In Pursuit of dream girl!!

Pankaj Sharma
In pursuit of my dream girl!! Was I touched by love!! The question I have been
asking myself for years now or what was it? that I felt and still aching inside my
heart I don’t know all I know even after 6 years I still can’t get her out of my head
it feels like time is running with its pace but am still struck In the same x standard
2010 batch of Kendriya Vidyalaya Sevoke road i never passed that class or the
next one. My grades were good but I failed to get the answer was the thing I felt
was love. or...

Let’s take you to the class which I so desperately want to relive.

It was 2009 summer when my father got his transfer from Gujrat Indo-Pakistan
border to Siliguri in west Bengal at Indo-Bangladesh border it was a four yearly
routine. Every four years my father will get transfer to different locations in
northern India and along with him we get our bag packs ready too as we live with
our father at the battalion base in family quarters allocated to military personnel’s.

Every four year change of location meant change of everything starting new
school, adopting new climate, new culture and again have to make new friends. It
has became a routine now but Bengal is a sweet locality sweeter then Gujrati
climate which was all heat and wind but Bengal offered a lot of sweet things apart
from the wildly famous Raasgulla or Roshhgulla ha ha…!!

New school so a fresh start was awaiting me but it was board exam this year so a
lot of study’s too. I was good with studies not the topper but yes I managed to
score within 75 to 82 percentile consistently. It was enough for me and my family
to let my study going. New school new teachers and first day is the hardest you
don’t know a single person in that class & it feels awkward everyone starring at
you teacher introducing you... students meet your new classmate Abhishek he is a
transfer student I know you will make him feel home... Dibakar it’s your
responsibility pointing to one of the student in the back bench… to show Abhishek
around and if he need any help take care of it for me ok

A sweet madam in her 50’s my class mentor her polite voice just did the work for
me she pointed me towards a 2nd last bench on the window side to introduce myself
to Dibakar a fatty brownish tone my age 16 with mischievous eyes. I knew we
were gona get along just fine…
Hey am Dibakar Bhattacharjee n u r Abhishek right? Dibakar politely asked me
extending his hand

Yes madam just introduced me. I replied shaking his hand sealing my first friend
bond.

Hey buddy can I see your notes class work means how far you have covered your
syllabus here... I asked.

Sure here… said Dibakar while sending his hand into his side back pack to take out
all his class work notebooks

Whoa you guys are ahead of my school or what used to be I said turning pages of
notebooks with a little tension. I got a lot to catch up... And... my new school life
began with a lot of handwork copying down all the extra syllabus this teachers has
covered it felt like they were planning to complete the syllabus by mid of this year
and rest time it will be all about revision and revision a lot of tests.

Keeping my head buried in notebooks running my hand on notebooks as fast as I

First day Dibakar took me to the entire buildings library, sports complex music hall
he showed me the whole place my first few days went like this only copying notes
notes notes!!... In class and at home search for good tuitions started…I did made
few friends in the process but was mostly bored with so much of studies… Then…
entered she the fresh wind in my life at the time I needed it most a thing my
heartfelt lively after just getting a look of it... her name Krinna she must be on
leave or something I never noticed her before in my class but now she is here so
now I had someone on my watch list someone I wanted to impress and be friends
with not only because she was white as wheat and glowing with pheromones but
because her eyes were the most beautiful brownish pair I have seen her hairs
loosely tied in one ribbon I want her to be my girl friend… so I need a plan
somehow I have to get her attention make her aware some new guy is in town so I
started studying more the chapter half covered in class will be fully covered by me
in night and next day if teachers ask anything from the book don’t know about rest
of the class but my hand always stood raised up with an answer.

soon I was the popular guy of the class teachers started liking me toppers wants to
be friends and because of military background I was good in physical too so good
in sports. I was liked by most of the class so it is time now that someone notices
me and zingy…

Next day it was an another busy classroom teacher running at their full throttle in
sync with our hands noting down the whole chalkboard within minutes someone
knocked at the gate .. Knock knock…

Come in our teacher said

It was a man in his late 30’s came to drop her daughter a new addition to our class
another transfer student she looked she had done this before no tension seemed to
find any place on her face a dusky not fair not brown but somewhere in between
catchy eyes mysterious but her hairs were tied In a school traditional way with two
ribbons on both sides giving her a clownish and adorable look at the same time we
all remember how it used to be…

Yes!! Pratiksha right!! Our teacher looked at her with a question?

Yes madam her father replied.

Hmm... Please have a seat pointing her to the second bench in the wall side row the
girls’ side.

Students she is pratiksha a new friends of yours take good care of her ok and just
like me she was allotted a girl friend Shweta and class continued…

Days passed first preboard exams were upon us so a lot of studies. I was struggling
with my maths. I didn’t found a good tutor and in class it was fast so except math I
scored well in all the other subjects. Every day a paper answer sheets will be
shown in the class and marks would be read out loud everyone making note of
their own marks and find out who topped in the particular subject I hardly ever
topped but I was in top 3 except Math’s. Teachers wanted me to shift my seat from
backbenches to first In middle row so that I am not affected by the so called bad
society and keep improving. Dibakar moved with me to the first bench.. I was
becoming the star boy girls in Bengal are quite forward in the matter of expressing
their love their feelings and not waiting for the male to take first step few girls to
be exact two started showing interest in me with excuse of needing help with the
homework or some hard topics they will come to me sit by my side and soon
indulge me in questions like Abhishek do you have a gf.. Girl friend??

No I would say maintaining my simplicity character.

No not now but when u were in Gujrat means there you must have a gf don’t you!!
They will ask stirring their curiosity.

No!!... Actually I had but… this is new school new personality they don’t need to
know.. So no!! I always said..

the girl I was awaiting to get attention she was always on leave maybe bunking
because no parents would allow their kids to miss school for so many times.

Mean time meet my neighbor in class we had three rows middle which was my
territory now right next to teachers table and a fan straight above us. Close to the
entry gate was girls row and the window side was boys territory middle one was
common ground though half girls half boys. The controls of the lights and fans
were on girls side which was always the reason we fought and next to the the
switch board was the reign of Shweta and pratiksha ruthless girls always switched
off our fans when we needed them the most during winter !!

It was winter come to school in full sleeves shirts, sweaters scarf’s anything which
was labeled fashion for winter at the time could be seen roaming in our schools
corridor

We boys use to play hard during our sports period and will get rid off of our
sweaters and will still be sweating and the moment we enter the class we switch on
our boys side fans but mine was middle.. common ground!! so the moment I
switch on my fan girls will be chilling because of the cold and in resistance will
shut down the fan we are sweaty we will exclaim!! air and from their side they will
say go outside its pretty cold in itself we don’t need fan and the war begins fighting
I pushing my hand on the board while pratiksha and shweta trying to lift it but no
use I was more stronger but they were smarter soon this pratiksha girl found out
the main switch for our class electricity in corridor and before we enteerr class at
the verge of ending our spots period shr will switch off the main switch and for
days we thought our school is having power cut everyday as all the inoor switch
would be lifeless but few days later we saw students in oter class were enjoying the
air which we were deprived off. We ran to our classroom switching on all our fans
but no good then we ran to the main controls and switched it on the moment we
came to class boasting our deeds bringer of light ha ha..

Girls had taken control over the switch boad insie the class and they will not allow
us …

Next days we will always have this small fights shweta will protect inside boards
while pratiksha will run to save corridor one and I was always deployed to corridor
switch to tackle off every challenge threw at us by the girls..

Because of this fights we were getting closer like sharing notes asking for home
works and stuffs but the real one I wanted was still a distant dream if only she can
attend class regularly …

Second preboard was upon us this time I devoted extra efforts to maths I will not
leave my study table till I solved atleast 45 to 50 previous year questions everyday
my work paid off I topped with 93 marks out of 100 and the topper souvik sarkar
was at 92.5 only 0.5 marks lead but a win by a minisecond is still counted as a win
right I was happy and now more confident with all the subjects I had found a good
tutor which was the reason behind my sudden improvement with the subject..

Time flyed it was final board exam now everyone going to temples in the morning
with chandan on their forheads students will enter the classroom the boad centre
was our school itself so we were a little free less nervous because of the familiar
environment and known teachers. Exams started first was of social studies it was
good sitting right next to me in exam hall was pratiksha as she was a late
admission too so her roll number was just right after me we both helped each other
with small problems then it was maths exam it was set hard to challenge the
brightest but lucky me I had solved previous year questions a lot so I had the base
cleared.

I heard a voice in my back it was more of a whisper.

I asked wat happened turning a little towards her

Paper is tough she replied

Don’t worry I know the answers I said

But our sets are different she exclaimed!!

Its not a problems most of the questions are same only question number is
interchanged

Ok then wat to do she asked whispering

Lets arrange the questions first which are common in both of our paper ok then
will solve it

Ok she replied

We matched our questions and as thought many were identical even the values in it
I helped her with all the max marks carrying questions and in the end we were able
to submit the paper on a good note

Thankyou she said if it wasn’t for you I wouldn’t have done such good a paper said
pratiksha

Not a problem my pleasure I said with a smile on my face always happy to help.

That was the first time I felt something for her a feeling for seconds but yeah it did
felt something like we could be more than friends but I was fixed to get my dream
girl who because of exams was appearing regularly now .

Next exam I was ready in all aspects I offered my prayers my geometry was fully
ready I marched towards exam hall and came to a halt and stood their just like a
maique without a single emotion on my face it was my dream girl getting off of a
bike with a hunk who is definetly senior to us and handsomer than me !!

What just happened who is he ?? her bbrothe ?? or offriend !! let me tell you before
exam this kind of scenes do affect the outcome and in that particular science exam
I was having trouble calculating LCM. for a lens problem god how could I missed
it she was definetly bunking to roam around with her boyfriend or he his really her
brother and am just getting a little over poseesive what if he is her bf then what !! I
cant wait this exam to over I need to find out call upon my sources and check the
information they have been providing.

The longest exam ever as soon as it got over i ran to a classmate of mine. kriti
krinas best friend and she was just like her in every maner same level beayty and
attributes everything identical like sisters from diff mothers. So now u would be
wondering why I didn’t propose this kriti girl ?? well it because she already has a
boyfriend and how I know it ?? because in my first month itself I was cornered by
a guy in my corridor asking me to stay away from her who might have got my
intentions?? So as a new boy without home support I had to back down and pursue
my dream girl which now seem like a real real dream only !!

I asked kriti how was your exam

It was good hey tell me the answer you got for 22ND question she responded

It was 43m hey listen can I ask u something

Yeah sure what is it she asked

Who was the guy who krina came up with today morning.

Oh that’s rajesh krina’s…

My heartbeat rushigggggg

Boyfriend she said

And thud it felt like I just jumped of a 22 story building without a parachute in
hope to find a mattres below bit instead I found thorns spikes pebbles

What to do now!!

Why are you asking she enquired with raising her left eyebrow

Nothing just curiosity I replied a little shyingly

That day was the last exam of x standard and the last nail in the coffin in which
my hert was buried shouting why meee…
Days passed I am not that kind of guy who let go easy so ii had to try hard I knew I
can get her as nothing is impossible in my world specially for her I can die that
strong I wanted her it was new class a new year, a fresh start for the whole class,
me on the other hand same old mission to get my dream girl. In.. the pursuit …!

It was result time I scored 8.0 cgpa surely didn’t topped maths I did good but it
was science that caused me pain and dropped my avg percentage.

I increased my frequency of chit chat with her asking notes even though I knew
she will not have them as like all most of the beauty full girls she was mostly in
fashion not in studys. But soon it felt waste of time as her father got transfer and
now she has to move.. leave!! Me alone..

Her fathers transfer was scheduled in july but he was sending her in april first
month of studys only in order to avoid syllabus gap. It was a good decision on his
side but for me I just waisted a year and now she will go so far that I will not be
able to see her even yearly and scope of distance relationship is nill.it broke my
heart but still I wanted to get it out of me.. confess to her how I felt I waited for
the opportunity it was her last day in school a half day she will attend and leave

I showed the guts approached her and said I can drop you off if you want am also
leaving today for half day because of a false excuse

Sure ok she replied

I was so nervous I only had 40 minutes to plan my thoughts words everything how
am going to tell her that am been dreaming of her for a year now and I don’t want
her to go that how much I loved her and wanted to be with her .. longest 40
minutes I practiced and practiced the scenarios words every details

It was time now its luch we should go now she said

Hmm..Oh yeah ok lets go !! I said packing my bag

On the way to school gate walking beside her feeling powerful and hellish nervous
I started so last day haan…!

Yeah I will miss u guys ..! she replied with a sad voice.. it was hard for her too
We will miss u too.. I said looking at her deep brownish eyes which I admired so
much

And abhishek I know about you!

What ? what she know about me does she knows my plan my feelings what she
knows!!!

What u know?? I asked hiding my skirmish

I know you like me and am sorry!!.. I had a boyfriend before you arrived and if I
left him for good for you don’t you think someday I will find better than you and
will leave you too!!

What what are you saying you knew all this time ! my expression clueless shocked

How you know

well I can read your face when u used to come to me for notes even u had complete
notes with yourself only

So why didn’t u did something why didn’t you told me ??

Rajesh loves me too he is good too and I didn’t want to break his heart but I care
for you too

So what you are saying all this time I acted dumb and you intensionaly let me …
knowing how I felt and didn’t told me

Well in my defense I didn’t knew you loved me this much till I read your blog..

Blog!!

God it’s a private blog how you got access to it !

I used your phon ones I saw the link you were reading I find it good I sended it to
my phone and there I knew all about my whitish as wheat tone

I was drowned in my own shyness you… taking a gasp of air I asked

Ohh..okkk.. now you know how I feel now tell me what to do I cant live without
you
no u can.. don’t be filmy now ok

can we give it a shot I asked keeping my expectations high

actually we both know this will not work only if we had meet before! Even am
breaking up with rajesh too…

what that supposed to mean!! do I have finally a shot

no i don’t want anything to drag me in past and for you if the power allows we will
meet again…

and i promise will love you from the very first day even in next life u r mine… she
said looking deep ito my eyes as we were walking

my heart sank this is the girl I have been dreaming about for a year now n their she
is telling me she loved me too all I could have mustered the strength before to
come clean about us god I hate myself

show me your application it was gate keeper asking for the application signed by
principle for halfday leave

and as we clered school gate it was rajesh… in short.. an attractive lucky guy was
waiting for her on his CBZ bike…

I knew what that meant this is the moment end of time time we depart

She looked in my eyes holding my hands and said next time if you have feelings
don’t wait too long and you I am sure will get a far better girl than me..

Isn’t it the most common line said by girls when they are about to break your heart
eyond redemption

ok… what can I say I slightly stuttered as my heart was filling up catching my
throat making hard for words to come clear

I looked up in her eyes holded her from waist pulled her towards me brought her
lips a cm closer to me and whispered I LOVE YOU and kissed her softly on the
lips

My first kiss still sends chills down my spine.

No you will not !! she said and started walking toward rajesh whose face I will
never forget turned blue after seeing the moment his hert would have also been
devastated,.. doomed ..same pinch…

Its been six years now I had girlfriends but not like she was!! a small kiss bonded
us for enternity I am looking for her and my mission for dream girl continues…