alternatives to displace these established processes. Smil reports that the global annual demand for fossil carbon is around 10 billion tons, and while affluent economies (including China) give lip service to reducing consumption, it is reasonable to expect emerging economies (especially those in India and Africa) to ramp up their consumption in order to provide their citizens with the benefits of modern materials (as in the hygienic benefits of cement floors or the use of nitrogen-rich fertilisers to improve crop yields). Smil does make it clear that he’s not denying the ill effects of our carbonised economy, but he stresses that catastrophists calling for “net zero by whatever year” can’t will it into being without addressing how the world really works; this doesn’t come down to individuals giving up gas-fuelled cars and abandoning the suburbs (which are the kind of decisions that are ours to make, but which have an incredibly negligible effect on the big picture.) An example of Smil snarking on the eco-catastrophists: Some prophecies claim that we might only have about a decade left to avert a global catastrophe, and in January 2020 Greta Thunberg went as far as to specify just eight years. Just a few months later, the president of the UN’s General Assembly gave us 11 years to avert a complete social collapse whereupon the planet will be simultaneously burning (suffering unquenchable summer-long fires) and inundated with water (via a rapid sea-level rise). But, nihil novi sub sole: in 1989, another high UN official said that “government have a 10-year window of opportunity to solve the greenhouse effect before it goes beyond human control,” which means that by now we must be quite beyond the beyond, and that our very existence might be only a matter of Borgesian imagination. I am convinced that we could do without this continuing flood of never-less-than-worrisome and too-often-quite-frightening predictions. How helpful is it to be told every day that the world is coming to an end in 2050 or even 2030? And snarking on the techno-utopians Crises expose realities and strip away obfuscation and misdirection. The response of the affluent world to COVID-19 deserves a single ironic comment: Homo deus indeed! And, after making some good points about how, even forty years ago (despite having microchips and container ships, understanding the greenhouse effect) no one could have predicted the world we are living in today (and especially the offshoring of jobs that led to both rust belt America and the economic surge of China) Smil snarks on the futility of making predictions at all: In the past, this tendency toward dichotomy was often described as the clash of catastrophists and cornucopians, but these labels appear to be too timid to reflect the recent extreme polarization of sentiments. And this polarization has been accompanied by a greater propensity for dated quantitative forecasts. You see them everywhere, from cars (worldwide sales of electric passenger vehicles will reach 65 million by 2040) and carbon (the EU will have net-zero carbon emissions by 2037). Or so we’re told. In reality, most of these forecasts are no better than simple guesses: any number for 2050 obtained by a computer model primed with dubious assumptions — or, even worse, by a politically expedient decision — has a very brief shelf life. My advice: if you would like a better understanding of what the future may look like, avoid these new-age dated prophecies entirely, or use them primarily as evidence of prevailing expectations and biases. Again: Smil does write, “There is something new as we look ahead, that unmistakably increasing (albeit not unanimous) conviction that, of all the risks we face, global climate change is the one that needs to be tackled most urgently and effectively.” And it would seem that this entire book exists to make the point that decarbonising the economy would take a global accord to fundamentally change the way that our world actually works — at great cost to people alive today who probably won’t live to reap the benefits — and that both the eco-doomsayers and the techno-optimists are a distraction from actual reality. And, admittedly, this was worth wading through the snark to arrive at. Being agnostic about the distant future means being honest: we have to admit the limits of our understanding, approach all planetary challenges with humility, and recognize that advances, setbacks, and failures will all continue to be a part of our evolution and that there can be no assurance of (however defined) ultimate success, no arrival at any singularity — but, as long as we use our accumulated understanding with determination and perseverance, there will also not be an early end of days. The future will emerge from our accomplishments and failures, and while we might be clever (and lucky) enough to foresee some of its forms and features, the whole remains elusive even when looking just a generation ahead....more |
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| I’m in the ICU with my dying mother and the thing that I’m sure will get her to wake up is the fact that in the days since Mom’s been hospitalized, I’m in the ICU with my dying mother and the thing that I’m sure will get her to wake up is the fact that in the days since Mom’s been hospitalized, my fear and sadness have morphed into the perfect anorexia-motivation cocktail and, finally, I have achieved Mom’s current goal weight for me. Eighty-nine pounds. I’m so sure this fact will work that I lean all the way back in my chair and pompously cross my legs. I wait for her to come to. And wait. And wait. Although Jennette McCurdy might not be pleased to hear it, I picked up I’m Glad My Mom Died because 1) My kids were fans of iCarly and I was peripherally aware of who she is, and 2) I noted the hub-bub around this memoir and wanted to know what that was about. And I can see why this has caught fire: Contrary to her most famous character’s persona of a wise-cracking tough kid, young Jennette was a scared, manipulated, mentally abused child of the ultimate controlling Stage Mother; and to the extent that the details of her childhood were undeniably repelling, I can imagine that anyone who grew up watching Sam Puckett beat up bullies would have their minds blown to learn what was actually running through her tortured mind on set. As for me: I was shocked to learn the details of this unhappy childhood — if not shocked to read that it sucks to be a child actor, and especially if it is to live out someone else’s dream — but I was engaged by McCurdy’s voice and evolving tone (ie, when she writes of being a very young child, she reports how she viewed her mother at that time, not through the lens of later wisdom; as she ages, the tone becomes more knowing) and there was recognisable craft to that. So, while this doesn’t read like the most polished memoir, I applaud McCurdy’s strength and candour and hope that her (eventually happy) story can serve as inspiration to those who resonate with it. I’m happy to have read this, if only to join the cultural moment, and McCurdy can rest easier knowing that if I saw her on the street, I would never yell “fried chicken” at her or ask to see her buttersock (and never before knew that these were things that people do to her; what a stupid price for fame). I’m more convinced than ever that I need to quit acting. That it doesn’t serve my mental or emotional health. That it’s been destructive to both. I think about what else has been destructive to my mental and emotional health…the eating disorders, of course, and the alcohol issues. And then I realize that, as much as I’m convinced that I need to quit these things — acting, bulimia, alcohol — I don’t think that I can. As much as I resent them, in a strange way they define me. They are my identity. Maybe that’s why I resent them. From growing up in a hoarder house (Jennette and her three brothers slept on trifold mats in the living room because their bedrooms were stuffed with garbage), experiencing poverty (despite her father working two jobs and her live-in maternal grandparents both working, the McCurdys were always behind on bills), and living with a mother obsessed with having survived breast cancer (the kids were forced to weekly watch a video of their mother singing them lullabies when she thought that she was dying), young Jennette learned to tame the chaos of her homelife by monitoring her mother’s moods and trying to always keep her happy. So when her mom suggested that she should start acting when she was six — something her mom had wanted to do as a child but her own parents wouldn’t allow — Jennette couldn’t say no, despite crippling discomfort and anxiety. Every move that Jennette made from that point was aimed at satisfying her mother’s ambitions (and alleviating the family’s poverty), and despite creepy/abusive behaviours at home (her mother insisted on showering Jennette, sometimes with her teenaged brother, until she was seventeen; her mother taught her “calorie restriction” and encouraged anorexia; her mother disowned her when paparazzi caught Jennette with a boyfriend [while writing in the same email that they needed money to replace a broken fridge]), Jennette put so much pressure on herself to do the thing she hated most (play Sam on iCarly) that she ended up punishing herself with eating disorders, alcohol abuse, negative self-talk, and codependent relationships; punishments that continued even after her mother eventually did die of cancer. While the details of Jennette’s early life are the stuff of pathos (she includes many more details than I’ve listed here), it’s perhaps even sadder to watch her — outwardly living a life envied by millions — spend years trying to shed her mother’s impossible (and manipulative) expectations. I had put her up on a pedestal, and I know how detrimental that pedestal was to my well-being and life. That pedestal kept me stuck, emotionally stunted, living in fear, dependent, in a near constant state of emotional pain and without the tools to even identify that pain let alone deal with it. My mom didn’t deserve her pedestal. She was a narcissist. She refused to admit she had any problems, despite how destructive those problems were to our entire family. My mom emotionally, mentally, and physically abused me in ways that will forever impact me. Most of the cover blurbs call this memoir funny, but it’s more quietly snarky-ironic than comedic. (McCurdy writes: There’s something about inherently dramatic moments that makes eye contact during those moments feel even more weighty and dramatic. It’s a hat on a hat. There’s enough drama here as it is. We’re good.) The blurbs also call this honest and compassionate and that’s where the best stuff is: this is the story of a survivor and I wish Ms McCurdy all the best. My mom didn't get better. But I will....more |
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| He took Gaspar’s face in his hands, leaned down to look him in the eyes, and caressed his hair, the box on the ground between them, and he said, yo He took Gaspar’s face in his hands, leaned down to look him in the eyes, and caressed his hair, the box on the ground between them, and he said, you have something of mine, I passed on something of me to you, and hopefully it isn’t cursed, I don’t know if I can leave you something that isn’t dirty, that isn’t dark, our share of night. I haven’t read Mariana Enríquez before, so I went into Our Share of Night with no knowledge beyond her reputation for literary weirdness. I knew that this was technically a horror story (that cover!), and while it is that — with some seriously sick characters and graphic violence — I didn’t know that it’s also a savvy metaphor for the tumultuous recent history of Enríquez’s Argentina — with some seriously sick characters and graphic violence — and while it did feel overlong (my kindle app puts it at a thirteen hour read), it also felt like that length was making commentary on the banality and omnipresence of evil. I winced and harrumphed and sighed my way through this — and then I winced again, sighed some more — and any read that makes me feel so much, even so much negative, is worth four stars in my opinion (and especially when those negative feelings gave me a sense of Enríquez’s truth). (Note: I read an ARC through NetGalley and passages quoted may not be in their final forms.) It was easy to get out of the city on a Sunday morning in January. Before he knew it the tall buildings were behind them, and then so were the low houses and tin lean-tos of the shantytowns on the city’s outskirts. And suddenly the trees of the countryside appeared. Gaspar was asleep by then, and Juan’s arm burned in the sun just like any regular father’s on a weekend of pools and picnics. But he wasn’t a regular father, and people could tell just by looking into his eyes or by talking to him for a while. Somehow, they recognized the danger: he couldn’t hide what he was. It wasn’t possible to hide something like that, at least not for long. As the novel begins, it is 1981, Juan’s wife has been dead for six months, and he is taking their six-year-old son to visit his inlaws at their estate in the country. Hints are given that this is not a normal father-son relationship, and when they finally reach the estate after a couple of side trips, we see the full horror of what young Gaspar is heir to (kind of The Master and Margarita meets Rosemary’s Baby). An interlude from 1983 follows, and then there is another long section — set in Buenos Aires from 1985-86 — that sees Juan treat his son with both tenderness and brutality as his own health begins to fail, and as this section is from Gaspar’s POV, and he has been shielded from the reality of his family situation, his spooky adventures with his friends feels like a cross between It and House of Leaves. The next long section rewinds to Juan’s childhood and covers the years from 1960-76 (view spoiler)[describing how he was discovered as a Medium by a member of the Order, bought from his family and exploited to commune with the Darkness, transforming into a monster who can lead the way to immortality (hide spoiler)], introducing Gaspar’s mother and explaining how her relationship with Juan developed (and including some cool scenes set in Swinging London). There follows an interlude set in 1993 — in which a journalist is investigating a mass grave tied to a conflict between the Liberation Army and the Argentine army — and while this section ties the novel to its actual historical setting, the journalist will stumble upon some of the supernatural truths as well. Finally, the last long section — set in La Plata from 1987-97 — follows Gaspar as he grows from teenager to man, finding his place in the city’s art and punk scenes, discovering some of his own hidden talents, and watching as he retraces his childhood trip to his grandparents’ estate in search of answers (and while Gaspar and his family are not vampires in any sense, I got a real Interview with the Vampire vibe from this section.) Without wanting to give too much away, this is admittedly a lot of plot — this could easily have been sectioned off into a trilogy — but what really matters with Our Share of Night is how the supernatural events shine a light on Argentina’s actual history: Florence didn’t tolerate that kind of rebellion. She had rocks tied to the woman’s feet, and she was thrown into the Paraná River. Let her join the many dead hidden along Argentine river bottoms. The dictatorship’s crimes were very useful to the Order, providing it with bodies, alibis, and currents of pain and fear — emotions that were easily manipulated. It’s easy to imagine foreigners with hard cash becoming insanely rich with massive yerba mate plantations — essentially using slave and child labour to bring in the crops, cosying up to a corrupt government and using the army as personal security — so Enríquez’s tale of generations of one such family of powerbrokers, who use their riches in an occult quest for immortality (isn’t that what billionaires like Jeff Bezos and Peter Thiel are up to anyway?), make for perfect boogeymen. The quest for power everlasting push humans to the most heinous acts: Is there a real difference between a government disappearing dissenters and a mysterious sect hiding imbunche in a collapsed tunnel? A box full of human eyelids is unsettling in fiction, but is it more unsettling than learning that former Argentine president Juan Perón’s hands were, in fact, severed and stolen from his dead body despite his being “the most surveilled cadaver in the country”? I totally get what Enríquez was going for here, and as a political metaphor, this was an excellent read. Ghosts are real. And the ones who come aren’t always the one you’ve called. And on the other hand, if you’re looking for a ghost story, this feels long and often dull; punctuated by incredibly horrific scenes; perhaps, if you’re unlucky, too much like real life. Now I’m looking forward to Enríquez’s short fiction. ...more |
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| On its surface the constancy of women’s place in society is depressing, but the thing about social constructs is that they are just that — construc On its surface the constancy of women’s place in society is depressing, but the thing about social constructs is that they are just that — constructs. Fundamentally if we have created these strictures, then we can deconstruct them and make new ones. Seeing the past and rejecting it allows us to imagine new futures and make the changes that are necessary to create a more equitable world. It’s time to start constructing that different future. Medievalist Eleanor Janega (with an MA in Mediaeval Studies and a PhD in History) states that her intent is to look to the past in order to understand our present, and hopefully, to construct a future that sees more equality between the sexes. In The Once and Future Sex, Janega primarily focusses on how the people of power and influence in the Middle Ages regarded women in four broad categories — how their weird bodies worked, ideals of beauty, fears of their sexuality, what work they did outside the home — and while this book is loaded with frequent quotes and citations, it didn’t really add up to a cohesive thesis to me. I enjoyed the factoids, I liked the often ironic tone, I appreciate the intent, but I seem to be missing the throughline; I don’t know that these facts from the past explain women’s place in modern society. Certainly not a waste of my time — there is much of interest to be found here — I’m simply left wanting. (Note: I read an ARC through NetGalley and passages quoted may not be in their final forms.) One way or another, though, when we consider the way women are conceptualized in the global north, we can ultimately start laying the blame back to the ancient Athenians. They have a lot to answer for. It’s always interesting to note that the Renaissance began with a few monarchs rediscovering the “Classics” and monasteries then teaching boys to read and write ancient Greek and Latin. This led to society taking as a given that the ancients (Plato, Aristotle, Galen, and Hippocrates) had human biology figured out with their humours theory, “Men were seen as hot and dry, or naturally sanguine and socially useful. Women, in contrast, were cold and wet and therefore more likely to be phlegmatic, or placid.” This combined with the Judeo-Christian origin story — Adam was made in God’s image (ie. the standard model) and Eve was formed (with inside-out genitals) from Adam’s superfluous rib (making woman the less god-like variant) — were the two theories that underpinned the “science” of how women’s bodies work. As for how those bodies should look: All in all, medieval society spent a long time concocting a beauty ideal for women that was possible only for wealthy women to live up to, and then furiously policing it when commoners tried to emulate it. At every opportunity women were told that they must be beautiful, and that that made them desirable, lovable, and holy. However, attempting to live up to this rigid standard, especially if one was poor, was called sinful and at times was illegal. The Church thrust women into an impossible quandary: If they were not born with looks that accorded with the beauty standard, should they lose status and perhaps remain single? Or should they use subterfuge to get closer to that exacting standard, even if it meant they might face an eternity in Hell? Janega writes that the Classics — while noting the beauty of various goddesses, mythical creatures, even Helen of Troy — don’t actually describe what that beauty looks like. It isn’t until the sixth-century that elegiac poet Maximianus (who linked himself to the classical tradition through his Etruscan lineage) wrote the first such description, saying that the ideal woman had: Golden hair, downcast milky neck, ingenious features to make more of her face; black eyebrows, free forehead, bright skin and little swollen lips. Maximianus and his poetry were used to teach Latin in the mediaeval period, and his idea of beauty was reinforced by those who would later pen guides to composing poetry: Matthew of Vendôme (twelfth century) in his The Art of the Versemaker and Geoffrey of Vinsauf (fl. 1200) in Poetry Nova. And apparently this societal conditioning is the entire reason why gentlemen prefer blondes? Janega notes that the most damaging aspect of this beauty ideal is that it was impossible for poor women to attain (peasants working the fields are unlikely to have a “milky neck”), and for those who might turn to cosmetics to attain the standard, both the Church — who equated makeup with the Whore of Babylon riding the seven-headed beast into the Apocalypse — and the continuing belief in humour theory — it was apparently verboten for a woman to depilate because a whiskery chin signalled a poisoned womb to potential partners — made it clear that a woman was supposed to be naturally beautiful, but also modest and chaste. And speaking of sex: To be honest, the likelihood that medieval women inserted live fish into their vaginas and then fed them to their husbands was probably low. It cannot be ruled out, but all in all it seems unlikely, no matter how lacking their sex lives might have been. However, actual practice mattered less than the fact that Burchard found such behavior plausible and enough of a worry that he advised clergy members to interrogate female parishioners about it. The idea that women were horny enough to suffocate a fish in their genitals if it meant more and better sex was one thing. It was another that they were willing to do occult magic and endanger their soul. Thinking at the time was that women wanted sex more than their weary partners (for reasons relating to humour theory and Christian fear of women’s strange bodies) and this led to the Malleus Malificarum (Hammer of Witches) written by Church inquisitor Heinrich Kramer (ca. 1430– 1505): a guide for rooting out all the lusty witches consorting with the devil to sate their unnatural needs. Janega contrasts this to the tropes of today — the randy husband begging his frigid wife for sex — but she doesn’t really explain how this flip occurred. Her last section is on women’s work outside the home, and while she writes that we think of this as a recent phenomenon, she stresses that this was the case even in mediaeval times: Women have always been a part of the world’s economy writ large. In fact, women’s work in the premodern world is generally ubiquitous. The idea that women largely existed in a domestic bubble wholly removed from the realities of labor and work would have seemed laughable to medieval people. In all classes of society, women worked and were expected to do so. From peasants and other outdoor labourers to ladies-in-waiting; brewers and bakers and laundresses; from sex workers to those who took Holy Orders, Janega describes all of the roles that women played in the mediaeval economy…but this hardly felt like new information. While the information that Janega shares about these jobs was all interesting, I couldn’t really see how it relates to society today. And that is the point: “Society” hasn’t been made out of whole cloth — every belief about the differences in the sexes has been passed down from earlier times and a more equitable future begins with deconstructing those beliefs. I get that. I just didn’t really get that from this book. Still an interesting read overall. ...more |
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| He dreamt of the days of glory when Jidada was such an earthly paradise animals left their own miserable lands and flocked to it in search of a bet He dreamt of the days of glory when Jidada was such an earthly paradise animals left their own miserable lands and flocked to it in search of a better life, found it, and not only just found it, no, but found it in utter abundance and sent word back for kin and friends to come and see it for themselves — this promised land, this stunning Eldorado called Jidada, a proper jewel of Africa, yes, tholukuthi a land not only indescribably wealthy but so peaceful they could’ve made it up. His Excellency also saw himself in his dream as he’d been back then — beautiful and brimming with unquestioned majesty, a horse that stepped on the ground and the earth agreed and the heavens above agreed and even hell itself also agreed because how could it disagree? Tholukuthi lost now in Jidada’s past glory, the Old Horse nestled deeper in his seat and began to snore a sonorous tune that the Comrades around him identified as Jidada’s old revolutionary anthem from the Liberation War days. Like many reviewers, I found Glory to have been a bit of a slog — too long, too circular, too committed to an allegorical conceit that seems unnecessary — but I also found myself entranced by the exotic language and rhythms and could recognise that this was not meant to be my story; it was not being told to me in a way that preferenced my own comfort and expectations and I grew to embrace the challenge. As a satirical allegory of Robert Mugabe’s last days as the dictator of Zimbabwe (and the out-of-the-frying-pan-and-into-the-fire of what came next), this is an undeniably important act of witnessing and recording his abuses; and as a Zimbabwean author, NoViolet Bulawayo is reporting from inside the story, and making art of it. I may not have connected completely with the material because of the format and length, but I can recognise why this is an important novel and that’s enough for my four stars. Don’t even be fooled by how things may appear right now — I mean the terrible roads that kill people, the potholes, the broken sewer systems, the decrepit hospitals, the decrepit schools, the decrepit industrial sector, the decrepit rail system, or should I say a generally decrepit infrastructure. Then of course there’s the poor standard of living, the millions who’ve crossed and still cross borders in search of better, the misery and such things that may look depressing at first glance, that’ll make you think you’re maybe looking at a ruin. All these things happen to countries, it’s a fact of countryness, but rest assured we were in top form once. Plus, the point is not to judge a book by its cover. Because what remains is that Jidada is still a jewel, Africa’s jewel. And that right there is the Father of the Nation’s God-given legacy, reigning over a real gem. And moreover, he liberated and has protected that jewel so that Jidada will never be a colony again! Because the novel is allegorical — the characters are animals: the ruling class are horses, the army dogs, the commoners sheep and goats and chickens — I have seen many reviews comparing Glory to Animal Farm, but I wonder if Bulawayo wasn’t using the animal device to say something important about the lingering effects of colonisation on African countries: just as the novel form itself has its roots outside of Africa, perhaps Bulawayo purposefully chose a classic of British literature onto which she could graft the language and rhythms of oral Zimbabwean storytelling; a marriage that doesn’t feel totally successful, and that just may be the point. The donkey wife of the “Father of the Nation” even says, more than once, “this is not an animal farm” (and I couldn’t help but notice that characters namedrop classics of African/African American literature when they use the phrases “things fall apart”, “a raisin in the sun”, and even “we need new names”; I wouldn’t be surprised to learn that there were others inserted that I didn’t twig to.) So, between the importance of what this novel actually memorialises (from Mugabe’s brutal dictatorial reign, through the Gukurahundi genocide of 1982-87, to the coup of 2017 which saw Mugabe replaced by his Vice President) and what the format has to say about the lingering effects of colonialism in Africa (and especially the ways in which the formerly oppressed are forced to communicate in the language of their oppressors), this truly did feel important, even if I wasn’t really enjoying it (and again, that might have been the point). We heard and told stories of pain, stories of the Seat of Power’s violence so impossible sometimes animals simply tilted heads up and stared into the glowing Nehanda bones — reeling. Tholukuthi through these tales we learned there were in fact many untold narratives that were left out of the Seat of Power’s tales of the nation, that were excluded from Jidada’s great books of history. That the nation’s stories of glory were far from being the whole truth, and that sometimes the Seat of Power’s truths were actually half-truths and mistruths as well as deliberate erasures. Which in turn made us understand the importance not only of narrating our own stories, our own truths, but of writing them down as well so they were not taken from us, never altered, tholukuthi never erased, never forgotten. Glory ends on a more hopeful note — with the populace recognising that the brutal oppression by the few is only possible with the compliance of the frightened multitudes — and it is my sincere wish that this hopefulness is alive in Bulawayo’s Zimbabwe. I am glad that this novel exists — even if I didn’t love the reading experience — and am also glad that it is being acclaimed; the true story of Zimbabwe deserves to be written down, artfully. When those who know about things say there is no night ever so long it does not end with dawn, tholukuthi what they mean is that there is no night ever so long it does not end with dawn. ...more |
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| It’s not always a pretty story, and shouldn’t be presented as such, but it’s the only one we’ve got: the history of humans as a culture-producing s It’s not always a pretty story, and shouldn’t be presented as such, but it’s the only one we’ve got: the history of humans as a culture-producing species. It’s the story of us. In Culture: The Story of Us, literary critic and Harvard professor of Drama, English, and Comparative Literature Martin Puchner takes us on a tour through time and space to discover the strategies that humans have developed to understand our world: both through STEM-type discovery and mastery of the natural world (our know-how; only briefly referenced here) and our efforts at meaning-making (our know-why; the focus of this book). Throughout this overview of thousands of years of humanity’s quest for knowledge and meaning, Puchner seems to be stressing two main points: that the Humanities as an area of study are equally as important to improving the human experience as are the “hard” sciences; and that humans have always borrowed from and built on the culture of other communities — our current focus on gatekeeping against “cultural appropriation” is in direct opposition to the ways in which culture has always been diffused and preserved. That last point might be controversial — and as Puchner returns to it many times, it would seem that he understands he has a hard case to make — but through many, many examples (from the Chauvet cave paintings, to Pompeiian mosaics, to Aztec pictograms) he proves that knowledge can be literally carved in stone for future generations, but if a particular culture doesn’t survive into that future (and most will not), there will be no one around who can decipher what remains; culture needs to be adopted and adapted and carried forward in order to meaningfully survive. From the fascinating details to the overall message, I appreciated everything that I learned from this read. (Note: I read an ARC through NetGalley and passages quoted may not be in their final forms.) All creators put their trust in the future by trusting that the future will not destroy their works despite the differences in value they know will inevitably arise. Culture: The Story of Us aims to offer its readers the breathtaking variety of cultural works that we as a species have wrought, in the hope that we will carry our shared human inheritance into the next generation, and beyond. It feels appropriate that Puchner starts his overview with the Chauvet cave paintings: we humans seem to have always hearkened to the distant past in an effort to make meaning of our present. It is interesting to consider why, even today, a “Classical Education” includes learning Latin and Ancient Greek in order to read the “epics” in the original; honestly: why? Even more interesting is noting, in this context, that Plato wanted to give his Athens an even more ancient past, so he wrote Timaeus (in which an Egyptian priest tells the story of Athens once joining Egypt in its war against Atlantis). Along this line, we have Virgil writing The Aeneid (linking the founding of Rome to a refugee from the Trojan War); Nebure Id Ishaq’s Kebra Nagast (a 14th century Ethiopian work that tells the story of the Queen of Sheba carrying the Ark of the Covenant out of Jerusalem); and Louis de Camões’ 16th century The Lusiads (a heroic history of Portuguese seafaring, written in the style of a Greek epic). And in contrast to this history of people trying to link themselves to the so-called cultural “pinnacles” of ancient times, Puchner tells the story of Wole Soyinka’s 20th century masterpiece of Nigerian theatre, Death and the King’s Horseman (based on actual events from Nigeria’s colonial past that involved a conflict between Nigerian and British cultures) and I appreciated how Puchner describes Soyinka’s use of Western theatrical forms, overlaid with traditional Yoruba storytelling devices, and how by not preferring one form over the other (neither is considered a pinnacle or primitive), Soyinka achieves a “deep investigation into ritual, arguably humanity’s oldest form of meaning-making”. In evaluating culture, we tend to overemphasize originality: when and where something was first invented. Claims of origin are often used to prop up dubious claims of superiority and ownership. Such claims conveniently forget that everything comes from somewhere, is dug up, borrowed, moved, purchased, stolen, recorded, copied, and often misunderstood. What matters much more than where something originally comes from is what we do with it. Culture is a huge recycling project, and we are simply the intermediaries that preserve its vestiges for yet another use. Nobody owns culture; we simply pass it down to the next generation. In addition to stories of culture being borrowed across time are those of culture being carried across space. I enjoyed the story of the Buddhist monk, Xuanzang, who travelled to India in the 7th century in search of original source Buddhist writings and artefacts (and it was interesting to consider the transfer of Buddhism eastward as Hinduism regained its foothold in India). Similarly, it was interesting to learn of the 9th century Japanese Buddhist monk, Ennin, who travelled to China as part of an official diplomatic mission to bring back cultural objects and new knowledge (and to witness Japan becoming a primary seat of Buddhist practise as Confucianism regained its foothold in China). Going forward in time to the 19th century, it was fascinating to learn that wood-block printing was original to China but adopted by artists in Japan’s “floating world” (a place marked by pleasure, commerce, and hedonism), and that the most popular print to come out of this era was Hokusai’s The Great Wave in 1830; as it turns out, this most recognisable of Japanese artworks has very little in common with traditional Japanese art. (Puchner traces this commercialisation of borrowed culture in the East to modern times with the rise of K-pop in our own day, a rise that has “been accompanied by an anti-Korean backlash as well as by claims that it isn’t Korean at all.”) Cultures thrive on the ready availability of different forms of expression and meaning-making, on possibilities and experiments, and to the extent that cultural contact increases those options, it stimulates cultural production and development. Those invested in purity, by contrast, tend to shut down alternatives, limit possibilities, and police experiments in cultural fusion. By doing so, they impoverish themselves while condoning or encouraging the neglect and destruction of those aspects of the past that do not conform to their own, narrow standards. There are many more stories of cultural borrowing, adoption, and adaptation throughout the ages than it would be possible to put in a review, and I can only end by saying that I was fascinated by all of it. This is the story of all of us, and it’s a story we all ought to know and carry forward. ...more |
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| Do you feel normal now? is the question I get most often from my readers. Almost, I say. Nearly normal. After book tours and readings (and even a Tedx Do you feel normal now? is the question I get most often from my readers. Almost, I say. Nearly normal. After book tours and readings (and even a Tedx talk) in the wake of her bestselling memoir North of Normal, Cea Sunrise Person realised that her story was really connecting with readers; and especially with those readers who had survived challenging childhoods of their own. This realisation sparked Person to write a supplementary memoir, this time including the most painful stories from her past that she had omitted or only briefly referenced the first time around; Nearly Normal is meant to fill in the whole story of Person’s stranger-than-fiction life, and as supplementary material, I found it to be, once again, fascinating and thoughtful (I don’t know if it would stand on its own, and don’t think it should be read as a standalone). A had a few quibbles with the writing this time, but will happily round up to four stars again. The hardest things to write about were the times in my life I felt I didn’t matter, that I wasn’t heard by my family, that I wasn’t allowed to feel shame or modesty or have an opinion that differed from my freedom-obsessed family. Trying to navigate my way through the minefield of Person beliefs — homeopathy, astrology, health food, artificial mood enhancers, freedom, nonconformity — and non-beliefs — religion, politics, consumerism, attachment, guilt, regret, expectation, obligation, education, authority, government, discipline — had left me with little room to form my own opinions other than “whatever’s the opposite of theirs.” Nearly Normal doesn’t go deeply into the details of Person’s unconventional wilderness childhood (that’s in the first book), but she does add in some shocking stories of abuses she suffered (committed by non-family members, but tied to the neglectful environment she was raised in), she goes into the details of her two failed marriages and successful modelling career, and she outlines her inspiration for and process of writing her first memoir, along with the roadblocks she faced to having it published. The narrative jumps between these three timelines expertly, converging on her life in the present: happily married, with three healthy children, and a successful writing career; “nearly” normal, at last. This is an inspirational story of survival and I can appreciate how other survivors of abusive childhoods could find real value in reading Person’s additional unvarnished truths. Despite the madness of my early years, there was no doubt that I’d learned some unique and valuable lessons. And if I were to acknowledge that my family had put me in danger because they were too selfish or lazy or crazy to care, it seemed even more important to me that I find the positive in those experiences. So maybe it all evened out. Maybe in some weird way, all the hardship had set me up to be the pattern-breaker of dysfunction in my family. Because I knew that those who continued their family’s patterns of destruction not only hurt themselves but also admitted defeat to those who had damaged them, intentionally or not. Perhaps the most interesting thing that Person shared this time is her doctor’s suspicion that her mother, aunts, and uncle all suffered from Fragile X Syndrome — they all had mental challenges that ranged from mild cognitive impairment (Cea’s mother) to bipolar (an aunt) to schizophrenia (her institutionalised uncle) — likely, according to the doctor, exacerbated by early and prolonged marijuana use. Cea herself tested negative for the genetic disorder in adulthood (and her children also appear unaffected), and as she also takes after her father in appearance (and apparently in intellect, temperament, and mannerisms, despite not knowing him until adulthood), she makes the provocative statement that she believes a person’s character is fixed at birth “and that environment had little to do with the person we ultimately become.” Adding, “Maybe the reason I’d endured so much as a child had less to do with creating my personality than creating my life’s purpose,” with her life’s purpose being the writing of her story “as though someone else’s life depended upon it”. That’s a provocative conclusion to have ended on, and I’m still mulling it over; happy to have read this, happy to have been provoked. ...more |
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| Looking back, I can see that it all started to fall apart with my first marriage. Until then, I had marveled to myself almost smugly about how unaf Looking back, I can see that it all started to fall apart with my first marriage. Until then, I had marveled to myself almost smugly about how unaffected I was by my crazy past and family. Even as my career took off in my late teens and early twenties, I fell into none of the typical pitfalls that many survivors of challenging childhoods did; I never did drugs, I had a healthy relationship with food, I didn’t engage in casual sex, and I only drank as much as my friends did. But for me, it was my craving for normal — that dangling carrot that seemed always just beyond my reach — that would be my undoing. North of Normal holds its own against other memoirs of bizarre childhoods — The Glass Castle or Running with Scissors — and it’s always amazing to me when someone like Cea Sunrise Person (or Jeannette Walls or Augusten Burroughs) seems to turn out okay. Born into a family of nomadic, nudist, free-loving, pot-smoking hippies, Person could well have fallen through every crack — her childhood was one of no structure, no stability, no sexual discretion among the surrounding adults — but having had glimpses of “normal” throughout the years, she left home at thirteen to become a globe-trotting supermodel; in effect becoming the face of the consumerist society that her grandparents fled when they started their journey north. This is an incredible story, well told; a story of surviving an unconventional childhood, and then recognising and embracing the strengths that experience provided. (It is only by coincidence that I just learned a film based on this memoir is currently showing at this year’s Toronto International Film Festival; I hope it generates even more interest in this fine book.) The idea that had been brewing in his mind since his teens was pulling at him stronger than ever now. He had heard talk about a movement up north in Canada, a land known for its harsh climate and gentle handling of disillusioned Americans. But a new country was only the start of my grandfather’s plan. He knew how to hunt, how to survive in the wild, and he had some exciting ideas about shelter. What his kids needed was fresh mountain air and dirt between their toes. If he could just get them away from the city and into nature, back to the basics of food, water, clothing and shelter, they might still stand a chance. Cea’s grandfather — Papa Dick — first decided to find a piece of Canadian wilderness for his family when he realised that his four teenaged children were failing to thrive in California: all were dropouts who smoked weed all day (with their parents) and brought random strangers home at night; the oldest daughter regularly got beat up by her Hells Angels boyfriend; the only son routinely dropped acid and was teetering on schizophrenia; the mentally challenged youngest daughter (at 13) brought home new guys every night; and their fifteen-year-old daughter just found out she was pregnant. They eventually ended up in northern Alberta — gaining permission from a band of Cree to set up their homemade teepee on Native land — and for the next few years, the Person family lived off the land, with Papa Dick running wilderness survival camps to make a small income. Cea’s early childhood was one of running naked through the meadows, savouring bear meat, and turning her back to the sounds of her mother having sex with strangers in the small shelter they shared. Cea’s mother eventually took her on the road with a series of losers — always high, usually topless, generally having sex in front of her distressed daughter — and while Cea always dreamed of returning to the freedom of her grandparents’ camp, when they did return (now to the Yukon), she was forced to realise that the no-rules lifestyle existed because her grandparents didn’t really care about anyone else. Cea and her mother would next move to Calgary — existing just above the poverty line, more or less supported by the Mom’s married boyfriend — and it was while she was in high school there that Cea saw just enough "normal" to want her piece of it. When I got back to my room, I stood gazing at the collage over my bed. I had found the frame in our back alley, and spent hours pasting into it pictures of models cut from magazines. I took a deep breath and stood up tall. The idea that had been in my head for so many years now suddenly seemed a lifeline. There was one way to escape my crazy family, and all I had to do was grab hold of it. There are some of her early modelling photos among the pictures in this book — proving that Cea is undeniably photogenic — but what a way to escape, at thirteen. At that point in her life, Cea understood that her childhood had been more neglectful than idyllic — she held a lot of resentment towards her mother, her absent father, and her grandparents — but eventually, decades later, information is shared with Cea that allows her to gain a new understanding of her mother and she arrives at a place of peace; ultimately embracing the challenges that had formed her. This review is just the barest of overviews — some of the details in the book could make your hair stand on end — but I hope it gives the sense that this is a worthwhile read. Cea has an engaging voice, her story is stranger-than-fiction, and having reached her forties before writing of her childhood, she had time to reflect and make sense of her experiences. ...more |
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| Dr. Najjar saw tears gather at the corners of my eyes. I sat up and threw my arms around him. For him, it was another crucial moment in my case: he Dr. Najjar saw tears gather at the corners of my eyes. I sat up and threw my arms around him. For him, it was another crucial moment in my case: he could sense that I was still in there, somewhere. But it was just a blip. After that outpouring, I lay back down and dozed off, exhausted by the brief display of emotion. But he knew I was there, and he would not give up on me. He motioned for my parents to follow him outside the room. Part memoir, part medical mystery, Brain on Fire recounts Susannah Cahalan’s sudden descent into mental illness (which presented as schizophrenia, paranoia, and catatonia), and the dedicated efforts made by her friends and family to force the medical community to find a physical cause for her swift decline and cure it. As a young journalist who had no memory of her time in hospital during her illness, Cahalan conducted interviews, read her medical reports, and perhaps most chillingly, watched surveillance videos of herself acting out from her hospital bed (which she had no memory of at all; this was like watching a deranged stranger); and while she was able to put together this comprehensive account of her experience, there is a detached journalistic tone that I found distancing. I’d give this book a 3.5 if I could, and while yesterday I might have rounded up to four stars for the important role Cahalan’s story seems to have played for others with her same condition, today I feel like rounding down to three for that detachment; I have definitely seen other investigative journalists bring their subjects more to life than Cahalan has done here for her own self, and I am feeling the lack. Still, a very interesting read. From here on, I remember only very few bits and pieces, mostly hallucinatory, from the time in the hospital. Unlike before, there are now no glimmers of the reliable “I”, the Susannah I had been for the previous twenty-four years. Though I had been gradually losing more and more of myself over the past few weeks, the break between my consciousness and my physical body was now finally fully complete. In essence, I was gone. I wish I could understand my behaviors and motivations during this time, but there was no rational consciousness operating, nothing I could access anymore, then or now. This was the beginning of my lost month of madness. In a new relationship, writing for the New York Post, living on her own in Hell’s Kitchen: everything seemed to be going right for Susannah Cahalan. But what started as a numbness in her left hand and progressed to mood swings and seizures, soon landed the twenty-four-year-old in the epilepsy wing of NYU Hospital. On the one hand, as a Canadian, I was gobsmacked by Cahalan’s swift access to medical care: She went to her doctor about the numbness and was sent to a noted neurologist the same day; and after a normal examination, he sent her for an MRI the same day. That simply couldn’t happen that quickly here. On the other hand, because Cahalan had told the neurologist that she did usually have a couple glasses of wine to unwind at the end of the day, he diagnosed her with stress and alcoholism and advised her to stop partying (in her medical file, this doctor apparently wrote that she admitted to drinking a couple of bottles of wine per day); she was sent home and her condition rapidly declined. So, despite a large team of specialists working her case in hospital — and despite what she reports as a million dollars worth of tests — it was a shot-in-the-dark cognitive test administered by a new neurologist that first identified what was happening to Cahalan. In case the medical mystery aspect is considered a spoiler, I’ll hide the solution: (view spoiler)[After a couple of spinal taps, it was confirmed that Cahalan was suffering from an autoimmune disorder — antibodies were attacking her own brain and causing the mental symptoms — and she was cured by a course of steroids and blood transfusions. This type of disorder is usually caused by a “teratome” tumour on a young woman’s ovaries (this was not actually the case for Cahalan; her cause remains a mystery), and that type of tumour sounded so disturbing that I’ll include what she wrote about it: When this type of tumor was identified in the late 1800s, a German doctor christened it “teratome” from the Greek teraton, which means monster. These twisted cysts were a source of fascination even when there was no name for them: the first description dates back to a Babylonian text from 600 B.C. These masses of tissue range in size from microscopic to fist sized (or even bigger) and contain hair, teeth, bone, and sometimes even eyes, limbs, and brain tissue. They are often located in the reproductive organs, brain, skull, tongue, and neck and resemble pus-soaked hairballs.(hide spoiler)] I enjoyed how Cahalan handled the medical writing (useful information without getting bogged down in the science) and how she approached her own experience as a mystery to be solved; as a tabloid journalist, she often ended her short chapters with propulsive foreshadowing, as in That would be the last interview I conducted for seven months or regarding her mother It was the first and last time she would allow herself to completely succumb to her emotions in the frightening months that followed. This was very readable, if lacking in a personal or philosophical response to Cahalan’s missing month. If he found that I had anti-NMDA-receptor autoimmune encephalitis, it would make me just the 217th person worldwide to have been diagnosed since 2007. It begged the question: If it took so long for one of the best hospitals in the world to get to this step, how many other people were going untreated, diagnosed with a mental illness or condemned to a life in a nursing home or a psychiatric ward? In the end, this was the most interesting question discussed: How many people suffering from this sort of disorder have been misdiagnosed over the years as autistic or schizophrenic, or even, as possessed by a demon; how many people have been locked up or lobotomised or burned at the stake? Cahalan first wrote about her experience in an article for the New York Post, and after appearing on the Today Show, she began to receive messages from people who wondered if their own loved ones could be suffering from the same condition. The book ends with a few of these interactions, and if Cahalan’s story led to other doctors testing for her rare condition, then I can’t deny that this is an important story to have told: Cahalan concludes, “When I was diagnosed, it was believed that 90 percent of cases went undiagnosed. Now many doctors know to test for it, and if it is found early and treated aggressively, 81 percent of patients recover fully.” (*With the caveat that there was still a 7% mortality rate; not everyone can be as lucky as the author.) Solid three and a half stars; I would need something more in order to round up. ...more |
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| What makes our parties doubly unruly, and therefore doubly spectacular, is the fact that a clown god lives inside us. A spirit half-human and half- What makes our parties doubly unruly, and therefore doubly spectacular, is the fact that a clown god lives inside us. A spirit half-human and half-god, as is the case with all superheroes in all world mythologies. The difference is that our Trickster has a sense of humour and a concupiscence that know no limit. I chose to read Laughing with the Trickster — a contribution to the CBC Massey Lectures series by noted Indigenous author and playwright Tomson Highway — on the occasion of Canada’s second National Day for Truth and Reconciliation, and it was perfectly suited to the occasion. Over five chapters — examining language, creation, sex and gender, humour, and death — Highway shares personal stories, Indigenous mythology (particularly focussed on Trickster tales), and compares how language and creation myths from around the world set the tone for how a society decides to live within these five areas; easily making the case that colonialism (and the imposition of English and Christianity on Indigenous peoples) not only separated colonised people from their own culture and history but also forced them to adopt a more restrictive and frightening worldview. Thomson lays out these truths with a generosity of spirit and good humour, and this is the sort of informative and accessible book that should be widely read and widely taught as we seek reconciliation with our First Nations. Very highly recommended. (Note: I read an ARC through NetGalley and passages quoted may not be in their final forms.) For me, after having pored through every single word and syllable of its verbal fecundity, and comparing it to the many other languages I have tried on my world travels, I find English to be the world’s quintessential language of the intellect. It’s brilliant. When I need money, I speak English faster than the speed of sound. And generally get it. When I try to make money in Cree, by comparison, I go hungry. Cree is terrible when it comes to making money. But laughter? Hysteria unzippered, unbound, uncorked? That’s Cree’s genius. Highway’s comparison of Cree and English (and how one’s native tongue informs mindset) was my most profound learning: Apparently, in Cree, there are no “bad words”; everything is on the table for joking and teasing and laughing about — even the way that words are formed is half a smile, and whether a person is talking (at a mile a minute) or listening, people engaging in a conversation in Cree are always ready to start laughing. This mindset contributes to and is the product of Cree mythology — from creation myths to hilarious tales of the Trickster — and also extends to the afterlife: as they believe that the spirit does not survive death (and the body returns to nourish the earth), traditional Cree peoples enjoy life, and laughter, and the pleasures of the body in the here and now. Comparing that to compulsory English and forced conversion to Christianity (with its inherent misogyny, sexual taboos, and fear of judgement in the afterlife), Highway makes the point that the First Nations weren’t just forced to live life in translation after first contact but compelled to change their entire view of reality; and I don’t know why I never considered it that way before. For this learning, I am grateful. If the marriage between the sky god Zeus and his wife, the Earth goddess Hera, was violent, then it was nothing in comparison to the moment when the one Christian God met Mother Earth on these shores and the aggression was total — he almost killed her. But didn’t. The culture could have disappeared. The figure of the Trickster could have disappeared forever. The culture came close to disappearing. The figure of the Trickster came close to disappearing. But it didn’t. It hung on by a hair. And hung on and hung on and hung on, if by one spark. And that is the spark that Indigenous artists stoked to life. Not least of which did these Trickster stories they tell make us laugh, and laughter is medicine. In fact, never before has laughter saved an entire race of people in quite this manner. Languages go extinct all the time (a quick Google search tells me that one dies every two weeks with its last speaker) and I can be a bit blasé about that fact: it's objectively sad, but globalisation and the free movement of people and the internet can make homogenisation feel like progress towards some Star Trek future where we’re all equal Earthlings. So I am grateful for what Highway taught me here about what’s at stake when a language — and its attendant culture and worldview — is under threat of extinction; this world would be a lesser place without the Trickster and they who share his tales and I am enlarged for having been on the receiving end of this learning. ...more |
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| Some nights, Furlong lay there with Eileen, going over small things like these. Other times, after a day of heavy lifting or being delayed by a pun Some nights, Furlong lay there with Eileen, going over small things like these. Other times, after a day of heavy lifting or being delayed by a puncture and getting soaked out on the road, he’d come home and eat his fill and fall into bed early, then wake in the night sensing Eileen, heavy in sleep, at his side — and there he’d lie with his mind going round in circles, agitating, before finally he’d have to go down and put the kettle on, for tea. I really wanted to love Small Things Like These — I favour Irish storytellers and this opened with delightful prose and turns of phrase; eventually turning to deal with darker matter — and as ever, I feel a bit heartless when a book about important events, which other readers found affecting, leaves me cold. This is quite a short read, quiet and atmospheric, but I think it was a bit too quiet for me. Even so, Claire Keegan is enjoying critical success with this story — and any effort to shine a light in the dark corners of history is a worthwhile endeavour — and while I liked everything that’s in here, I simply wanted more. What was it all for? Furlong wondered. The work and the constant worry. Getting up in the dark and going to the yard, making the deliveries, one after another, the whole day long, then coming home in the dark and trying to wash the black off himself and sitting into a dinner at the table and falling asleep before waking in the dark to meet a version of the same thing, yet again. Might things never change or develop into something else, or new? Lately, he had begun to wonder what mattered, apart from Eileen and the girls. He was touching forty but didn’t feel himself to be getting anywhere or making any kind of headway and could not but sometimes wonder what the days were for. Touching forty, Bill Furlong has five well-behaved daughters and a capable, pragmatic wife. And while every day he witnesses people suffering the effects of an economic downturn (the setting is New Ross, Ireland in 1985), as a fuel supplier, he is able to provide his own family with just enough of everything: the girls go to the only decent school in the area; he finds the cash to pay off the butcher (even if he lets too many of his customers put their bills “on the slate”); his wife, Eileen, might even be able to get new windows to replace the draughty ones in the upcoming year. Even so, Furlong feels a midlife malaise, and his constant wondering if this is all there is to life sets a tense and sombre tone for the novel. We learn Furlong’s back story — as the son of an unwed mother who raised him in a Protestant widow’s big home, his childhood was both privileged and challenging, with the other Catholic kids calling him names and beating him up — and the reader grows to understand that Furlong still mentally walks the line between insider and outsider in the community. So when he discovers some disturbing facts about the girls’ “training school” that operates out of the local convent, he’s presented with a dilemma: Should he intervene and risk his family’s fragile social standing or can he live with himself if — like every other person in the city, county, and country — he turns a blind eye to the stranglehold of the Church and their treatment of young women? He found himself asking was there any point in being alive without helping one another? Was it possible to carry on along through all the years, the decades, through an entire life, without once being brave enough to go against what was there and yet call yourself a Christian, and face yourself in the mirror? Perhaps my problem is that there’s not a lot of facts and details in this book: Furlong is dealing with his mid-life crisis and what he discovers at the convent is meant to shake him out of his malaise and decide what kind of person he really is; we are stuck solely in his troubled mind. In an afterword, Keegan explains Ireland’s Magdalen laundries (how many tens of thousands of young women were involved; that the last one was closed in 1996), and while I do appreciate a light being shone on that dark history, neither we the readers or Furlong himself actually see what’s going on in the convent (yet he’s been the fuel supplier there for his entire adult life and never stumbled upon the true nature of the “training school” before?) I think I would have rather seen more goings on in the convent or for there to have been more acknowledgement that the community knew exactly what the nuns were up to and willfully ignored it. Instead we get this existential crisis and a provocation to action — and Keegan gives just barely enough information for us to understand what the stakes are for Furlong and his family if he does act — and the whole seems intended to ask a question instead of taking a stance. And that wasn’t enough for me; rounding down to three stars despite admiring the writing. ...more |
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| The cell’s occupant was one of the most notorious criminals in eighteenth-century France. He had spent the bulk of his forty-five years reveling in The cell’s occupant was one of the most notorious criminals in eighteenth-century France. He had spent the bulk of his forty-five years reveling in depravity: engaging in blasphemous acts with a prostitute, torturing a beggar, poisoning whores, hiding in Italy in the romantic company of his sister-in-law, locking away girls and boys in his château for his own sexual designs, and narrowly surviving a bullet fired at his chest. For years, he had evaded the law — breaking out of an Alpine prison, dodging a military raid on his home, absconding from the clutches of a police squadron, and eluding his own public execution. His name was Donatien Alphonse François de Sade, but most people knew him as the Marquis de Sade. I went into The Curse of the Marquis de Sade knowing very little about its eponymous subject — I read Justine when I was twenty or so (and remember nothing of it), and I saw my daughter perform in a university production of Marat/Sade (so I knew something of his time in the Charenton Asylum) — and knew nothing at all about the novel, The 120 Days of Sodom, described here — about four libertines who enslave a group of mostly children and sexually torture them for a month — so I found the twin stories that Joel Warner relates about the life of Sade and the history of this manuscript to be entirely shocking, fascinating, and stranger than fiction. Deeply researched and engagingly related, Warner uses the life of the Marquis de Sade — and the bibliophiles who would eventually stop at nothing to acquire his handwritten manuscript — to explore questions about art and freedom and obsession, and I loved the whole thing. (Note: I read an ARC through NetGalley and passages quoted may not be in their final forms.) Was Sade a revolutionary, working to expose the rotten core of the aristocracy to which he had been born? Was he a radical philosopher, aiming to lay bare humanity’s most cruel and twisted desires? Or was he simply an unrepentant criminal, chronicling his own atrocities, committed or simply dreamed of? There is also the puzzle of the manuscript itself. Sade worked on the text from seven to ten o’clock each evening, since its content was far too scandalous for him to be caught composing it during the day. When he reached the end of a sheet of paper, he pasted another below it, creating an ever-lengthening roll. After twenty-two nights, he flipped the document over and continued to write. The result, after thirty-seven days of work, was a scroll formed from thirty-three sheets of paper fastened end to end, measuring just over four inches wide and stretching nearly forty feet. Both sides were covered with words — 157,000 in total — the text so tiny it was nearly illegible without a magnifying glass. It definitely takes an entire book to relate all the twists in the life of the Marquis de Sade — he wrote The 120 Days of Sodom in the Bastille, but was transferred to another prison just before it was stormed; he narrowly escaped an appointment with the guillotine during the Reign of Terror; and not only did he spend his later years homeless or in filthy prison cells and mental wards, but after death, his skull was “borrowed” (and lost) by a German phrenologist — but what I learned for certain: it wasn’t only Sade’s erotic writings that ran him afoul of the morality police; he actually did kidnap, poison, and torture youths and sex workers, so he’s not exactly the poster child for free expression; his life wasn’t driven by kink, but psychopathy. And it made for compelling reading. And as for The 120 Days of Sodom: Its contents are of debatable literary and artistic value — early sex researchers valued it as a catalogue of taboo fantasies and the Surrealists resurrected it as a stream of unfiltered subconsciousness — but the uniquely-made manuscript itself was always highly prized, and Warner traces its fascinating path through the hands of thieves and heirs and millionaire erotica collectors; from the mason who first found it hidden in Sade’s cell at the Bastille, to the rare book collector who repatriated it to France, only to watch his empire crumble mere months later. And it is this last bit that the entire book is working toward: When Gérard Lhéritier came up with the novel business plan to allow investors to own fractional shares in rare manuscripts — with the option to sell them back to his company, Aristophil, five years later at their then current value — was he inventing a unique investment instrument, or running a Ponzi scheme? Both Lhéritier and Sade seem to share a callous disregard for the wellbeing of others, but what constitutes overreach in the government’s efforts to control someone like that? Is it a coincidence that the French government didn’t take much notice of Lhéritier’s business dealings until he was able to acquire a manuscript that they then declared a piece of national patrimony, or is Lhéritier just the latest victim of the curse of the Marquis de Sade? Lhéritier insisted that he wasn’t France’s Bernie Madoff. Madoff’s Wall Street firm hadn’t been selling anything tangible; Aristophil, meanwhile, had traded in real manuscripts with real value. The truth, declared Lhéritier, would emerge when he finally had his day in court. When asked how many years in prison he thought he’d receive, he flashed his roguish smile and made a circle with his fingers: zero. From the No. 1 Compagnie des Aérostatiers (hot air balloonists who ferried the mail out of France during the Prussian siege of 1780) to Sade’s elderly great-great-great-granddaughter trying to join the student protests of 1968 outside Théâtre de l’Odéon (which had been built on the site of the Marquis de Sade’s birthplace, likely without her knowing that fact) to a bizarrely coincidental EuroMillions lottery win and Pierre Cardin's restoration of the crumbling Sade castle, there are so many interesting facts and coincidences in The Curse of the Marquis de Sade, that as straight history, this is a satisfying read. But by counterplaying the two stories of the life of Sade with the life of his most notorious manuscript — and culminating with perhaps the biggest investment con in France’s history — Warner elevates the material to ask compelling and relevant questions about what it means to be a decent person; what do we owe to ourselves and others in the face of our own desires? 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| We had begun so long ago with our poems after Sappho, carefully styled in fragments, our paintings and blushes all done in likeness. Perhaps at las We had begun so long ago with our poems after Sappho, carefully styled in fragments, our paintings and blushes all done in likeness. Perhaps at last the future of Sappho would be delivered into our hands like a packet of books knotted up with string. For example we might open a seemingly ordinary biography, its chapters neatly partitioned, and find that it was webbed throughout with the most extraordinary filaments of a life. A life after all did not happen by itself, in discrete units. Thus this biography would be bound together with all of our lives, twined through from preface to index: curling, animate, verdant. In the end we might become the readers of our own afterwords. When I started After Sappho I got that same kind of breathless feeling that I had when I read Naomi Alderman’s The Power or Emma Cline’s The Girls — that deep-gut reaction to having feminist truths named that had formerly only been experienced — and I luxuriated in author Selby Wynn Schwartz’s lyrical prose; was intrigued by her episodic biographies of women who dared to break the patriarchal molds they had been born into. But as the book proceeded, it began to feel less like a novel and more like a textbook or a series of Wikipedia entries: it read as all surface, no depth; all sizzle, no steak. It became a bit of a slog — despite frequent yummy prose — and while I admire the effort, and appreciate what I learned, this, unfortunately, did not satisfy me novelistically. (Note: I read an ARC through NetGalley and passages quoted may not be in their final form.) We longed for writing tables that were not in the kitchen, stained with onions; we wanted to read the novels kept from us because they were decadent and suggestive; we wanted to exchange the finger-pricked linens of our trousseaus for travel guides and foreign grammars; we wanted to meet each other in rooms and discuss the rights of women, we wanted to close the doors to the rooms and lie in each other’s arms, the light pouring in the window, the curtains drawn back, the view over the bay running in cerulean and azure swaths into the open sea. We dreamed of islands where we could write poems that kept our lovers up all night. In our letters, we murmured the fragments of our desires to each other, breaking the lines in our impatience. We were going to be Sappho, but how did Sappho begin to become herself? Covering a period between the 1880s and the 1920s (and mostly centering on queer white women from Western Europe), Schwartz sketches the lives of women artists familiar to me (Sarah Bernhardt, Isadora Duncan, Gertrude Stein, or Virginia Woolf among others), and many more names unfamiliar. And while I was moved by Sibilla Aleramo’s early experiences of watching her mother dive out the window, and being married off to her rapist (as per Italian law at the time), or learning of Radclyffe Hall and her efforts to convince the British House of Lords that she was as fine a gentleman as any of them, there were so many unfamiliar names, criss-crossing each others’ paths over the years, that the storyline became both confusing and tedious to me. And because these lives are treated at a surface-level, with no effort made at exploring these women’s interiority, the lyrical Greek chorus/fragments from Sappho bits just added to the confusion instead of elevating the material. Readers according to Colette were like lovers. The best were attentive, intelligent, exigent, and promiscuous. She urged us to read widely and well, to seek out precisely the novels prohibited to us and lie down for hours in bed with them. We should read to gorge and sate ourselves, Colette enjoined us; after a good book we should lick our fingers. I wish that this book had impelled me to lick my fingers in its aftermath, but despite its initial promise, I lost engagement with this material pretty quickly. Certainly not a waste of my time, but simply not to my taste. ...more |
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