Khloe Kardashian reveals therapist's 'nightmare' betrayal that made her never want to go back

Khloe Kardashian was sick of therapy but her sister Kim Kardashian insisted she go back.

The star, now 40, had suffered from a 'nightmare' experience when her shrink leaked her secrets to a tabloid eight years ago when she was divorcing Lamar Odom.

'I remember I was going to therapy and the next thing I knew, something private I told my therapist was on a tabloid,' shared the Good American designer with Bustle magazine.

'And I knew that my therapist disclosed this information to a tabloid because there's no way this could have gotten out there,' said the star who launched her new perfume XO Khloe last week. 

But then Kim pushed her to try it again. 

'I do go to therapy now. It's actually Kim's therapist. Kim was really adamant. I was like, "I'll do this for you." And the therapist was like, "I think you should come three days a week,"' she said. 

Khloe Kardashian was sick of therapy but her sister Kim Kardashian insisted she go back se told Bustle magazine

Khloe Kardashian was sick of therapy but her sister Kim Kardashian insisted she go back se told Bustle magazine

Kim pushed her to try it again. 'I do go to therapy now. It's actually Kim's therapist. Kim was really adamant. I was like, "I'll do this for you." And the therapist was like, "I think you should come three days a week,"' she said

Kim pushed her to try it again. 'I do go to therapy now. It's actually Kim's therapist. Kim was really adamant. I was like, "I'll do this for you." And the therapist was like, "I think you should come three days a week,"' she said

Turns out Kim has been a bright light for her. 

'I will say my sister Kim has really held my hand through so many dark phases for me,' said the daughter of Kris Jenner

'And my mom. But Kim has really been this crusader for me. I feel like she has always been holding that light at the end of the tunnel, drawing me closer to the light. I'm just really grateful for that relationship.'

She flashed the flesh in racy lingerie for a new eye-popping photo shoot by acclaimed fashion photographer Ellen Von Unwerth.

The dramatic photo layout saw the Keeping Up With The Kardashians veteran in bras, underwear and garter belts as she was pictured in an old Spanish house in Los Angeles. 

She also shared that she loves being in her 40s: 'Wait — I feel so good!' I am in the best shape of my life. I'm doing new career stuff. I've only been 40 for about six months, but it's the absolute best. You don't give a sh** about some of the stuff you once did.' 

And she is not dating after her split from basketball star Tristan Thompson with whom she has two kids.

'Dating has not been a focus for me, and I've been single for about three years and love it. I really, really do. But I'm not single and dating. I'm just single…Where do I go to date you? I'm not going to a restaurant where there's paparazzi. I'm not going to your home because what if you kill me? You're not coming to my home — I have kids!' she explained.

But with weight loss came more judgment. 'When I was bigger, I thought I was the hottest thing in the world. I had so much more confidence. And then when I lost weight, people were like, How dare you!' she divulged

But with weight loss came more judgment. 'When I was bigger, I thought I was the hottest thing in the world. I had so much more confidence. And then when I lost weight, people were like, How dare you!' she divulged

Khloe also talked about her new podcast: 'It's not going to be salacious. I am not going to be gossiping about other people. It's more the things that I'm into. 

'I love talking about religion or grief or the afterlife or healing and trauma, dating, relationships. It's all over the place.'

On her faith and why it comes up in the podcast: 'I took theology in school and love all types of religions. I'm Christian and I love my faith. 

'And I think whether you're spiritual or religious or if you think they're the same thing or different, whatever — I know how much it's gotten me through some of the toughest times in my life.'

She is still close to her younger brother Rob Kardashian, she shared.

'I love all my siblings, but I think with Rob, I identify with him so much. I feel so deeply what he feels — the struggles that he has, or just wanting to be out of the public eye, or just feeling like he doesn't fit in or is being judged about his appearance,' she said.

She posed in a sheer nude leotard when she launched her new solo perfume XO Khloe last week
A look at the pretty bottle

She posed in a sheer nude leotard when she launched her new solo perfume XO Khloe last week

On why she wanted True to have a sibling so badly: 'Not to be morbid, but when my dad passed away, my mom — regardless of how incredible and amazing she is — she couldn't understand the pain that we felt. And so for True, I was like, 'I need her to have someone.' It's just inevitable that both of her parents at some point will go. And I just need her to have that support system.'

Turns out she is into perfectionism and now her kids are too: 'Sometimes my kids will want to line their toys up a certain way, and then I feel bad because I'm like, "Oh gosh, they're mirroring what I'm doing."'

And she will stay with reality TV.

'I love doing the show for so many reasons. I love documenting memories. It's almost like I have really expensive home videos. Maybe the kids will take over.'